year end review- school

2007 is coming to an end soon. i cant wait for this year to end, hopefully next year will be better. frankly speaking, i dun really like this year.

year end review- school
school which constitutes a main part of my life has been pretty much a horrifying experience (sorry classmate). honeymoon year (2006) in jc was over! face the reality, cruelty, and mightiness of Alevels. first, it was the Chinese results. result was satisfying, but man ain't happy till they reach the pinnacle. next up, the PW result. so much so for miss chan saying that my group was the best. it was still a C grade in the end. it was a very disappointing result. just feel like being lifted to the 70th floor and being drop from that. a B would have save this situations, but it did not come.

Assignment and test that cant be escaped came along. my "fav teacher" became more irritating and i dun like her more and more (hear the song by Plain White T's - Hate). then came mid years, which was unforgettable. i will not forget the moment when i saw my geography grades. haha. Esther, remember?! its been such a long time since i did so badly in school. the transition from the top few in smss to bottom few in jc.

enough of grades, then the emo Friday came. this day definitely leave a deep impression in 06a01 history. prior to this day, that was also the cold war with a good friend in school. someone who shares a few things in common with me. from our address to manu to pool. unfortunately, our thinking is not in line. sad to say, from emo Friday to now, i have barely spoken a word to him. from that day onwards, i was counting down to the last day in jc- 13oct.

the last of school came. there was a gift exchange session. i think all of us had a great time. i enjoy the effort put in by some, while some were disappointing. i will be candid and point out Darryl's environment friendly note. great job there in saving trees, but sorry, effort was simply poor. wonder if you/he felt guilty after seeing every ones effort? then everyone was saying how bonded A1 is. in truth no. this comes to another sad part of jc life. the bonded look is sadly, fake. haha. i am merely stating the facts. but i acknowledges the fact that some of us are more bonded among themselves.

of course, everything that happened in school cant be that negative. that were a few enjoyable moments as well. such as playing sports in PC and me talking more and getting to know the others better. i think i remember the sad part more than the happy part, and thus, this paragraph is so short.

i am certainly glad that jc period is over. not to sure if this is going to be the worse period in my life yet, there is still a long road ahead.

ps. i hope to be back tmr to continue with my year end review. so stay tune for more. haha.

last day of work

it was my last day of work today. feeling relieve, little sad and a bit happy.

relieve that i was able to get through my past 23 working days without much problem. at least no customer scolded me or something, and most ppl walked away with a smile. well, there was unfortunately, an exception. it was a man, fountain pen and ink cartridges. i hate him la.

sad that my easy job that pays me reasonably well has come to an end. now i have to start the job hunt, not again though. the Parker job was apparently hunted by HY and the lady, who desperately need help. haha. lucky right?

a bit happy because: when i told the staff there it was my last day, they din just say "ok, bye bye." shall not elaborate on it la.

at the end of the day, i got away with my pay (LIKE DUH) and also ugly and beautiful images or customers. sad to say, they were mostly, ugly!

some pictures:

merry christmas and... hear my rants

HO HO HO.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
MAY ALL YOUR WISH LIST FOR CHRISTMAS COME TRUE!

it has been a tiring few days at work. not that slack alright, there were some business. finishing line is at sight for this job. 28thdec will be my last day as a parker pen promoter. was suppose to be till 31th, but i dun really want to face shitty consumers anymore. these ppl are rude, demanding, uncompromising and certainly inconsiderable.

perhaps, now i know why "ang mohs" get better service most of the time. that is because ppl are after all emotional and will be affected by past experience. call it discriminating, if you want. "ang mohs" are often more polite and chin chai(hokkien). Singaporeans are often at the other pole. i believe i can justify my claims with my mere 3 weeks of experience.

i am often mistaken as a popular staff, so irritating. ppl ask me more about Popular, than Parker la! yesterday, this lady ask me about some assessment books. i told her clearly my position- "sorry, please get the staff to help you, as i am only in charge of the pens." before i could finish my line, she cut my words, saying "NO PROBLEM, NO PROBLEM!" (not in a nice tone, and give me that type look)

alright, enough for the rants. sometimes, customers are not always the king. check out you own attitude first la. enough of GEMS, why not something for the consumers to inculcate good shopping habit (ask politely, more thank you, be less messy)? perhaps, this can help to solve the root cause of bad service, after all, an eye for an eye. haha. ok, i better check my own consumer attitude first.

oh, and my first christmas gift this year is actually from 2 part-timer that i have barely met for a month. they are sweet right? haha. yeah, my blog is slightly more than one year old. i really enjoy blogging. haha.

second thoughts.

its been a long time since i blog. come on, 4 days is a long time for someone who blogs regularly.

life has been the same, pretty much back to school feeling. wake up at certain time, take a certain bus and try to get to work on time. working has been better lately. i started talking more to the popular part time stuff there, and there is also this kind lady selling electronic dictionary that keeps me company. so life had been better, but of course, that has not taken away the lonely-ness and boring-ness. but dun be greedy.

working might not be that bad after all. its a way to kill time (ample of it) and to experience the hardship of earning money. i will become more thrifty from now onwards. no more restaurant outing for no reason, it will be hawker fare or food court. working also allow me to spend time doing something, keeping me occupied. leaving me little time to think about depressing question such as - where is all my friends? and do i have so little friends? even though the fact is that i have little friends, the thought of you not finding one to accompany you is rather depressing at times. i love working.

another point i wanna make is that i am no crowd pleaser. hate me or love me for that.
ok, have to go. otherwise i will be late again! working through the christmas period, so friends, enjoy your holiday!

random

Sorry classmate for not being able to make it today. Believe it or not, i did plan to go. but it turn to be an unexpected hectic day, there was a few item on my agenda, ie my Christmas party and holiday trip. hope you guys had fun and dun miss me too much. haha. i can sense some eggs flying my ways.

yeah, got a new phone. not surprising right? not showing off. its dirt cheap. haha. for a phone of this calibre, the price is definitely jaw dropping. work tmr. gosh. back to boring-ness and loneliness. sian ar!!! hang in there thy. its money rolling in afterall.

yeah, man u win liverpool. i must say it a lucky victory. had liverpool been better, manu would have lost i think. but too bad, they are not. BUT, arsenal won. darn! if not we would have been top. but second is not too bad as well. considering that we started the season crappily.

tata.

i hate blogger

damn. i hate blogger. the picture on top was fine and now it has shrink. like i din even touch it la. damn damn.

oh man. business was pathetic today. i sold one set and two promotion pen. haha. its like the worse so far. hia... and its really boring and lonely there. everyday is the same. nothing to do... dun even have mosquito to kill la. haha.

