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*ahaha* yes..finally made it..
juz in tym 2 update my blogger..
left a few mor emins..
so gonna make it short and sweet..lol..

my day was ok 2day..
veri exciting..
went out wif Shan2..Ummi couldn't make it..
*gosh* wish she really could..
n so did Sharifah..it wld b more fun wif them arn..*yepz*
went 2 watch movie..play pool n bowling wif shan2..
*haha* did alot of stuffs 2day...

ltr..went 4 mass wif my mum n sis..
dad came 2 pick us up n fetch us home..
we had dinner at home..
den my mum n sis n me decided 2 go out..
my dad din wanna go..said tt he was tired..
dunno if it was really true..
but anyway..i sort of understand..so din really say much..
mum n dad quarelled a lil..
coz my mum says tt my dAD had already promise 2 go out wif us..
but he sort of broke it..my mum tot tt my sis n i wld b diappointed..
but actually we're fine wif it..
dunno lar..*haha*

now i'm back already..
*gosh* i'm shacked..need a rest sia..

Happy New Year's Eve 2 all of ya peeps out there..
my frenz..my classmates..my cat class frenz..CYf-ians..Drama peeps..my enemies..
n every1 i noe..
hope you peeps haf a joyous n fruitful new year..
stay happy alwyas..
* love you all* *muackz* *hugz*
okok...man..my hand is tired..itz sort of strained nw..
betta end here..
ciaoz~

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woke up at abt 11 sumthing 2day..
was tired..received an sms frm Shan2..
she asked if i could accompany her 2 go watch a movie 2day..
replied her..said i can't..not 2day..gotta stay home..
after that..i went 2 the comp..
got on MSN..chat wif Marcus n Carolyn..
had a long tok wif the both of them..
ltr..ate lunch..got off the comp 4 awhile..
coz sis wans 2 use it..so i let her..
afta eating..i continued chatting wif Marcus..n den Ethelbert signed in..
so was chatting wif the both of them..
went on irc 4 awhile juz now..

den..went 2 do up my + LATE + christmas pressies 4 my cat classmates n sum cyf peeps..
*haha* can't say wat it is..but itz still not really done...lol..
betta get it done soon..*heee*
mum called a while ltr..
said wanna bring my dog 2 the vet..
coz she's sort of sick..she puked yst..
but in the end..we din bring her..coz she was fine..jumping n hopping arn..lol..
so went 2 Geylang LOr 35 2 eat..
my dad says tt the place there has good food..so we popped by there..
& indeed..i njoyed my dinner..coz i was famished..*hahaha*
popped by at Bedok MAc's afta tt..
bought hot fudge sundae 4 my dad..strawberry sundae 4 me n Mcflurry [ oreos ] 4 my sis..
as 4 my mum..*haha* she dozen really like ice-cream..*haha*
bought a medium coke 2..so we could all share..
den we headed home..

so..now..i'm here..
*gosh* my right wrist hurts a lil..hope i din sprained it..
so anywayz..betta get off..
need 2 go n take a rest..
ciaoz~











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went 4 mass at st pats wif the CYF peeps..
Fr Adrian Yeo conducted the mass..
all the CYf leaders were there//
*gosh* missed them sia..
really admire them 4 taking up the role as a leader..
u peeps rock!~!~

afta that..we all took a bus that was chartered 4 us..
back 2 church..
den all of us took fotos..
n den headed dwn 2 Bishan 2 haf dinner at Pizza Mania..
itz the 1st tym i ate at this restaurant..*haha*
but it was cool..the pizza was..*yum yum* lol..
n den we chat...*haha* everything under the sun...
it was really cool..
Jobeth,Marcus,Judette,Vanessa,Ethelbert,Shaun,Francis n me sat 2gether..
we ordered..3 of 10 inche pizzas..lol..
n yet we couldn't finish it...man...lol..
Marcus was explaining 2 us how big his family was..
n how it was connected 2 Jobeth's family..*gosh*
so complicated n huge okz..lol..
it's really fun 2 hang arn wif Marcus n Ethelbert..
both of them so sociable n nice..*haha*
should hang out wif them often..lol..



ltr..the CYf peeps intended 2 go ova 2 Coffeee bean n continue chatting..
budden i had 2 leave coz it was kinda late..
n lucky 4 me..Vanessa also had 2 leave..
so we both took the Same way Mrt back..
she alighted at Novena..n me..all the way 2 Bedok..
so poor thing..*hehe*
came home n start eating agn..
wah..this tym..i'm really considered a pig..*oinkz* lol..
so now after eating my supper..*haha*
i'm online liaoz..*haha* so i update my blogger..
like duh?!?!? ..Jacinta..u always do tt everyday..*hiakz* lol..

= hey..Hong Han..juz wanna wish ya..
A Very HappY BirThdAy..
May all ur dreams n wishes come true..
god bless ya n may life be always smooth 4 ya..
*miss n love ya loads* =

alritey..blog wan liaoz..
now i go n chat wif ppl liaoz...
ciaoz~

you're heaven 2 me..
life ain't anything w/o you..
all i need is a lil love from you..
do i stand 2 chance?
do i?
i need ya 2 tell me...
my heart's broken..
n the only person hu can mend it is you..
would you do me a favour..
Heal my wounded heart?
can you...?
i dun think you can...
it's over..plain n simple..
everything's ended..

