went marina square with bros
finally bought some stuff i wanted
wahahahah
went 848 to have some supper with them
then sat down and talked under some void deck close till 3 am

2007
a very very lousy year
been a very bad person
picked up very bad habits
broke hearts and disappointed people
hope next year will be a better one
i've plenty of new year resolutions
geez.

end off with someone elses' posts which i thought were rather meaningful
posts worthy of taking another look :D

# this call the end of team i suppose.

rmb excatly three year ago. i know you guys through dota through ck if i am not wrong. since den i being to play a lot and went out with you guys. haha. was really happy tt i get to know finally to get to know some different kind of pple.. some are animal like zy.. and nc like furblog.. and some super muscle guy hy.. and some super MORE DAO DEN Me de CK.. lol.. eugene.. almost everyone..

was really glad i found you guys. = )

two years ago, we were like some kind of kids trying hard how to play dota.. where we have class vs class dota compeition and me or yy used to pawn everyone with his legend omniknight and my 3 hit ko everyone bone.. those time were = D = D.. hahaha

one year ago, we were more of a professsion team. we started to have a team of 5 and trained.. we spend hours on the com training with each other.. soon we see that we can be a great team. with everyone giving their heart and commiting. so, we set up team spade. and started to join some tourney.. actually to be honest, my first tourney in dota was the samsung WCG 2006. lol great event. we were all so motivated and trained hard. despite our first team is VS team sp. we lost hard. but that doesn't stop us from giving up. we contiune to train, and we swear that next year we will be back to thrash those noob team sp.

one month ago, we were in a 2nd tourney in a inter school sp tourney, we got into top 8! meaning we are top 8 strong in the whole of sp.. = D .. that was suppose to be a kind of motivation i though..

2 weeks ago, jm gave up dota. this leads to a big problem lacking of training and players in our team. we started to lose faith in each other.. there was nth much i think i could have done. even if i could, there are just somethings which everyone wanted to have it their way. there was already nth much left in the team other den just a mere name.

one day ago, i had a quarrel with hy. this doesn't feel good. and i never expect this to happen with the guy i took train to sp and back home for the past 1 year. i really doesn't know quite sure of wad excatly happen.

yes, it may be my fault something if u think i am too harsh in you in the game. and i think i told you many times that i mean no intention of scolding or insulting you. i really hope u will understand. and if anything that i meant wrongly. i am sorry for now. and regarding to the thing that u say that i keep saying that u dun contribute to the team, maybe yes u dun place it at high piority but i think that is nth wrong now. u have your many commitment. well. maybe one day when we have ours. we will understand. and i dun mean to keep saying you about how helping the team. but just from the reply i got from you i am a little irritated that i felt that u aren't interested in the tourney. well. i guess is all over. and there is nth much to be said anymore. and again, i am sorry for those wrong intention i mean to you hy.

few hours ago, we were at e games playing a draft match with pat. our drafter liew, became mute and stopped drafting. so we were all lost. i asked a help each of the team to help draft together since we haven for playing for so long. no one reply. i asked again. i turn my head and see around. all was just starting at the blank screen. even if we dun help ourself. who will? i seriously felt dismotivated, and even if guys are feeling it. why aren't we doing anything? have we given up hope on our fellow team mates? i begin to lost hope in all things i do. i am just like a empty shell.

despite all these.. i wanna thx everyone! BRO forever. lol. for all the experience and happy moments. = D

p.s.
for anyone of team escape reading this.. we have given up our slots for the funan it to Hybird. LETS ALL WISH THEM THE BEST AND WIN THE TEAM ESCAPE NAME. LOL.

and of course.. all the best to everyone in wad every they do now.. playing maple.. jioing girl.. working.. studying.. jia you.= )

# suddeny i see

the limit of my tolerance came in the form of yesterday.

for one, the weather was really bad but that is mother nature
that we cannot change but can only accept,
while humans on the other hand, are able to.

but that is minimal in relation to what troubles me next.
If a friend calls you, even if it is a missed call, you would sms or call back right?
thats basic courtesy, manners, respect, thats normal.
Well i am beginning to think, that is hard to believe.
Why? Because i do not see it happening around me.
Some people might think it is a small thing to fuss about,
but if such a simple thing cannot be done among friends,
then what if a big issue arrives?
can we then rely on them for support?

foundation of little situations such as these,
will lead to a stronger bond in the future.
yesterday i was not expecting much,
just an sms or someone to pick up or reply a call to tell me the location to meet.
but what happened? No one called back or bothered to send an sms.
do not tell me you did not see the call or the phone was in your bag,
because when i reached there, most of your phones were in your hands,
now explain that.

Disappointment overcame everything else when i waited for so long for a change.
Some of you might not even care what i am expressing, then i couldnt care less about you too.
If you think this is short temperedness or not a big problem to change yourself,
well, that just shows your level of maturity or perhaps,
immaturity.

# DOTA

this entry is dedicated to one of the greatest games : DOTA =p been playing this game for so darn long that i can kill myself 12times in a row =.=" ok lets first talk about the different kind of roles for dota.