New

woho! i am so proud of myself. haha. the picture on top nice right? it basically sums up my 19years of living. ok. this is certainly a blog still in progress. i will make it better. as for now, bed time.

please give your comments so i can improve it further. thnak you.

deal or no deal?

oh yes. i got through a week of work. claps for thy ok! haha. i dun mind working because i know my wallet is growing as well. haha. yeah, then i can get my stuff and my holiday as well. so go for it thy! its an easy job anyway. at least i have a routine, lmy, jealous? haha.

oh yes, i was watching deal or no deal on tvmobile. i think i would never ever want to participate in such games. because the chances of you losing some money is greater than you gaining. if i lost some money, i think it would stain my life forever. so what if i am able to make up for those lost money? its still money lost because you say NO DEAL! haha. i will get haunted for a good years of my life. that was this Indian lady who lost like 17,000. can you imagine how she will feel?! as i am typing this, i am already regretting somethings, or rather somethings that i feel sad up to now for not getting it.

since i am going to be on the bus for more than an hour daily, i have plenty of opportunity to reflect on my life, and to emo. haha.

its Tuesday, and my routine starts today.

working

alright. have been working for the past two days. its tiring man. maybe mugging at library is better. well, iszit? business was pathetic. i only made one sale today. haha. er, i am not cut out for a job as a promoter la. i do not have those ambition of generating wealth through commission, just hoping to get my hourly pay. that's all. i feel like i am being paid to stand. well, but life has got better. the ppl there gave me a chair. NE monsoon this month, there will be few ppl in the store. its a good thing i suppose.

oh. some weird things happen. yesterday, an ah pei say to me 华人不会讲华语。Excuse me, i am proud to say that i have scored distinction for all my Chinese orals. today, a man came to chat with me. from Parker pens to his pouch to his watch to rent prices to inflation and lastly to transport system. he said he will return to show me some pens he has. oh no, please.

lost

ok.i declared the battle lost. at least i try. perhaps somethings are just not meant to be. but i still have that little hope. just that little bit.

i say

according to dictionary.com, one of the meaning of the word accommodate is-- 7. to make suitable or consistent; adapt: to accommodate oneself to circumstances. but why is it that some people just cant do it more often?

i think i am a volcano that is going to erupt, this is how my temper/patience towards you can be described. i dun wanna lose you as a friend or even put more dent and cracks to an under-surface damaged relationship and thus i am controlling it. telling you the problem, does not seem to work. or perhaps i did not tell you more seriously and forcefully. problems are there to be solved, not to avoid. that's what shows the character of a person.you, by leaving it, shows what a person you are.

i dunno why i am suddenly typing this. maybe there is a greater urgency to reach a satisfactory resolution. you certainly are not bothered, but we are. i hope you get this message and do some self reflection. i sound mean, but its for the benefit for everyone. this things seems to weight down in your heart as well, but you refuse to face it. stop avoiding.

back to my life. on friday, i thought i lost my job. but i got it back. going to start on tues at parkway popular. i am working there to avoid the stupid dress code set by john little ok. probably going to work for a month or so, if i enjoy it. er, take one step at a time, i dun wanna plan, cause i would default on it. it would be good to earn some cash for my holiday next year. and to shut my brother up. haha.

oh, i was watching Korean drama (the one on channel u now) for the whole of yesterday. its really a good way to kill time. tata.

first

first day of work today. not sure how long am i going to stay in this job. i am only a promoter and they expect me to wear like office wear, as in black pants, white shirt and shoes. CRAZY! right? before starting work, i already have to spend money buying stuff. and i wont be happy if i have to wear like that as well. the pay is reasonable, not fantastic. and i cant seat as well. haha. you guys know that i am that kind that probably need to sit every hour or so lor. to sum up, this job may not suit me and perhaps i am better off as a nanny.

THY OUT!

life...

its going to be a long post, theres plenty to talk about.

work
the past few days have been tiring. was having a 3d2n "getaway" at my grandma place. haha. AS IF!! if you guys knew how "friendly" the two kids are, then you will know what i am talking about. fighting over insignificant things, not eating meal properly, make up lesson. these are enough to cause you headache. so i have applied for a two day leave, will return to work on monday. wahaha. BUT they bring me buckets and buckets of joy as well. =)

oh brandon's graduation on saturday was fantastic. it was held at a theatre hall at raffles hotel. there were two musical acted out by those graduating classes from the three different school branch. musical was good. dun play play. it has good standard, and the kids, they were amazing.

oh, and i roam around the novena area like a loner on tuesday for about 1.5hrs.sent brandon to learning lab (a tuition centre). do you know how they mark their attendance? by scanning this card, and printing out a ticket, which tells you your classroom and stuff. cool rite? but, there is a costly price to pay. and there are many parents sending their kids for extra lesson. is this a healthy sign? yes and no, i would say. would this be the future of your child? or even more ridiculous?think about it.

went to T3 today. BORING BORING. but if you are really free, maybe its worth a visit then. since its only 1buck and 50cents (1way train ride) for those with concession.

school-A1
As has ended. and i think its the start of my hermit life. haha. i dun really like to pick up calls (if is does ring) or reply messages. Opps, no one going to contact me from now on. haha. wonder why too, i used to be quick in connecting to the outside world, now, i am crawling.

hmm... since like there has been plenty of talk about the future of A1. haha. i should make a statement as well right? ok, dun be offended by what i am going to say. if you ask me if my class if bonded or close, i would say No. simply because, never judge a book by its cover. never judge that A1 is bonded and stuff, just because we go for lunch break and stuff together. but deep down, i think there are only a few group/pair that are really close to each other. close as in they will talk heart to heart regularly and go out... i too do not have a particularly close friend. even so, sadly, it will be best friend in school, strangers outside. well, its possible to breach the gap, but it will be difficult too. it requires commitment and effort, is everyone able to put in that much? i am not sure if i can do it. sounds cruel and rotten, but they are from my heart.

my aunt was telling me about her jc days as well. same school as me. sounds a little like mine. but i am definitely more accommodating than her ok, the sentence sounds soo wrong. hopefully she is not reading this. perhaps she had the choice to go that way.

alright, i think i have more to say, shall continue some other days. oh, do date me for the next few days.

an introvert

ITs A FACT THAT I AM AN INTROVERT. NEED I TELL YOU THAT? WANTED TO POST THIS AS IT REFLECT WELL OF ME. MOST THINGS ARE TRUE, EXCEPT FOR THE LAST LINE. MY FRIENDS ARE PARTy ANIMAL, OK, EXCEPT FOR XHY.

GOING FOR BRANDON'S GRADUATION (k2 GRADUATION) LATER. RATHER EXCITED. AFTER ALL I SEE HIM GROW UP TOO.

You Are An Introvert!

You're not necessarily anti-social, but you do tend to need a lot of alone time.You tend to think before you talk, which doesn't make you the loudest person in the room.While you aren't outgoing, you are a good listener - and you tend to be a loyal friend.And you enjoy your friends as much as any extrovert does, in smaller doses.You're more of a conversation over dinner type than a party animal... and so are all your friends.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouanextrovertedgirlorintrovertedgirlquiz/">AreYou An Extroverted or Introverted Girl?

my life is boring

i wonder why my classmates are so busy. they have camps and chalets. as for me, i have home and grandma house. wahaha. funny rite?

ok, ENGLAND did not qualify for EURO 2008. THATS AN ABSOLUTE DISGRACE TO A FOOTBALLING NATION. THE COACH DESERVED TO GET SACKED AND HE BETTER NOT LEAVE HIS HOUSE. OTHERWISE HE MIGHT GET ROTTEN EGGS FLYING TOWARDS HIM. BUT, THE PLAYERS ARE AT FAULT TOO. APART FROM THE PENALTY HE SCORED, LAMPARD WAS JUST A PASSER-BY IN THE GAME. TO THINK HE CLAIM THAT HE IS IN ONE OF THE BEST FORM IN HIS LIFE. YEAH, ONLY FOR CHELSEA. oh well, i better look for a new team to support in the finals next year. or perhaps just be a neutral and watch all the games. i might be really free during july08.

ok, tata. going to buy lunch now.

woho

WOW! what a few day it has been. been sleeping, eating, online, tving and sleeping. its really boring you know. although this was the type of life that i craved badly for durings those days. yeah, those days. i smug when i see ppl studying now. in my mind, it says "happy studying, i am over those days". wahaha, i feel so mighty and powerful thinking of that.

alright, i should be starting my job next week. taking care of brandon and helping him with his primary 1 work. poor boy, have not even enter school and already doing preparation work for primary one. but wad to do, like what my aunt say, all parents wants their child to be dragon (translate that to chinese). but luckily i am already born a dragon. wahaha. cheers to that.