- Ja still loves ya... -

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watched movie 2day..
Lord Of The Rings..The Two Towers..
*boy* haha..i din noe it was so nice 2 watch...
man..was it good..
it was awesome...
went 2 watch it wif my cat classmates..
Judette..Jeremy..Julian n Gerard..
actually..Fiona n Diana was suppose 2 cum wif us..
but*haha* in the end..dunno where they MIa 2..
afta the show..julian had 2 leave 1st..
so the 4 of us went shopping...
yea..ltr..we all decided 2 go home..

met my mum n sis at toa payoh ..
went 2 get my books..
but popular din haf it..
*gosh*
so my mum will get it 4 me 2mr..
at the main branch..
had dinner wif my dad..
went 2 supermarket n get stuffs..
den came home..
tt is wat practically happen 2 day..
*short eh*
wat 2 do..*haha*

alritey..mum's nagging...
gotta get off now..
ciaoz~











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friday is here again...
*haha* i kinda njoyed 2day..
slept late n woke up late 2..
*cool*
den decided 2 go Cyf..
so lil peeps went only..
but anyway..met Samantha..
den we headed 2 Delifrance..
*haha* 4 a change..
so we both ate the same food..
coz i dun noe exactly wat 2 order..
was not a frequent at Delifrance ya noe..lol..
kinda blur as 2 wat 2 order..
so we both ordered..this potato salmon thingy..
n a mint diablos..*ttz a drink*
haha..it was yummylicious..*woo*
den jobeth n vanessa n judette came along..
went 2 church already..

Marcus conducted the session 2day..
it was kind of a year end prayer session..
4 us 2 reflect on wat we did this year n stuffs like tt..
it was really good n enriching..
it wa skinda short..
afta tt..all of us headed dwn 2 Mac's..
then..Eugene did video-caming..
n all of us had 2 leave a message 4 the leaders..
hu were having camp..
yea..
afta chit chatting 4 awhile..
my dad came 2 pick me up..
it was fast..
grabbed a sunday b4 that...
den hopped in2 my dad's van..
*hehe* so cool..
shaun said bye 2 me..*melts* lol..


alritey..gotta go..kinda hungry
n busy chatting wif frenz..
ciaoz~











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yst was christmas...
fun sia..*haha*
njoyed yst veri much..
went 2 my dad's fren's hse..
woah..hse was damn big..
*haha* thou it was kinda old..
it was so spacious..
n they had 4 sons..*gosh* lol..
theor eldest son was drop dead handsome..lol..man..
den the other frenz came along..
my dad's another fren..
his daugtheris soooo..ultra chio!~
*wah* faints...lol..
we all had a party..
till quite late..my family reached home at abt 1a.m..
*haha* veri late rite..but it was fun n cool...

2day..nuthin much happened..
i stayed at home n stoned almost the whole day..lol..
except in the afternoon...
i went 2 sch 2 buy books..
but din manage 2 get all...*hehe*
haijor...nothing much 2 say liaoz..


so i better end off here...
be back 4 more updates..
HAppy Boxing Day 2 all!~!~
*haha* njoy ya day ahead...
ciaoz~











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MerrY ChristMas EVe 2 all!~!~
*haha* so happy...n excited..

yst..i went wif my sis 2 Snow City..
it was kind of a free thing..so we went..
n we both really njoyed ourselves..
it was cool..
the food was yummy-licious..*heez*
my sis n i won a prize 4 building a snowman..lol..
overall..i njoyed it..it was good 2 b back in a " cold" surrounding agn..lol..

2day..it was fun 2..
coz i went put wif Shan2 n Wati..
the three of us 1st went 2 Marche..
2 haf lunch..*man* the food there was good..i loved it!` lol..
2 bad Wati couldn't eat..coz she's repaying back her fast..
shan2 met Jia ling [ her senior] 2 gif her a her christmas present..
afta that..we din really noe wat 2 do..
so we decided 2 watch a movie..
budden not many good n nice shows were on..
so Wati suggested bowling..n yea..
so we went..on the way 2 the bowling Alley..
i saw Priya!~ *haha* so glad 2 see her agn..
she's one of my best juniors..veri easy-going..
the three of us palyed 2 games..
the 1st game..Shan2 won..
whereas the second game..i won..
poor wati..*geez* din win any wor..
but frankly speaking..she's a veri good bowler..

ltr..Wati had 2 leave..
so left me n shan2..
we decided 2 go christmas shopping..
i mean..this is the 1st tym i actually did it..
*gosh* i bought lotsa stuffs..
bought a big winnie the pooh bear 4 my sis..
a cd 4 my dad..
n SINS chocalates 4 my mum n grandfather..
*heez* i was so happy n touched..
coz they loved my presents..
*haha* i juz love 2 see their smiling faces..
juz cheers me up..
i love every1 of my family members..
n my frenz 2..
all of you r precious n impt 2 me!~
*love ya all loads* *hugzzz & MUackssies..*

alritey..pen off here..
be back soon 4 more update..
ciaoz!~

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early in the morning 2day..
was suppose 2 go 4 morning mass..
but mum had stomach flu..
so dad brought her 2 the doctor..
in the end..we went 4 evening mass..

fetched my dog home frm the clinic..
she had her bath n injection..
receiced a christmas present frm her groomer..
tot it was 4 her..but in the end..
it was a big box of biscuits 4 the family..lol..