Early gamers a.k.a supporters : These heroes are usually strong and prominent during the early stages of the game, they tend to be the ones to determine winners of early engagements. however, most of these heroes become of less and less impact as the game drags on, usually after 45mins they are rendered "useless" and tend to be the ones warding and sacrificing for the late gamers. usually under-rated, most people dont recognize the contributions of a supporter, mostly due to lack of understanding of the way the game works. however i think good supporters are key to providing a good late game and is crucial for winning the game.

Disablers a.k.a catchers : Heroes with slow,stun that usually starts the ganging process after the supporters ward up the map. disablers/catchers are usually played by people who can read the minimap well, as well as have the "sixth sense" and also requires a good deal of communication skills.

Late gamers a.k.a farmers : Usually played by good microers who can control their lanes, at the same time read minimap to escape from backstabs. given the role of playing the lategame, they are entitled to farm for the whole of early game. usually over-rated, everyone wants to play late gamers because who doesn't want to have 5 divines and run around killing opponents like ants and having tripple kills yelled at you all the time.

talking about team play, i am actually kinda new to playing the team style, been only like a year since we started playing draft matches ? before playing draft matches, i think i was foolish to think that individual skills are more important than teamwork. me and wanny, used to play like 1v5 or 2v5 sometimes 3v5 (plus clan leader) in bnet, every victory and kill was meaningless as it only contributed to our ego needs =p it was only after i started to play as a team that my concept of dota changed. i realized that the beauty of DOTA actually lies in teamwork. the way series of combos are played out well by the team is actually so priceless. so, lets move on to the people that i get to DOTA with regularly.

Patrick (sorry just couldnt resist talking about you first)
One hell of a good team player. very team oreintated, does his homework well and also the guy who does alot of communication within his team. but i think you really become blur when playing under stress? although we keep calling you feeder or what not, i want you to know that playing support all these while and your sacrificing for the team spirit will not go forgotten, at least not by me. just learn how to play under stress LOL

Yiyong
Also another support player, although sometimes you contracdict yourself or just oppose anything we say, but i think you had the intention of helping the team grow. Values teamwork, also another person who is always playing the warder&backstabbing role. Also the stunt man, always trying all the idiotic stuff. i seriously think that his VS is one of a kind. ok so yy is the pacc pro, so i'll tell you in the pacc way : "Principle of Conservartism", sometimes we chiong/bs halfway you can sense that the chance is gone just abort and wait for a better opportunity! i know you hate the effort going down the drain thing but it is better to "Leave the Green Mountain Here, Not Scared No Wood Burn" ok translate that into chinese. ^^

Chunkit
The lategamer boy, used to play permanent viper and qop. but dunno why now pangseh his viper already. Likes to farm, store alot of gold then go back buy big items to pwn opponent's butt. Good individual skills. Lacks communication though, ok lah your personality is the silencer kind so cannot blame, but try to talk more! we love your voice/words ROFL. yeah baby continue to farm ftw hmm did i mention that we love your voice/words?? LOL

Huangyong
Ok he's the 2nd in terms of seniority as 3 blind mice. HJ, HY, HP. this huangy is blind always ppl talk to him he never reply one. ok he is actually i think a good player (individual skills) but maybe he lacks exposure cuz he plays lesser. but i think skype has solved his blindness (IM BLIND NOT DEAF) woooot i wanted to say that for awhile now. PLAY MORE!! SCREW THE OTHER 2 BLIND MICE AND STEAL THE WHOLE COM FOR YOURSELF is all i can say.

ZhengYang
The rhasta lover. hmmm this guy ah, sometimes will be discouraged when his frag is negative, it happens all the time dude, and it's nothing wrong to be negatively skewed. don't let the frag take out the hope in you, for they say, you can take everything from a man but you can't take away hope. good micro skills. play more!! play less cs and AI and play more irc =p

ok thats about all the people that dota regularly + will read this blog. remember guys, everytime we say something about each other, be it negative/positive, it is often not personal and is just targeted at the directed area. Known each other for so long, surely we don't get offended by constructive critisism although none of us are always right. we know right? boys can start arguments and fights but the next day we will be back refreshed and brothers again. the purpose of this post is a tribute to DOTA, and also to the people around me, we play as a team, win/lose a team and grow together as a team. compys here we come!

Note: The above opinion(s) are based on my personal view. nothing is accurate or the truth so people who read this please DONT FLAME ME :D

went angmokio training yesterday morning
very very tiring
haven't been to any training since sec two
good training with nice people
though i know that we got looked down some of the times
i just hate to be so weak
but can't help it.

left earlier for some basic theory evaluation
cabbed down from amk to bukit batok
and all three of us failed =.=
shouldn't have went, lol.

okay then headed to yanling's house
me and garry were dozing off in the bus
it's the second time i've been to compass point
and i took LRT for the first time in my life
LOL.
thanks kaihui for the spaghetti and soup
was damn hungry but i couldnt finish
collected my broken ginger bread man :D

after reading a friend's post
it somehow scares me how religion can affect someone
putting GOD above your parents
did God brought you up for the past 18 years or your parents?
i'm feeling very disturbed

bah
having some serious muscle aches now
till then.