oh, starting to visit the gym already. i am trying to lose weight, but if i cant, its ok. status quo is fine with me to. ok, going to help my aunt look after the car now. bye guys.

make it soon.

i am a noob in blogger. by the end of the holiday, i want my blog to look different. to be original, designed by me! ok, who wanna teach me all this skills?!

i had fun today. its been a long time. there will be plenty more to come i know. but, when will it be full attendance? on my wedding and funeral? haha. i doubt we can all hold on for that long... make it soon please. i am sure that IF anyone of us were to die now, that will be one of our last wishes. haha. yes?

some visual enjoyment:

the girl in green has a sick face in this picture. haha.
oh, christmas lighting at orchard not bad.
thy say: "go go. stop hunting me. i am not going back to you." by the way, thats only about 2/3 of everything. i kept some, in case i need it for further reference.


nice view of the CBD.

over

yeah, i stupidly close the tab, and now i am waiting for feng daxi last episode to load. finishing the show soon, i think its a really good show. unlike other Korean shows which uses big names , this show does not. its base on a story line a first year residential doctor. not sure if the story is true or realistic, but doctors life can be quite terrifying as well.

yeah, exams has ended. i think i have been speechless for the whole day. the day i have been waiting for has finally arrive, and i am not that happy afterall. thinking of what lies ahead always put me off. its over. basically i am a far sighted person. i am thinking of results day, of how i would die of anxiety and anxiousness on the train ride to boon lay next year. i will take a pessimistic stand from today onwards. the more i hope, the more i will fall. will history repeats itself? just like how i unexpectedly get an A2 for Chinese (not showing off). i certainly hope SO, but chances are slim.

oh, i miss going to the library. haha. no, i just miss looking at that guy la. oh well, i am after all A GIRL, whose natural instinct is to look at the opposite sex. wahaha. as for now, back to feng daxi. tmr, brandon and zara day. i miss them dearly.

friends, see you soon. thank for all your encouragements. at the end of the day, i understand the theory of no point crying over spilled milk and you reap what you sow. i just wanna rot now.

one shot

i am so glad that everything is ending soon. look at the clock, barely 6days to go. i think you guys must be glad as well. no more complaining, rantings and pessimistic post. i think i will go crazy if this kind of life go on any longer. i spend majority of my time in the lib nowadays. yes, lib is good. there is free air-con, some handsome guy and pretty girls to see. but no! when you see your pile of notes and when you think of how you have fallen behind your "revision schedule", you really feel like crying at times.

Brandon called me today. i miss him, i think i had tears in my eyes (serious, not drama²) when he asked, "cutie jie jie, when are you coming?" i bet you guys must be jealous. by the way mel, i am cutie jie jie, not cutie's jie jie! ok!

i dunno where my last minute sprint will get me too? i think alevels (or all major exams) is cruel. you only get one shot at the target. yeah, you were given plenty of opportunities (common test, assignment, prelims) to aim and practice, but ultimately, it comes down to that one shot. that single shot. i say it determines your direction and certainly the magnitude, to a smaller extent. yeah, revising some case studies skills.

goodbye. hope to see you guys soon. oh, when your pass by nat lib on sat, sun or mon. come find me. i am "camping" there.

I JUST WANNA ROT.

backed. the next paper is one week later. hmm... you must be thinking that i am slacking and relaxing right?

unfortunately not. i am busy preparing my brain for the final showdown. yeh, 4 papers in 3 days. 6hours of paper on the final day. so i am in the process of trying create 3 folders- economics, human geography and international history. "just a little of cold war, population pyramid, some economics graph." could you sense my sarcasm?

the past few papers were bad. what i had spotted, depended on and hoped on, "did come out." the papers was do-able. i dun think i will fail as in U or S, i hope. but, there is a high chance of failing in getting into a local uni. and that means the whole purpose of coming jc, spending two years is wasted.

major exams are cruel. when the paper is easy, there comes the fear of your grades being moderated from high to average. when the paper is tough, the fear is greater.

goodbye for now. doubt i will be back again till the countdown clock run down.

so long fare well. i miss brandon and zara.

HOORAY. alevel starts in about 12hours. i cant wait for it to start. for the start signals the end, end of studying. the start of freedom, slacking, rotting, tv-ing, sleeping and the list go on and on.

15days and counting... 15nov, 5pm. i cant wait. i end really early, thats cause my papers are packed together. some ppl laugh and say you dun have much time to study. but i rather it this way, than to drag and drag. then i will be free of the torture - knowing you have to go back to your books and absorb them.

joke

i was having gp today. the teacher were saying that one of my fellow school mate, have been indoctrinated by our government. so apparently, this person was trying to paraphrase "Taiwan's government". and his answer: Taiwan's PaP.

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.... to think that i am studying in a jc. ok i feel so bad for laughing, but there is a moral to this. think about it yourself!

alevels.

ok, i am beginning to gain some momentum in mugging now. is it too late? i hope not. i was just telling mel this Monday that while ppl gain momentum, i lose them. thankfully, i gain momentum aft two days at the student lounge. its quite conducive. apart from disturbing ppl with their wan-wan. mac fries and donut factory (some ridiculous ppl left their things that and went to buy donuts. seriously, they are wasting space and resources).

how i wish school ended earlier, then we could have more study breaks. allowing students to gain more momentum into intense mugging, cause going back to sch disturb my flow to study. i consider today a wasted day because i went sch in the morning.

oh, sharon says that she wonder if miss clarity cafe paid me to promote for them. NO OK! i just think that the pricing there is reasonable for their standard and location. it certainly is better than cafe cartel, a 1000x better. ppl who went there before, dun you agree?

oh guys, check out this website http://www.globalissues.org/ . its really good for GP, i think. they have most of the major topics like poverty, globalisation, terrorism and global warming. lots of figures if you can remember.

alevel approaches in about 5 days time. my mum tells me its ok to fail (not getting into local uni). REALLY?!

i say: i dun think i have done much wrong. i am not going to be the one taking the first step. if this status quote remains, so be it.

i love tv

i am not dead yet. haha. just studying, watch tv and eating.

later there is manu match, last F1 qualifying session, rugby world cup final 2007. i am looking forward to it! who's going to win F1? Who going to win rugby world cup? then there is going to be surgeon Feng Daxi. haha. tv tv tv, my best friend indeed.

i m not sure if i am going to make it. well, luckily spore is an educational hub. there are plenty of opportunity, just more costly and less prestigious. right? sometimes i wonder why i din have that herd mentality when i am choosing my school about a year ago. will i be happier if i had? i dunno. eh, i am not exactly that stress about my alevels.

my current wallpaper. haha. the background are my weapons.

mugging

so the mugging period begins for everyone taking the major exams. i am no exception. it is crucial to find a place that is nice and comfy for you to study. the place whereby you can maximise your brain power and yet spares a thought for your pocket. studying at home do not work for me, i will "fortunately" be opposite poles with distraction such as tv, bed and computer. and unfortunately, being like poles with my "friends and weapons." so out i go.

haha. lib is the best. but due to it being a merit good which is rivalry and excludable in consumption, getting a place there is tough. esp in his golden month of mugging.

after all this years of English Christianity, i got a taste of the Chinese version one. went church service conducted in chinese yesterday. the style is very different from the english one. it was like an eye opening experience,thank you sharon.

ok. for those who wishes to see my class pictures with our teachers, go to esther's blog. haha. be sure to look out for my "favourite" one.

goodbye. tc. miss me.