evening tym came..
n we went 4 evening mass..
saw moi junior..Lisa wif her sis n parents..
saw Marilyn 2..*haha* we kept smiling at each other..
but said veri few words..lol..funny sia..
ltr..we headed dwn 2 citylink..
coz i wanted 2 get my school stuffs frm Flash N Splash..
reached there..i went 2 get my school bag n a pencil case..
woah..quite expensive..total cost was $76.90..*gosh* lol..
den we decided 2 head dwn 2 Marina Square 2 eat..
we tot there was a food court there..but nah..din see any..lol..
so we end up at Kenny Roger's..lol..*man*..njoyed it sia..*shiok* lol..
went in HMV 4 awhile..listen 2 sum songs..
den headed 2 This Fashion..coz moi sis wanted 2 get a metal watch..or so it was called..lol..
din get it in the end..coz not many varieties..
afta everything..we headed home..
so here m i sitting dwn updating my blogger..
nuthin much already..ciaoz~


+ but then agn..u neva realise..
+ u tore my heart..
+ took away all my love..
+ n juz leave me stranded here..
+ hoping u wld cum back..
+ but no..everything juz ended up in vain..
+ u didn't..
+ i was 2 naive..2 actually believe we had one more chance..
+ dun wanna ponder over my everlasting pain..
+ juz wanna move on..
+ n if i eva had a chance agn..
+ i'll tell you..
+ Thankew 4 everything..
+ but i dun wanna land up in the world of misery agn..
+ i'd rather suffer silently n not let you noe..
+ den 2 pester you 2 gif me another chance..
- wounded n hurt.. -

yst was fun n cool..
went 4 caroling agn..
last day of it..
n every1 was hyper..
so we sang really well...

2day..went shopping wif my mum n sis..
4 our school stuffs..
mum juz got her pay..
so we went TM 2 shop 4 it..
sis got a bag,her sch shoes n her water bottle..
i juz got my water bottle n my shoes..
afta tt, we accompanied our mum..
2 shop 4 her own stuffs..
she bought a necklace kinda thing..
ltr..we met our father at Orange Julius..
we went 2 the food court 4 dinner..
den we came home..
so ttz abt wat happened 2day...

- dun wanna think abt you
- i gif up
- dun wana love you
-juz wanna treat her rite
- gif her my everything
- coz she's sum1 whom really deserves my love
- 4gif me 4 being selfish
- but i really dun wanna go thru the pain n hurt agn..

- ja juz feels like dying..

*haha**hehe**hoho*wah1~ veri happy happy 2day wor...
*keke*
in the morning..went 2 sch at 11a.m..
den met my other frenz..saw 07..
2 shy n scared 2 tok 2 her..*gosh*
actually i do miss her..
juz dun wanna face the fact lar..*haiz*
den xiaoping suggested goin 2 Tampines mall..
den cuifen suggested eating Kenny Roger's..
so wer all like..' ok den..' go n eat..althou itz expensive..lol..
ummi,xiaoping,me,amanda,shan shan,hwee sing n cuifen ate there..
den ltr..florence n yiling came 2 join us..*haha*
afta eating..we gai-gai 4 awhile..denwent back 2 sch..
coz i need 2 meet liyi n nat..

when we got there..i found out tt nat n liyi were at the canteen..
kinda late..so scared i kena..haha..but in the end..nopez..*hehe*
den we proceeded 2 the hall...2 get our results..
*wah* it was veri scary 4 the rez of my classmates..
but i was kinda cool abt it lar..*haha* act say only rite...u muz b thinking..well..no..ok..serious..lol..
den slowly..one by one got back results..all so nervous wor..lol..
afta i got back my results..i was damn n ultra happy..i achieved my goal!~ yeah!~
ltr..i left sch wif ong ling,maggie,nat,liyi,cuifen,yiling,jolene,xiaoping n sylvia..
we all headed 4 bedok inter..dne ltr the rez follow jolene go collect her handphone..
den me,xiaoping n sylvia follow nat go coffee-shop..
den ltr xiaoping left..so itz me,sylivia n nat left..
awhile ltr..we went our diff ways..
i went orchard 2 meet jessamine..coz she was alone..
den ltr we went gai-gai-ing..ate ice-cream..
den when we enter popular..sumthing happened..
we kana the security machine alarm..sadz..
den everything cocked up..sianz sia..
but ltr settles liaoz..
den we met samantha,alicia,zena n jobeth
dne we went 2 settle the ring thingy..
den met jasmine n we had dinner at yoshinoya..

ltr we took mrt 2 toa payoh..*duh??* lol..
budden this irritating woman ar...
say us like dunno wat shit..
i mean..watz her prob lor..
keep her comments 2 herself..doesn't mean she can't squeeze in the MRt..every1 muz follow her..
wat crap..*KNS* lol..
den we reached church..
woah..so little peeps 2day only ok..
so jia lat..but we managed 2 sing really well 2day..
it was so fun..afta everything..every1 headed4 MAc's..
n itz was totally cool..
coz i finally got a chance 2 get 2 noe the CYF peeps betta..
woah..so cool..so sud..i like it..
juz got back home..now so tiredz..*haha*

alritey..betta end off here..so ciaoz!~

- Ja scribbles ends at WednEsdAy..past 12 midnite..-

2day..i had caroling..
gosh..it was really fun..
*haha* 1st tym i went 4 caroling..
n itz a really good experience..spread the love of god..
got noe mnay ppl n stuffs like tt..
every house we went..we were welcomed wif open arms..
n we even had lil snacks n drinks afta every caroling session at every house..
the CYF-ians rock!~ n we RULE!~ lol..
alritey..ttz wat i've gotta 2 say..betta dun b so crappy n long-winded..ciaoz~

^ just when i tot i had chance..
^ it all juz disappeared wif the phrase u gave me..
^ my hopes n dreams haf been shattered..
^ therez no way out..
^ juz haf 2 move on..
^ wat i say now is useless...
^ if only u knew how much i cared n worry abt you..
^ u'll neva noe watz on my mind..
^ coz u've neva tried 2 understand how i'm feeling..
^ haiz...i gif up..
^ i dun wanna carry on like this anymore..
^ i dun wanna believe in love or eva fall in love agn...
^ itz juz so hard...
^ i dun wan anymore of this..
^ i give up...