SORRY to those whom i put aeroplane
lol, agreed to go clement house but didnt turn up.

i slept at 5 in the morning
chatting wit stone and emo pat
hahaha
weird, i can't wake up later than 11 pm nowadays
no matter how late i slept

met up wit teo bai and hei at khatib
wah they are super late kings
pool at cine for awhile
accompanied garry to ms
went home change and headed off to 838
we played till 12 am can you believe
with taiyi, haowei and jingsheng
playing ball in the midnight damn high
people looking at us with blah blah blah stares.

and so i got home, and my damn phone really cmi. had a hard time charging it.
i guess it's time for me to get a new phone.

alright i gotta wake up early tmr. all thx to my beastie for wanting to ball. after that driving lesson and home to sleep.
nvm, i shall wait for my cookies tmr. :D

i got woke up by phone calls for the past few mornings including today
supposed to go down to bbdc but we were rather late
so skipped and alighted at my initials to eat YA KUN.
stupid but fun,
haha that's what we always do back in year one
met up,
reached dover but everyone was moodless for school
skipped and proceeded the town for breakfast
lol.

GYM
SWIM
BALLED.

christmas eve was spent at YISHUN S11 with euji hy yy.
proceeded on to garry house for supper treat by his parents
which consists of crabs, chicken wings
and lastly CHIVAS 18 brought by yy.
hahaha.

christmas was spent at YISHUN S11 AGAIN
then khatib 838 to ball

YES, that's how i spent my christmas
let's pray we wont spend our new year's eve at the coffeeshop again

HOLA~

i've decided to take down the previous post cause it's not good to defame people la.
even though it's for entertainment purposes, lol.
first week of holiday has ended!
last week to enjoy before the start of hectic school term again
nothing much happened.

lost slamdunk competition
UNFAIR.
we won 3 out of 4 matches but they only take into account the points
what da fuck man
well, but its a good experience for me
had never play in competition since primary school
i want to grow bigger
i want to eat people
i want to bang, knock people down
bah, nevermind
imma gonna improve and be back,
stay tuned.

movies watched
WARLORDS is nice
the 3 super bigshot actors in one film
DA GE SHI DUI DE.
NATIONAL TREASURE is good too.

went swimming yesterday
yy swim so slow sia
worst than patrick
junming that nerd keep tanning and spreading the oil
was rather early so me and euji decided to join garry's friend for bbq
saw my $2000 :D
dotaed and watched tv at his house cause was rather awkward for us to join them lah

balled at 205 for two weeks
been a long time since i balled wit them
3 years at least
its good to see familiar faces again
met up with garry, haowei and junming
we were getting thrashed for the first few matches
the score for the first match was 11 - 1
but we managed to buck up and it's our turn to trash :D
ate mac for lunch and im so gonna have a sore throat soon
went velocity and town
walk until legs wanna break
ended the day with dinner at 848
lastly,
my arms are so red due to the afternoon sun
alrights
boring night ahead.

MERRY CHRISTMAS FOLKS

(:

hello world, same old life.
friday,
stayed in school till 2 pm which is fucking stupid lah
waited 2 hours to attend 1 hour of lecture
would've skipped if not for the threat of being debarred
planned to meet garry but was cancelled somehow
went home to take a rest, bathed and went out to meet brothers
domed for 2 rounds and we were pretty much ownage
hahaha
was rather late and tried to hail a cab to zouk but like the whole world was waiting for cab too
booked cabs and off we go
weeeee free entry due to the invitation cards
flesh imp show was pretty nice
spent the whole night in phuture till it closed
then cheapos us were trying to save money,
so we sat down elsewhere and chatted till 6 am for the midnight charge to be over
and we then cabbed home

woke up at around 3 pm
played a few rounds of dota
and went down to play basketball
nothing much.

was supposed to ball at braddell today
but was cancelled due to the rain
so went kbox
and that marks the end of the week.

yea, last week of school
fm test on tuesday and i think i'm gonna fail again
well, who cares? :D

this sem the modules are XIONG DUO JI SAO
financial management and marketing research are screwed
school is so boring
tutorials are always at the first half of the day
which are before lectures
and so you know what la huh
lol ~





woke up at 10 today, which is the time i need to reach school
SUDDENLY, my sms tone sounded and its from my classmate
"PDWM class cancelled"
overjoyed.
went down BBDC to settle some admin stuff
the money deplete abit fast ah
i seriously NEED MONEY to support my driving lessons :(
anyone with a job puhlease help.





proceeded to orchid condo for ball and swim sessions
cool, the court and pool are so empty
rather simple day but it's the company that matters
8 - 10 tomorrow, and finally having a chance to go gym
i seriously NEED MASS
LOL.




see yah loyal readers :)

retests are rubbish
going of retests without studying is meaningless
what's the point man

took class photo today
i so prefer my present class compared to last year
anyway went down to support patrick
grats bro
hope you make it big in your dota career
maybe dota is really your cup of tea
(:

aye, am fucking tired
there's dreadful gems tomorrow
life's pretty much mundane
but i'll survive :D

till then.

while in school, i yearn for the arrival of weekends.
but when weekends come, i'm just wasting time
and here comes monday blues again

so this life huh

the i fucking hate school feeling is back



failed 2 papers already
more to come?