EXACTLY ONE MORE MONTH TO FREEDOM! FIGHT ON GUYS! POLY PPL DUN SLACK ALSO!

its the last day of sch today. sch ended with int hist lesson. mr hendri had a chat with us and he was the only teacher that did it. perhaps we are most attached to him as he was also our civics teacher last year. what he said was funny (in-laws) and solemn (reason of studying history) at the same time. while most of the teachers commented that its been an honour teaching us and that we are a "sweet" class.

after class, we proceed to the Lt for some boring talk.sorry, i find it a waste of time . but i did take away something from it. that is, our grades have not been decided yet. there is still 2~4 weeks to make a differences in them. so alevel taker, come on! we can still do it.

it was present exchange time at the concourse. i think all of us had a great time receiving gifts. guys, i will definitely keep them even Darryl's very environmental friendly note. haha. so be sure to keep my too, and hang it up! oh for those who din know, there is a note at the back, so do read it. went for lunch at crystal jade whereby Freddy sang us the song he wrote. thank you. it dun sound very good, but the lyrics was GREAT!

now,its back home and going to ICG for mugging session. (Sharon, Esther dun be jealous. haha.) there was no 'obvious' tears today, which is good. perhaps it signals that A-ONE will get back together again. this is not the last goodbye, but only an end of a chapter in a book such as the harry potter series.

the one thing i am looking forward to is England vs France in the rugby world cup. looks like i am going to stay up and watch the match. hopefully, the man in white and red will be victorious.

A-ONE

the girls- helpful, encouraging, accommodating, funny, nice, cold jokes ;
the guys- silly jokes, enthusiastic, tyrant actions, encouraging, helpful;
thats A01!

its the last day of school tomorrow. to be honest, i been waiting for this day to come since my first day in sch. with such a mindset, it thus took me quite awhile to settle down and mix well with my classmates. even till today, i dun think that i have fully integrated into my environment, i still get lost in some conversations and situations. i am not pointing my fingers at anyone, i am the main culprit for everything.

In J1, i was unwilling to accept the accommodation or assimilation plan that the class has automatically adopted. i skip school frequently. once school ended i rush home, there was hardly any chance of chit-chatting and having lunch in JP. my face was frequently black, i really did not like the environment. i did not talk much, there was nothing to talk about.

then i got promoted to J2. things started to get better, much much better. i think most ppl can point out the fact that i talk more now, and perhaps looked more cheerful. but there was also a dark period this year. cold war 1 came and end... cold war 2 (fallout), things seems to be getting from ok to really not enjoyable. i remember not talking to anyone for most of the days, i felt lonely in class and i cant wait for tmr to come. then i seem ok again, back on talking terms again. the jc path was brighter again. prelims came and went. its the last day of school tomorrow.

i do not blame anyone except myself for my life in sch. A-ONE did a great joy in accommodating and assimilating. thank you for tolerating with my mood swings. thank you for not forming obvious clicks, this would certainly alienate me more. thank you for being who you are and therefore adding colours into my memories, be it rainbow bright or black dark.

not forgetting all the teachers that have helped us along the way. Chinese teacher who always shoots invisible arrows and being nice. miss chan the flower with screeching voice (used as weapon to threaten us to shut up). mr koh with his nice-ness, "koh" jokes and casual style. miss lai with her funny accent but she is a good econs teacher. miss mardiana who is really funny (a humour diff from others) and can teach reasonably well. mr hendri who teaches me how to craft early leave lie. miss 'fav' teacher who is very professional and teaches well. miss tan who always wears a smile on her face. miss lim who is always encouraging and being friendly. generally, my teachers are very nice la. notice i kept using the word nice? haha. eh, limited vocabulary la.

right, last day of sch tmr. a mixed feeling within me. let me repeat that i am not scolding anyone in this post! classmates, please comment on my post.

what a week

so i am 19 years old and 7 day. it feels like i been celebrating my birthday for a week. this celebration will stop here. =( met up with whole gang of dots in this past week. hair cut, dinner, ice cream and the highlight, zoo. as always, it was fun and laughter. but like what mic said, it will be better when its a complete gathering. i am eagerly waiting for that day to come. will it?

like what the straits times said, this week was a week of upset.
1) All Blacks losing to France.
2)Hamilton crashing out in Shanghai.
3)England beating Australia.
I LOVE SPORTS! GO YANKEES!

so alevels starts in less than 3 weeks or something. MIA period is here again. i will work hard, and do "NA" stream proud. we are not meant for poly and ite only! we can be at the top too. judgement day is next Feb.

tata. will be back soon.
will i miss 06a01? i dunno. perhaps.

contradicting

the flowers look absolutely great right? according to some of them, it was bigger than my face. but no way la. thank you debra. but can you tell me what inspired you to get flowers for me? haha. do i possess a sunflower attitude/character? or you want me to remember you as miss sunflower? haha. it must be the former reason.

so i am at home now. i really wanted to go sch today. i was scolding my mum when i woke up and saw the time- 7.10. yeah, if i am esther or Lmy, its still early. but no. i am thy.jeanette told me to be prepare cause all h2 papers will be back tmr. and immediately, i start getting all those feeling.

if i am going to die soon, i will say sorry to those around me. if i die young, i will say, sorry for not being able to create more memories. if i die old, it will be sorry for not taking care of myself. dying is scary. you leave behind ppl who will cry for you. so mel, dun say you dun mind dying at 40. ok?! my inspiration from this paragraph?----snow queen.

sunflower to start the post, and death issues to end it. perfect right? i am going to S² now. haha. know what that means? ask me.
i am afraid. results results. paper chase. alevels. you drive me to my limits.

THANK YOU

i had a great day today. the surprise visit, children's day outing with my darlings, dinner at miss clarity and drinks at loof. thank you all for your present, presences and messages. thank you. this is one of my best birthday nite. but something was lacking, i hope this problem will be fixed soon. i was surprised to see my uncle's msg, and receive a call from jacinDA. haha. i did manage to put aside my results and enjoy my day.

its time to start mugging, i had my share of fun already. GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO! FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT! STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY! i am crazy. and very sleepy.

i have a few friends who are currently in love now. all the best to your love career. Blossom Blossom.
BUT dun forget about your friends!

falling

i am bored, and i have a lot in my puny brain. so here i am again to vomit them out.

i dun like ppl to tell me that i am lousy. not sure about you. i think i am someone who runs away from reality. yes? one piece of evidence- my "fav" teacher. she always tell me and give me that look. and for this, i really really really dun like her.

i decided not to go sch on Monday. i know i will miss impt lesson. but i cant subject myself to the torture of getting back my SEA hist paper. which is highly possible, cause the teacher mark really fast. the feeling of seating on the chair, waiting for your papers to return sucks (due to limited vocabulary, i can only use this word). i am sure you guys have experience it before. is waiting at home better? i think so. you only need to read the msg, you dun need to have the courage to turn the paper over. another thing is that i have the highest hope for this paper, although i let myself down by not revising on the night before. so its really better not to go sch that day.

that moody feeling of my is coming back. watch out! haha. alevel starts in one month and 2day. the dream of getting into a local uni seems to be getting further. i have a lot to do, and i am not sure if i have the ability, the strength and the determination to get through this. life sucks.

LMY, i better see you in sch on tues. otherwise, i dun friend you already. haha. i am sure the rest of A1 and the teachers will do that too.

THY SAY

THY SAY:

1) i am so bored at home! and i feel so tire as well. reach home at 6 after going out with two idiots, esp esther. after she eat every mouth of the durain ice cream, she will say "so nice!" and i will never forget about the part when she lie.eh sharon, cupcake nice?

2) i am not going prom. its too troublesome, not my cup of tea.

