没你在身边的这一两个星期，很难过嘞！
在家无人问暖，夜夜难入眠，我就快得忧郁症了啦！

现在得开始习惯没你在的黑夜。
本以为你只是出国公干一个多月，哪知现在你已经日日夜归，我看啊，应该是两三个月没办法见到你咯！

眼泪擦一擦，要学习独立了啦！
真难熬啊！

chienling at 12:38 AM

总是为了无谓的事情而争执，这又意味着什么呢？

chienling at 6:27 PM

今天下班回家，家里只有电视机与电脑游戏机的声音。突然觉得这家怎么少了人情，少了家庭温暖呢。怎么让我突然觉得忧伤，寂寞了呢...

chienling at 11:11 PM

为什么一个星期里可以发生了那么多事情？我还以为已过了几年....是你变了吗？就在你的新生意开始后，你已经一百八十度转变了。你对我的态度，不如从前。你知道你现在和我说话，总是用不耐烦的语气吗？电话里，我想多问几句，你就已经不耐烦的挂了我电话。你已经开始介意带我出门了吗？还记得以前，我曾经问过你，“你一直让我跟着你出门，你就不怕他人说你老婆一直跟着你吗？”。你说“不会啦，不需要管其他人怎么说”。那晚在车里，你竟然说介意他人说你一直带老婆出门，介意他人说你老婆一直跟着你！ 你知道这句话对我的伤害有多深吗？难道我就那么失礼你了吗？你变了....我不介意每天为你站在油烟里、不介意人家说，“茜苓，你怎么变到那么憔悴了？”、不介意为你白忙，只希望你会珍惜。但换来的竟然是你的介意...心如刀割...。你的态度让我觉得，我什么都不是，我没有存在的价值。你对我说话开始有所隐瞒，我是外人吗？你......还是我老公吗？

chienling at 1:50 PM

Not feeling good today. Again, seeing some ladies expecting, and again someone asking "are you expecting?"... and Again I have to answer "NO!". During families gathering, aunties and uncles keep on asking "when are you going to get one baby ah?"... I have no idea what to answer, just smile and keep quiet lor. I can't get preg at this moment, it's not my wish! Felt hurt everytime seeing ladies expecting or someone else asking whether I'm expecting. They are tearing off my wound. I thought I have recovered from the wound, in fact no. Just reliased whenever the wound is going to cover up, someone will tear it off again and again. May 2012, not feeling well, after checked up, found out that I'm expecting. It's a good news for everyone. June 9, 2012, found myself bleeding. Doctor told us, baby not growing and no heart beat. It's a bad news for everyone. June 11, 2012, high fever. June 12, 2012, high fever (It's my hubby birthday, but I have gave him a worst gift). June 13, 2012, Evacuation of Fetus at Loh Guan Lye Hospital. (Thanks hubby for the accompany and all the cares) June 14, 2012, Hospitalize for 2 weeks. June 27, 2012, Resume work. Wish to have a new days ahead. Doctor adviced, shouldn't get preg for the next few months. Those days are the worst days in my life. After the incident, I dare not to skip any meals, or on diet. I just wish to keep myself healthy as now I've realised health is essential. Time flies, if pregnancy on going, my baby will be four months old. Dear, sorry for the dissapointment.

chienling at 7:13 PM

Fall in love with this song~ =)



偷偷关上门 静静眼泪流
出发那一刻 灿烂的星空
午夜的列车 狂奔的寂寞
在心底唱著 坚定的美梦
让自已冲动 去犯错 去撞的头破血流
离开我 去找我 和我欠我自已的承诺
我下定决心 离家出走 才能带回属於我的美梦
爱著我的人儿啊 能不能再为我等候
我只能勇敢 离家出走 才能让我的生命更感动
我相信你会等我 你一定会等我
温室的花朵 看不到天空
世界有风雨 才会有彩虹
爱能保护我 却也绑著我
把我还给我 把心变自由
让自己飞过 也追过 也痛过才算活过
你爱我 就让我和我的命运去交手
我下定决心 离家出走 才能带回属於我的美梦
爱著我的人儿啊 能不能再为我等候
我只能勇敢 离家出走 才能让我的生命更感动
我相信你会等我 你一定会等我
我下定决心 离家出走 才能带回属於我的美梦
爱著我的人儿啊 能不能再为我等候
我只能勇敢 离家出走 才能让我的生命更感动
我相信你会等我 你一定会等我 和分享我的美梦

chienling at 9:04 PM

2012, 我的工作陷入瓶颈了!
换了新老板后，我对我的工作更加厌倦了.
开始的心情，是急躁。
接着的是暴躁。
终于，我爆发了。
现在，我工作时的心是死了。
每天抱着一颗死了的心情上班去，没心跳没感觉没感情...
再多再大的风雨，我对它的回应，只是一句“哦”...
不再有批评，不再有怨言...
静静的守在自己的岗位就好咯，讲多错多。
我还是回到以前的我，静静就好。