YES, MST finally ended.
today's paper was rather crap
i studied only like one out of three chapters and the questions for the other two chapters were answered based on common sense.
finished the paper in fifteen minutes but the teacher only allowed us to leave half an hour after the paper.
like what the eff, spaced out for another fifteen minutes.
went out of the room and saw them standing outside too, LOL




aye, so went gym with jm yy zy
fucked up shoulders make me do lesser
proceeded to amk hub for game plan wit jm and zy
nice show i must say.
balled at amkcc after the show




joined slamdunk 3on3
OPEN category somemore.
hope we don't get trashed, lol.
someone tell me what shall i do tomorrow,
i seriously can't think of anything.

just fuck off and die

it's jm's fault lah, i hope we didn't spoil anything, lol.

saw ah neh at gym today my friendly bball coach
kinda miss the trainings during sec school though it was tough
ah, if i was more talented last time

yeah 3 papers down, 2 more to go.
FM was tough, TEP was easy but i dont know how to do. reached 10 mintues late for TEP and the moment i sat down, had stomache and went to the toilet. rotted in school from 10 - 4 like what the fuck, i actually stayed in school doing nothing for 6 hours.

supposed to gym this morning but think that it's rather troublesome. QA paper is easy. teacher is bias, the nerd in my class left early and so did i. he didnt check his paper but checked mine instead. -.-

garry treated pizza hut just now cause he found some money LOL. and saw alot of beauties and dogs, quoted by him =\

time to dotaaaaaa!

end of e-learning week.
mst next week and i haven't fucking start studying
good luck to myself

should i work at dallas or not
advices!




well, off to sleep and tomorrow is a mugging day
fate seems to be finding fault wit me

i am finally fucking 18 weeeeeeeeee.

summary of the day:

swensens
alps
drunk
vomitted.

LOL, but still it's a fucking awesome day (:

weeee. friday went town to shop but as usual, bought nothing and jm is the only shopper. thanks garry for the free stuff at swensen. okay then someone suggested tonning at sentosa and so, we this bunch of siao kia went home changed and headed to sentosa. spent the night there playing cards and the rest of the day you can read it from jm's blog, lol.

reached home, slept for one hour and went bball wit my cousin, like finally had a chance to ball wit him. garry joined us too. wanted to watch guess x 3 but looks like staying awake for 40 hours is really tough.

slept song song till twelve and went gym. balled at 850 after that.

I FINALLY DUNKED AT 850.

okay now at home rotting, school's eight to five tomorrow, shucks.

ball, ball and ball.
for 4 days straight.
luckily it rained else it'd be 5.

mom's birthday and we had kfc for dinner.
long long time since we ordered

aye, school sucks :(

shucks. only attended three days of school this week. ah well, put the blame on those long breaks and bad friends. LOL.

caught daywatch which the entire movie is in some russian language, wasnt as nice as night watch but still alright. those who didnt watch the former wouldnt understand a single shit, lol.

gymed and balled for two days straight with friends. it has been a long time since we all played at 838. i hate playing wit butches, unless they are pretty ones.

weekend gonna pass soon and its school again.
bahhhhh boring life.

HELLO world. time to blog and i know its some old stuff but worth mentioning.

went to watch hey gorgeous in school and for heaven's sake, fiona xie is so hot. okay. caught shoot em up which is highly recommended by junming. it's so lame lah but overall still rather nice. balls of fury is nice too, had some blurred scenes which totally spoilt the show. maggi Q is fucking hot.

alps-ed and even the waitress knows that patrick is called potato. HAHA.

finally balled wit garry yesterday. quite good, looks like he still haven't deprove much. LOL.

attended all the lessons today and is a feat yo. lol. gym-ed wit zy hy yy and went home. aye, there's gems tomorrow and its soooo stupid.

OKAY. i went to school today but never attend any lesson.
reached school at 11.30 am but the lesson ended at 11.15 am.
went cca drive to waste time lastly homed.

Day #1 of school

i'm surprised that i could wake up at 6.45 am to prepare for school. rained heavily but was already in train. love watching the raindrops, the lightnings through windows.

reached school around 8.30 am, listened to some rubbish and was released at 8.45 am. went to foodcourt and rot till next lesson. went in at 10 am and sneaked out half an hour later. met yy jm hy and off i went home. wanted to gym but well, bed is awfully tempting. stayed at home for the rest of the day.

think i'm going for 30 minutes of lesson again tomorrow.

start of nerdy and loner life

I HATE SCHOOL

):

woke up at 8.55 am to re-choose GEMs and still didn't got what i want. this thing is so troublesome lah. it's rare i wake up so early, so i went to buy BIG BREAKFAST meal and ate at home. was indeed full. went back to sleep again cause there wasnt anyone to dota with.

