let my security be in the Lord

whatever Pst MJ said during PM was so right. hahah.
i need more attention. :p

whatever happens, i still have God with me.
even though i'm not a new friend, an apple of your eyes anymore.
:)
weee.
hope that i can get my pay by late march! hongkong hongkong!

abide in Your word, meditate day and night

today prayer meeting was awesome. hahah!
at least better than last week CGC meeting, not so lost.
but for service, i was a little lost in the sermons.. must read more of OT really. hahaha.
yea, we shouldn't register discouragements into our minds!
God will reverse the situation around for us, He is not too early, not too late but on time! haha!!

me gonna start saving up. anybody can intro me day job please! :)
i need around 700bucks by late march!

caring and letting them go come in a package

REALLY.. understood this concept,
if you love your friends, you will choose to accept them.
you will not restrict them,
you will just let them be..
maybe, one day when they really made a mistake,
you can only just hope that they will not blame you,
wouldn't asked you: "why? why you never pulled me out of this mess??"
you: i tried my best.. but, you wouldn't listen. 
you can only hope that they fall hard and learn the hard way.
learn and get over it.

because, the things that you are able to do are limited.

save the verdict for yourself

i can never read other people's blog for long.
i guess i am super obsessed with myself! hahhaha.
reading other people's twitter still fine, but blogs, uh ah. me no loike. hee.

that's it, i am going Hongkeee hongkee!!! :D
this is going to stay with me for 5 years! =,= :(

.

not giving me a place to study,
monitoring my every move.
is that a place call home?
what the f***king hell, seriously.
i can't even listen to some f**king music to study is it?

like the consistent chatter of the TV helped in building a conducive study environment.
thanks alot.

and luke chua, i don't think i am born with enough middle fingers to let you know how i feel.
hope nobody read this space ever.

i am a friend of God!

lol. totally random. nothing to do. 

every saturday i would post bout sermons but.. i think i stopped for awhile. probably cuz nowadays very confused by the sermons, probably i was toooo tired, UTs, stuff's been piling up, prayers.. blaaaaaaaa. and the HK. (we love HK) hahah. need a job need a job! <3

Never felt like this before (or since very long) but i wanna serve moreeeee!!! :D 

usher ministry please call me up please please! hahah <3 

CGC meeting was superb, although i was kinda lost (yet again) in Pst MJ's sermon.. somewhere along the lines of 5Kings and 1 Sun which stood still. (i really need to read more old testaments. hee :p) 

anyway, Pst got me to thinking, like what am i believing God for? and i was STUN. yes STUN.

because me, have always been having very very small dreams. like... ooo, i wanna bring this this this this this person to church. and yea. out of my prospect list, i think i only completed say 5%? hahah. :p sigh...... :(

and, i once wanted to be a CGL. then, a ministry leader. and thinking that it was WAYY too hard. which is now. a CGC or COGL. i rmb, when i first came to church, i wanna be like pris, second in-line. and then i would be super bitter about it. why! why have i not accepted Christ earlier.. so on and so forth. *sigh* me is a super murmuring spirit. but now. like everything is so far away. i can't seem to keep up with the race, constantly, resting at the sideline, cheering others but always forgetting myself..

what do i want? what i do i want? i always pray for blessings. but it never seemed enough for me... friends that actually came to CG and service are not sought by me with great efforts, but i dont know they just come when i asked them to. God really provides, God really helped me so much, more than i helped myself. but what did i do for Him?? :( sigh.............. 

we don't even give a dang dang dang dang dang bout nobodyyyy

UT3!!
OMG. =,= why rp no study break. hahha.
me: 3 hours of study 21 hours = sleep, stone, slack. lol!!!



normally i don't like so much rap in songs. hee~

#welovehongkong haha. crisis one after another. :'(

i love dream high!!

miie lurb dream high!! and all the OST!!

loving song sam dong and wooyoong! hahahah
and and kinda like IU now. LOL!
and i like teacher kang! and and JYP! hahah
and super infatuated with suzy!

jason!! hyemi!! pil sook!! wooO~

CNY

was suppose to be the skinniest! LOL now imma fattest. sad only. 

every year, its like the same. my unique mum. sigh..

every single day scream & scream scream scream!

going crazy. zzz

初一

went to my 大姨's house. :D 

i love going there during CNY! it feels so family!

we played heart attack, bluff and ban luck!

HAHAHA, nearly wanna teach them wudengzhu 五等猪

game that we played during christmas hehe, super fun okay.

i love my maternal side family!!

初二

went to 三老姨& 四老姨 house. :)

they give $10bucks angbao sia.. so nice.. and they are not working..

then went to 小姨 friend's house to eat and take angbaos again. LOL!!

went to 五母 house to bainian.. 

had steamboat, watch 锦衣卫 not bad movie. haha

then went to feli's house to bainian with my members!

aiyo, wait for the bus damn long, and nearly missing it!

stupid bus driver. lol!

i think i zhaogeng 走光 in front of him cuz i wear dress then i open my legs damn big. =,=

lucky he apologise. hehe

the only girls plus feli, feli's mum cecilia, marlin! haha

wasted never take group photos. :( 

the bros: wilson, soongpeng, biondi, xb, seth, derek, clement and his twin bro, weilong, mingyao, kenneth? 

初三

today.. lol, my mama go crazy again.. 

cancelled plans of going visitations..

too late in meeting to go xb's house bainian.

too late in going for usher training

too sian to go service (cuz my top kena nail polish, T.T)

too sad to go out!!

SIGHS*

wishing everyone a happie new year. really~

anyway, not bad this year, my angbao 过百 $141! hahah

你什么都不知道，假装什么？

别人总是告诉我， 叫我不要难过。

又每次问侯我， 问那么一句：“你好不好啊？”

但是，他们又知道什么呢？

但， 如果知道了又怎样呢？

还不是，口头说说，应酬一下罢了。。

有时侯真的觉得自己很无聊，

会不会是自己多余了，想太多了，

但，未必是这样一会事。

或许，自己的可疑心是对了的呢？不知道。

在这个残酷的世界里，

人人都只为自己生存，为自己想，

谁还会为了我这个小小人物费力，费工力呢？

呵呵，还是别想这么多吧，

不然头发全掉关。。