- Ja Gives Up On LOve -

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2day was a day at home agn..
*haha* kinda boring rite?
but it was ok 4 me..coz i did sumthing useful..lol..
when i woke up..i headed 4 the comp..
den i found marcus online..
he was the 1 hu wanted 2 noe my name..lol..
den we started 2 chat..
finally..i realise that he was such a nice person 2 tok 2..
*gosh* he so matured in his thinking..
*haha* i like 2 tok 2 him..he's like a big bro 2 me..so nice..

afta that..i logged off..
coz i was thinking real hard as 2 do wat 4 my classmates 4 christmas..
so i came up wif a brilliant idea..
made sumthing 4 all of my classmates..*heh heh*
woah..did it 4 like abt four hours..long rite? lol..
den got 2 clear the whole hse..

den i ate sundae!~yummy...
completed it..
den i went 2 watch tv n played the comp agnz..

now chatting wif lotsa peeps..busy sia..
got a phone call frm shan shan juz now..
n liyi 2..*heez* missed them..
2mr getting results..so fun!` *haha*
hope every1 will make it 2 sec 5..
ja *prays*

okok..now oso watching restless..
betta go off 1st..
2mr is a busy day ahead..
ciaoz!`

+ i'm such a bad person
+ i neva tot of how you felt..
+ i din mean 2 hurt you
+ gosh..now i feel the pain..
+ but wateva it is..
+ u still hold an impt place in my heart..
+ as a fren only...*haiz*
+ if only u came in2 my lyf earlier..
+ i wld haf given u my love..
+ but sumhow or rather..she came in2 my lyf 1st..
+ n i've given all my love 2 her already..
+ n i'll only love her..
+ hope u understand..
+ cheer up..n dun b sad...
+ i'll always b here 4 u..









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din do anything much 2day..
except that my sis n i had 2 go 2 the hospital..
4 our check-ups n stuffs..
yea..so we went there..ate 1st..
den go 4 our appointment..

den ltr we headed 2 commonwealth..den 2 bugis..
we go gai gai wif our mum..
my sis was searching 4 chirstmas cards..
n we ate CrepEs..
woohoo...saw Esther..working there wor..lol..
afta tt..we went home..
2day wasn't very interesting also..
okok lar..events ended..lol..

- i miss you..
- i miss you..
- i miss u like crazy..
- every minute i'm thinking abt u..
- n when i stop..i feel so helpless..
- i juz wanna see u again..
- cum back fast..
- i love you..













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the only thing i did 2day..
was that i went 4 the Shine Jesus Shine Rally..
n it was my 1st tym goin 4 it..

i woke up at 10.20a.m..
coz my dad wanted me 2 accompany him 2 send my dog 2 the vet..
4 her bathing course..lol..
*gosh* i was veri tiredz ok..until now..
i slept at 5.00a.m last nite..
imagine how shacked i am..
*haha* ttz coz i wanted 2 finish watching the..
' tou tou ai shang ni ' VCd..
it was really a veri nice n touching story..
*so sweet* *heez*

in the end my dad say no need liaoz..*pengz*
wanted 2 go back n sleep..
budden once i get up..i can't slp liaoz..
so jia lat rite? lol..my eyes could hardly open sia..
so i juz went online 4 awhile..
ltr on..i took my bath..
prepared myself 2 meet Jessamine..
coz she wanted 2 meet 4 lunch..den i was like alrite..
she was suppose 2 meet me at 1.30p.m at toa payoh control station..
so i did everything slowly..tot my dad wld fetch me there..
in the end..i had 2 go by myself..*faints* lol..
watz worse..i was late..i reached there abt 1.50p.m lk tt..
*haha* lucky..Jessamine was not early..if not she got 2 wait veri long..
den i'll b ultra pai seh..lol..
when i met her..we both had a hard tym deciding on wat 2 eat..but in the end..we ate at Long John Silver..
afta tt, we proceeded 2 church..budden when we got there..only like the 2 of us frm our class..
the rest all MIa..lol..slowly..one by one came..
1st it was Zena..den Jasmine..followed by Jobeth n Samantha..
ltr on..when every1 arrived..we board the bus n head 4 the indoor stadium..

woah..got there..saw so many ppl queuing wor..
den i saw Marilyn..Chor Mun n another gal frm her class..
ltr i saw Denise!~ *haha* gosh..all drama juniors sia..
saw Mary-Ann 2..budden she din see me..*muahaha*

The Rally started off wif mass..
gosh..it was veri enriching..
n when it came 2 praise n worship..wah1~ every1 seemed 2 b alive!` lol..
it was really cool..
n it was juz fascinating..i could feel that God was present there..
there was a skit..n testimonials frm diff ppl..
n it was all 2 good 2 b true..
i really njoyed it..
wif the swaying..singing..jumping n stuffs..lol..it all ended off well..
*man* next yr..juz next year..i muz go 4 it agn..neva gonna miss it..
itz really good..i encourage every1 2 go 4 next year's rally okz? lol..

