school's being a bitch as usual. and i'm slowly getting to know the people around me, and coupled with the findings of some truths about people whom i'm not associated with is making me dread school even more.

and i saw white horse 2 days ago, on friday morning. how suay can i get, since i havent seen him for a long time and he suddenly appears lol. but actually i was kinda scared that i might bump into him on my way to school, since his school is just right next to mine. and it really happened. seems like i have to take more notice of fridays now. haha.

anw, have to go already. need to prepare for tmr! USS trip tmr for the WHOLE DAY. like, FINALLY. i havent been there for around 2 months, i believe. but it feels like its been yearssssssss. hahahahah. bye! (:

I should have done that
I should have ignored it
Like something I couldn’t see
I shouldn’t look at you at all
I should have run away
I should have acted like I didn’t hear it
Like something I couldn’t hear
I shouldn’t have listened to love at all
Without a word, you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
What should I say next?
My closed lips were surprised on their own
Coming without any words
Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore
And that you are not here anymore
Otherwise, it’s the same as before
Without a word, you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
What should I say next?
My closed lips were surprised on their own
Without a word, tears fall
Without a word, my heart breaks down
Without a word, I waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me
I zone out
I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky
Without a word, fire well finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me
I think my heart was surprise to send you away without any preparations
It came without a word
Without a word, it comes and leaves
Like the fever before, maybe all I need to do is hurt for a while

credit: http://starones.wordpress.com/2009/10/21/you%E2%80%99re-beautiful-ost/

damn nice song. i know the song is from quite some time ago. haha. but it explains my feelings right now. goodnight! (:

HELLO THERE! oh dear. i havent posted a single thing for 6 months already. woah. time passes very quickly huh. haha. but anw these past six months have been quite tiring for me. been busy with work, getting over ex-crushes (and finding new ones of course haha) and getting ready for school etc. and *blink* six months have passed just like that. UNBELIEVABLE, hmmm.

anw school is pretty much uninteresting these days. but as usual, some guy caught my eye! LOL. guess no one will be surprised. i think they'll only be surprised if i say none of the guys catch my eye lol. *clears throat* but then, i think my heart is still with that dumb mushroom head. ugh. i hate myself. let's have some background music, shall we? *now playing: Ugly - 2NE1* nice song. describes what i'm feeling now. its been about two weeks since i last saw him. and i feel bad. cuz all i did was ignore him during the last chance that we met. cuz i heard rumors about him. so...i felt kinda cheated. and i felt like...oh why am i posting this up here man. its not like everyone should know the whole story. haha. so...END OF STORY. BUH BYE. (:

i pretty much hope that if i'm going in to play on the 15th, he'll be on shift. i just wanna see how he's doing. nothing else.

oh anw! i'm not used to going to school man! ): i just feel that its so sudden. i was working for 7 months and now suddenly i'm back to being a student. my mood is kinda sucky now. so i dont really like school. but school fees is super expensive. so i must do my best to get good results man. hais. I NEED TO CONCENTRATE. >:(

okay. need to go sleep now. i have school tmr from morning till evening. ): goodnight to all! (:

p.s. mushroomhead.ibetyoudontevenrealisehowmuchimissyou.darnyou.

hihi! back again! :D heehees. not much updates luh. but went on a shopping trip with jasmine darling last week on my off day on...8th march if i'm not wrong! haha. then also went to the IT show and got myself a new netbook and new camera! and there goes my feb salary T.T

anyway, having problems with crushes and eyecandys again. haha. whatever. its just a source of entertainment to me during work. hohoho. i dont really take such things seriously anymore. maybe cuz i got hurt too many times haha.

sore throatttttttttttttttttttttt. ): dies. tmr no voice i sure die one yo. ): ): ):

okay i better go sleep nows. got to wake up early tmr. hais. bye and nights!

hectic life these days. haha. judgement day is on 4th march. bleh. my thoughts are all in a wreck. going to have a nervous breakdown soon man. GRAWR.

meeting yijun and jade for dinner later. hahahaha. but my tummy's not cooperating. i've been having tummyache since this morning. sian ah. but still, must go! hahahhaa.

anyway yesterday was damn funny during the day hahah. cuz there's this guy who likes to come kajiao me whenever he walks past our booth. then jade and yijun jealous. so they say that sparks are flying between us. -.- then when we were doing closing, there's this weird uncle who kept staring at me while we were doing closing. then after i went inside the office, jade went outside and saw that he was gone. and she feels creeped out. LOL! damn funny sia! even wee giap also agree with her saying that the weird uncle is interested in me. -.- crazy people.

bytheway! wee giap knows my eyecandy! omgomgomg. hahaha. so i got his help to ask him questions lor. heeheehee. :D

okay that's all for now i guess. my mind's drawing a blank soon. damn tired. have to work tmr too. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

