Bobby came out of camp alr! positively like from a cartoon book. for more info, ask candace or weechiew for photos.

1 wk to NS and it's positively boring. sense of helplessness and anxiety and what not. Life will nvr be the same again.

It's REALLY boring. like dead bored. someone give me something to do. (I'm pocrastinating my essays again. oh well.)

It's amos' birthday today! Happy birthday, fugly baby. It was quite enjoyable playing RISK in his mansion. The place is not small at all. And thanks everyone for eating the first try youtiao with fish paste. Except samuel yeo who still thinks that eating it will cause severe food poisoning and even death.

2 days to Christmas and 13 days to enlistment. it's like enlistment at the very end of Xmas. At that pt of time i will lose myself and dissolve into a recruit. "The nail that stands out will be hammered down.". There will be no me, I or you. There will only be us. It's encouraging group think. "Yes sir, no sir, i dunno sir!". Even so, Japan has thrived with such conformity has it not? It's all about conformity and adapting, isn't it? And there are so many horror stories about NS. hmm wad no thursday nights and SOC and BMT. hmm i really wonder. why do people's opinions vary so much. We are worried. like real worried. and there's even death in the Pasir Ris camps? Why do ppl persist in fatal training when we lose 50-odd years of life? Not one, not tue, but several each yr? How much is that worth? Im not going to survive NS, wad with monkey bars and wad not. Not to mention PT and erm vulgarities and er Tekong knows what.

Im sick and tired of all that university and scholarship shit. At the end of the day, it's a luxury. Some people cannot even afford an education and here i am looking at Overseas universities. Even the local Us. When someone else is trying desperately to survive on another land. All this nitty-gritty and competition is making me lose sight of what's really important. To be grateful for what i already have and not be spiteful of what i dont have. It's also very tiring to try and package and sell myself. To constantly project myself and lose myself along the way. I shall just be myself and see what they say. If they like it, good for me. If im rejected, then it's just not meant to be. Why get all tensed up over this? After all, it's best if im accepted for what i am, not what i am supposed to be, is it not?

Having swimming pools is a sin when there are places where water is sacred. But swimming pools are nice. Felt very clean after that.

"were you the one who left your wallet in the toilet?"
"ya."
"I found it. But i've turned it over to the lifeguard already."
"THank you very much!" (hands outstretched, big smile on face)
"but the money's all gone though. It's just left with the cards when i found it." (facial features droop, doing a 180 degress turn.)(he takes a few steps...)
"oh. but there's alot of money in there."
"oh... :S"

Some one lost all his money. and i picked up the empty wallet. what would i have done if i had chanced upon the wallet first?

Fried food always smells nice. But when I take the first bite, it's all so disappointing. Is that why idealism brings about disillusionment and realism brings about pragmatism? (cant remember where this qn came frm).

Im lazy. like real lazy. so this is a short post. even after 1 mth. yes.

A levels ended officially on 25 November 2005. From that day onwards, i cease to be a student. No more syllabus that i dont want to study. no more phys S and chem S. no more SPA to contend with. Everything in 12 years for that 3 wks. And soon, i will not be eligible for any form of student promotions. not be travelling at a concessionary rate, not be deemed as a minor (well, not since i turned 18 anyway). No uniforms to wear (easy-to-put-on ones that is). No long assemblies to attend and no sch song and national anthem every morning. No need to abide by school rules and try means and ways to get around them. No need to freeze in the library and photocopy notes that i eventually dun read. no more canteen selling food at a highly subsidised rate. No more sitting thru blocks and blocks of lectures on end, copying notes feverishly. No more "just an innocent student". No longer "the leaders of tomorrow" but shoved into the future.
I hate this, this sucks. and who said retail therapy works anyway? those ppl mus have warped minds. unless of course it's not their own money. bleah

Everything went blank after A levels. no happiness no sadness. jus serenity overwhelming. like suddenly there's nothing more to care abt, save for certain disgusting procedures.

i studied for so long and im still not done with bio core. bio sucks. SO much to study. i think with all that time i could have finished everything else combined, options included. bio. y?

i dunno what i did to my blog. i changed some settings in chinese and a whole load of html came up. oops hope nothing happens to it. why is the user interface in traditional chinese?!?! this is discrimination against chinese-illiterates....

- A person who exercises appears to be physiologically younger than others because of relativistic effects. even though such effects are appreciable only when u have a very high speed, near the speed of light, they exist at all speeds. :D

- Greenhouse effect and ozone depletion causes gases to tend to ideality due to an increase in temperature and decrease in pressure as there are no more ozone molecules left.

