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royally pissed . . . ?
Thursday, March 31, 2005
maaf mama...
its official.
i.am.royally.and.fabulously.pissed.
"at wat?" u say..
a lot of factors..
firstly wld be the start of my day. woke up & immediately got into an argument.
next wld be a certain sms i received last nite...
den some careless mistakes during the test...
the freaking color printer that was draining our time & money...
pissed off wif the amount of energy im spending in sch...
but those were juz the little thgs...
the main reason im pissed...is myself.
aku hanyut.
dibawa ombak, jauh dari destinasiku...
too much energy spent for one aspect in life..dat by the time i reach home, im totally drained.
not enuf to give to my studies & my family. this is not wat i want to be like...wateva happened to my carefully laid plans made a yr ago? where in time did i get so distracted dat i've lost my way?
therefore, im pissed.
i can feel the timebomb ticking away...too much has been suppressed...i need to let it out..
but where? how? when?
time is short...
spaces are limited...
energy low...
juz wonderful . . . . .
battles, battles & m0re battles....
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
[1030hrs] AEIS ended freaking early today...so went to salc while waiting for sham...
[1200hrs] meddled a bit with the mag b4 receiving an invitation for free food @ t5...thanx sis! =)
[1300hrs] took the key frm N.K. & went over to salc to continue work...
[1500hrs] decided to take a rest & watch LOTR wif sham...absolutely love the battles..
[16??hrs] battles shifted to man vs comp
[1900hrs] mag is relatively done..final checks etc will do tmr...
[2030hrs] watch P&T battle out their differences...followed by Killer Waves
[2200hrs] lost battle to stay awake...zZzZzZ
-alya-
16bomb16bomb16bombto18bomb!!
Monday, March 28, 2005
from t16 to t18... they were playing the bombing game while waiting for their respective lecturers... -_-;;
lucky i left mls a bit later than usual...hahaha
alya
G2 or G3?
Saturday, March 26, 2005
clockwise or anticlockwise?influenced by cnc milling...hahaSaturday, 19th Marchmet nautical in sch @ 12.40am b4 mtg abg mas @ 1.04pm at dover mrt platform. guez where we were gg? being west pple..i bet moz wld tynk we went outing over at the west side..furthest town area or north...which on a normal occasion...wld moz probly be true...
however, we had a mission. attending MIQ taklimat @ Bedok Lib.
aft taklimat...kita bertiga pergilah mkn....tahu kat mana tak? kat KFC...kat Bugis. took bus service 7 (i tynk) there..
kept being reminded of HIM everywhere i turn when we were shopping...was searching for my granddad's shades...aft scouring the whole 'neighbourhood' of shops, finally selected one. which later turned out to b a bit too classy for my granddad...dono if he's wearing his or if my dad exchanged the new one for his old one...dats their biznes oreadi..haha
bought a camouflage scrunchie...well, one part done. juz need to get camouflage shirt, pants and cap. and preferably the bag...tapi suspect budget tak akan cukup...heh
went over to the edge> where nautical fell in love with a billabong bag @ 77th Street. i myself fell in love with everythg in the shop..haha
the trip home was as entertaining as it was mind boggling... :) had a nice time out...cuma kurang kehadiran seseorang..tak dpt nak buli..hehe Sunday, 20th
LOTR!! Fellowship of the Ring. Aragorn is sooooo gorgeous! beats Legolas hands down man! :p Monday, 21st
met up wif nautical agn...this time @ Jurong lib. HE BOUGHT THE BILLABONG BAG!! AAAAAA!!!! hehe
we went blog surfing first....and dats when we realized that a certain mutual fren of ours had uploaded our fav song at his blog!!! the sweet silence of the library was momentarily shattered by our excitement. hahaha
even better still....they had headphones there! :D
borrowed bks & quickly made our way home...gotta be in time for part 2 of LOTR...cant miss my date with strider now can i? ;)
Tuesday, 22nd
had alot of stuffz to do todae...was slightly surprised by the list for the day as compared to the rest of the wk. well, thankfully managed to do it systemetically...
