I have a maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hands
He knows my name
He knows my every though
tHe sees each tear that falls and
He hears me when I call
I have a father
He calls me his own
He never leaves me
No matter where I go
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear the falls and
He hears me when I call

this song's ringing in my head.but i duno whether i believe it anot.i reeally duno.haiz.

haven updated for a whole wk.wad did i do..hmm.busy mugging.haha.
sat/sun
flag day.met at goodwood park hotel.did with yinilng.haha.quite ok la.after dat clara,rong,ria,yinling,me we went macs to eat.haha.
after flagday went kelsie hse.
dan we went powerhr 2gther.
after ph went minty's hse.wanted to go AWE..butdan had proj to do.haiz.
stayed over.haha.super fun la.we set up our beds.so cool(:haha.dan we bathed n did our proj.talked n talked dan went downstairs to watch 50first dates.heh.dan went bk up and talk dan fell aslp.heehee.woke up and 6.30.haha.super early la.dan went church.did amath.hee.yea.with joanne jie's help.haha.thankew!(:went cellar.had jyc.worship was great(:heh.dan split into small grps.yea.haha.after jyc went for yc.didn eat lunch.no time la.during yc aunty pearly prayed for me.thankew(:heehee.after yc went kopitiam to eat.haha.ate burger.hahaha.dan had to go hm.haiz.reached hm ard 6 plus lykdat.

everything's going.
going so fast.
will this ever stop
this sux
everyting's going wrong
all too wrong
why.
i keep asking myself
i really wanna give up
ahhhhh....

studystudystudy.datz all you tell me to do.datz all you care about.are results dat impt to you.why?i dun geddit.you keep pushing me.you keep telling me to study.have you ever thought of how i felt?have you.i'm tired.tired of all your nagging.ahhhhhh.

sigh.i wanna run away.runnn...
i keep dreaming.keep wishing.
keep wishing for all this to end
but...

i sux.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JYC!!!!(:

haha.wanted to put this up on sun.buddan didnt have time to even touch the com.heh(:

sun
jyc 1st anniversary.hee(:went church early.reached at 9 lyk dat.met kelsie, jo.yea.blew up balloons.slack abit dan went macs for breakfast.eduard,my bro,kelsie,jo,lynn,lionel,me.haha.dan later dan sean n bianca n sue lynn came.went bk church to do wk.joanne jie helped me with math.hee.thankew(:dan went up 7 floor for worship.heh.didnt wear jyc tshirt coz too small la.hahaha.did ushering with suelynn.worship was great man.ian talked bout passing on from one generation to another.cool.after service dan went down to cellar.food!!haha.ate chinchow with fork.hahaha.ohya.our cookies were super nice lorh.heehee.i sound ego.but ohwell.its true!hahaha.

seriously,as i look back, i realised that i'd grown so so much closer to GOD and to church pple.i remember when in sec 1, we had our cell.aunty licheng's cell.they called it then.yea.didnt really like going to church dan.really.coz i duno man.haha.dat time we were having it at one of the small rms in 5th floor.cell consisted of suelynn,xianhui,bianca,keith,jeremy,sean..justin came in later.yea.and got sumore la.bud canot remember liao.dan later we shifted to cellar.coz cell grew bigger.more pple.dan there was this junior high camp.can't remember when.but i tink grace jie was leading my grp.haha.i guess all you guys would remember me always saying 'huh?' and 'why me?'.hahaha.ohwell.heh.ohwell.was shy la.hahaha.dan had other junior high camp.can't remember which one.hahaha.i tink it was sec 1 dec dat time.haha.dan last yr jyc launch.cool.haha.did the dance tingy.heh.grew alot closer to GOD and to the jyc pple. dan leadership camp last dec.was great lorh.had jyc camp too.(:heh.dan started helping out in jyc and stuff.yea.dan plannned for this jun jyc camp.yea.i think that camp was the best lorh(: haf to leave lyk end of this yr.dun wanna leave but..haha.really.i'm really gonna miss all the pple there.i'm sure the rest of the sec 3s feel the same way too.yea.but at the same time glad coz glad that the sec 2s this yr will b stepping up and taking the role of big 'jiejie' and 'korkor'.(:yea.jyc is a great place man.don't you all agree.hee(:

sat
met kor at orchard mrt at 10.haha.walked ard orchard n talked n talked.hee.dan walked to ps.ate lunch and took neoprint.heh.dan went church.met lynn n kelsie.dan went bugis to buy balloons.ph was great.yea.after ph went 5 floor.to paint the jyc banner tingy.dan went for piano lesson.haha.