- A population of men only and a population of women only cannot be considered to be of the same species as defined by Ernst Mayr because they lack the potential or ability to interbreed with each other in nature to produce viable, fertile offspring. SO, should we treat members of the same sex as members of other species, like dogs and cats? hmm....猪朋狗友. i told u im miseducated. :D

It was NJ open day today. I think the 38th did quite a good job. It's a pity that the turnout was so low...i think it's less than the 2000 packets of drinks sponsored. oh well, heard from wan hua that this year ppl jus dont wanna turn up. weird people. maebe they have seen it all. wellz. general mood of sian-ness. i think it has to do with the crowd. brrrrr. anyways, well done 38th.

BBQ at victor's(er not where he really lives but it's under his parents' name i guess i dunno) was quite interesting. beehoon that became rice cake and alot of leftover food ha. goodness knows wad kahyen and diana did to the beehoon. i think the guys can cook better than the girls haha. oops. and i should challenge them to bishibashi again. it's so farnie to see silin figuring out wad is going on. and it's supposed to be a stupid game. mwahahah. this is probably the last time i'd be seeing them before As. turnout wasnt big, but i suppose it's bigger than expected. oh wells. suddenly the reality of end of school, A levels and NS start to sink in. quite depressing. i'd rather spend 2 yrs compulsory service studying again. bleah. i think JC work in 4 years would be so much easier to handle. i'll miss NJ. wad's wrong with coming in with 6 pts. quite shocked to hear that from some of us but i guess they are entitled to their opinions. hmm..

suddenly i need to do a CV for internship interview. the stuff to do never ceases to amaze me.....i mean overwhelm me. haiz. wad life? it's all reduced to words and numbers.

Feeling great inertia nowadays. Dont want to start anything, even though As are near and my essay for mr sim is due soon. so much to do but i just wont do it. what's gotten into me? im finished.... maebe i should jus go shatec and do all the hospitality stuff. quite interesting, i think.

THUMP, all the wind gets knocked out of me. reality got to me. enlistment notice - 5 jan, 1245h, BMT training school 2. darn! cant even go for orientation. why cant they take me in like 20 jan!? urgh! welcome to the place where ur brains get rusty. grey and white matter become brown. and they happily assume everyone's going to be a doctor. bleah...mindless ranting. too late at night i think. oh well goodbye!

haaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. been so long since i blogged. wanted to blog a while ago but i think my system went bonkers and refused to acknowledge my modem as a legitimate ADSL modem. :S

GP sak Ms V rox. Applications and SATs sak. so much to do so little time. I dont feel like doing anything anymore. Have to trouble so many people jus to apply to somewhere outside Singapore? Spare me! Shall not say too much here. who knows who's reading. May get charged in a-room-that-was-once-messy-but-now-neater. :p It's so disturbing to know that you can be prosecuted for something private. It's as if somebody chanced upon your diary and comes across incriminating evidence of the malicious that we have done....not that there are many here anyway. 人蜚圣贤, 孰能无过. all sorts of rubbish. yesyes we all know that it's important to... better not. too sensitive.

A levels in less than a months time. But all i can think of now is essays and SATs and apps. someone save me!

NDC @yishun was erm, quite interesting. Must really commend the comperes who tried really hard to rouse the crowd, only to lose it to some really disgusting mobile column. Guess stoning's not NJ's problem, it's a NATIONAL issue. :P SHould have gone to city hall to look at the fireworks display; the ones yesterday were kinda small...but i cant expect too much-they are EXpensive o_0 So much litter left behind on the field yesterday. i wonder what today's headlines would read....but wad's new anyway. happened once, can happen again. and it's most heartening to know that artistes get louder cheers than the nation. :D how many more years to our next 40th anniversary?

Today has been a bad day. went back home, left my file and some papers with my phone as a paper on the ledge...and off they slipped into the garter filled with smelly water. There went all my notes and my phone or rather, my mum's phone went with it. Now i cant even turn on the thing to get my contacts....AGAIN. nvm the notes, they can be press dried, i thought. Then i went to make noodles for lunch. Leaving the pot to boil, i went back to my phone to fiddle with my phone and fell asleep. Who ever said to not leave your boiling pots unattended? I was rudely awakened by my brother who shouted, "oei, your mee burnt already!". I jumped out of bed and rushed to the kitchen only to see the dried up mess in the pot and the noxious fumes of burnt food. BLEAH!. and i had to throw everything away cos it was jus too unpalatable :( and the pot had so much carbon stuck to it that the sink turned into a pool of herbal jelly when i poured away the waste water...tch. as if being told that having no SAT scores was not bad enough, i had to have such misfortune. blah! now where am i going to get a new phone?!?!? T_T