met clement, pat and euji at northpoint to have lunch. the fucking ramen is like for dogs to eat. ate you ji duck rice at s11 finally.

then went j8 to catch invasion wit hy yy zy liew. was normal lah, but nicer than what i'd expected.

welcome back to singapore liew !

i ate alot today!

fried rice
katong laksa
fried noodles
chicken chop

next episode for hey gorgeous got dawn yeo clapbangkiss WEEEE
tomorrow going town and time for some new clothes WOOOO

sheeeeet. unknowingly, 3 weeks of holidays have passed and only 1 week is left. i haven done any shit yet and schools starting. it's so unfair. other schools have 2 months of holidays but only 1 month for sp. shucks. results are horrible and terrible and vegetable. so dead.

went paradiz to eat and pool after work. dori fish spaghetti for two days consecutively. chilled at alps cafe and it was literally chill with the temp of 12 degrees. cafe kahlua was exceptionally normal in my opinion. spent the rest of the night there playing cards.

watched evan almighty and pursuit of happyness on movie six. happiness is spelt as happyness in the movie so stop correcting me! okay it's 3 am now and i'm fucking tired. nights people.

The End.

the most difficult phase of life
is not when no one understands you;
it is when you don't understand yourself.

while most of the people are deep in sleep, the emo blogger strikes back. its 3 am only and i can't even find someone to dota with me.

sometimes it really amuses me when people say one thing but do another. theres's alot of smart people out there, but only few are wise. people can sound as philosophical like confucious on life, on relationships but to me, those hollow words mean nothing but just cheap talk. your friends can sound utmost brotherly to you or how deep your partner love is. Point Proof Pertinence. as what literature had taught us, without proof, you fail your essay. same goes to here. its simply bullshit (boo-sheet).

dont take things too seriously.
shit happens and when it happens on/to you
just struggle through and move on

appreciate your current situation and enjoy each day
dont get too eager to move on to the next phase of life
remember to live..

life's pretty much the same these days. school term ended and here comes the long awaited study week, exams week and holidays, to me it's just holiday everyday.

nothing much happened. phs carnival was okay, didnt expect much though. there're so many unfamiliar faces and few of the bands that performed were horrendous, not that we are or were good but yea. i was fucking sick on that day and didnt get to see people that i ought to see, caught up with some old friends and proceeded home.

national day was spent staying at home watching ndp parade cause i was too sick to even leave my house, might die somewhere out there.

today is a fucking lousy day. it just sucks watching others fly over you wit the sense of helplessness. im just so tired of being always stuck at the average standard. be it gaming, sports, studies or even as roles of son, friend etc. oh well but theres nothing much i can do. i'm alr 18 (to be) and its kinda late. still, i'll try, trying hard to shine as impossible as it may seems.

face it, this is one the many facts in the world. only with either power, money, status or real skills, you can earn respect from others or even strangers.

i've got this good friend of mine, i wont tell you who but he is kind of in some shit now. still remaining uncontactable for one whole week already and i should do something but im just reluctant, or rather lazy is a better word. whatever situation he is in now, he must be suffering.
but, who cares man. friends are still trying to achieve holy shit spree in dota, slogging guts out for those pathetic cents, hoping that 3 point shot could go in, catching the latest movie. who seriously gives a fuck when they are having fun outside. it's only when you sit down infront of the computer having nothing to do and then with the sudden thought that hey, i actually got this friend out there and then, one will start to empathize.

but but but some people say, then what you want us to do? emo whole day and remorse for him meh. ive no answer to this question and is still in a journey in search of enlightenment.

it's a vicious cycle. like what you have learnt in your primary 4 science, its an interrelated environment. everyone wants someone. people either use or get used. your friends set in only when you needed accompanionship.
when there's no other suitable dota host or last player,
when girlfriend is occupied with everything but not you,
when there's not enough legs to play tiles,
when conflict arises between you and some neighbourhood hooligans
when your activities or school had ended and you didnt want to go home so early
or worst, when there's something later on and had to kill time till then.

well, not everyone is a saint certainly and neither am i.

just my two cents.

today was a short day. had gems presentation at 8 am and it was fun, cause the topic was very interesting. and it's proven that pretty girls always have superb command of english but it doesnt apply to young girls. haha. bought mac breakfast on the way home, watched tv awhile. practically slept the whole day and was good, minus away the several phone calls which woke me up. alrights, gonna eat dinner and finish up my rwps report for submission tomorrow.
in addition, i attended 5 hours of school so far this week. hahaha.
time flies man, next week is the last week of school, then its the study week and lastly exams week. holidays are here soon again, real sooooon (:

and stop raining man, damn weather. you are making me unable to wake up in the morning!

yesterday sucks because..
i sucked at my pscm presentation
lost a match in goodspeed. WTF.
watched Vacancy and it was crap lah, far worst than wolfcreek or hitch hiker. i'd have fell asleep if not for kate beckingsale.