main event of the day was kem mtg. tho it ended at ard the same time as previous, it somehow felt shorter....less taxing perhaps? ntahlah.Wednesday, 23rd
HURRAY!! today marks the stepping down frm SPTC. haha i feel soo relieved. tho it was a bit sad to part with my 3 keys dat haf been part of the key family...u cld almoz feel the desperation of the oth members of the key family. they wldnt let me remove the keys without a fight..haha
but they had a new member...so i guez it wasnt so bad.
GD LUCK to SPTC COMM 05/06.
was s'pose to haf miq study session...but moz cldnt make it...and...pulling out is an option. still gotta confirm with everyone involved...
SSP had their rehearsal for GPA...the music's lovely...wish u guys all the best.. :)
Nht march edition layout is nice. publishing is way beyond deadline...but still ok. juz a few more here & there.
oh ya...ada org tu..pakai glasses first impression was 'nerdy-nye'...2nd & 3rd impression --> hot,hip,cool and oh so retro.
Thursday, 24th
helped nurliyana do abit of the layout b4 gg for dinner at JP wif nautical. oh..and we (nautical&me) went on a photo taking spree..haha at SALC, the walkway and MLS...hehe
adik..jgn lupa send the pics tau.. ;)
Ikhlas...last episode...the ending was wonderful...it was juz as i had hoped..Naia & Reza...but pity Iman...Naia made her decision on 1 Syawal so it'll be a happy raya for her & reza..but a sad one for the heartbroken iman...but who asked him to tear gina's heart so cruelly...
the part where reza got stabbed was very heartwrenching...i was checking the clock to make sure there's still time b4 the end...coz frm there can tell if he'll survive or not..hehe
did i mention that he looks great? he looks handsome with his songkok...and when he dint wear...esp in the last episode..he still looked great..but tt's provided if his hair isnt backcombed & gelled...
i also like the part where naia was repeating "jgn tinggalkan aku reza"..holding his hand titely...and wen she stood up to go somewhere...reza grabbed her fingers and woke up frm his 'coma' saying her name 'fitri' over and over...it was soo sweet.... *awwww*
niwaez, Tengku (Teuku) Ryan, the actor playing Reza will be appearing in the next sinetron showing on Suria. DIA...aaaaa! am so gonna watch it...am oreadi missing seeing his face...hahaha
Friday, 25th
watched Ms Congeniality2 wif Didi today @ PS. met seri & huda outside the theatre..dey had juz finished watching the same show..lol
man..the ticket queue was like so freaking looooooooong.....
niwaez, met mai&yat after the movie...turns out tt mai & didi were primary schmates...such a small world we live in...
met zaki wif luqman & my neighbour(dono her name) and their frenz @ LJS...
first time mtg mls peeps wen im out wif my sec sch frenz...heh
me & didi went window shopping ard PS and she bought this beautiful pink manik skirt...it so goes wif ya gal.. (",) u pink girl u..hehe
reached home juz in time to catch the 3 divas performance @ the encore of APM. but damn...missed 'Cinta'...haizSaturday, 26thall my plans for the day...shattered! betrayed by my own body. spent most of the day terlantar diatas katil...maybe it was the pillow...maybe becoz i tortured my shoulder carrying heavy loads with my slingbag...or perhaps i was juz too tired beyond belief without realizing it...wateva it was...my neck stiffened up during the night..had to go to the market with a stiff neck. went back to bed after buying the essentials in the hopes it'll get better...it obviously dint or i wld haf gone for the Konsert Hanyut. :/wats make it sadder...i dint receive a single call today...nada.zero.zilch. boredom makes thgs werse. :(and i cant even open up microsoft word to do my fyp proposal...haizzzguess i mite as well try studying...nitez
cinta....