Contrary to my PW findings, it's getting increasingly harder to get Singaporeans involved in the arts...i think wadever glimmer of hope that the arts had existed has been distilled somewhere. First it's the discrimination against arts students. jus becos "the arts has not been a pressing issue during the evolutionary history of Singapore", and that it is not considered a pillar of our economy? Then, look at the number of people that u can actually get to go for a performance...first NJ drama night. It was jus depressing looking at the sales performance of ONE night. absolutely abysmal. Wadever happened to support for the other CCAs and your own school? Is it jus NJ?.... Even when u ask the alumni members to go for a drama performances issues as trivial as price get brought up. Perhaps being part of the dependent population we do have financial limitations imposed on us but what is a few meals compared 4 years of education provided by the school, if not the efforts that the teachers have put in for the graduating year?? And wad nonsense is there that "I cant understand nothing." There's nothing to understand. There can be many many intepretations to a subject. There's really no need to tink hard and deep to achieve a sublime understanding of what is going on on stage. Jus go and and enjoy the sensual stimulus and not resist that multitude of emotions that overwhelm you. Art is not only for socialites and so-called classy people, is it? At the very least there's the effort put in by every member of the production to make the show possible to go on. The teamwork and immense effort is unimaginable. It's jus as though as training for any sport and competing in it. IF people can appreciate football, why is it so hard to accept orchestras and theatre?


TT Durai's scandal and GP. wad's new nowadays? Nothing really surprises me anymore. UKapps are closing soon. All those interested in UK Universities please do see ot the procedures for applications. Why is everything going at a breakneck speed? The world is making it SO tough to have an education. Even though there are not enough resources, i dont think that there's enough information for the school population . perhaps it's jus the release of information. I dont know but i do know that there are many people interested in overseas educations but are not doing anything about it jus becos they dont know where to start. Jus like me. boo hoo.

It's been 4 days back in school. Kinda boring now. getting a bit monotonous. Maths sucked. Getting a low B puts u at the bottom 50 percent of class. maebe 40+ percent haha. Beat that. lemme change class!

Feeling sick today. bleah i think not sleeping with the blanket over me caused this. bleah. sucks to feel sick. nasal congestion and sneezing fits. Week's ending. vrey soon we'll be well into mock exams and then prelims. Cant help but think that only last yr i went to usher for Etude XXIX and the event occurred again yesterday. Time flies. soon we'll be well into and over A levels and into NS. too fast!

Dear blog,

It has been another fine day. Up till now that is. My dear brother went on to reformat the computer without checking with me if i have backed-up my files. So here i am, confiding in you that i only have 16-colour screen without any sound and without all my important documents, contacts(since secondary school) and photos. I can try and recover the first 2 items but wad about the photos? I may never get to see them again!

I suppose it's time i take my brother in hand. Shall start with taking away the 2 WC3 CDs before he starts installing them and the internet password as well. I wont bother to save the password whenever i log on to confide in you. He should use this time to really study for his prelims and O levels, instead of indulging in online gaming since the moment he returns home from school. It's for his own good, you know. Love hurts.

No sch on fri and mon. It's the short break after CTs. Feeling so drained now...bleah. haven been online much. doesnt seem like there's much to do online nowadays. not that there's much to do in 3-D space anyway. ha. BORING!

Mugging sucks. There are so many other things that i wanna do, some of which mugging is a prerequisite. the irony of it. someone invent time pls!!!!

Back from Lumut 2 days already. wasnt as bad as i expected; no 10 day camp in the wilderness. and there's bits and pieces of cilivisation here and there. Everything was fine, really, save for the leeches on gunung bubu. bleah hate them. Some things i never knew i could do, like kayaking for the whole day, 3 days on end on the open sea. All you could see was water and pieces of rock that never seemed to move. Bubu was slightly easier but i didnt like it more cos of the stupid leeches! oh well. at least base camp at OBM Lumut was pleasant. Neat rooms with showering facilities. and a dining hall to boot. No one to yell at you, jus you and the other 19 and lots of personal time. Wouldnt mind staying for a few more days. Abruptly thrown back into reality.

CIA JTS yesterday was not bad at all, jus that we couldnt stay longer and interact more with the juniors. They were quite nice to bbq everything for us and do all the work. haha. and very nice photoframes too. thx 38th CIA!

Im reaching that pt in life where once again i cant decide where to go. There are just too many factors to consider: course of study, place of study, financial support, professions, NS, scholarships?, LIFE!. what a chore. i wish i could be past all this and the agony of decision-making not bother me anymore. get on with life-for now, that is to mug(that's life?)!

Grp 8 STJ at michelle's house. They actually planned a surprise for me im so touched.ooooo. lionel(hey man), michelle, su, candace, soonkit. Group 8 seniors rock. They bluffed me la. almost bought 5 packs of spaghetti. luckily i didnt. But it was my first time purchasing alcohol. yay. haha. Unfortunately only 3 juniors came; so wasted. Couldnt finish the fruits and fondue(so we could have the fruits for breakfast), and the cake was so nice and "jelared". haha. and unfortunately only soonkit and i stayed over. bitched until 0530(it's not YOUR prerogative), lousy soonkit knocked out earlier than michelle and i. haha i think mrs yeoh got a shock of her life when there's only 2 guys staying over. mich's dad took us to serangoon to have porridge at 2 am. haha kiam chye! my favourite porridge dish. very fun la. hw many times can u actually stay up whole night and bitch abt everything under the sun? not enough ppl though. and it's nearing As. wont have such chances anytime soon. im rather glad for elects' camp to know more ppl better, esp seniors. Gp 8 wil have your turn, jus wait. seems like it's more of a senior's thing than elects' camp hehe.