today 20th July is a significant day
looking back at the past posts
they invoked all sorts of emotions in me
happy 2 years old birthday dear blog

lastly, happy 3 months ling :D

the boobs guy came back to singapore this week, i meant junaidy. hahaha, hes still as crappy as ever. hearing him citing his story, life seems so much more interesting over at australia than here. cheap cars, relaxing life, dumb blondes LOL. how i wish i could be there but still, welcome to reality.

went joey house to celebrate his birthday last night. finally saw the dota players' faces. ate a little and went off. while deciding where to go, patrick suggested going coffeeshop to drink. yeah patrick, LOL. ate drank talked till 3 am and went back home. the cab journey was disastrous from what i heard. hahahaha. lucky i'm the first to alight. oh yeah and hy put our lives in danger AGAIN(had to stress this word) by trying to open the elevator's doors. the whole fucking lift stopped, alarm went off and the doors opened with us facing the wall, omg. for a moment, we thought we all were going to die. luckily nothing happened. nah this isn't the worst, the worst is still the one at amk. hahahaha.

this coming week is dooms day. all the projects' deadlines are up.
life is so so so mundane
bye i'm off to ball

Friday

5.30 pm - 9.00 pm:
celebrated patrick's birthday at NYDC with all the close friends; junming yiyong junwei eugene huangyong zhengyang. the baked rice was so fucking full i almost puked. hmm, several cake smashing attempts but failed because the orea cheesecake wasn't cooperative enough.
Happy18th Birthday Patrick! i know i'm the first to wish you ^^

9.00 pm - 11.00pm:
huangyong eugene and zhengyang then proceed off to cellgroup while the rest proceed to cyberdome for lan gaming. damn that match, how could we have lost. bah

11.00 pm - 1.00 am:
met up wit them again and went to swensen for another round of celebration. woooo patrick was made to stand on the chair while we sang birthdays songs for him. too bad it was 1 am in the morning and there wasn't much attention drawed.

Saturday

1.00 am - 2.30 am:
garry joined us and we went off to watch Die Hard 4.0. actions were nice but movies are still movies. a guy actually took down a chopper and fighter plane by himself with nothing but cars.

2.30 am - 5.30 am:
loitered outside cineleisure awhile deciding where to go but apparently we were left with nothing else but more lan gaming session. played few boring matches and buzzed off for the the first train.

7 .00 am - 3.00pm:
SLEEP

8.00 pm - 11.00 pm:
balled with the usual group and it was fun, even though the court is empty. then came a group of butch to challenge us.

Sunday

12.00 am - 8 .00 am:
mahjonged session at joey house. guess x 3 is so fucking hilarious. el oh el (lol)
had breakfast and went back home. stupid eugene brought us the wrong way and it took like half an hour from joey's house to mrt station.

8.00 am - 11.00 am:
played bball AGAIN at yishun cc and thrashed those arrogant nerds even though we were wearing slippers (:

slept again and here i am blogging, like finally. it's earth day wooo but seriously who cares. by the day the world perish i'll be six feet under the ground. try saving yourself first and then move on to this project earth folks. was alone at home when i woke up, watched a documentary on spiritual stuff and i can't believe i was freaked out, just a little. hey, it was raining and i didnt have any lights on. it's fun to on the music to max volume and shouting yelling with it, carefree wooo weee waaaa

when things happened, whos there to help? will god come down from his paradise to salvage you or friends and family to give you a hand. i love my parents, i love my girlfriend, i love my brother, i love my close friends. but things change, people change too. some people are drifting away, while other changes to the extent of disdain. time will tell, whos true and whos not.

A good friend will bail you out of jail but a true friend will be in jail with you.



Blue October - Hate Me

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

uh oh, first day of school and i've got so much things to do
'hidden' e-learning work
managed to go half of today's lessons
what a funny day, thanks to jaym and his jasmine green tea
hahahaha!
okay gonna rest and study soon,
watch me own fma tomorrow (:

A TRIBUTE TO MY AH BONG (:

thank you for
waiting for me eveytime, no matter how long i took
carrying my super heavy bag for me without complaints
appreciating everything i've done
putting up and giving in to my every whims
for watching teen titans when i forced you to, even if it is just for 5 seconds
being willing to accompany me to study even when you are uber bored
going to yishun park with me to feed the mosquitoes
going all the way to lavender to play see-saw with me
not being scared of my super scary mum which you have not yet met
letting me bite and pinch you
being psychotic while i'm sadistic
singing to me when i'm bored
the TWO morning calls
renting emily rose for me when i wanted to watch it
just being there for me
giving face to my oreo cheesecake and breakfast
waiting for my while i played with the swings
sacrificing your sleep just to talk to me
loving me the way i do :D



the end
super mushy post
omg

RANDOM THOUGHTS
e-learning week is killing me
because i have not been listening to bee to study hard
and i finally won in mahjong (:
someone nice volunteered to buy the pratas i'm craving for
but i rejected and regretted after that
oh, and i'm perfectly happy the way things are right now



BEE to CHEEKY BONG BONG (:
i'm willing to learn not to cry so easily for you :D
at least i can try

it was nice knowing you,
even though im not that close wit you but still..
rip ah kiang
we love you..