心死了，但我看到了、也认识了更多令人恶心的事、面、人。
原来，大家都不简单哦...是我太简单、太单纯、太蠢了。
就像我老公一直在说我蠢一样，我真的是太蠢了。

现在，大家觉得开心的事、好笑的事，我对它竟然没感觉，
我的皮会应酬的笑了一会儿，但我的心，一点都不觉得好笑，
我一点都不开心。

大家最近都好奇的问我，"咦，最近怎么每天打扮得那么漂亮来上班呢? 跟平时好不一样哦..."
我只是敷衍的抛了个微笑带过。
其实现在，每天可以打扮得漂漂亮亮，是我唯一的动力，唯一能让我起床，再踏入公司的动力。

让自己焕然一新，也许可以开心一些。

chienling at 11:15 PM

好久没在这儿留言了...
婚后，好多好多的改变得重新适应...
为人妻的我... 过得还蛮幸福的。
为人媳妇的我...过得还不错啦。
偶尔会很想娘家，幸好距离不远，十五分钟路程便到娘家咯。
回娘家的次数还蛮频密的.. 嘻嘻..

chienling at 10:29 PM

刚刚在收拾东西时，眼泪突然在眼眶里打滚。再过十天，我就快离开我的家、最疼爱我的爸妈、妹妹们， 住进一个另一个家。那感觉真的难以形容。我真的很不舍很不舍、很不安、很害怕。怎么办，眼泪很不听话，一直向下流。

chienling at 12:55 AM

10 days left.
My heart beat is increasing day by day.
What else did I left?

chienling at 12:42 AM

Woo~~ Hoo~~
I'm flying soon...
Travel Travel Traval again!
Haha so excited!
It's a last minute plan, we've decided to go to Taiwan!
wahahahah... finally we've managed to make it successed!
3 more days to go... ^_^
Awaiting~

chienling at 1:10 PM

3rd of July, 2011, it's a wonderful day, my precious day!
Thanks to my lovely buddies that make this day so great!
And of course, to my dear hubby, this special day happens because of you.
Love you!

chienling at 6:40 PM

If you are right then there is no need to get angry
And if you are wrong then you don't have any right to get angry.


Patience with family is love,
Patience with others is respect,
Patience with self is confidence, and
Patience with GOD is faith.


Never Think Hard about PAST,
It brings Tears...
Don't Think more about FUTURE,
It brings Fears...
Live this Moment with a Smile,
It brings Cheers!!!!


Every test in our life makes us bitter or better,
Every problem comes to make us or break us,
Choice is ours whether we become victim or victorious!!!


Search a beautiful heart not a beautiful face.
Beautiful things are not always good
but good things are always beautiful.
Remember me like pressed flower in your Notebook.
It may not be having any fragrance
but will remind you of my existence forever in your life.


Do you know, why God created gaps between fingers?
So that someone who is special to you,
comes and fills those gaps by holding your hands forever.

chienling at 8:50 AM

好想找人倾诉，发泄，说出我心里的感受....
但发现到...我竟然找不到一个可以见面倾诉的对象！
害怕让人看笑话，没办法咯，自己吞下去咯....

庆幸的，我还可以在这里说说话，发泄发泄！

chienling at 7:04 PM

她只是说出心里的感受，竟然让他觉得她在烦他。
哼...她太可悲了！
不烦就不烦，以后都不会再烦他咯...
静静的就好，什么都不说....

chienling at 6:53 PM

Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
Going for a short trip in this coming weekend!
I'm so excited!
It's time I can have my holidays! woo hoo~!
Hope can extend my holidays until Monday! Cross my fingers...

chienling at 11:01 PM

It’s a beautiful night,
We’re looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Well I know this little chapel on the boulevard we can go,
No one will know,
Come on girl.
Who cares if we’re trashed got a pocket full of cash we can blow,
Shots of patron,
And it’s on girl.

Don’t say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we’ll go, go, go, go-go.
If you’re ready, like I’m ready.

Cause it’s a beautiful night,
We’re looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

I’ll go get a ring let the choir bells sing like oooh,
Bruno Mars Marry You lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/bruno-mars-marry-you-lyrics.html

So whatcha wanna do?
Let’s just run girl.
If we wake up and you wanna break up that’s cool.
No, I won’t blame you;
It was fun girl.

Don’t say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we’ll go, go, go, go-go.
If you’re ready, like I’m ready.

Cause it’s a beautiful night,
We’re looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Just say I do,
Tell me right now baby,
Tell me right now baby. x2

Cause it’s a beautiful night,
We’re looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

chienling at 11:29 PM

哟！愁死了！烦死了！
我快崩溃了！

chienling at 7:32 PM

I just don’t feel comfortable recently.
Sometime just can’t sleep well when I’m on the bed and sometimes can’t breathe well as well.
Photography session is getting near, house renovation is getting complete, and workload is getting heavier.
Lot’s of picture keep flashing in my mind when I close my eyes or sometimes will just awake from sleep and think of those issues that I need to follow up.