37th.

Dramafest is over. Quality of the plays aside, i think everything went on quite smoothly. Should have been there to compare the mood before and after the show. haha. Usual rush and people screaming and stuff like that. everything works out fine in the end. For those who came, thanks for coming. For those who are trying to compare with VJ's dun even try. It's really not bad considering the amount of time and rehearsals possible. And did i say mel's house was v big? that's an understatement. Sometimes, it's amazing to know how rich people can get. haha. Standard normal distributions.

End of term 2 alr. feel as if i havent really done much this year. A levels are 2 terms away. hoho. nvm that. Lumut's jus 4 days away. Hello leeches, goodbye civilisation. Oh and the stupid malaria pills are causing stomachaches here and there. brrr.

Ignis outing now. before that, i should get my specs fixed.

My phone finally broke down after 4 years..haiz i will miss you. the contacts inside it toooo...kinda got attached to it. jus like other things i use...

Dramafest coming soon havent checked out ticket sales yet. Doesnt seem to be very gd though Mel didnt say anything abt it. Thx cam for coming. 4 somemore. only know of 1 ip girl buying 10. i hope more ppl buy soon. cant possibly perform to a half-full house now, can we?

Soccer won RJ today, 3-2. It felt as if RJ had no interest in playing at all. The kinda palpable disdain for 3rd-4th placing, like it's beneath them. Oh well, jus as well NJ soccer got 3rd and they really worked hard for it kudos to them.

Investiture tml. Final day as a student councillor. after that i would be free from all the hassle of paperwork. gd luck to kelvin and sok. haha i wish u have an easier time. last time we come together as a council so say goodbye, oh dont we cry....
look forward to the party at diana's but there's drama and dav's going for drama. at 6!! hopefully one of the teachers fix the air con for fri nite or we're screwed. yup that's basically it. no matter how good the plays are, air conditioning is paramount. haha oops, supposed to talk abt invest. oh well, been an enriching 1.5 yrs and this is really the end. No more SM, Ignis, CIA. Jus us and our memories. haha i'll have to see what i can do with that. no more council rm no more standing at the podium. a lot of no mores but no longer have to be 100% vigilant all the time. haha beat that.

i wonder why the interface for blogger is turning all chinese....

Went to watch Mother Courage and Her Children by stAJeworks at the Arts House on Fri night. Nice place but Bachtian's not exactly my type of theatre. So much for alienation effects and deviating for realism. :) Not to say that the play was bad, save for the way some characters spoke -it was really not bad at all. $20 was still worth it. yupz. Couldnt help but not feel anything for any of the characters at the end of the play though.

Had my first BLS attachment yesterday at HQ. i think i only passed one person. no wonder mr adam didnt come back to me after a few tries. Hope i didnt teach the wrong life-support skills. Very exciting la but setting up and clearing up werent exactly the bests parts of the course ;P

Gp8 JTS today. went to NYDC. haha kinda fleeced abt $20 from all the juniors who went. Thx for lunch; we'll have something another day, rite seniors? oh and the cake was very nice. something chocolatey from sweet secrets.mmmmm. The S&M one didnt take place cos dot was sick....bummer! oh well get well soon then we can go together.

have to do the stupid chem s research now..bleah

I wish my brother fails his O levels and wastes his life away playing games. everytime i need to use the comp, he has to be playing stupid (this is an understatement) WarCraft 3. even at such unearthly hours. since the moment he comes bacck from sch, be it 2 or 6. made me wait for sooooo long before i can even do anything on the comp. someday i believe i will rudely throw him from the comp and break his WC3 CD...im waiting... I CANT STAND HIM ANYMORE. i think he's addicted...but i cant care less, not till im irritated with him hogging the comp. call me insensitive. wadever. such a twit! play eat sleep. maebe he'll get a heart attack one day. HA! or he'll waste his life playing computer games like the trend in japan now.

Elects' camp is over. dun really noe wad to say abt the elects (goodness knows who is reading this blog) but i enjoyed the company of the seniors, aka my fellow 37th SClors. i think im feeling more relived than anything else. couldnt catch up with sch since 1 wk before elects' camp. i need the one week break now! cant term be shorter? i dont know wad to say. term is drawing to an end. has been full of bittersweet memories, jus the way i like chocolates. so much angst turned into resignation and of course the joyful moments. at least i can say that i have no regrets. perhaps im jus refusing to see certain things but i am feeling ok with everything. ha. more like as long as i dun betray my beliefs, anything goes.