3) go visit this website, set up by my classmate. http://www.forhers.blogspot.com/

4) Wear RED support those who died in the Burma crisis. and for democracy. and see what ASEAN can do. its very relevant to what i am studying now. even EU, so far away is doing something. as for ASEAN? haha. i am definitely not in a position to speak here. lets watch how the story unfold.

5)LMY, YOU BETTER COME SCH.

6) pretend i never said anything, or even tried to do something.

pictures and thoughts

yesterday- a day off

let the pictures do the talking.. but i din had a hell of a time, i was worrying about my results since 2plus i think. someone told me i will be getting my papers today. my worry was not unfounded. i fared badly, esp for the most important subject. this will get me prepared for more bad news.

my day started out here.

a great place for photo taking. and feeding mosquitoes.
inside the restaurant. we book the place, there were only the two of us dining.
food not great. the company was. as usual we had a lot of fun.

dhl balloon. goes up to 40story high. the wind up there was great,
so was the view of the red dot.

our boarding ticket.
us. lazy ppl din bring digital camera, so we had to make do with w800i.
rochor area if i am not wrong.

our CBD.


its like so unlike me to take photos. but from now onwards, i wanna capture every moment that i spend with my friends. even a simple dinner, i wanna take photo too. get it? haha.

my experience tells me that when a group of ppl go out, and in this group there are two ppl that are exceptionally closer. as usually, they tend to drift away from the main group. so who's fault iszit? do we isolate them or the other way round? i am not pointing this at anyone.

what i wrote in the previous post seems to be useless. i give up.

i am not a happy girl today. but thank you A1 girls for the very advanced birthday present. and ppl, should i go for prom this year? its at a good resort in sentosa. hmm...

feelings.

prelims is over. but nobody seem to be particularly happy or something. i think all of know that the biggest and greatest challenge lies ahead. even though there is a high possibility that the actual one will be easier than what we just went through. results will be back soon, hopefully after Monday alright. let me enjoy a peaceful birthday. really? birthday last year was crappy, i was fretting over promos. now, prelims. the two "P"s has haunted me for two years. so what next at uni if i ever made it there?

my confession

my greatest source of motivation is to win people. sorry to say this. i am a real real real competitive asshole. you guys know it... i think i cant generate enough motivation within me, and thus, i have to find an external source of motivation. which is, very unfortunately, being competitive. well, to some extent it is a good thing. perhaps the sad thing is, i have lost this spirit of my since going jc. i realised i can no longer be the best or even second or third (and the numbers goes on to 13). and for that, my competitiveness has fizzles out. just like a can of carbonated left open for too long, the carbon dioxide had escape.

to you, a friend

you were once my best friend/buddy in the foreign land. some misunderstanding and we are separated by a gulf. a middleman is needed to translate our thoughts. i dun want this too. but its difficult for me to stretch out my hands once again, like i did the other time. i knew you tried reaching out for me, but your actions are to minute for me to notice. if you do it explicitly, i would certainly do my part and reach out too. i hope you have identify yourself from the crowd and see this msg. its up to you.
*PS. dun you people dare ask who the person is in my tag board.

going to dhl balloon later! haha. am i excited? not really. i want my day to be a BLAST!

random

wee, prelims end already. wahaha. i am blogging in advance for tomorrow. really not in a mood to study now. mood come back, come back...

i slept at 5am this morning and i am suppose to wake up at 530. haha. guess what i was doing. mugging for econs lor. haha, i wish. i was playing my handphone actually, the powerpuff snowboarding game. esther, fun right? from 1plus to 5. and both my thumb hurts now. oh, did i ever tell you i miss my house bus stop because i was too engrossed with my hp game. the flip side of technology. but there was extreme cases such as those ppl who lock themselves in the room. well, hanphone get out of my life? no way, i embrace technology to a large extent!

i am looking at some food website now. i am beginning to drool.. check them out:
1) http://www.stomp.com.sg/stfoodiesclub/lifeeats/Hawkers_Steamboat/index.html
2) http://pachome2.pacific.net.sg/~mongolianbbq/index.html

lets talk sports...

soccer
my favourite! but manu not playing very well lately. its no longer that type of football that won them the league last season. but still wining, and that perhaps is the most important. oh, and the special one has left chelsea. the most shocking news i heard from my football career thus far. like what they always say, he has a colourful character, and i will miss him.

rugby
its rugby world cup time in France. bet some of your dun even know that. anyway, England might be the first defending champion to get knock out in the group stage. that will be a disgrace i think. they are a good side, but not finding form. and japan score a wonderful try against Wales.

tennis
Roger Federrer won another grand slam. not surprising right? its his 11th one i think. but its 4 US Open in a row. i really want to see him get beaten some day. call me an idiot who do not enjoy a very very special and legendary tennis player in the making. but seriously, dun you feel sick to know/see that he won AGAIN! haha. ok, at least dun let him win the French Open...
backed to the ladies one. Justin Henin Hardene won the US open! cheers, to the best player. haha. and she beat both the William sisters in the quarters and then semis. oh oh, serena williams was such a sore loser man! check out her post match interview man!

formula one
Maclaren got disqualified from the constructor race and were fine one hundred million dollars. and why? that's the price to pay for spying on Ferrari and apparently, using those stolen information. i think. but if the team is disqualified, why is their driver still in the championship race? dun you agree?

baseball
i still learning how to watch this game, and understanding all the short form for their amazing statistic work. haha. its a nice game, exciting sometimes. esp matches between Yankees and red sox. its like a rivalry between manu and liverpool. and its getting more exciting as the playoff approaches. i find a common similarity between all the big American sports, that is the NBA, MLB and NFL. they are all very statistic! everything almost have numbers for them. and i mean everything.

ok. i bet most ppl reading this dun give a shit la. haha. just let me talk sport for a while can. its all boxed up in me, nobody to tell to or discuss with. so i need bf that knows all the sports available in this world! he must drink and live ESPN,STAR SPORTS AND FOOTBALL CHANNEL. haha. tata. two more paper, fight on!

A1, REMEMBER TO BRING CALCULATOR ON MONDAY!

one hundred

the 100th post:

Sunday was a pleasant surprise for me. went to ice cream gallery after intense lib session with esther. haha. and brandon and zara came, unexpectedly. my two darlings! hehe. that girl is so weird. she refuse to let me carry her, and treat me like some stranger. and when i ask her, where is daddy, she replied, i dun tell you! naughty! sometimes i feel like bashing her up!

sometimes, i hate having long break during exam period. it only make you more slack, and you lose your momentum of mugging, if you had any to start with. after Friday's phy geog killer, i had been slacking since then. but thank fully, i spend two days in the lib, and that helped me a lot. otherwise days at home will be pretty much like today. as in its 3pm, and i have not started on anything.

i like to fall sick. haha. its makes me lose some weight, a very unhealthy thought though. but i always falling sick at the wrong moment! at the start of the one week holiday, i felt sick. and now, again! life sucks. its just like, when you are not taking this bus, it comes. and when you are taking, it refuses to come. and for this, life sucks!

human geog paper tmr. i hate it! two more papers after that, econs case studies and SEA hist. cant wait for next Tuesday to come, but it also means that heart breaks and more mugging is on its ways! a beginning to the end? not cold war ok!

my mum is in hk, she will only be back on sunday. that means i am a mini housewife now. as for mic, she will be back tmr. but i dun miss her that dearly la. haha. too busy to think of you! jk jk. anyway, i know you will be reading this: YOUR ECARD WAS SWEET. thank you! brandon's birthday party this saturday, i am really looking forward to it! my darling is 6! goodbye for now.