Monday, March 21, 2005
Cinta
Melly Goeslaw feat. Kris Dayanti
Menapak jalan yang menjauh
Tentukan arah yang kumau
Tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa
Yang membuat hati lara
Di dekat engkau aku telah (penuh)
Sandung matamu penuh tanya
Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita
Cinta...tegarkan hatiku
Tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
Naluriku bergetar tak ingin terulang lagi
Kehilangan cinta hati bagai raga tak bernyawa
Aku junjung petuahmu
Cintai dia yang mencintaiku
Hatinya dulu berlayar kini telah menepi
Bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia
Cinta biar saja ada
Yang terjadi biar saja terjadi
Bagaimana pun hidup hanya cerita
Cerita tentang meninggalkan dan yang ditinggalkan
Cinta
anione has this mp3? can send me? pretty pleaseee...
thanx ddad & azzie & khairil (",)
alya.
just for you...
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
I may seem happy,
but dont be fooled...
I'm hurting inside,
oh so confused...
The harder i try,
to forget...
The faster i fall,
into the trap...
0f broken dreams,
and shattered hopes...
like sunken ships,
and scattered souls...
in my heart,
oh so true...
a place reserved...
just.for.you.
@>-;-- alya --;-<@
of meals & 'love letters'
Monday, March 14, 2005
had a nice dinner with abg golden, nautical and shanurda...filled with sarcasm & laughter. now im stuffed like a turkey. 1 plain prata for breakfast..pizza hut for lunch (class 'outin')..LJS for dinner...shld probably skip meals tmr..hehe
shoot..i tynk i left my maths w/s in mls...oops. was practicing writing the chinese character 'wo ai ni'...roughly got the shape..but still not smooth yet. soon tho..soon...
~ though i may seem happy...dont be fooled. im hurting inside...so confused ~
drained...
Sunday, March 13, 2005
exhausted. tired beyond belief...mentally, physically, emotionally.
yesterday's mtg was uneventful...juz gave some comments on the sub-com under me & told erwin i wont be continuing service...dint give exact reason y..on the surface they juz assume its due to fyp & stuff...but i bet they know that's not the determining factor.
today:-
was woken up by a dream.. 1.15mins b4 my alarm..
*2 missed calls* gasp!oh no!
*List - wanmohamedhaddad - time: 1.45am* -_-;
sori dint pick up ur call...guess i slept thru the ringing..heh
tried switching on my laptop [my pc juz suffered frm power surge...haizz] but it kept restarting..gave up after an hr & juz stared at the starry sky since i cldnt get back to slp..*shrugs*
gave ddad a call at 8am..felt a bit awkward, asyik mengganggu je hehe...
wasnt expecting him to b awake yet..and i was rite! lol
niwaez met up wif him at toa payoh @ 10am...almoz cldnt recognise u frm far...almost.
10.30am-3pm: arrival, attendance & departure with reference to NUSMS IAP2005 Opening Ceremony..[too tired to blog on it]
was feeling broken up on the train ride home...trying to figure out juz how to handle thgs..i juz dono animore...it's been a long time..and its more than juz a crush now..
"sungguh berputar belit"
"wen it comes to love...evrythg is complicated.."
"u've got to ask urself wat isit really that u want..." - excerpts frm today's conversation. thx mai for making me think bout it once agn...
reached home at 4pm..felt a bit under the weather...guess everyone else at home was feeling the same...had a mass napping session..haha until the 3 eldest in the house(grandpa, mum & me. dad still out at werk) got rudely awaken by a call from 1 of my frenz...irritating seh..first call my hp..i cancelled the call..malas seh nak bual..da la ngantuk..kacau jek.
den 3 secs later..called my house. twice. my granddad had to pick up..wen he told me abt it..juz told him to tell dat fella dat im slpin haha.
hmm...boring eh hidupku ini..im getting bored juz writing bout it..hah!
~...jealousy wreaks havoc in the heart, mind and soul...~
@>-;-- alya --;-<@
Rriitteee....
