i love it when my colleagues are on leave / work from home. ;)
i've so many drafts that i didn't post.. Circumstances do not allow me. 2014 just flew past like that. i can't believe the things that are happening to me. i cried so much in 2014. i failed countless of times in 2014. My heart broke. But i still choose to love. Sometimes, i'm secured and blessed. Sometimes, i feel lost, heartbroken and meaningless. My thoughts towards death are if it happens it happen. It doesn't matter much to me, but i certainly hope i've gotten insurance for my family. (serious) This place is too complexed and hard to take in. I certainly do not mind if God take me back because i'm tired. I'm tired of all this bullshit, difficult people and circumstances.
my resolution of being 40s is so near and yet so far. haiz. Will life be purrfect if we are 48kg? (because 45kg is too hard to achieve)
and i'm going to be a sister for my friend's wedding in June! Scary or what??! people around me are getting married and getting BTOs flats. But i'm so scared, i do not dare to think so far. I do not want to be tied down by HDB and end up losing money, dignity, security and.. love.
my dreams of flying is so near yet so far too. and there's the nagging feeling of growing up, 12k more to go and if i survive this damned job by december 2015. >> Lasik and Driving License.
and what's next? life is too stress to think about all these and i just want to youtube and hide away from the reality.
The people i would love to talk to do not talk to me, but the people i do not like did not take the hints that i simply do not wish to continue with the pointless conversations.
Love is filled with so much uncertainties. You can never find anyone that is flawless because we are all FLAWED. Find someone who is imperfectly perfect for you. Let this year be good and things changes to be something better. Its all or nothing, that's my love for you.
and i'm being very random and i know nobody will understand what i'm saying.
meh~
this pretty sums up my life -