geography

steeping into jc, i thought geography would be my best subject. that's because i took it during olevels. the rest of the subjects are actually foreign - econs, history, gp. but, i seem to be exceling (at least a pass) in these subjects. why? because of the teacher? or just too much workload? teacher wise, i have upgraded her status to "most favourite teacher", those who went for consultation you know why?! as for work load, its crazy. my stack of notes just for physical geography is









THIS THICK! i am being modest.
ok, phy geog exam in a few hours time. i am really scare. so i came here to vomit all my thoughts and perhaps relax a little. haha.

prelims time

yes, two paper down, 6 more to go. after this Friday, exam life will be more lax. cause there will only be 4 paper in the next two weeks. nevertheless, hardcore style mugging is still required. i wrote my hearts out for the paper, both gp and econs. hopefully, hopefully. WAIT A MINUTE! usually when i have more hope, it always end up in disappointment. just a borderline will do.

you know, i have a strong desire to do well, i mean who don't. i wanna do it for myself, my friends supporting me, and my family (who always say fail also never mind). and i believe I CAN DO IT! I BELIEVE. so fellow counterparts, have that believe in yourself too, it will make life easier. let me reiterate my stand that prelims don't mean anything, well, not much at least.

oh, thanks Sharon for accompanying us for lunch today. although you din eat, it was a good time to show case your snow queen-ness, i.e. cold jokes maker. haha. thanks. and mic, your msg in the morning. THANK YOU!

class outing pictures before holiday, also the day where everyone skip school. i bet my teacher got a real shock (ahem...). as a result, she din come, as promised. i think i look cute in the second picture. haha. to those who miss me, savour this pictures alright!

crunch times

went for dinner today at miss clarity cafe. its nice, and oh man, so fattening. the dish i order was a feast for carnivores. its called old MacDonald had a farm, indeed, i had steak, lamb, chicken, sausage, ham, bacon, egg and pork (poke for michelle). yupe, all in one dish. this place is cheap and good.

i am so tire now. i slept at 4am today. you know why? i was playing my handphone game. and trying to be disciplined, i have deleted all my games already. FOCUS FOCUS. recently, i been watching tennis again. its the US open. OMG, you guys should have look at the interview of Serena Williams after she lost. such a sore loser. and the video was really hilarious.

Prelims starts on Monday.
All i want for Christmas is my two front teeth. Christmas not here yet though. so, ALL I WANT FOR PRELIMS IS FIVE... RESPECTABLE GRADES.

i am trying hard to spice my very mandatory post.

its been a long time since i blog, and i have lost my flow of blogging. haha. i had actually type out quite a page, but only to out my hand to the backspace key. cause its too fragmented. so i don't want to showcase my bad blogging skills.

its friday, its teachers day and aces day. the school is probably doing some line dance now. so lame can! will be going for class dinner with miss tan later. its been almost 8 months since she took over our class as civics and gp teacher. but today is going to be our first outing together, when she had already gone our numerous time with her other science class like going kbox and sentosa... hmm... why?- A1, do some self reflecting job. and teacher, you too.

anyway, i would love to be able to go back to smss today. but apparently, nobody has the heart too! guys,don't your miss the teachers?! although, that will be nothing much to talk about when we see them, we still make our trip back. dun forget that they are the ones who helped you onto your path today. and from this, i would like to say that teaching is perhaps the most noble profession today. teachers with their certs can actually get a higher pay in the private sector. and they need not slog soo much and suffer under our hands. wahaha. i remember the teachers who cry in classes. so funny. and at the same time, feel so guilty. the classic would be miss Wang Li in sec 1/2. she was literally in tears and she continue to seat at the table and cry. as for me, i was holding my paper high and laughing with my friends. haha. BUT, some teachers told my class that we can fall back into teaching as a career if we cant find a job. hmm.. i wonder how many of my teachers are like that. anyway,
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!

alright i am going to watch some youtube and continue on with my mugging catch up. enjoy your weekends! oh, i got my flow back.

THIS IS A LIVE UPDATE ON THY WHO IS MIA-ING

to my friends who have no seen me for a l~o~n~g l~o~n~g while:
i am still alive and kicking. although stress and worried about my exams, i am still eating as usual. guess i wont be able to lose weight from being stress out. haha. i am trying to mug, as hard as i can. to those poly students who have finished their exams, congrats. enjoy your holidays! but without me! anyway, i just wanna say that i miss you guys and i will be back soon. two more months. alright?! 15 Nov is the magical date, if you think thats too long, look forward to 1 oct (*hints*). the very day the great thy was born 19yrs ago. wahaha. enjoy your holidays! work harder, buy me bigger present ar... miss you guys, tc.

i want to add on something. i am a harsh speaker, do not feel hurt by me. its not that i dun talk with brains switch on, its just that i my rebuttals are able to tear down your words very quickly. frankly speaking, i dun have any ill intentions in me. thats why i say, know me and you will love me. haha.

alright, time to bath. i am dirty.

my future.

i was having a chart with sharon on my way home today. we were talking about the standard of our school and those in the same "ivy" league as us. seriouslly, it seems that the students that are going to graduate from these school, either they make it to uni or not, is going to have pretty much the same ending. that is not going to be very successful in the future.

we took our teachers as examples. two from rjc, one(my "favourite") from hci... and i ponder on this topic on the train. and came up with more evidences. my aunts. those that are from good jc, are good now. those from not so good jc, not so good la. but i have to concede that i am looking only at the minorities.

i fear for my future now. my ambition is to become a successful career women, not having to depend anyone for anything. the feeling of asking sucks, don't you think so? where will i be in 10 years time? will i just be some junior member of a company? or a high flyer? certainly, i hope very much for the later.

oh ya, i has mock econs prelim exams today. it was in the lecture hall, needing to complete 3 essay in 2hr15mins. after writing my first essay, i was staring at the others. i did not have anything to write for my next two essay. they were practically crap. and this is a very very very scary feeling. everyone seems to be writing so hard, time was precious for them. as for me? time seem to be passing by so s.l.o.w.l...y. when this happen, it only goes to shows that you did not study and you can only pray that they are writing crap. haha. i am so mean. come on, major exams is about the bell curve, you write crap and i stand to gain. but of course, i will want everyone to do well. i am so selfish, sorry! at least i am honest.

this is the time where you really think you should buck up. even the slackest class in my class was writing furiously.good for you. i had better wake up, nicholas, you too. and many of us too..
hmm..today i did nothing but to watch tv, type , eat and sleep. indeed i have woken up.

a person and a computer.

no, this is not going to be a story of a person and a computer. its going to about a relationship btw the both that i came up with. here goes...


The computer and you,
-hard disk = your memory.
-RAM size = the speed in which we think.
-computer's appearance = human features. the saying of "never judge a book by its cover" applies here too. some computer looks really cool, but they are actually empty inside.
-computer's generation of heat = same as do you flare up easily?
-among of wires connected = how many friends do you have? permanent or temporary?
-among of programmes in it = how smart or resourceful are you? or are you just empty and useless?
-operating system. Eg, Windows XP, Vista, 98 = where are you in today's world? are you lagging behind? are you still relevant today?
-some computer has non-scratch screen and spill resistance key board. = are you strong, are you able to resist the challenges of today?
-some computer has a sensitive touch pad and keyboard. = are you sensitive?

you never knew you share so much with this non living object right? my connections are pretty relevant right? haha. i think its quite lame. at least i admit it.

i lost something, and i do not have the confidence that i will find it back and restore it... perhaps its my own doings. serve you right, thy!

my holidays has ended. i did not make use of them as i have planned and wanted....