alritey..i'm veri tiredz n hungry now..
leave my tots here..
ciaoz!~





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= there are alot of words tt i haf 2 say..
= my love life has neva been complete..
= it's always here n there..
= i can neva make up my mind as 2 wat i want..
= but now i haf..
= n my choice is 2 continue loving you..
= i've decided that no matter how hard..how painful n hurting it is..
= i will only love you..
= coz these past months..i realise that i really cannot 4get you..
= i try n i try n i try..but it always ends up in vain..
= the love that i had 4 u has neva fade..
= i remembered tt u told me one day my feelings will fade..
= but i also remember tellin you..it wun..
= i had this assurance bcoz i noe..i love you more than any1 else..
= u mean the world 2 me..
= n i noe i really can't live without you..
= but being selfish is neva my nature..
= so on that veri day..i juz had 2 let you go..
= bcoz i noe..i'm not the 1 hu can gif u all the happiness..
= even when i tried 2 be there 4 u n 2 care..
= it's juz not enuff..
= my love was neva enuff 2 touch ur heart..
= i dun blame any1..n i dun hate you..
= i dun blame you 4 hurting me or bringing me pain..
= but i blame myself..4 not treasuring you well..
= n i can neva get this over my conscience..
= ya gonna leave 2mr..
= n i'm really gonna miss you alot..
= even if it was for a few days..
= all i wanna say 2 you b4 u leave is that..
+ u muz find ur happiness..
+ put urself 2gether n pull through..
+ all i wanna see is the happy you..
+ haf a safe journey..
+ n ya noe..when u leave..i'll miss you..
+ god bless..i love you..

= Ja wishes her all the best..=











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2day's friday the 13th..
gosh..many ppl remember it..
coz i dun think itz a very lucky day..
but well..at least i noe..
i was happy 2day..
but not 2 the real extend..
juz happy..

i had drama..
it was really fun..
we did lotsa things..like freeze frames n levels of standing..
we practiced on our blocking n stuffs like tt 2..
the next 2 hours..
was our party tym!~
lotsa food 2 eat..*yummy*
loved gloria's shephard pie n dorcia's curry..
jolyn's bee hoon was good 2..
actually everu was good lar..
food mar..ttz y..

afta tt..i met her..
yepz..long tym nia see her..
abit bu si guan..
but yar..gradually..
came back wif our conversation..
we luffed n we toked..
funny sia..yepz..
ltr..i went 2 orchard 2 meet my cathechism classmates..
coz we all decided on gettin a ring..
so itz kind of sweet..
bonds us 2gether..
only we haf this ring kind..
itz really veri meaningful..
we went 4 cyf n it was fun..
gosh..Zena really cheered me up..
joker sia she..she was ultra funny..
jasmine,jessamine,jobeth,cassandra n samantha 2..
all of them was so concerned abt me..
coz i was really upset n quiet..
1st tym sia..they say..
they not use 2 it..yar..
all thru cyf..i started 2 feel a lil betta..
coz many funny things happen..
we ended abt 10p.m..
den my dad fetched me home..
i called my mum n sis in Malacca..
n i was glad they're doin fine..
miss them a lil though i dun show it..yea..

i guess my day was like tt..
juz ended in a flash..
but i really njoyed 2day..
although it was kinda sad 2..

> i'm really thankful 2 god..
> he gave me a chance 2 see you agn..
> ni'm really glad..
> u may neva noe how much this event meant 2 me..
> but i can tell you..no words can describe it..
> itz juz 2 fascinating n wonderful..
>even if it was 4 a short while..
> i'm contented..
> i dun ask 4 anything more..
> juz remember..be happy always..
> i'm here whenever u need me..
> i miss you rite now....
> how i wish..i cld turn back tym..
> n everything was so smooth..
> n less painful...Haiz...

= Ja feeling sad.. =

haha..2day was a funny day..
went 4 a channel outing..1st tym sia..lol..
it's the ENergy member..
'Shu.Wei' channel outing..
yea..
so it was kind of a family thingy..

we went 2 Bugis..
we go gai-gai 4 awhile..
woah..tym passed really slow 2day okz..lol..
i finally n 4 the 1st tym actually bought sumthing..
while shopping..lol..
i bought this Jap mag..
wah!~ i din noe Jap Magz were so expensive..
$9.35 k..haha..alot liao hor..

ltr we went 2 Marina Bay..
we went 4 bowling..haha..
so miserable..only me n CArolyn bowl..
wah..jia lat..the rez dun wan..
*hehe* but the lane next 2 us..
the guys were cute..n they were nice 2 lend me n Carolyn their bowling ball..*oh..yeah!* lol..
den we walked n walked 2 suntec..
we wanted 2 go n check out the prices 4 the BBQ thingy..
so we went 2 NTUC..wah1`
i din noe it was a tough job..
juz 2 check out prices..
i was tired out k...*phew* lol..

den we decided 2 go home liaoz..
coz every1 was tired..
n Valerie had 2 go home also..
yea..got 2 noe lotsa peeps..
all so friendly n nice..*haha*

*hehe*yay!~ so happy 2day..
she msged me.. n i msged her..*haha*
veri happy..can msg her..
wah1`
2day lotsa nice things happen sia..
*heez*
saw 07..woah..she looked diff..
yea..kinda miss her old look..
but still i was happy..
din expect 2 see her..
missed her loads!` haha..
saw my ex-drama senior..
NAdine 2..
woah..she looked more chio den eva..

well..2day's juz a good day..4 me..
at least i dun haf 2 think 2 much abt things..
my mood 4 2day was ok..
not much depression...