today
hmm.ohwell.screwed up chem test.haiz.i duno.but i'm happy with my geog n bio marks.hee.thank GOD.(:really.today was a long day in sch.haiz.tirred.got so much stuff to do.haiz.ahhh..

ohya.keith..if you happen to read this, muz remember to do qt yea(:hehthankew for reminding me too(:take care bro! n dun stress ya.(:

hols are sort of over liao.haha.its fri liao.hmm.what have i been doing man.heh.lets see...haha

tue
-bio lecture
-piano

haha.after dat didnt go out liao.so guai rite.heehee.
oh ya.HAPPY BDAE ERVIN!!!(:heh.

wed
-bb library do cip with beat n minty.
super sian la.stupid libraian keep nagging n nagging.haha.
was shelving bks with this guy.he's frm boys hm la. quite nice. he have to do 120 hr of cip lorh.haha.so funny. gave me this sweet.haha
-church.with lynn,kelsie.help aunty hueyjen with preschoolers
was super fun la.packed all the really really messey stationary.hee.dan we learnt actions for the songs.its super funny.duno whether i can still remember.guess so.haha.
-jo,lynn,esther,aunty licheng,grace jie...we all went out for dinner.supposed to meet at 6.30 at orchard mrt.lynn n i met esther at cityhall dan we went to meet the rest.we were late la.dan when we reached we did the funny actions.haha.saying we r sorry we'r late.hee(:went sakae sushi.was super funy.kept laffing.had a great time fellowshipping man(:bill was 73 bucks.haha.heehee.we were pigs man.by the time finish dinner was 8 smth liao.hee.dan went out n walk walk abit.dan duno why we sudenly stand in a circle and started talking in the middle of nowhere.hahahaah.were talking about amazing race.talking about the christian team..brandon n nicole.yea.cool la.i think they are great man(: dan i din't wana go hm.haha.coz dun wanna face parents la.i duno why but i scared of em.but had to go hm la.or else i die.dan we prayed.yea.cool man. lynn n grace jie walked to dohby gourt, aunty licheng and esther took mrt, jo and i took bus.hahaha.yea.thankew you all for making this time super fun n enriching(:hee.muz go out as our a small grp again man.lynn says go out once everymonth.cool.hee.
-reached hm ard 9 plus ten. went to watch amazing race. i think its super cool la.when brandon n nicole couldnt find the clue in the mud, they prayed n immediately found it.thank GOd man!!HE's so faithful n awesome(:

thurs
-bb library again.cip.
-met lynn n kelsie at ps.bought stuff for making cookies.haha.so cool.
-went kelsie hse.heehee.made cookies.super funny la.one batch was burnt.heehee.dan we ate up the burnt ones.nice leh.hee.made cookies for jyc la.coz jyc anniversary on sun!!!whoopee!!!!!heehee.(:
grace tan jie: thankew for yr msg(:really really encouraged me alot.heh.thankew so so much.take care sister!(:

fri-today
-stay at hm..mug mug mug.hahaha.
muz do wk ah.or else i'll juz die la.muz try n finish all my hmwk by 2dae.yes.try.hahaha


was finally spending time with GOd ystdae.haven been talking to HIm.had a gd time.thankew DADDY!!!
had this song ystdae:

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

i realised how much God loves me. how much he had missed me.
hey, if you havent been spending time with GOD, go do it now.coz he misses you all. go ya(:

hmmm.sch wasn't dat bad afterall.haha.bio was ok i guess.all the viruses,bacteria n fungi.haha. laura was late la.heh.after dat went btp for lunch with clara, yinling, laura.claire came later.dan went bk sch.was drenched la.hahaha.but it was fun.haha.chem was ok too.heh.quite cold coz we were drenched but can tahan la.(: wun die wan.dan went for tuition. reached hm ard 6 lyk dat.haiz.been out for the whole day man.lyk normal sch dae although its hols.ahhh.wad nonsense rite.haiz.
got alot of hmwk.juz had new hmwk for bio.sigh.muz finish by 2mr.there's bio again 2mr.after dat i hafto go piano lesson.haiz.grrarararrrr. got so many things to do..but there's so little time.
i think there's jyc outing on thurs.as in i think we going watch movie.haha.
dan duno when my small grp going out.datz if we can even decide on a date to go out.
i badly needa go out or else i'll go siao.haiz.
really i serious.
so much hmwk.stil muz study.haiz.

