expectations.

yeah, i will no longer have expectations of anyone. it onlys make me feel miserable and become sensitive whenever they fail to meet it. yeah, no more expectations of anyone. i have learn.

on a happier note, merry christmas and hapy new year to you!!

oh, and i had a great christmas party, as it was organized by ME!! haha. i been organizing the annual party ever since we began having this traditions. oh, there was much laughter in the party provided by the two treasure(even though their surename is HO) of the TAN FAMILY. haha.. do you know who i am reffering to? haha, check out the christmas tree man!! seems like everyone has big fat bonus ths year. and look at the kids christmas present!! hia, kids these days are so lucky!!

ipod nano.

WOO HOO! i can finally declared that i am an ipod owner. haha
its a second generation ipod nano, a mere 2 gb. receive it from my aunt for christmas. haha. about a year ago, i nearly got my ipod nano. while paying, the idiot man from the shop coax me into buying some dumb Samsung mp3 player. and i fell into his tricks. haha. up to now, i still regret on how i miss out the ipod nano for a samsung. haha. but now, i can proudly proclaimed that i am an ipod nano owner. haha.

ps, i am not showing off. i am excited. haha

i even told my aunt to wrap the box and give me the ipod so i can use it now, rather then sunday. obviously, i got rejected. do you know that 33.333% of kids in US owns an ipod? so unfair right? hopefully, i willl have a wonderful experience using ipod, the mp3 player that has dominated the mp3 market. poor creative, no ones' buying.

SUPPORT SINGAPORE'S BRAND !

this is it.

ok, someone flew my aeroplane twice in the space of two days. i am frustrated. i should be right? christmas is here, new year is coming, school is reopening. its all about alevels after that.

i miss smss.

I MISS ST MARGARET SECONDARY SCHOOL!!!

i miss the times when we raced down to the canteen for the malay rice.
the times when we played dai-dee as if the class was a gambling den.
the times when we played tricks on mrs saw, asking her to stay to delay lesson times.
the times when we go to town pratically everyday for lunch.
the times when we played basketball.

Lastly, i miss 5n1! i miss myfriends, my foes and the neutrals.

a message for everyone.

Just as if i am wondering if anyone is reading this, i am still continuing to blog. dumb right? Blogging for no one to read. haha.. i am actually using this blog as an outlet for me, for me to vent my frustration, for me to tell you something, and hopefully for me to improve my english.

okok. i shall start the main topic for today. here goes,

TO YOU: who am i to you? just someone you will turn to when you are crying? when you do not have the courage/time to tell people about your troubles? am i someone who you will only turn to when you need help? or am i someone who you will turn to only when you need somethign from me? the more i think about it, the more i feel that i have only one purpose to you, that is to be your listening ear. ok, i might sound like a fish monger here, but i meant it from the bottom of my heart. dun you think that you only look me up when you are down and out? yeah, i am sounding unreasonable, but thats me. the strong looking me, is actually naive and insensitive to certain issues. melissa, right? haha. I am not wrong, i am only trying to get to the crux of the problem. this is how i feel, not sure about you. step forward when you see this. when you know that its you.

ok. now i should direct my post to everyone out there now.

TO ALL: i am a loser. usually when i am really close to someone, their partner (lovers or new found friends) would appers and i will lose them. erm, hopefully you know what i am talking. i am frustrated becasue it always happens on ME!! me! yeah, the innocent me is usually the victim of such a scenario. so should i get angry or sad? sad i guess. yeah, losing to friends is not that bad, as i always say that if i you are good, people will stick to you. but to lovers? come more? is relationship really that important? more important than friendship? haha. i dunno. i have never been in an relationship before.

so ppl, please advice.
ok, shall stop here. as usual, i am new, so i might be using funny english.
bye.

Roles? if any

Hmm... i was just wondering if friends have a certain roles to play. meaning, certain friends do certain things with you.

a) friends that you will communicate with using sms and call.
b) friends that you will approach when you are down and out.
c) friends that will go shopping wiht you.

Are such thought positive or nagative?

After giving many examples, just what role do i play? am i someone who multi-roles, or am i just someone who has 1 role. upon reading this, you may feel that i am definetly someone with multiple roles, but hold on to your answer. Ponder once more, before concluding on my roles.

Pardon me if i am not making any sense with my writing. i am a new blogger, give me time to write meaningful and understandable posts.

Yesterday

Yesterday(Lennon/McCartney)
Lead vocal: Paul

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be,There's a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Mm mm mm mm mm mm mm.