oh my blog is fine again cause theres a fucking trojan.
zonealarm rocks.

im glad for you bout the bloodtest result
dont luan luan lai liao
gone with the wind, bye~

there's something wrong with my blogger.
will blog soon
laters

just a short update.

school was alright laaaa, boring as usual.
huang got a imbal haircut which stunned everyone, hahaha!
patrick is the new maple addict; he didnt want to go out because he just bought x2

submarine, wooden plank and rubber ducky.
wink 182, still remember? x)

life sucks part 3.

end of holiday, start of school
i love beeee (:

yeahhh garry came my house to stay, like after so long since the last time. school starting soon le, boohoo. and where got host sleep floor u sleep bed one, naaabeeeeei. sleep so long so more. okay nothing much happened. went to eat breakfast and the ulcer still pain like fuck. played bball which is uber boringzzzzz. then go patrick house play mahjong jiu go home le. BORING DAY. tomorrow if nothing goes wrong should be going simyew house.
and last but not least,

PATRICK TAN MING HAN went to pangsai at SUNTEC CITY on the 31/3/2007.

laters

BORING DAY.
went j8 watch tmnt yesterday, was OKAY la. at least better than Monster House. LOL. then went zy house ton, nothing to do also. everyone keep sleeping, SIAN~
tomorrow still got work, booooo.....! i want money, but i don't want to work :(
got alot of stuffs to buy man

laters

finally played bball after like two months. was good, with garry and simyew. my usual ball mates. missed those times... when we spent endless hours on the court and also in the dessert shop with our uniforms, from short pants to long pants to home clothes.. time flies.. x)

i miss you
c move over never put negative sign!

life sucks part 2.

working fnb really sucks. you gotta serve customers like you owe them the whole fucking world. dressed up like a bitch, walking around with that hypocritical smile, like an idiot doing all those shits, fuck all those consumers.

mr bean holiday is one fucking boring show. i almost dozed off halfway. and i so seriously regretted coming out that 6 hours ago. im like surrounded with familiar faces as well as strangers. there aint no common interest among us anymore. i can see the effort that you all tried to strike up a conversation with me tho. oh yea and here comes the main point. the big commotion between the maplers and the non-maplers. believe everyone has read hy's blog which has indeed caused a big hu ha but i think it's too subjective to a certain extent. everyone got their rights to do what they like. but when it starts to affect the people around you, then there's a problem. AIYA all in all, no one is at fault really. we dont blame you guys and so continue doing what you enjoy, what's the point of living life when you can't enjoy what you are doing? no sarcasm here btw.

its more of a maple outing than a phs bbq gathering.
WO HAO FAN AH.
even more fan when i got a 1.7 gpa.
give me some directions,
anyone?

TODAY IS UBER FIRST BLOODS
AND WHY IS THERE PRISON BREAK SEASON 2 ?

Life sucks big time, why ?

Team BooBs offically disbanded, and this signifies the end of our DotA career. we once vision ourselves in the near future as the top few teams in sg, but i guess it's all over.
basketball is another history, fuck it. to think that i actually went to trainings hoping to play in competition.
i got into the fucking last option of my course all by myself and i know ive got no one to blame.
tomorrow's the first day of work and i hope everything goes fine

bah, ive abandoned all my hobbies
and i don't know what's there left in me
everything i does seems to be futile
nothing but false hopes,
aye.

have fun listening to your lies...
I shout out joy and you shout for help
Fuck! I hate you!
Dear G*d, You're a MOTHERFUCKER
Death for All - Death for All
I'm your worst nightmare,
Fuck off!I wanna die!

I don't even think of you as my friend
I don't even think of you as my friend

You deceived me and sold me out
Take off that mask of rectitude!
Pretender that hurts one's eyes, voice that jars on one's ear

Fuck 'em all without a care
Fake rock wannables...just die

I don't even think of you as my friend
I don't even think of you as my friend

The maze, it's so cold
I'll die in a world of lies and deceits

By tomorrow I'll be in despair
It was destined

I have fun listening to your lies...
I shout out joy and you shout for help
Fuck!I hate you!
Dear G*d, You're a MOTHERFUCKER
Death for All - Death for All
I'm your worst nightmare,
Fuck off!I wanna die!

I don't even think of you as my friend
I don't even think of you as my friend

The maze, it's so cold
I'll die in a world of lies and deceits
I'll die in a world of lies and deceits

"The Deeper Vileness" - Dir en Grey

Another First Blood.

First Blood. Will this put an end to my curiosity, or the beginning of endless troubles. Heaven or Hell, it all falls back to self-control, perspective.


I vision the small wish that I had been gazing
Why are you shivering?
The lonely boy looks up at the lonely sky that carries no meaning.

Where is the philosophy of spring
The long lost promise
It can not be heard anymore

As time goes by, it changes shape and disappears
Even now, after my heart was taken and rotted
My miserable voice
I am alone

Where is the philosophy of spring
The long lost promise
It can not be heard anymore

This is my pledge to you
I can't live successfully yet
But I think I can change

Even if tomorrow lets me live
The days will not change
It will not end

If my full blown heart will bloom again
Then answer me

I can not comfort anyone.

