One thing has been bothering me pretty much lately,
and maybe this is not a good idea to share something with such negative vibe here but this is like the only place I could find.
It will be a life changing experience. Maybe not very much in overall, but definitely a lot in the short run. I have to choose where I will be at for the next couple of years, what I'll have to do for most of the time, and who I will meet for most of the time.
I have never expected such things to happen to me. To many, they will think that I am lucky and I am bragging. But I wonder if they will say the same when they are in my shoes.
Maybe the problem gets complicated because of my personality. When I asked people, seems like most of them cared only about the magnitude. Sometimes I was thinking, won't it be better if I have nothing to choose from?
I used to think, I will take anything that comes, but definitely not for this time. It's hard to make decisions, and I realized the more you think, the further you are moving away from the topic. I just want to choose something that will make me happy. I don't know what will happen in the next couple of months and I shall avoid thinking about regret or even comparing.
This is my choice, and I shall fulfill it.