Friday, March 11, 2005
::: during AEIS lecture :::mike: we were talking abt u on msn...alya: huh? how did that happen?mike: he was telling me he saw u yest...while trying to psycho his malay fren to consider having a malay girlfren..alya: oh k...so?mike: ....he said u got character...got the looks....alya: o_O ...err...riiteee...okmike: i cldnt help but laugh at him...den he asked if i wasnt attracted to you...hahahaha..i tynk he's attracted to u lor..alya: O_o ...mike: oh and he said if he dint haf to convert...he would definitely try to woo you leh...alya: O_O ... ermm..k..too bad..even if he were to..he wldnt succeed...like i told u n eugene oreadi..i dun go for chinese guys... :psides..u noe i've given my heart to someone else... ;)mike: hahahaim not sure to be flattered (by dave's comment) or offended (by mike). lol. interesting...well at least i noe the person giving the comment...unlike that unknown SAM who strikes me as a pervert...gives me the creeps man.
small outburst...
Thursday, March 10, 2005
i hate having to keep bothering him wif the little details...
i hate having to worry...
i am
not strong.
i wish i had his strength.too many events happening at the same period...exams...club activities...competitions...if i tynk abt them anymore im gonna explode!*takes deep breath*no..tak leh ikutkan sangat...gotta make do wif wat we haf...dan terus berusaha...oreadi got plans on preparation...juz need to pass the hurdle of pulling together a team...i hope i can find some more pple by tmr....
..
...
i miss you.
What's ur personality?
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
*note: those in orange coincide with what i tynk of myself*Your answers suggest you are an Idealist
The four aspects that make up this personality type are:
- Spontaneous
- Ideas
- Hearts
- Introvert
Summary of Idealists
Make sense of the world using inner values
Focus on personal growth and the growth of others (sub-conciously perhaps)
Think of themselves as bright, forgiving and curious (eh??)
May sometimes appear stubborn (haha...true2)
More about Idealists
Idealists put time and energy into developing personal values that they use as a guide through life. They may seek fulfilment by helping others improve themselves and often want to make the world a better place. Idealists only share their inner values with people they respect.
Idealists are the most likely group to say they are vegetarian, according to a UK survey. (well...im not living in UK)
Idealists enjoy discussions about a wide range of topics, particularly those that deal with the future. They are typically easy-going and flexible, but if their values are challenged they may refuse to compromise. (havent really reached that point...so not sure if its true)
In situations where they can’t use their talents or are unappreciated, Idealists may have trouble expressing themselves and withdraw. Under extreme stress, Idealists may become very critical of others, or lose confidence in their own ability to cope.
Recognition for their work is important to Idealists; however, they are also good at spotting false praise. (this pt might be true...depends on circumstances)
Idealist Careers
Idealists are often drawn to jobs where they can help people reach their potential. They are also attracted to careers that allow artistic creativity. (wat bout engineering?? lol)
HP character....

Harry
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surgery..
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
woke up an hr earlier den normal...and remembered that my grandpa is gonna have his laser surgery today. on his right eye. could see that he was nervous..tho he tried to hide it. Though im not dat close to him now as i used to be 10yrs back..i do hope today will go smoothly for him...afterall, he is my only surviving grandparent...still do care even if i dont normally show it.
should get home asap aft doin proe...
-ve, +ve and neutral...