Photography:


I want everything perfect during my photo session.
I feel sad when there are little pimples on my face recently.
I feel sad when I lose control, start eating not so healthy food and gain weight again.
I not yet get a pairs of heels to match my gowns.
I not yet prepare those stuffs that needed during my photo session.
I keep on wondering whether I’ve made a right choice at the gowns.
I’ve revisited the bridal house; try to switch my gowns, but end up I didn’t make any changes.
2 weeks left.
Do I have enough weekends to get everything ready? Can I find a pair of nice heels to match my gowns?
Someone told me nothing is perfect. I understand that, but I’m still hoping.

Frankly, I’m nervous.


House renovation:


I only make some decision / in charge at some minor area for our house renovation.


Paint: I’m the one who select the color, and last week after they complete the painting, I realize few colors are totally out from my imagination. They said that is the color I chose, but that’s not my ideal one. I wanted to request for repaint, but end up I didn’t voice it out. I know this will have extra cost.

Foldable door: Keep on wondering whether I’ve chosen a nice one.

Curtain: Still in consideration. Might need to go back to reselect the materials.

Dining table: Not yet select one.

Cushion: We have visit most of the furniture shops. Nice one, very expensive. Cost efficient one, not nice.  Until today, we can’t find one.


Work:


Received lots of shipment delinquent from suppliers recently, hate it!
Lots of annoying issues I have to follow up. Why me?? >.<


I want a break! I want a holiday!


But if compared to my dear, I know his responsibility and tension is much heavier than me. Love him! Appreciate…

chienling at 1:55 PM

My lovely youngest sis, I think I’ve underestimated her all these while.
She’s blogging! And I just knew that!


She can express her feelings well while blogging… she’s getting matured…
I shouldn’t treat her like a primary student anymore…
have to bear in mind that she’s 13 now~


Her vocab is excellent! She used some bombastic words that I never used! So impressed!
But sometimes quite rude… she likes to use ‘DAMN’ and ‘LMAO’ in her writing! Haha that’s really rude…
It’s so embarrased that I don’t know what’s ‘LMAO’ means until i found out yesterday.
The youngsters nowadays, totally different with our generation! Omg! I’m out to date now…


Anyway, I’m proud of her now, at least she can thinks maturely compared to her childish friends..


Juin, if you’re reading this, just would like to let you know that your 3 eldest sis really love you so much!
Please don’t feel bored when you are at home.
We knew you are talkative and please don't feel sad when we ignored you when you are talking...we actually quite enjoyed when you’re talking non stop at home… haha...

chienling at 12:14 PM

It's hurt, really hurt!

chienling at 12:03 AM

Finally ~~~
Promotion + Increment!!!
Yeah! Yeah!! Yeah!!! ^_^

chienling at 8:42 PM

Thanks dear, for making my life so wonderful!
Thanks dear, for paying so much on your love!

chienling at 3:21 PM

2011 MISSION = SAVING

chienling at 5:33 PM

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im colder


In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life


I wanna know what love is.....
I want you to show me......
I wanna feel what love is.....
I know you can show me......


I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me....
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me....


In my life! there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life!.!.!.!.


I wanna know what love is.....
I want you to show me......
I wanna feel what love is......
I know you can show me......


I wanna know what love is....
I want you to show me....
And I wanna feel, I want to.... feel what love is....
And I know, I know you can show me....


show me


I wanna know what love is, lets talk about love
I want you to show me, I wanna feel it too
I wanna feel what love is, I want to feel it too
And I know and I know, I know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah
I wanna know what love is...

chienling at 11:36 PM

昨天，认识了一句很棒的“哲学”。
「要学会认识其他人的语言」
认识了他人的“语言”，这样就能好好沟通，不会有吵架啦！

chienling at 12:11 PM

Got a surprise today!
I was called into my manager's room.
He passed me a letter stated 'Market adjustment'.
Haha we have a salary adjustment!! Effective Nov-1! Cool~~
I was told that this is not increment,
It's an adjustment and this will not affect our increment in the coming months!
hehe I have got a good adjustment! ^_^
Wow! Guess so we have hit a high revenue in the last quarter!

Hmmm... Let's wait and see what is the increment percentage two months later!
Huhu~~

chienling at 11:51 PM

I never ever shout and fight with ppl all the while,
and today, I did it!
What the hell happen to me?? >.<"
I can't controlled my temper today!
Where's my EQ gone la??
I've scolded something bad...not rasional at all!


The funniest one;
After hang up the phone for not more than 10 mins....
I email that fellow and apologized!


What a useless one! Haha! I'm funny la!


Today's lesson: 凡事留一线，日后好相见

chienling at 11:28 PM

失望

chienling at 6:00 PM

不要挨骂的，就不要在我老朋友找我的期间惹我!!

chienling at 10:05 PM