*gosh* man..my heart's a lil heavy now..
*missssss sharifah* coz she's goin ovaseas..
o..well..haha..hope she has fun..
take care there gal!~ njoy!~

gosh..i missssssssss my mum n sis 2..
they;re also goin ovaseas..so sadz...
alemak..every1 goin..anyway..
juz hope they;ll take care n haf fun...
njoy n see them soon..*muackz* *hugz*

^ i'm glad i got 2 sms u 2day..
^ u neva noe..but itz true..
^one sms frm u means the world 2 me..
^ thankew so much..
^ gosh..i miss you..


























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woke up like 10.30a.m in the morning..
coz Carolyn wanted 2 pass me sum VCD's..
so tt i can watch n pass tym..
the VCD's were nice 2 watch..
i'm already at the 7th disc..lol..
itz entitled ' tou tou ai shang ni '
so sweet sia..so touching..
when i start 2 watch these kind of love stories..
i wun stop..
coz itz wld remind me of her..
reminising the tyms i had wif her..
every moment spent..
every laughther n joy..

had cca 2day..
it was cool as usual..
we got dwn 2 sum serious stuffs 2day..
like planning 4 orientation n SYf..
2 major projects cumin up..
budden it turned out fine..
every1 had ideas..so we chipped in..
n sort of try 2 work out the basic plan..
i played a few roles 2day..
the 'Director", the ' The Sexy miss Vampire' & Sharon..the elder sis of katie..
the main gal of our story..
when it ended..i accompanied Priya,Denise n Leah..my juniors..
2 walk 4 a distance..
at the same tym..go get myself a Mr. Softee..chendol ice-cream..lol..
but guess wat?
when i got there..they only had Vanilla flavour..*faints*

so i bought cookies instead..
went back hm n continue 2 watch the VCDs..
ate my dinner..
but din really feel like eating..coz i dun haf the appetite..
dunno y also..
mayb i'm 2 full or sumthing..
been eating alot lately..
*gosh* there's only 1 reason behind it..
n ttz when i'm having depression..
but y shld i feel depressed?
i'm happy now.....
*hai*

# wat m i suppose 2 do now?
# can sum1 tell me?
# watz wrong wif me?
# y do i feel so empty inside?
# n everytym when i stop occupying myself wif things..
# i'll start 2 think of her..
# den i'll miss her..
# afta awhile..my tears will start 2 flow..
# but wat can i do now?
# tell her tt i'm still waiting 4 her n tt i love her?
# itz impossible..i noe that..
# but i juz simply can't go on like that..
# i'm goin crazy..juz sitting dwn n misisng her like mad..
# i'm losing my sanity..
# i juz hope tt sum1 can tell me wat 2 do..
# so that i can gif up on her..
# i've tried many tyms..
# my heart broke in2 pieces many tyms 2..
# but as long as i dun get ova her..
# my heart will still hurt..n the wound wld be deeper den eva..
# she's the only person hu can make me smile n cry..
# no1 else can..
# ttz y..itz so hard 2 let her go..
# she's so sweet n caring..
# if she wasn't tt caring..i wld gif her up easily..
# but now..i juz can't bring myself 2 leave her or even hate her..
# watz wrong wif me?
# juz sum1...sum1..any1..help me...

- Ja is losing her sanity.. -

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it's a tuesday..
& i m home 2day..
sumtyms..itz good 2 be at home once a while..
can rest n njoy life..
*haha*

the whole entire day was practically spent..
on doin my journal n watching VCD's..
*haha* my life is that boring..
no lar..coz 2day neva go out..
ttz y..nuthin much 2 ntertain me also..

not much things happen 2day..
so itz considered good..
yea..juz finished watching restless..*haha*
so yea.. guess i betta log off soon..
coz i wanna catch the show..
' The exorcist "..*scary*

:: gosh..i miss you so bad..
:: i've been thinking abt u the whole day..
:: i'm happy tt i had a chance 2 chat wif ya 2day..
:: geez..u muz take care of urself ok?
:: man..i feel the pain 4 you..
:: how i wish i cld b there 4 u..
:: be by ur side..n ease ur pain..
:: coz i really dun wanna see u in pain..
:: breaks my heart 2..
:: juz hope u'll take care of urself..
:: good nite..Miss ya loads..
:: love you..

= Ja feels the pain..=

there was Drama 2day..
frm 9-12p.m
*hehe* missed drama quite abit..
coz the past week ..
din haf drama at all..
itz so boring ok? lol..
2day..Ashley n Stephanie turned up..
cool..coz itz been a long tym since i saw them..

Afta tt..i met my sis..
n we went home 2gether..
saw Basyirah 2..*keke*
so long nia see her..missed her 2..
her funny face..lol..

when i got home..
all i did was stone agn..
as usual..*typical jacinta*
den surf the net 4 awhile..
Watch VCD's..
'ai qing bai pi su' agnz..*hehe*
& ' tu si nan zhi wen '
*bored* ttz y...
den sang songs..chirstmas ones..

I'm really veri happy 2day..
my spirits were lifted up..
i feel tt my life has been restored agn..
i toked 2 her agn..
gosh..i'm so happy..
miss her so so much....

