like a fire, shut up in my bones.

i choose love. :)

Come like a flood and saturate me now, You're all i want.

Clothed with Fire Survivor II camp!!! 

AKELLO FROM AKIN! <3

have so many revelations. 

• blessed to serve as an ATL this camp :)
• do the things that are unseen and insignificant to others but of great importance to God.
• seek God first and all things shall be added upon me according to His riches and Glory.
• take care of His people, and He shall exhort us.
• put down the past, expect the future, embrace the present.
• unity is everything, do not let anything comes in between you and His people.
• heaven and earth shall pass away, but my words shall not pass away. (mark 13:31, Luke 21:33)
• rising up to be a cogl...
• always have to be hungry and thirsty for God.
• Holy Spirit is a person, NEVER deprive Him of anything. 
• be sensitive to the H.S, be discerning..
• COME WITH EXPECTATIONS. 

you have to really come with expectations!

i was expecting so much and am expecting so so much for my future... :)

i am addicted to His presence! 

First day

only austin cheering happily. haha! but games was good, helps to hype up the members. game master was good too, all very nice people.. girls dorm were good too! so nice la all of them. church goers really very sweet! I LIKE!

Night session, presence of God flood through the whole place, people rushing forward to receive the impartations from Pst MJ. Bam! but i still want more, more! had Holy laughter, but i was crying.. that night is the first night i fall by God's presence because i yearn for IT so so so so so so much.. had been praying and praying and fasting for it!! cried like a baby and fall to the ground like a few others. presence of God fill me, i can't bring myself away from it, i just wanna stay baked in His presence..

prayed with jasmine for our tribe AKELLO. haha and prayed for the camp, zone, friends, members and not let strife to be within us..

Second day

Frigging jialat, i thought prayers would helped the day to go on smoothly... but it ended well. hahaha

OMG! so many things happen, me and jasmine blew up.. :( (esp morning la)

i think i handled it quite well but definitely there's rooms for improvement! 

frigging stretched on the second day.. everyone like "zhaocha" me ish angry bird!!!

hahaa, thank God for His goodness and mercy so that i can be a lil like Him..

anyway, everyone was hurt, bruises, cuts all over. sigh.. Angie lost $110 bucks + iphone charger spoil. :(

now i really appreciate felicia lor! haha :P

second night session, PASTOR KONG!!!!!!!

night was AWESOME!!!

Pastor sho tall and hunk-like. hawt man!

:D anyway so impacted by Pastor's presence alone. hehe, cuz all his testimonies, stories, sermon, he shared that night, i heard before already...

waited like 10 hours for his altar call (haha, kidding LOL!), rushed down, cried like a big baby, rushed forward to receive his impartations. BAM 3 times by Pastor Jeremy. NOT ENOUGH, I NEED PASTOR KONG's ANOINTING. i saw mingyao, so i ask him can i go down AGAIN for Pastor Kong to pray for me!! i literally RAN down for anointing, cut chicha and denson's queue :p hehehhee sorrreh! and prayed so fervently for only Pastor Kong to lay hands on me!! and when Pastor lay hands on me, i refuge to budge, i want ALL of his anointing, give me everything tonight. and i fell to the ground, manifested.

Catherine and felicia prayed for me, i never know i had so much evil spirits inside of me. (note that i use much instead of many, UNCOUNTABLE) cried and scream. it wasn't even a deliverance service! it was for our spiritual walk to be on fire again. i shook so much in tears, in pain. :'(  the evil spirits did not want to leave me! i vaguely remember Catherine asking me, "do you want to forgive your brother?" i screamed. "I DON'T WANT" i know there was something more than forgiveness.... evil spirits be loosed right now! 

i think i was on the floor for quite a long while.. like really really long 20-30 mins? i still feel that i need more prayers, but its time to stand up and let other people receive impartations. (esp during saturday service, my tummy like bloated, breath quickens, had a hard time.)cannot be selfish. :(

anyway, afterwards at night, part of Akello praised together with Addo! hahhahhaa. very fun, we praise and worship for quite long till 1plus am.. initially, there was going to be a L4D night game but Pastor Mj thought it was too late already..  :( look forward to it ykno. 

slack with Joel + enjie, austin, jasmine, sean, prissy, brondi, bryan !!!! hehehehe. my spiritual father/brother. he really talk a lot. LOL! bad listener HAHAHAHA :p but super nice guy and charming like mingyao TEEHEE. 

anyway, aftterwards went to make cards for our tribe, me and prissy + daniel and joel + others play basketball in the end.
and did cards like really late. till 5 am. but i am so proud of me and jas!!! we gave verses to the members. 12 verses you know!!! (and on saturday afternoon, most of them said the verses were given according to their situations) i am damn happy. God is one awesome person. loveyou! hahah!
i wonder if God has a social networking accounts? LOL! 

to be continue with more pictures and feelings. :)

who wants to listen to my stories??