AND EPL IS BACK! MY LIFE AND WEEKEND IS BACKED! THIS NEW SEASON IS GOING TO BE EXCITING. JUST LOOK AT YESTERDAY'S RESULTS AND YOU WILL KNOW. THE NEW FOOTBALL CHANNEL IS NOT GREAT THOUGH, BUT THEY GIVE YOU A WIDE RANGE OF MATCHES TO CHOOSE FROM. THERE WERE THREE LIVE MATCHES GOING ON AT THE SAME TIME YESTERDAY. MANU IS PLAYING TONIGHT! GO DEVILS. I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE MANU STYLE OF FOOTBALL WHICH HAVE THRILLED AND ATTRACTED MILLIONS OF FANS ALL AROUND THE WORLD.

you can see my excitement with all the capital letters. life for me now will be studies and soccer, nothing more or less. and it will be hard to concentrate on weekends with all that soccer going on.

i wanna say anything. i might look nonchalant (cool la. haha) in the eyes of many. but deep down, things matters to me.

my next post will be on how i view mself. haha. stay tune for more.

besides, i hate ppl to ask me about what i blog. so shut up, if you were planning to move your mouth.

it feels "GREAT" to be left out. thanks.

a tribute.

life has been particularly mundane the past few days. home, taught people, study, tv , sleep and eat. these few words summarises my past two days of holiday. i really want to make this long holiday a very useful one, and i hope that at the end of this holiday, i will have gain back that self believe for Alevels.

a tribute to the school i love. and i thank god for bringing me to this very special place, where friendships and values are builts. (DO NOT READ IF YOU HATE TO HEAR ME MENTIONING ABOUT SMSS)


i realised that my friends and i had come a long long way. After psle, we were posted to the NA stream. in most eye, it was a stream that will not have as much future, that will not give birth to kids like us, who has made it to JCs and Poly. some were late, but nevertheless, they made it there. the odds were stack against us, ppl were shock to know of our present status now.

i believe that the catalyst for our little achievement now has to be smss. believe it all not! the school gave us many. caring teachers, discipline and sense of belonging. had it not been for SMPS affiliation with SMSS, most of us would not be in that school. my sec school takes in ppl for the NA stream with scores higher than 188 in the past. had it not been for the school, i think most of us would end up in other school, lians, gangster or true nerds we might become.

above are my views and my gratefulness to smss. you think i am crapping and bull shitting or whatever? i am not, what i type is from the bottom of my heart. think about it yourself, without smss and their quality of all-round education (academic+christian faith), will we be where we are now? ask yourself that question.

i am not propagating, nor am i doing free advertisement for the school. maybe some of what i wrote are too extreme, but these statement still hold true for most part of it. this post is inspired by debra and her post. i thought of my last national day celebration in smss: our high-ness in the hall, our class tee and the red cloth.

its only right for me to end of with this photo:

Personality test

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Here is the analysis:
1) You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

2)You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

3)You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

4)Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

5)Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

6)You are the type to fall quickly and passionately in love, but will commit to a person forever when this happens. When you choose to love someone, it's going to be a strong relationship and nothing will come between you and your lover. But beware: love can turn you blind, and the rest of the world might cease to exist while you are in that honeymoon phase. When you come down from your high, you may find you have neglected other people and things that you love.

7)Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

8)You value your friendships: 50%. You value your friendships quite a lot but you don't like to show your feelings to others. You would rather keep your feelings to yourself than share them with your friends. You might get a pleasant surprise if you are more open about caring for people - they will probably let you know that you're special to them, too.


9) Nosy Level: 70%. You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.


Alright, if you have read through all, most of the stuff there are about 60% true, i think. i find that point 6 is esp relevant to ppl around me... anyway, do the quiz at www.quizbox.com its the same that jac has on her blog.

school.

"jc students have no life, jc life is a slog from the moment you enter school." got that from strait times, someone wrote in and express this. yes, its true to some extent. well if you are thinking that you still have some life and you have not slog that much yet, most probably you are in a state of failure. i mean it.i think i am in this state - your revision are way way behind time if there is any to follow, you know nuts about certain topics and that you are getting horrible grades. haha. don't i sound true? think about it, friends.

i think i am gradually MIA-ing from my social circle. it feels lonely, but its very necessary. its one month to prelim, and i am freaking out inside out. my revisions are piling up, soon to a height that i cannot reach. and that will be the point where i am really dead... i mean dead. so i better sart working and perhaps this is still a mountain/hill that is not impossible for me.

ps. my phone cock up. i cant receive msg, so dont blame me if i dont reply.

photos.

More photos from my Hong Kong trip this year...

Dont we look cute?
My auntie and i.

wanted to post more, but the photos are too huge in size, so make do with two la.

boring

Warning: this post is going to bored you to tears...

its Friday 920am, i am at home now. i dun have to state the obvious right?! haha. but going school today is really useless, there is only one lesson. one test to be precise. i am not trying to evade from that test, mind you! its only an essay... nothing to study for.

yes, my aunt is back from hk today. hopefully she is back with donuts! its donut craze and i seem to have become a victim to it. but not as severe as a few of my friends. i just wanna try that brand of donut and see how good it is. if its good, maybe can get my aunts to get when they go Australia soon.

oh ya, yesterday, Sharon was asking me what i will do if i din bring keys. and her words must have truly jinx me la. i really din bring key yesterday! and i have to spend my time in the gym for about 3 hours. i spend most of my time sitting in the toilet, luckily its not smelly. haha. after that i went vivo to meet my mum for some grocery shopping. oh ya, i have superdog coupon. who wanna eat?! i am a cheapo.

i think my mum's culinary skill is not bad. look at my size and you will know. the menu yeaterday was fried pork with miso paste, tofu egg, vegetables and miso soup serve with japanese rice. it taste good, i ate a lot too. hehe.

People, please send me all the photos of last saturday's dim sum and sunday's ride. Goodbye for now, hope you enjoy reading my colourful life. haha.

a Tuesday.

today is Tuesday. lessons are darn slack today. only had one tutorial and 2 lectures, but school ended at 3. which is very late in comparison with other days.

math lesson was fun today. mr koh was asking if he could eat into our break and use it for math lesson. we rejected his request straightly. and when we were packing up, he said the time was actually meant to be used to view his wedding video. and as expected, our reaction change immediately. we stay on to watch the video, 40 mins long. some even have to eat bao for lunch ... moral of the story? er, never reject so quickly? always know the absolute truth before giving an answer? just choose one. haha.

STUDIES! here i come...

a message to you:
perhaps a few years later, when we met each other on the streets again, our relationship will be normalised, back to days where we will do what we enjoy most together.. as for now, i can only apologise for that way things have turn out to be.

fun week

my fun week.

Thursday: met mic and jac. iceballed, talked and walked. fun!

Friday: met hy and mel. went to eat donut factory. not very nice. sat and talked. fun!

Saturday: dim sum buffet as its scissor's birthday. haha. the person kept on reminding us that they can charge us for food wastage. but luckily, a kind auntie help us clear all. haha.went home after that and sleep. then went airport to fetch.

Sunday: the day that mic have been waiting for --- hippo+duck+dhl ride. felt like a tourist that day. guess how much we paid for the tour? not 30, not 20, but 13 only. so cheap right? well, i learn more of Singapore after the hippo and duck tour. like esplanade have about 7200 spikes a long time since i met brandon and zara and the rest. brandon can like remember all the names in transformer, luckily i got watched. as for Zara, she talks as much as she used to. and also like an adult. i love the two of them a lot! they bring smiles to my life. but sometimes they suck too la. haha.