- you dunno how much u mean 2 me..
- juz by chatting wif ya..i feel so contented..
- the joy n happiness juz flows by..
- i missed you so much..
- badly wanted 2 chat or tok 2 u..
- i had a chance 2 tok 2 ya 2day..
- ttz the best thing tt can eva happen 2 me..
- i was so happy..
- i was filled wif joys of tears..
- itz been so long since we last tok..

+ i thought through everything..
+ i searched my heart..
+ i realised one thing..
+ i dun love any1 else..
+ 07 is a liking only..
+ Shawn is a crush n infactuation only..
+ but YOu... r the one i love..
+ you're my 1st love..
+ you're the 1st person i eva love..
+ no1 can take the place of YOu in my heart..
+ u'll always remain my 1st love n the number 1 person in my heart..
+ miss you so bad..
+ i can only use 100% percent 2 love u & no lesser den that..
+ i can't juz love you half-heartedly only..

= 2day's a sunday... =
*haha* as usual..attended mass..
followed by a trip 2 the coffee-shop 4 lunch..

afta tt..my family n i..
went 2 fetch belle [ My Dog ] frm the pet clinic..
coz she went 4 her bathing course..*hehe*
so cute rite?*keke*
den my dad n mum fetched my ah-kong n belle home..
coz my sis n i needed 2 renew our bus pass..
we lost it at the arcade yst..!~!~!~ *arghhh*
so fed up sia...
watz wrong wif ppl nowadays?
dunno how 2 b honest ar? *KNS*

ltr..my dad drove all the way 2 Buona Vista..
ttz the only place where we can renew our bus pass..
*geez* such a long trip..
from East 2 West sia..
can u imagine tt? lol..
My mum was sort of still pissed wif me..
but afta tt..she sorta cool dwn..
so tt was a relief 2 me..lol..

My sis was hungry n so was my dad..
therefore we went 2 a nearby coffee-shop agn..
2 eat..i ate Laksa..*yummy*
so long nia taste it liaoz..*shiok ar* lol..
My sis ate fishballs n drank the soup..lol..
my mum n dad shared a plate of Rojak..

awhile ltr..we headed dwn 2 the Bedok central supermarket..
2 shop 4 ingredients 2 cook 4 dinner...
my Dad also bought 2 Vcds..
'the haunted office' & ' Three'
all scary n horror movies..bez liaoz..lol..
bought pancakes 2 eat 2...

Wah! 2day eat alot sia..
sure grow fat wor..
Like *pig* -oiNkZ- lol..

den we came home..
i did nuthing much 2...
juz lazed arn n did the usual things..
den watch the 'haunted office' Vcd..
the show's good..it all made sense..
n it was kinda sad 2..*gosh*

juz realised i had 2 update my blogger..
ttz y..i'm here now..pinning dwn my thoughts..

A Message 4 You...

+ it all seems strange nw..
+ feelins n emotions get the best of me..
+ i dunno how i can continue 2 cope wif life..
+ if you could juz gif me one more day..
+ i'll haf one more day 2 live..
+ i'm living in memories..
+ n i'm sure..i can't go on like this all my life..
+ budden i also can't move on..
+ If you could only hear wat my heart wans 2 say 2 u..
++ i'm willing 2 gif up everything..in return 4 your love..++

/\/\/\/\/\/\ Miss ya Loads..Love ya Loads..Need Ya Loads /\/\/\/\/\/\

*geez* 2day is really the most horrible..cursed n jynxed day..
juz dunno watz wrong sia..
i mean itz my sista's bday n bad things haf got 2 happen..
watz wrong? *shucks*

anywayz...Happy Birthday Mei!`
*haha* u're a year older now..
u've turned 13..so cool rite? lol...
n i'm sure ya like the pressie i gave u eh? *hehe*
i'm juz sad 4 ya..coz on ur bday..
bad things has got 2 happen...*man*

went 4 my cousin's wedding lunch 2day..
it was an 8 course dinner..
*haha*
ppl 10 course..my cuz got an 8 course..
not bad eh? lol..
wah!~itz was like os formal n grand..
it was held at hyatt hotel..
i guess itz kind of a 5 ***** hotel rite? lol..
i dun really like formal stuffs..
coz haf 2 behave gentle n everything..
yea..ttz basically it..
all my cuz was ther except 1..
*gosh* i miss him..so long nia see him liaoz..
he ar...*pengz* dunno whr he went 2..
budden my godma daughter came..
her name is Marie..dun really socialise wif her lar..
coz she's anti-social..n watz worse..
she thinks her english excels veri well..
n therefore dun wanna mix wif us..these kinda *cheena* ppl..
wat sia..act so matured..man..can't stand sia..*haha*
but the food was ok..ate 2 my fill..
den my cuz n her husband pour champagne..
den cut the wedding cake..
n when they said their speech..*gosh* so sweet n *rou ma* ..*tao yen* lol..

ltr we headed dwn 2 Tampines..
my sis wanted 2 go 2 the arcade..
so i decided 2 accompany her..
play n stuffs like tt..
n so we did..had a fun tym at the arcade at 1st..
budden the horro came...
when my parents came n join us 4 awhile..
i lost my sis n my wallet!~ can u believe it?
i mean like iw as like holding on 2 it all the tym..n it was pick-pocketed!
*darn* i curse the person hu took it sia..lol..
my wallet had the most precious things inside..
n so did my sis..
*gosh* how can sum1 do tt 2 us?
my mum went ballistic..
she was so furious abt it..