Monday, March 07, 2005
third day having my hair in a ponytail (more like a bunny's tail actuallie)...1st claz was maths lecture...practically everyone in my claz (who came for maths) turned and stared when i came in(late as usual)... -_-;is it sooo surprising to see me wif my hair tied? :pmike was saying that i shldnt haf used the orange 'scrunchie' (is dat how u spell it? i forgot..too long never use the word hehe) niwae, i dun bother abt wat mike tynks...i liked the way i look in the mirror and dats wat matters the moz...2nd only to wat HE thinks. heh.during break...bumped into Giv at T14 when i was doin my ProE. the stoopid comp forced log me off at 12noon. hmph. lucky received a msg frm nautical asking to meet at salc. was reluctant to do proe aniwaez. so went over...and helped him troubleshoot some of the bugs. i simply love his simply wonderful background.received my maths test results todae....14/20quite relieved i passed...lolkept drifting off to dreamland during mechanics...his lectures will alwayz haf that effect on me...itz probly the lighting..hahafrustrating u noe...coz i really like mechanics...itz not sth i want to fall asleep during lectures...finished the 6 tutorial qns by 4.15pm...did nothin till 4.45pm. wanted to leave earlier...but haiz..being stuck in a good claz has its disadvantages...everyone else was still doin tutorials...there goes my chance to sneak a nap..upon reaching mls...saw zaf n ddad...both said sth at the same time...so much so dat i've mixed up wat was said in tt moment. :plearnt a new song frm Najib K. hehe somethg interesting happened at mls today...shall not mention more here..on my way home...saw him...wonder if he likes my hair tied..lolgonna grow my hair longer...den can tie properly with all the various styles known to man...hahahamy sis will haf 1 more model to practice her hairstyling skills on...wahahaha!peace out.alya
Only One : Yellowcard
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
(Interlude)
Here I go...so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one
And I know...you can see right through me
So let me go...and you will find some one
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one...no one like you
You are my only my only one
My only one(x3)
You are my only my only one!
stoning
Friday, March 04, 2005
had a long day... got stuck in the mrt for longer than supposed to due to some track fault..
pissed off with a certain someone for breaking her promises and not informing me earlier eventho i asked her to...
realized juz how much she has changed...or perhaps, this is her true self and im onlie juz begining to realize it.seems like wen dealing wif her and R..gotta haf more than 1 backup plan....still damn pissed.we were close..now we're drifting further apart. i tot i cld count on u. esp wen u said i can. these past few instances have seriously undermined my trust in you.-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-its past midnite and yet im still here...staring at the screen...doing nothing constructive & juz blogging.todae's mtg had a different feel to it. cant put a finger on wat exactly.exhaustion creeping up on me as the clock struck 8pm. wanted to juz lie down and sleep. dint want to go back too early tho. guez gotten too used to being home late. and staying up all nite for no real reason.discussions cont'd aft mtg...respective sections choosing their spots all ard mls...with 3 sections opting to continue at the cliff. The logical powers and pub.juz called my dear chairman's home...obviously i dint get to talk to him or i wldnt be blogging now. haizz...graphics, MIQ deadline, interview, presentation, agm, printing etc..no one really understands my fears...regarding all thgs i'm responsible for...perhaps not even myself. perhaps im a perfectionist for certain stuffz. *shrugs*tick tock tick tock...there goes the clock...peace out.
brains..
You Are 20% Left Brained, 80% Right Brained |
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
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ermm....o..kaee..
@>-;-- alya --;-<@
heartbreaks....
Thursday, March 03, 2005
Maths test todae....sucked big time.but it was kinda expected..dint really practice much for it...juz flipped thru onli...well its done and cant be undone.den i read somethg on someone's blog that juz cracked my heart..my lil bro will noe who..gotta face the facts gal...he's not for u..on the brighter note...nautical gave me my share of brownies frm Mrs.Fields!! Thanx bro! 1st time tasting it and MmMm...yum!! Thanx again! (",)@>-;-- alya --;-<@
the adventures of NAS...
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
NAS? wazzat u may ask...well...