Monday: ponned school. but i told my mum the truth in the end. i told her i din finish my homework, so how to go? my auntie going Perth, so i might be getting a new crumpler as advanced Christmas present. but i am still contemplating if i should as it cost more, but more colour seland that swisshotel have approximately 1300steps. after that went for steamboat dinner at granny's place. been ection too. another good news, some idiot who took my mum's luggage have returned it. luckily, otherwise my mum will be very sad. cause all her prize possession from bangkok are that. well, its important cause all my chewing gum are there. haha. one more thing to add on. someone cut her hair and i am the first to know and see... and for this moment i felt special. thanks. indeed, you are my buddy. i know you will be reading this. =)

a summary of my week. hopefuly, yours was a blast too.

i miss you

my mum is in Bangkok now. although its only a 3day2night trip. frankly speaking, i am missing her right now. luckily she is coming home tomorrow already. no, i dun miss her for the convenience i get when she is around. alright!

its her again

that are many things i wanna blog about today. but i just dun have the time to type them all out. i had fun today. had ice ball again! ppl, go before the food festival end. you will regret not eating it although its just ice and sugar syrup... AND i went on a mini tour at city area again. but its fun. Overall, i had a FUN day.

but there is something i definitely wanna share with you guys. and guess what the topic is about? my "favourite" teacher of course. er, she said in lecture that saving the earth from the effects of global warming is a moral duty. MORAL? sounds serious to you right. the moment she said that, i can only relate to the fact that she drives a car despite staying near to school. and had travel far and wide. hmm.. guess what all this equates too? just more carbon dioxide emission. just contributing to more global warming. INDEED, performing a moral duty.

two simple conversations:

Number 1:
she: HY, are you feeling better? (as i din go sch on Monday)
me: ya
she: don't look like leh. you face still as black as ever.

Number 2:
she (discreetly standing behind my back, popping her head out): working hard?
me (trying to complete my UN source based): Ya
she (to lmy): she very fierce hor?

hmm... do you know why i "like" her so much now? i am sorry that i kept on blogging about her, but she is simply not going to get out of my life for now. and i am picking on every word she say. but seriously, think about the moral thingy above. i make sense don't i?

time to go off and complete my cold war table. tata.

a message for you

you step forward and speak up.
but was that a hidden agenda? i certainly thought so.
after that, i am more digusted by you.
and that also puts a fullstop(.) or ellipsis(...) to our chapter.
as if you care any. neither do i.

i am so tired. night.

i miss smss a lot.

need i tell you how much i miss being in my polkedot outfit? haha. it has always been in my heart, since the day of graduations. my classmate, teachers, and certainly those non-living objects in smss, i miss them all.

i was reminded of miss chia, when my gp teacher were telling me about wearing wrong shoes. 5n1 geography student, does it ring a bell now? YES! she wore a different pair of shoes to school on one particular day. and we were laughing at her like hell, but as usual, she only stood there with that mesmerizing smile of hers. haha. her pronunciation rocks to the mega too. Remember-- Durga=tha-ka, Jacintha=Ja-cinda, majority=mae-jority and so on. Remember? but there is something i definitely want to applaud her for. that is her general knowledge or current affairs. its darn darn good. it was back in sec 4/5 that she tells my class about Live8, Biopolis, stem cell research and use of umbilical cord. its like only last year that Gp introduce all this to us, so she is darn knowledgeable can... some of friends dun even know of all ths, till recently. However, she cant teach. Luckily she has moved on to become some VP in other school, otherwise she would jeopardise the results of future geog students. haha. i am so mean here! But she is nice to me.. always giving me praises and encouragements on my scripts. Still, i only got a B for my humanities. and my aunt was telling me that your Humanities is the worse but you still go Arts stream. haha.

Next up would be Mrs low, HY's snow white. no, she dun look like snow white okay. Mrs low is sarcastic. i hated her at first, then i begin to like her. well, i think she begin to like our class too. perhaps she thinks that our class is quite smart and cute after all. and she would tell us how she would run away from Mrs raj (that English teacher) to avoid all the complains for our class. she teaches quite well too. and she is practical and straightforward. she would just tell you how you suck and that if you dun get a certain grade, she will pay less attention to you. correct me if i am wrong, this is in my vague memory.

hmm.. next person worthy to be mention must be Mr Anthony. he is extremely funny can. i remember mentioning him on my blog once, so ppl go back and read it. thats what archives are for right?! but i got to mention the classic would be Melissa and his multiple choice question. its freaking freaking funny. it never fails to put a smile on my face when i remember that incident.

As for the other teachers, they are not worth mentioning. haha. well, not much memory of them. and my brain being only a few gigb (Gb) will choose to remember those that are more significant...

i shall stop here today.
Did the ghost of today made me nostalgic for the past?

privatising

so tire, i been sleeping for the last two days. i only did a few things-sleep, eat, watch soccer, online and out. and i still have a lot of homework and revisions undone. maybe, i am not going school tomorrow. so which poly friend of mine is nice to host me in their school library? haha.

Mr ALEVELS, i am so scared of you. its seems that all my white hair are appearing because of you. i am not doing enough to win you, i want to conquer you! i want my As and Bs! and get to choose my course next year! i want i want i want.

this week was fun with the clubbing part, but not so with my schooling days. clubbing seems to make people forget about your worries and woes temporarily as extremely loud music blast into your ears and make your heart pound! perhaps when my body loosen up, i will have a stronger desire to go again. actually, even if you dun dance, you can always go there to hear music, see people and hang out with your friends.

at marina square toilet.

at one of the MOS room.

birthday girl din want a cake, so we had to improvise. made it with my mum.

Cheers!

PS. I am going to privatise my blog soon. that means no more free access. i have decided to lock myself in a world that i am more comfortable too. to avoid any misunderstanding and to really speak up, i have no choice but to locked it. i need freedom of speech here, under the password. tata, to my readers.

done deal

-outburst of emotions
-sometimes, it does not pay to be honest.
-am i the start of all this?

busybody

oh well, my good intentions actually equate to "i am wrong." thanks ppl, why dun your put yourself in my position and look from my perspective. Mind you, i dun talk brainlessly. what i said today is for a reason. and i am very upset that some of my peers do no understand me. Esp you. oh well, what more can i do? nothing i guess.

clubbing yesterday was an eye opener for me. ok, season/frequent clubber will think that i am a "shuan gu." whatever! i dun really like it anyway, but once in a while and it will be fun. MOS is nice, esp the room that we went into. but the service sucks! they looked down on us, i hate these ppl. on the other hand, the crew at zouk are nicer. they give us free ice water even though we din buy anything. well, being a typical Singaporean here, free gift and i will praise you. oh, the music at zouk in nicer too. AND i would like to thank mel, mic and qy, i can see you guys trying to protect me, the clubbing noob. thanks. =)

and now, i am left to ponder how a life should be lived to avoid unhappiness, conflict and dilemmas. is there a formula to a good life and to what extent is this a generic formula?

moody

unlike esther ker and emo emo, i am not a emo kid. well, i am just moody. yeah, even when i am not having any bleeding. and the forecast for this week would be largely cloudy, with thunder storms. so here i am giving a pre-warning to those who ALWAYS disgust me. actually, there is no one la. except, for one, who i am very sure wont be reading this. That is, my "favourite" teacher, of course.

Monday
-the SBQ i did suck. teacher say i degenerate while people improve!!
-i had my most desired tutorial and lecture on that day. amounting to abt 4hours with her.
-one good thing is that i went to vivo with my mum again. haha.

Tuesday
-one good thing is that LMY is not in school. haha. joking.
-civics was really funny today, till some idiots say the wrong thing.
-i began to become very sensitive to certain things, and this really turn me off. hmm...
-off to work, i have tons to do. i need to finish my Thursday homework and study test as well.

oh, i know that my classmates in JC will surely remember me. "eh, she is that girl who always pull a long face!" haha. have you ever wondered how ppl will remember you?