afta all the commotion..
we went 2 Kenny Roger's 2 eat..
den we went hm str8 away...

ltr..we celebrated my sis bday..
cut cake n stuffs like tt...

guess my mum is still veri upset wif me..
i juz hope she cools dwn..

i really feel veri bad 2..
*gosh* i feel like i'm always givin my mum trouble..
i always screw things up..
my lyf's in a mess...
sumtyms..how i wish i cld juz end my pain ..end my lyf..
i'm so tired of everything..
sum1 help me..........*haiz*

- even 2day..when things go all wrong..
i'm still thinking of you..i miss u like crazy..
only if we were wat we used 2 b..
i would always noe..
tt i could turn 2 u..
n seek 4 comfort..
i noe u would do everything 2 help me...
but now...look wat has happened...
i lost you..n i lost my lyf..
the faith n confidence tt i haf in myself..
is slowly vanishing..
i dun think i can take this any longer...
i'm breaking down...*hai*
i juz wish tt everything wld b back 2 wat they are...-
+ afraid of the future +

*hehe* Hari Raya 2day!~
alritey...cool..
Happy Hari Raya 2 every1!~ lol..
geez..
i guess i was veri blur 2day sia..

whole morning n afternoon at home..
dunno do wat also..
i guess juz laze arn n stone..lol..
n watched the Vcd
' Eight Legged Freaks '
woah..spiders..crawlies..*eeks* lol..

ltr in the evening when i was abt 2 go n get my sis bday pressie..
n goin 4 Cyf..
i was at my hse bus-stop..
den Ummi called me all of a sudden..
*haha* she said she saw me..
den i was like 'ar? really? how cum i neva see u? '
den she said ' coz i was in the car..ttz y..'
den i said..'orh..*hehe* shoo blur..(=

on the mrt ..
on my way 2 cityhall..
i saw this cute cacaussian guy..
*hehe* woah..veri good boy ya noe..
reading story book..so studious..
n handsome 2..lol..
kept lookin at him..*keke*

i bought 4 my sis a ROXY pencil case..
the * scoochy scoohy* type..
soft soft 1..lol..n itz in pink..
her favourite color!
hope she likes it..

den went 4 Cyf..caroling agn..*haha*
this tym it was betta..
the girl's voices were heavenly..
*gosh* *melts* lol..
the guys voices were good 2..
we sang 7 songs 2day..
so it was considered a success..*yepz*
SHAWN was there 2..*ahahaha*
he wore red shirt 2day..
n he looked as if he was blushing..
*haha* when it was only juz a sun tbrun on his cheeks....
but he looked good..like..duh?!? lol..
alemak..think i only haf a lil infactuation on him lar..
itz gonna fade one day...rite? *hehe*

- i miss you so much..i wish i could see you 4 juz one more tym.. -

no words
no expression
no description

feelin quizzical
feelin weird

Y is that so?

Mayb i'm not feeling well..ttz y..
Mayb today's juz not my day..ttz y..

am i finding excuses 2 avoid wat i'm feeling nw?

or am i juz running away from reality?

i haf no idea..


all i noe is that..

There's this emptiness in my heart that needs 2 b filled soon..
or else i do not noe wat 2 do or where 2 go...

Only one person can..
not juz any ordinary person..

but a person ..
the 1st girl i gave my love n care to..

She's the 1st girl i eva loved or shld i say will eva love..

**** Mind's in confusion ****

went out 2day..
at nite..
coz had a theatre kinda show 2 watch..
wif stephanie..
our drama instructress inside..
so cool..
went there 2 support her..
was a lil tired n feverish still..
sick sia i..poor me..lol..
when i got there wif all my juniors..
woah..the place was kinda small..
but it was ok..not bad..
the show had 3 sections..

= morning after =
= pain attack =
= love beyond =

haha..all the titles like so nice rite..
well..no doubts abt it..
the 1st n last play was good..
the 2nd one was kinda draggy..
but it was ok..
overall i njoyed it..

*ho ho* ate Mr softee..
choclate flavour wif rainbow toppings juz nw..
*hehe*
had this craving lar..can't b help..lol..

now juz got back home..
so feelin betta liaoz..itz also kinda late n actually i can't use the comp..
ttz y i'm making this entry short n sweet..
*yea* okok..
betta go n rez sia..
ciaoz~

i dun wanna gif up..
i dun wanna let go..
itz juz 2 painful..
it always seem tt i've moved on..
but..no..i neva did..
i neva stepped out of it..
i was juz lying 2 myself..
i could juz feel the hurt ttz consistently tearing my heart apart..
i dun wan anything else..
i juz wish tt things wun end up this way..
now..itz so weird juz tokin 2 her..
i can't turn back the hands of tym..
or even bring memories back..
all i can do now..
iz juz 2 ponder over my never ending pain..
my dreams have been shattered..
my hopes haf been destroyed..
n my life..is on the verge of a breakdown..
i'm missing you terribly..
can't u even see it?
itz driving me crazy..
i'm losing my sanity..
i can't do anything now..
juz as long as u r happy..i will b 2..
love does not mean havin the person wif u..
juz as long as u can feel her happiness n joys..
u'll b contented..
n i'm gonna do juz tt..
i'll do everything 4 u..
love is abt sacrifices..
n i will take every chance juz 2 make u happy..
i noe tt as tym passes..
i'll neva b able 2 say these 3 simple..
yet meaningful words 2 u..
coz we're goin our different ways..
but still i juz wanna say one more tym..
:::: i love you ::::