Nautical
Alya
Shanurda
& together we form the
[crazy] publication team! ;)
met up wif nautical at mls...planned to leave sch at 3pm so in the mean time, watched the gpa video.
at first tot it wld juz b the 2 of us gg on this outing..but a call frm shanurda minutes aft ;eaving mls confirmed her presence wif us...this combi forms the following eqn:
nautical + alya + shanurda = sarcasm + crappiness + loadz of laughter = a wonderful timethe train ride to dhoby was normal...once we alighted tho...dats wen the fun began..haha
spent ard 30mins walking ard in circles..lead by our guide..none other than Mr.Nautical...lucky it had stopped raining or we wld probly have been soaked! but it was worth the long walk...we had an interestin conversation...on relationships dan hal-hal yg sewaktu dengannya...heh
being the kind soul that he is...nautical offered to pay for the cab fare..
shanurda kekek ah...first said that she wanted to exercise..den after walking abit further..complained she was tired...heh
by the time we finally reached the area where Peace Centre was located...all of us were tired and thus got nautical to treat us to a Super Big Gulp & a cup of mashed potatoes...
speaking of mashed potatoes...when it was dispensed..we were like "huh??! wow...dats sooo mashed.." seriously tho..wat wld u tynk at first if the mashed potatoe seemed extremely watery?? but it did 'solidify' after a few seconds...so it was fine..and gosh...i juz luurve the gravy..yummy.time: 1551 hrslocation: Peace Centremission: quotations huntingset off to complete our mission...had set a target of at least 5 quotations..started frm the 2nd floor...to the 3rd floor...down to 1st floor...one particular shop...waduh! tak leh angkat seh...eventho we kept telling the auntie..20 pgs..she kept counting for 15 pgs..and tot dat we wanted A4...eventho we oreadi showed her the sample and said we wanted it printed the same way...cant take it man...den of coz, some shops dint do the kind of printing we needed..oh n at the start of it all...shanurda spotted Mayuni Omar on the second floor...boy! she was like so hyper and excited etc. went on & on & on abt him and wanting to go up to him and ask for autograph etc.i bet he saw us hanging ard..probly even heard her talking abt him...yes shar..u were dat loud :phahahawell...we finally did meet up with him..after hanging outside(for wat felt like at least 5 mins) the music shop he's working in.. taking a few peeks every few moments...if he dint see us b4..he definitely saw us den..went in...waited a few moments more b4 shanurda & nautical went up to him..with me following behind...he was playing the keyboard...and looked shocked when we approached him...kecian dier..kena bombard dgn kita..hahaquite a nice guy...tak sombong...sanggup melayan kerenah kita...nautical was mainly quiet thruout the conversation...i was interested in talking business and the opportunities to incorporate his bisnes interests & nurhayat/spmls interests...shanurda was more focused on the details to join his sch..[ ryt shar? ;) ]well, he was kind enuf to give us his name card instead of juz giving us his contact thru hp..sanggup seh dier walk all the way up to the next level to get his name cards...oh haf i mentioned? shanurda's face was like pink..and she was so stunned she could barely speak...hehe[mission accomplished]next stop: esplanade librarythe journey frm peace centre to esplanade was filled with sarcasm...moz directed at shanurda...jahat eh kita.. :p
passed by this movie collectibles shop...at first dint want to allow nautical make a detour at the shop..but he said the magic words...'Harry Potter' and off i went instead..hahaha
gosh...they have the wand on sale..at $90/- ahhhh!! i want!!
den there's also the gryffindor cap and scarf...
postcards...bkmarks..calendars..mugs..etc
and i totally fell in love with the necklave from the Lord of The Ring... the one that Aragorn wore...so beautiful!!
someone get one of those for me?? pretty pleassee?? lolz
shanurda bot one of the calendars...me? there were juz too many nice designs that i dont noe which to choose...haha
oh and we saw a feather...that mite do quite well as our quill...Jeep & womad shld recall abt the quill...hahaha
do u still want it?
time: 1850 hrs
location: citylink
activity: taking photos using nautical's phone...
from left to right: S, A, N
the 3 musketeers :p
upon reaching City Hall mrt...i set my destination to home sweet home...while the other 2...ahem2..hahaha went off to mercy relief office...
(",)
i love my team <3
@>-;-- alya --;-<@