"The Pledge" - Dir en Grey

HELLO folks. the chinese new year week has finally passed, don't know why but i think new year are no longer like the past. whereby there are big gatherings among families, gambling blackjack together, watching my dad and uncles play mahjong. this year seems so cold, so cold. it has been a very long time since i visited my grandparents. they aged alot, so much that my heartaches but i believe they will be blessed with good health. i so remember the old times, memories are so precious. looking at the small kids running and jumping around, i suddenly felt that i've matured. as for my maternal relatives, i basically feel nothing towards them or maybe only one or two. most probably due to the little time spent when i was young. yeah, as indifferent as i may seems on the outside, i do sincerely cherish every friendship and kinship. i love everyone :)


Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release
Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own, my own

"Listen" - Beyonce

Happy Valentine's Day !

the past few weeks were great, most of the time was spent shopping and dotaing. i just love holidays lah. anyway, i haven't buy anything for new year yet cause the things are either too expensive or ugly. argh, someone suggest me a place to shop ! will be going bugis tomorrow for the last time, if there's nothing then i really nothing to say liao.

yeah so today is the legendary valentine's day. everyone is either holding roses or teddy bears, awwww. went for a haircut in the morning with patrick. the hairstylist cut very fast sia, actually also nothing much to cut also, lol. then we took 855 to zhengyang house to watch them play mahjong. throughout the whole journey, the bus driver keep making funny noises ! like wolf cries, oh my god. okay then nevermind. played around in zy house till 11+ and went home. and guess what, we took the fucking same bus again ! omfg. and the driver didnt stop making those noises. we were so terrorised and pat even suggested that we should take the next bus. LOL. and you know pat's so paranoid that he said lame things like, will the next destination shows Hell on the panel.

hahaha. okay that's all for today. Single Ftw ! now i'm waiting for junming to find draft match. gonna train hard for the 2 upcoming competitions; funan interschool and clash of titans. but i'm sure there's gosu team out there waiting to trash us. maybe it's time to quit dota after these two competitions. okay so talking about dota, junming made a tribute post to this 'holy' game and so i shall do one for him, a SWOT analysis? just kidding. i'm too lazy to do one too.

meantime, i hope i wont forward modules man. it's like so fucking boring. no point crying over spilled milk and i'm looking for job ! anyway know of any job vacancy can kindly recommend to me. i need money money and more money to satisfy my material needs, talking about my wishlists...

• black skinny jeans
• long sleeve shirt
• t-shirts
• Motorola V3 or V6
• Mp3 player
• piercings !

happy pig year to all in advance. gong xi fa cai , xin nian kuai le ! get more angpows and don't gamble too much (:

It's bugging me, grating me
And twisting me around
Yeah I'm endlessly caving in
And turning inside out

'cause I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
And I'm breaking outI'm breaking out
Last chance to lose control

It's holding me, morphing me
And forcing me to strive
To be endlessly cold within
And dreaming I'm alive

'cause I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
And I'm not breaking down
I'm breaking out
Last chance to lose control

And I want you now
I want you now
I'll feel my heart implode
And I'm breaking out
Escaping now
Feeling my faith erode

"Hysteria" - Muse

paper today was alright
fom and stats are the killer papers, sigh
went egames after school today.
as usual, lost to team hybrid.

sian
draft keep losing,
exams keep failing
shi bai ah shi bai

can't stop laughing at this pic =x

Yes, one paper down.
ECONOMICS
another 3 more to go.
thursday is accounts ; DIE.
what's worst is i don't have my lecture notes!

alrights today was good.
went to plaza sing for kfc after our papers
wanted to eat gelare but..
e-games was fun, we had an exchange of roles and i think it was cool
patrick came to support us!

okay now i'm off to bathe,
tomorrow study accounts and slack
good luck to all taking exams x)

my crush faded.

艾莉丝 !

today's the last day of school !
got back my mock exam for crs and i got a F grade. hahahaha wtf.
went to ate lunch after that and prepare the presentation for gems.
was alright just that i kept getting stuck while speaking
a really boring module i must say, was looking out of the window for some eye candies.
after that went for statistics lesson which i haven attend for very long then off we headed to moberly for our competition.
anyway, the Havenly something something was nice
yeah, received the examniation letter and i think gotta start studying.
else i will be year 1 next year again, lol.
okay good luck to everyone (:

last day of school tomorrow, HURRAY :)
finding tv commercials for my gem presentation and came across this. thought it will be a funny one. hahahah.

time flies man, end of term 4.. X)



the difference between 'want' and 'can'
i want to soar but i can't..

today school was crap. went to present ITAB for 5 mins and CD for another 5 mins and that's the end of school.

so went off to causeway to watch one last dance.
errr, rather lousy movie. i almost fell asleep.

FOM tomorrow,
FOM can suck my balls and call me bitch.

i want to buy lappy!
but i no money.

anyway, good bye (:

Life Is Never Fair..