EXCO elections are over. have alot to say abt the outcome but here's not really the place. haha. how irritating to have a public blog. but it's not really important anyway. jus some rants and stuff liddat. as long as they work well, i have nothing to say. that's wad really matters anyway. even though...oh well.

julito's bdae today. haha quite interesting. not many times have i been involved in surprises. wonder how he felt when he saw the phone. didnt get to see his rxn cos i left b4 he got the present. hehe sorry. wish u had a happy birthday. 19 yrs alr so OLD! haha

Been so long since ive been online. feel kinda estranged from cyberspace. i always feel as if im doing this blog an injustice by not coming online but i cant help it. like things are spiralling out of controooooolllllllll. jus like all the tutorials and stuff liddat. maebe it's jus elections and elects' camp. haha. was jus thinking of how elections are all so superficial and stuff liddat. cant help but think that a year ago i was part of the cogs in the whole mechanism of elections..shudder.

shldnt say too much abt the candidates here haha god knows who reads this.

Met up with wendy and some of the EL guys on monday. went to pasta mania (Fish&Co. originally but oh well.) and literally pigged it out haha. Wendy was so dramatic and inspiring, as usual. Shaved her head bald and apparently it was quite an experience for her la, cos of nosey fishmongers. Cant imagine any of the girls in college doing that haha. i dare them. And her husband cried when he first saw it. OMG! haha i was so touched. i think wendy's being very effusive and jus expresses what she feels. perhaps that's why everyone likes her. haha.

PE yesterday was HORRID! not cos of the activities but cos of the theft that occurred while we were abusing our bodies. 3 phones and some cash! was so shocked la. could be anyone but haiz. luckily i was the least hit by the thief. nobody wanted a Ericsson T100 that's abt to break down i guess.

Today was really a series of unfortunate events. left my house at 0620h but only reached sch at 0735h. Missed the first 852, overshot 1 stop at adam rd and missed the bus outside bukit timah NPC. in the end took the 852 that came later. should have jus waited for the 852 frm home. was so empty somemore. haiz....

haven done HW for a week now. need to start doing. taz

Was quite peeved today when my queue was cut. and it's by my friends somemore. sooooo disappointed. it's like besmirching all things nice and positive i had abt them. suddenly became very inconsiderate very jerk-like. brr. now u noe why my face was black the later part of the day. i guess it doesnt pay to expect so much from others. they'll jus end up disappointing u one day or another. it's like that with family too. nothing hurts me more than disappointment...

went suntec today to see yifang compete in singing competition for The sound of music. a pity her gp didnt win. they were good ok. and the winner for Capt. von trapp and maria - fixed i tell u! another reason y the arts hasnt flourished in Singapore. haiz maebe im jus biased but i dont really think they were deserving. oh well...

Another round of council interviews tml. will be shot since no. of applicants is very low for round 2. saw the briefing for successful interviewees. seems too informal alr. hope the candidates take it seriously. i think if the briefing is serious yet the slides are informal, they'd get a mixed signal and not very effective if we want them to be serious. sure, there should be fun and joy and learning but that should be left to the individual and their mentors to decide. our side should be more sombre i think. well, jus a thought. in case they make a mockery out of us. perhaps such ambivalence doesnt work for me.

CT results coming bad. everyone knows that it's bad, let's not dwell too much into that.

Mr. Koh asked us into a meeting to discuss about the importance of the SC. wad is it really? havent given it much thought really. How about wad to change? wad defines NJ and whether it's worth to change stuff that define us / hold dear to? everyone who runs for council say that they wanna change something but wad exactly? There are after all many consequences of change.

Had some stupid security talk yesterday. ok better stop it before i get jailed for slander, but still, as usual, cant see the pt abt the answers to the qns. some are jus avoiding the qn, others as misty as pea soup. bleah, wad's new? had to endure for 1.5 h odd. and we were generally much better behaved than one of those talks last year. mus be nit-picking when u bitched at us yar?

SJAB Zone meeting today till 2245. haiz sooooo long but strangely, not feeling sleepy or anything. maebe sleep will catch up with me tml. Steven sir said that we should inspire and motivate our members. like make them confident. i totally agree but it's just that if they dont want to motivate themselves, there's really nothing much i can say. still he was very helpful and inspiring. cant really let maris and haising win all the time. no pt in that and the zone's standards would always remain stagnant.

Sapphires programme coming to an end. mrs tan nagged and nagged and nagged for so long. now mus go for make up interview and ms chen's supposed to interview us. goodness gracious me. and we are supposed to know what exactly we want in life and yada yada yada. havent thought abt it yet. how am i supposed to when there's jus so much to do, all the way since sec sch? and there are soo many programmes lined up that i dun even noe wad's happening when and whether it would clash with anything. Welcome to JC life.

