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"... If I tell you I'm scared, would you believe me?"
Or could I have passed feeling so; let it come, let it go..
Surreal
Looking back, weeks/ month.
Everything seems unreal. I still can't come into terms with what has happened in this span of time..
Seems like everything that's meant to sink in, is still spinning over me...
So, how did or where have I gone or been.
Did everything just passed me by...?
Surreal it is.
Hardly understood. Hardly felt.
I hardly could understand the actions covering thoughts and emotions .
I hardly could understand living rules and right-s .
I hardly could understand if there's a better reason for everything .
I hardly could understand the natural human cycle of growing up/old .
I hardly could understand the other self .
I hardly could understand oneself .
I hardly could understand this post .
Shiokyness
As I hug and lay on my stinky pillows and ever bouncy bed.. All I can say is .... SHIOK!
oh I do miss them so :)
I think the familiar sense of comfort and ease is coated over them :)
Nights!
tired, is an understatement.
but i am not reading much into it, because i can't afford to and i am not even halfway.
fear and gratitude
experience almost 3 hours of terbulance for the first time.
(no beverage was served and food was by hand...)got frighten being alone in such situation.
all i did was to pray, and god sent me this lil angel :)
A lady being as frightened next to me spoke to me, we kindof talked and gave each other that comfort.
i think i felt how great it is to be safe! called sis n mum once i touched down.. msged few as well.
started feeling emotional reading sms from few that sent. i felt my pretty life that instance, i admit i had stuff running in my mind throughout.
tmr will be a long day.
but i will be good ya.
burp, i just had 3/4 can of Asahi light!
oops!
good night.
Off i go..
There's a strangest feeling to fly alone this time round. The excitement has subside, yet other felts fall in.
I hope to be brave and well.
