Just maybe..

For once I am unable to control my feelings
Lose the ability to be lil miss head over heart
And swap to heart over head

He might have just left a dent in your stone cold heart
Coz he's not here today and you feel so lost
But it's better knowing where he is
Instead of wondering who's he's with

So maybe it is decided, and it goes 2 ways
So to consequences, I might just forget about you at this time.

1:27 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Attica's sounds

When at times work environment
Gets you over the cliff
Unspotted flaws arises in friendship
Intolerable patience that results in sarcasm
The agitation of bursting at a fellow coworker
Who couldn't emphasize the meaning of childish?
Despite being in the world for more than 3.5 decades

Then you go out of your way to party
Stumbling home in the wee hours
To have a mini shut eye
Before jetting off to the professional corporate ladder
And it was worth the deprivation of sleep
Because of VIP treatment
Free drinks on the house
Dancing by yourself without the need of your crafty phony mask
Whilst your friends mingle with intentions

Rekindled old chemistry
That was lost due to past complications
Close communication with comfortable body language
Leaning on each other despite the 2 yrs of amnesia
Then we are back to square one of past complications
But at least I know that last night
Could not be easily forgotten
Instead it’s something I’ll smile about for the next few days
Till your hand rests on my thigh
And your mouth whispers in my ears
I’ll see you at the next VIP party

2:47 PM;
and the camera clicked away

and I thought..

I need a good heart to heart conversation
One that forget the worries
Just one to have a lil tap to the heart
And be remembered

2:23 PM;
and the camera clicked away

walking on regrets

So maybe too close is not such a good idea
Could I have made the wrong choice
And stuck on the one with the most comfort
Despite intolerable flaws?
Then put up with the safe bet
As how safe can a bet be in the first place?

Or is my own flaw conflicting with my views?
Could my own personality look down on someone
Whom I never thought that could advise me
As the mere representation isn't a strong foundation
That I could never take their words
And their words meant nothing except mine
Or could there be because of what I know
The past that has happen and till now
Despite the rubble has been cleared, the past thoughts
Still linger and stick by you despite the change thru the years
Am I covering my pride that thinks I'm always right
Or by past experience makes a good excuse for such a thought
Then just maybe I am a flaw finder
And I make no qualms in accepting imperfections

Till then, I'll be making a distance
As too much closeness bring out imperfections
And I might not be able to accept those imperfections
And I hope I don't walk away, as I always do

12:29 AM;
and the camera clicked away

Restless

I'm feeling so restless and touche
Like everything is so out of place
I don't like this
Can I please get out and be somewhere else

Even if I'm at a place
When I turn out to be miserable
Just because I had overrated the feeling of being there
Then at least I'll still have the beautiful blue sky
And knowing it's where I always wanted to be
I don't know, I'm being very edgy
Bless me soon or at least calm my nerves pls

1:47 AM;
and the camera clicked away