Rage!

Its there.
Present
Lives
Breathes
All the time
Its a part
Inside
Immovable

Its there.
To stay
Words, jacked, it raises, crunch, hands, emotions, it raises, all the time, its there.
Punch, hit, bang, blow, jump, shout, knock, smash, fight, fuck.


Its there.
To stay
People, behavior, dolts, context, words, actions, perception, conviction.
Different, aloof, melancholy, grief, stare, bored, idle, languish, sick, tired.

Its there.
To stay
Love, hate, questions, illusions, reality, sense, essence, nihilism, existentialism.
Smoke, burn, smoke, hallucinations, images, smoke, thoughts, pictures, colors, rides.

Its there.
To stay
Headache, tears, pain, faint, swoon, awake, scared, fear, anxiety, anxiety, anxiety.
Throw, revenge, annoyance, fury, chagrin, mindfucks, mental masturbation.

Its there.
All the time
Inside
To rise
To kill
To survive

ANGST!!

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A plead.
Give me a stage where this bull could rage!

Epoch!

There are times when I feel sucked down in an endless tunnel. Horrifying moments when I lack that iota of inspiration to believe in self. To bring one original thought in my head, one idea. I begin to hear voices when there's no one around.

Some words forgotten
Some moments passed

Somebody asked me today "Have you ever felt so lonely that it hurts?" I replied "Constantly!" Times when I might tell a person how much I love them, and yet feel deeply hollow inside at the same moment.

Some memories enriched
Some looks bewildered

And then there are times when days pass by smoking the charm of marijuana and floating to bliss! A place where nothing seems anything. Fly away to the center of eternity.

There's something in the air
There's something in my heart

I don't know to be sad or angry by the fact that everybody is the same or to be scared by realizing how ordinary I am. A face in the sea of faces around me!? A single life in the vast ocean of lives around me!? I guess, the hardest reality I'd ever face is to realize that its not just a 'phase'; its actually the way I am!

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I hope my dream is not a dream!