P.S. seems that white horse is quite a good boy yo! i rmb posting here that i'll ditch him for metal horse if he doesn't appear for work on sunday. (if you don't rmb, click here and read the last para yo!) AND HE REALLY APPEARED ON SUNDAY! WOW. amazing yo! hahahahaha. or maybe its just a pure coincidence hahaha. but still....his presence during work just made my sunday much better yo! cuz i was seriously ready to snap at people after saturday. not going to post it here but if you wanna know can just text me yo. (: YAY to white horse! you're still my no. 2! :D leeteuk will always be the no. 1 yeah! :D :D :D

omgomgomg. diediedie. i have this bad omen. very very very bad omen. gah. T-T

anyway i bought the EOS lens in one of the blogshops i often look at but dont dare to buy until recently, i finally plucked up the courage to buy hahahahaha. and i bought from 2 different blogshops actually. one has instocks so i can get it almost immediately. the other one have to wait cuz its preorder. i crazy right? i have bought 10 pairs in total kay. and spent about 100+ altogether. hahaha die. my new ipod touch...can almost say bye bye already. but its okay! my pay is coming. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

HOHOHOHO. hello everyone! its almost one month plus since i updated here! hahahaha. too busy with work i guess ( & too busy noticing all the guys at my workplace LOL) anyway. life's still a routine to me i guess. results going to be out soon. damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn stresssssssssssssssssssssssssssssed nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. D: someone help me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

anyway, i reflected on many many things during work on monday when i was having alone time haha. and i realised that i am one who is afraid of having retribution. haha. anyway i came up with this "quote" haha. if you dont get it its alright. i dont really know what i'm saying lollol.

虽然说自己的幸福是由自己去争取的 但如果为了幸福而去拆散一对恋人 难道不会感到内疚 因而变得不幸福吗...

okay that was super random. but it just popped up in my mind yo. hahaha. anyway, tmr's gonna be a busy day! even though i'll still be off tmr butttttttttttttttttttttttttt...going back to get my ipod touch back from yijun! TEEHEEHEEHEEHEE. i'm planning on getting the new ipod touch after i get my feb pay. but dunno whether to get the 32gb one or the 8gb one. hahahaha.

alright i should go already. hahahaha and that white horse! better come back to work on sunday yo! if not i'll get damn mad. and i'll ditch you to go to metal horse! WAHAHAHAHA.

HELLO HELLO! i might not be updating this blog much already cuz i'm getting veryveryVERY busy lately. hahaha. i'm working FULLTIME nows, so i only get 2 days off per week. and that 2 days is very precious to me one okay! i need my rest haha.

okay bye! i'll only do updates on my life on my fb and twitter from now on! if possible i'll come here once in awhile alrightie? :D

hahaha. too busy recently. havent updated here for veryveryvery long yeah. haha bet no one bothered to check anyway. :D anyway, alot of stuff happened. got a new job, got new hairstyle, blahblahblah. haha. but then, i'm pretty much not changed in any way myself haha. attitude still the same, looks also quite the same even with the new hairstyle, and the same fat figure! :D :D :D LOL.

anyhow, i'm now addicted to buying nice shirts and tops i see haha. cuz i dont want to keep wearing pj pe tshirts lol. scali later i give people bad impression of the school since i dyed my hair and i have 2 piercings on each ear hahaha.

new job environment! can't say its as fun as i thought it would be. the pay might be like, 1000++ a month, but its about 6 per hour. 50 cents lower than what tcc gives lol. makes me miss working at st regis sooooooooooooooooooooo much. but i signed a contract that binds me till june. SIGH. regretful much now. and i dont think any of the SR people will miss me anyway. since...i wasn't that much of a significant person there anyway. maybe all they remember of me is the one who didn't know her limits and held feelings for...someone who will never return her feelings. HAHAHAHA. ohwell i'm walking out of that now. so not much worries there. (: i'm pretty much fine except that i'm...immune to guys now. in fact, i can be pretty much turned off by the sight of certain guys haha. i only have eyes for leeteuk oppa! HEEHEEHEEHEE. but no luh i'm not so crazy to think that i'll be able to marry him lol. nonono. its nice to take a ride to my lala land sometimes but i still have to face the harsh reality even if i dont like it one bit. :D

okays! going out with wenlin in awhile. going to eat RAMEN! hehheh. i had off days from yesterday till today. tomorrow have to work! at USS okay! if got chance must come visit me okay! then must buy your photo! then i can earn money! HAHAHAHAHAHA! its just $66 to go in! and you can take all the rides i think. no extra charge! but you have to pay for the photos luh. heehee. my aunt asked me to check the height limit for the rides for her cuz she wants to bring her BB there to play! hahaha! okay i got to go! BYE! (:

A LEVELS ARE OVERRRRRR. and it took me so long to post this? hahaha 미안해 i was too busy catching up on dramas that I had to forego for the past month or so haha. and i'm now in search of more shows! and a job too. :D and now, I have another bias in 2PM! JUNSU! heehee. but...ohwell never mind. I shall stop hovering over my past. so now i'll be off in search of more dramas to watch! 안니엉! ^^

meanwhile...i need to take my mind off from thinking about the 背影 that had always caught my attention in the past. cuz somehow, the thought that i'll never be going near bp area triggered the memories. hahaha. what a fool i am to keep thinking about it. it's time for me to bade them goodbye (: