Internship

Feel like shit, feel like shit. Why do i have to work for so many graveyard shifts compared to the other 2 interns. I gave my best in everything i do and i get back one complaint and no compliments. Sometimes, i wonder is it because the person who plan my schedule doesn't like me a lot? Or am i not good enough? I am constantly struggling with my esteem in this internship. They always make me feel small, unaccomplished. I got lectured on my religion, on how i was not strong enough. Even my lead that loved me a lot, (i can feel it) gave me this really long prep talk on my future, on my future job prospect. I really feel so down and i could not stop thinking bout them. Colleagues in my department are all graduates of Poly with high GPA and most of them are studying in Uni. I feel so insecure with my pathetic GPA score and i really need to study in Uni.

I did everything i was told, newsletters, back-to-back graveyard shifts in a row for 4 consecutive days and multiple graveyard shifts for HAP. And what did i get?
NOTHING, no appreciation but piling ups of graveyard shifts yet, again.

I really can cry like literally. I have not been to church for so many months because of the cock up shifts. I wished i had a choice. My wish is very simple, just give me Wednesday and Sunday off so i can serve in my ministry and go for services. :(

Because seriously, i feel like i am treated like shit. I wished i was highly favoured. :''(

Yup. Go ahead, You do what you gon' do man!

I did my part. I put down my pride partially. You can take everyone. Tell everybody your side of the story and make me look bad. It wasn't my fault until i break the promise. But on my part, i didn't think that i was in the wrong. I was the victim. I had choices so i chose the one that you didn't want me to, which is saying the truth. Whatever it is, she should not say that about me. And you shouldn't even tell me anything. I dint wanna know! Go on and hate me for something so trivial.