OMG it's been almost a month since i blogged, thx to maldives and then the stupid IE dying on me. mus be my stupid brother who always plays online games and attracted hordes of virus, adware, spyware and the like. brrr. nvr got a chance to blog before leaving for the maldives cos we thought there would be time at the airport. blah wadever. at least my IE's working now and spyware and adware sux.

Maldives was a once-in-a-lifetime experience. On Kudafari, Noonu Atoll, 186 km north of Male, Maldivian capital, I spent 10 (ok, 9) days with 34 other people without internet or mobile phones and only the sun sand breeze and sea! yay!! haha. Life was very simple. Sleep, wake up, eat, work, play. No need to think of time, cos traversing cross the island took only 5-10 at most. No need to think of wad to eat cos u jus ate wad the villagers prepared for you. no need to think of wad to do cos there was always work to be done. It's jus a simple life and the people are nice and the place is beautiful. and the 9-10 days let us got to know each other better cos there was only us to distract ourselves and no major disruptive influences of modern technologies. Even disruption in power and water supply could be overcome with listerine. and there was lotsa fun to boot: night-fishing where i didnt catch any, visit to tsunami devastated islands, visit to uninhabited island and bbqed fish and of course late-night bitching/gossiping in the room or on the net-seats under the coconut trees. oh ya and island exploring and radio channels when moving sand and all the AJC and ACJC activity. haha too bad if u dun understand, cos who knows who's reading this. all the irritating First Aid nonsense and the comcomm guys and log comm and food com ppl. then the IP kids haha sorry. and the villagers. argh. cant stand it anymore. oh ya and the school was so simple and so small. Ppl in NJ, dun ever complain again. actually Aj also and all other schools in singapore. their sch, up to grade 10 (equivalent O levels) is not even the size of 1 football field. Then there were always the friendly neighbourhood stalls of Kuredhi's, Sahtha, Naadu and Moonima's!! and literally kicking up a storm(sand) when the whole herd of us walk through the streets, waking the dead of the island in the process haha. dont regret going, who cares abt common tests? there's always CT 2 but no Kudafari part II.

Kudafari,
in the deep sea,
this is where,
i wanna be.
Kevin sim,
my best companion,
with my backpack my buddies and me e e :)


PS: anyways for the CTs, we(ok at least S6 students) have survived 3 SPAs, 4 A-levels subjects and 1-2 AO-level subjects in the short span of 3 days. Kudos to all of us. left a bit more on mon. all the way.

ms. V was talking abt branding and corporatisation of education in class on fri, jus before A levels results were released. something abt how a teacher's worth is not in how he teaches but rather in the contribution to the committees that he's involved in. This makes me think of wad LHB is doing to cat high and how the college now wants to manufacture products that are marketable. i certainly dont fancy seeing myself as a product. it's an insult to education. The MOE booth at career fair today also reeked of the branding that ms V spoke of. maebe im biased against them alr. who noes. btw, the career fair wasnt THAT informative.

and i dun agree with wx. so wad if u have to fight for everything? that doesnt mean that u are wretched. and u'd value it more only if it's hard-earned wad. who in the world gets everything they want with the wave of a hand or by demanding for it? it's a life well-lived if u have fought for stuff, stand by ur beliefs. That's jus wad i think :S

Leaving for maldives in 4 days' time. haven started any revision for CTs. kinda screwed but really cant force myself to start. then still got so many council meetings. want to kill arh? things nvr keep coming in. when can they stop? i feel like ponning school this week jus to study, but i cant bear to do it. isnt it ironic to skip lessons jus so i can study? haha.

Think that my blogging's getting more irregular. 1.5 weeks more to CTs and i haven really done anything constructive. stress arh. my dad was telling me abt university choices and all that and how he cannot afford to send me overseas to study...haiz so many things to think abt. shall see what the sea and sun in maldives tell me. talk abt divinity.

Today's O levels results day. cat high supposedly did quite well. 10.1 or is it 10.5? haha we didnt even come close lah haha. but it's good, at least they improved and there was one with 10 A1s. Kudos to him. Perhaps this jus shows that 2003 isnt that good compared to 2004 after all haha. What a slap in the face. who cares, at least we improved. hopefully this can stay. We got the ends but do they really care about the means? Nowadays i can recognise cat high ppl from afar, esp the PB and SC ones. The tie's not very impressive but ewww. bleah haha is that the kind of image they are aiming for? thank god im out.

Still, there are ppl who didnt do that well. some cant return to the JCs of their choice. feel kinda sad, like last yr when we knew that ppl were going to leave for supposedly better places or couldnt return. PW results during A level release haha dunno wad to sae. PW...yuckS! after dun get A1 haha i cant imagine the expressions on their faces....haiz.

so many weeks in school and there's really nothing to blog abt. i guess im getting complacent with routine. School only seems particularly bad on tues, 10 hrs on end. bleah. sale of election forms are so good that i shudder at the thought of the duration of the interviews. and this is only the first period of SC application...i wonder if this year's mechanism would make it any better?