DISC :D

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Lighter of Fires

Huiting, as the "Lighter of Fires", you have a powerful personality with the outgoing nature and drive to make things happen, even if the odds are stacked against you. Self-directed and self-motivated, you naturally gravitate towards leadership positions as others are drawn to your energy and enthusiasm. Holding high standards for yourself and others, you pursue your personal goals until they've reached completion and tend to evaluate based on results. In times of pressure, you tend to be objective in your approach and direct in your communication. In times of low stress, however, you can mix business with pleasure and come alive in social situations. Naturally, optimistic, you seek out the possibilities in life. Others view you as confident and courageous. Your creativity and ability to solve problems are some of your greatest strengths, utilizing your logical and analytical skills. This allows you to create new opportunities, keeping your experiences fresh and exciting. You stand behind your choices and value fairness and rationality in your reasoning. Often bored by routines, you like to mix things up and prefer to develop new ideas rather than maintaining systems already in place. You are a bold person, whose character is marked by originality, expressiveness, and drive. With a talent for big picture thinking, you can be a great innovator and are typically seen this way by others. Although very task oriented, you thrive in environments where you can be around people and may prefer leading the way. Your energy and forward thinking can generate a team-oriented environment, helping you to accomplish your goals by motivating others and creating an atmosphere that is fun and exciting. You have what it takes to blaze the way for new ideas and projects, inspiring those around you with your focus and charismatic personality. Food for Thought You prefer to communicate and be communicated with in a clear, concise manner. When others are unclear or overly emotional in their communication, it will likely be frustrating to you. You may be short-tempered and lack patience with others when frustrated. In these times, your body language and tone can become acutely direct, which can be threatening or offensive to more passive styles. This is a common communication breakdown that can only improve through understanding and awareness. You are a big picture thinker and may not gather all the needed information before making decisions or moving forward on something you are excited about. Having a detail-oriented person who can gather information and support your visions with information will help you in achieving your goals. You may tend to show love, affection, and dedication through tasks and concrete gestures and want to be acknowledged for it as such. Likely, you also want to be shown love in a similar way that you show it. You may be frustrated around a more emotionally-motivated style, as they will show and need to be shown love through affections and personal attention. Being a self-directed person, you do not like to be rushed or pressured. You probably prefer leadership roles and may have a difficult time with other's authority or rules. You have a strong need to be recognized for your accomplishments and actions and approved of by others. You may have a tendency to be generous with those around you, and will especially struggle in times of feeling taken advantage by others.

very accurate test, but it never include what letter am i !!! =.=

Grab somebody sexy tell ‘em hey

omg. camp camp camp. i can't wait..
today PM finally got a bit of impartation..
finally being slain... but not quite what i expected.
nah. i guess i need to have higher expectations.
i still rmb that one time. "poof" and i'm on the floor.
but....... back up in a second. haha. weird.

omgomgomgomgomg.
i can't contain my excitement.
For the first time~~ :D
never been to a church camp before!!!

so excited! :D

not even my stupid brother can spoil my mood. hehe.
time to pray :D

Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose

never read too much into people's words. Never.

i feel soo..
i don't know.. you can't really trust anyone with all your heart.
especially in poly.
where is all the innocence in everyone?
they may seem nice out front. but i feel that there is something more..
especially on msn.
=.= people can't keep their opinions contained. they just need to blow some trumpets.
come on, be slow to speak, slow to wrath but quick to listen.
have you listen to both side of the story before judging?

i doubt so.

on a random note, i smell good :D
can't wait for camp :))))))))))))))

kthbye

hehe. and in huiting's dictionary...


its KDABYE

I just wanna be myself, And I want you to love, me for who I am.

not everything can be measured, unless for judgement.
not everything you want, you can have. the more you yearn for it, the more you will treasure it if you ever lay hands on it.
not everything you wished you had, you have. if not why do you used the word "wished" in past tense?

if you are never involved, why are you judging the work others' produced. if you are given the job, will you do it even better? do you have the expertise to do it top-notch quality? No. scratch that. can you maintain the quality of your work all year round, 30 pieces of tedious work that are done by a few individual, filled with the thoughts of 30 people.

its not easy. but you never know, you never will. Unless you step out of your tent and count the promises in the sky. Not till you encounter the love of Jesus, then you will learn to appreciate fellowship. Not till your capacity is enlarged, or your thinking broadened, that you may experience love for others and have the capacity to love.

we live our lives for ourselves, not to please others. i am going to have the greatest impartation of my whole christian walk in this camp. nobody shall waver my faith. nobody shall crush my hope. i have great dreams and visions.

i'm living my life for the Lord, are you?