AJ funfair was ermmm quite contained. saw many AJ ppl ard but v little ppl from elsewhere. perhaps all went for SA one. Shldnt be on the same day la. bad timing. Decided to give SA a miss since it was SO out of the way. and i missed council dinner. cos i had to come home to mug for CTs. They are like only 2 weeks away for me, 3 weeks for other excos and 4 weeks for the rest. JC2 is SOOOOOoooo fast.

Leaving for maldives in 2 weeks' time. havent really prepared anything but being in mindless logistics, i jus have to ensure all our stuff reach there safe and sound. that equates to manual labour but at least it'll take your mind of other things. Heard a lot of sad things from mr sim during our first briefing, like how the islanders would pay thru their noses so that we can have like bread and eggs daily while they themselves rarely get to eat such stuff. and how last yr's gp would bathe till the islanders would have to ration drinking water. it's kind of appalling and sad to hear all this. like it affirmed my decision to go to the maldives. jus hope i dun like give up cos it's too hard or something. wad a shaaaame.

You know, sometimes, it's always good to go out with the EL ppl. You can say what you really want and others won't judge you. You can speak at the top of your voice and dramatise your lives for others to see and the rest wont really care. It's fun to be uninhibited again. Who cares abt the public's opinion of another stranger on the streets? Not like in school when you KNOW that you are being watched. Sometimes, i jus couldnt care less. haha. oops not supposed to but yada yada yada. Sometimes, i just want be my obnoxious self, so let me be! haha. BLEAH!

"Shall we dance" is a nice show. Maebe it's the choreography but maebe it's the little bits of life that's embedded in the plot here and there. Wonder y ppl say that it's a flop show leh? haha.

New Year's over, school was ok and 4 more weeks to common tests. Dont think i got the time to study with the Maldives trip coming and all. blah. shall jus do my best. At least bio got no DNA and stuff liddat. haha

Bleah..a week at schoool. cant help it really but school's slowly taking its toll on me, especially when everyday u go home to more chem and math. pls la give us a break (hope u are reading this), arent we going just a tad too fast? not enough time to consolidate wad we learnt. And i guess i got pretty startled at being arrowed for OB Sabah and OCIP to Maldives. Wont die from going so guess i'll be visiting these 2 places by prelims 2005. About 40 weeks to A levels, i can start feeling the stress already, especially when i know that there's so much that i promised myself i would do but havent done. Need to get more focussed, like real focussed. Talk abt sharp GP essays. Apparently long sentences are a problem. Too much clutter they say haha and GP assignments that have caught up with technology and are no longer ink-and-pulp bound. Students beware: blogspots turned homework!!

Another thing abt school is that students are dying to be right. they jus cant be heard at all. Makes me feel stupid to even try anything farnie. Prim-and-proper's the word. Everyone wants to be good and successful and what not la but arent those like arbitrary? really cannot say how much i HATE the (pardon the cliches) pindrop silence everytime the teacher asks a question. Cant say that im not guilty of such a crime but still, it's jus social conditioning to be on the right side of the line. WHen will things get interesting?!?

I realised that you dont really get a chance to go out in College. Everyone's jus too busy (CCA and wadever else is on other people's agenda). But it's not like the school's cutting us a break. What happened to our fri CNY holidays? all the tutors are like, "See you next friday." Who wants to be in school on a pleasant friday morning!?

Went back for SJAB today. The usual stuff la haha but still, cant wait for the current committee to step down then can start afresh. Heck the FA comp, since the teams got some Pierce person to train the. The actual competition shall speak for itself. hmmph. Saw camillus when i was about to leave, haha. Found out alot abt him and the cat high ppl at VJ and how there was a pestilence at J8, with a certain premier JC (pJC) in the bishan area. How sad lah, most of the fun CH peepz went over to the premier JC (pJC) in the east area. but nvm, we shall make do with what we have, as always. haha am i too easily contented? Maebe it's jus the "no-right-to-impose-will-upon-one-another" thing, haha. Chatted till abt 2340h. dunno what we talked abt though, although part of it was spent on zhi yong's upcoming elections in VJ. haha elections was so long ago and it was probably the more fun days of SC life. haiz..time passes quickly. less than 52 weeks to NS, 40 weeks to the big "A"s, 15 weeks to the handover and less than 1 week to do all the HW. siannnz. i need that sushi at sakae soon....:D

"It is foolish if you work for a company which pays you peanuts and you'll have no future and you be wiser to work for a company which pays you better - you'll have a better future."

Heard these words on the bus today. I think i have already stereotyped people who say these things. I turned around just before i got off the bus and that man turned out to look almost like how i thought he would - hedonistic metrosexual. Like some busy city man who couldnt care less about other things. haha perhaps that's a bit harsh, but it's just an impression. Not saying that he IS such a person but...it's just the gloomy picture of money-driven city life, painted by a somewhat extreme person.