It's a damn cold night, tryin' to figure out this life..

I'm standin' on the bridge
I'm waitin' in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
I'm tryin' to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
Hmm hmm hmm

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
I try to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
Yea yea

Oh, why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yea eee yeah, yea eee yeah
Yea yee yea, yea eee yeah,yeah

It's a damn cold night
Tryin' to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you, yea
I'm with you, ye

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you, yea
I'm with you, yea

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you, oh
I'm with you
I'm with you


how i feel :(

Running in circles, chasing our tails, coming back as we are..

never thought i would be so privileged to be the ATL.
so blessed by the Lord. i'm humbling myself. which is a good thing.
stop complaining CHT, stop crying, stop whining.
accept it. God has its purpose for everything.
God wants you to start doing something..
i know i've taken a long hiatus from ministry work. sigh~
the feeling of devotion is really.. indescribable.
kay. i need to work even harder.

PUSH: Pray Until Something Happen.
i'm believing God for my calling, my purpose to be revealed in this camp, please let me fall under the presence, please let me have encounters upon encounters.
and please Lord help me to tend my sheep. be a good shepherd.

PS: i love my christian friends in RP.. :)

Consumed with what to transpire~

Movie review!

 
awesome book, awesome movie. hahahah!
okay, i'm biased but i loved the book, so its like a must to love the movie right?
aww, i wished i can read Something Blue. :( That's Darcy's point of view. sian.

Anyway, had Sentosa outreach today. sunburnt! :(
okay. IT WAS A TOTAL MESSED UP.
very jialak. zzzz

had deliverance service on Saturday.
maybe all these were the devil's doing. he sabotage our outreach.
at least it ended well (i guess)
lol. i think i need to be prayed up more.
even if all else fails, i know that i know that i know, i've tried my best and gave my all.
no position to have regrets. :)

SIGH. hahhaa, side-track a bit.
but i feel so transparent sharing my "spirits" and "past" with a total stranger. She was my deliverer, literally its God, but yup, she's my counselor.
but its okay.. i have pris too :D
side-track even more, i don't want "Something borrowed" to be in my life and pris

but i'm like Darcy with the party-goer, paranoid, loud and self-absorbed nature.
but also like Rachel, emo, think a lot, tried hard not to hurt my bff...
pris's like Rachel, think of her friends, good listener.
but also like Darcy nature >boys over girls.

HAHHA i don't want. :(

anyway school is starting in a bit.
i absolutely loathe it. shiat man. :( (no more f)
no more late night HIMYM and blog-hopping.
sho sad. 

Feed your flock, and I will feed you.

anneung! ahhahaha.
i turned brown. but i loike :D
will see how it turn out after i washed it...
i dont know why is it bangs again.. but oh well!
bangs=straight fringe for me haha!

my eye one big one small !!!

:(

so i can give it to you rough like a first draft.

holiday inn
come and meet me at the eight floor
damn it feels good but i feel bad for them next door

hehe he hehehhe heheheh heheheheh he heee.
okay. i am kinda um. yup addicted to parpartyinggg!
all my new songs are club songs. damn. into some trance song too. lol.
okay, my new songs also includes coldplay and muse. but technically speaking its not new songs anymore.
RIGHT.

hahahahahahah.

went PH again.. zzz hahaha not as fun, cuz not all my babies were there. :(
spotted 2 hot guys though.
one in white long pullover, so cute la, but ah beng. look totally mixed blood.
another was an angmoh speaking one. hit on shuyi! lol!
oh ya plus shuyi's bro damn hot. fling fling. haha.

oh ya, the first time i went ph, saw this blond cute guy. aww.
tall and cute, awesome combination. too bad, he's shy, i'm shy. damn. :(

Waterfall!!!! 

totally "tan tio" 30 bucks for this scorching shit. hahhaa very exciting. you have to try it! :)

shots shots shots shots shots, everybody! :D