Dont know what to think of school nowadays. Supposed to have short days but all end up with make -up lessons due to the loss of fridays for god-knows what. Even long weekends become like 2hr breaks at most. hmph. Still got all that stuff. "someday i'll fly away, leave all this to yesterday." i wish i could.

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School's been really monotonous. sometimes i feel as if im playing a video over and over again. Nothingm uch to loof forward to, especially when u know that all the short days have become thsoe dreaded 5-oclock days just because we miss all the friday lessons. and S paper's not any better. think i got brain paralysis after attempting the chem S qns.

What's the real purpose of getting a scholarship? to get subsidised study? to have an overseas education?...i think i really dont know what i am working towards, which kinda explains for a bit of things, especially life after A levels (ok NS). but still, being in J2 now, i should really consider wad i want to do rite?

"Are you interested in the police force?"
"err..."

Not exactly someone who is very decisive or far-sighted. So wad's the scholarship about? is it some kind of means to pursue your dreams? maebe that's why ppl can end up breaking the bonds cos they jus dont like the terms and conditions attached but at that time, they really needed the cash? so why should they deserve the award than others and what's the real worth of a scholarship, money aside? i really dont know. are we supposed to find a bond that's not exactly distasteful? but wad if we dont like to be restrained? does that mean that a scholarship's out of the question or i look for one without a bond. even so, what should i do after that? cant possibly remain a student forever. perhaps i should jus wait for a higher being to bring me to my destiny or maebe i should jus do what my mom says, "be doctor, next time can give me free treatment." oh bother..

First week of real sch. Slowly easing into the school mood. i guess the short days really help. But there's alot to do. All subjects have tutorials that need to be completed this weekend and so much catching up to do. and Stupid PE was so tough haha i fell sick after the session on thurs. forget it, im jus weak. bleah. school jus seems so much easier to get by nowadays though. dont have that very stressed up mood yet. i guess the assessment period's not here yet so everybody's not so stressed up and it's only 1 wk after O1. and guess wad? i failed my physics test haha. wad a joke. i really need more work bleah.

Haven got the souvenirs for our OG yet, since the supposedly scouting session ended up as a bitching session at suki sushi pigging out. haha. about the commonwealth "bodybuilder" that praseetha hit on during orientation and how he manhandled an IP girl of comparably diminutive proportions. Hengqing and i have decided to do it one day before the release of the O levels results. Kinda mark a period of their first 3 mths in JC since we are so late after O1 anyway. i suppose it'd be a more appropriate time then. i think i need to re-prioritise everything. have kinda been neglecting sjab since i was sick yest and couldnt got for CCA fair and zone meeting. and i think academically im really suffering. bleah. where'd i get that kind of discipline to get it all done? haha beats me.

bleah it's a sunday and it's the end of orientation. kinda glad that all that is over. like some nightmare. ok maebe not all of it. bahh still got so much HW to do and the worst part is not doing it. it's not knowing how to do it. tch. so irritated. it's like my sch blues are 1 wk late and everyone else is like settled or something. but then there's the year 1s to look forward to haha. who noes wad weird stuff they would be doing in school. and can check on my OG. it feels as if they dun want anything more to do with us after orientation. oh well, i cant say that i've been really fantastic as well. like i told bea, we are flop OGLs haha.

Wanted to msg poh shin today but dunno why the no. saved under his name belonged to someone called andy yoong, from rustic nirvana. sounds kinky. apparently it's a spa according to IE and it caters to women who have jus given birth to "regain their original selves". haha kind of weird. like the no. belongs to some spa person. oops. maebe poh shin cheated me.

"Do not be afraid, that is not a real gun. This year's theme came about because of a War Game that will incorporate the use of water guns and perhaps even supersoakers!" Someone distorted richard's theme for orientation. according to him, it's supposed to be the idea of family, sophistication and mystery. how come reduced to such a corny thing abt war games? aiyo mr yeo really did injustice to the theme...

Yesterday was pig-out day. supposed to have clean up in school but in the end was only a short session of clean up and a really long session of eating. ate nasi lemak at adam's road with deStefano then went on to eat and eat all the way from Anchorpoint(tiramisu and choc-banana at secret recipe) to Golden Mile food centre9claypot chicken rice, oyster omelette and tang yuan). but only left vince and brenda by the time we reached GM. pigs arh! and we had to dare to eat the really stale oyster. brenda lost the "cai quan" but alas she couldnt complete the dare. booo. talk abt extreme gourmet. and yuxin, the "tang yuan jiemei" pang sehed us leh. according to vince mus have gone out to part tor haha we all noe who alr, rite? haha

haiz sch starts full swing tml. i hope my timetable's permanent. ending at 2 4/5 days sounds gd to me. i mean ending at 5 3/5 days last yr doesnt really sound v appealing...haven done alot of HW also haha see how la.