sun.haha.woke up late.coz lynn n i msged thru out the nite.haha.first time man.slept at 5plus la.hahaha.super cool.we kept each other awake(: went church.reached ard 10.eduard called me when i was in da bus.haha.said he wanted go 7eleven.went with him and jo.haha.dan went bk church.did abit of math.haha.dan went jyc.heh.laffing lyk siao before it started.man..i love jyc(:heh.jas,sharon,ben,tanny were acting.haha.super funny.dan split into small grps(: talked about david,saul and jonathan. yea.was about frenship.heh.
i think the ting dat really splits frenship up is jealously.serious.i mean..its lyk most of the frenship dat i've been in, its mostly coz of jealousy dat split us up.haiz.
after jyc went outside for lunch.aunty licheng prayed for me.thankew(: could go yc.
you noe, everytime i ask my parents whether i can go yc, they say can't.but each time my bro ask. dan can go.why?why? sigh.bias.stupid.super unfair la.forever one.seriously. i really feel my parents dun love me.why??i really duno.this sux.
went yc.sat with kelsie n grace jie.(:speaker was funny.hee.but almost fell alsp la.super tired.after yc chenhwa jie prayed for me.thankew(:hee.really.i realy thank GOd of church man.for the Him.for the family dat i have there.(:after yc went kopitiam.haha.didn't wan to go hm.realy.haiz.coz when i go hm, i;ll have to face my parents, their faces.i'm scared of them.why?what the heck is wrong with me?coz when i go hm, i'll also have to do my work.and all they wan me to do is studystudystudy.haiz.i need a break man.....
reached hm ard 7lyk dat.

got so much stuff to do..ahhh.dun feeel lyk doing.ahhhhhh....

hopefully i can go for mission trip.20to28 dec.myanmar.haha.so cool rite(:hee.
i'll pray...i really wanna go.

ohya.JYC 1st anniversary nxt wk!!!!whee!!!heh(:

haven't updated for the past wk.hahahaah.was a slack week..buddan its not.haha.i duno.
sun.went church early. did chem.ohwell.abit only la.grace jie taught me abit.haha.dan rushed to kopitiam to meet lynn dae all and ate bread.yea.breakfast.were abit late for jyc. cried lyk siao during worship man.aunty pearly came and prayed for me.yea.thankew so much(:word was on david and gothlieth..erm.duno how to spell.haha.tany and ben were super funny.heh.had a gd time with small grp sharing.thankew for all yr prayers guys!(: dan went grandma hse.swam.haha.my cousins are super cute man.hahahaha.(:i love them so so much! i was juz thinking..wad if one day, my grandparents go..i'll be super sad.treasure yr grandparents guys.they are the ones who dote on us, who loves us and would go all out to do stuff for us to make us happy.treasure them(:

mon.quite slack.but duno why.super tired.yea.haha.tuition is fun man.but got super alot of hmwk.frm tuition and frm sch.haiz.

tue.tchrs dae celebration. supposed to have half day buddan had to go ulupandan cc to support the debate tingy la.haiz.wanted to go out with lynn dae all.haha.sigh.took pics with tchrs. i guess this is the best tchrs dae.coz i finally understand a tchrs heart(:hey.tchrs aint dat bad.haha.mr yeo's son is super cute..i think his name is joshua.hahaha.(:went kap for lunch with yinling, laura, clara, amanda.heh.slept through the debate.haha.dint understand.ohwell.but i'm glad mg won(:

wed.spent the hole day mugging.haiz.the pressure is really really coming.tchrs pushing us.parents asking me to study.study.study.haiz.expectations.haiz.

thurs.math and bio test.i guess its kinda ok la.i duno.ohwell.stayed bk for chi lesson.slept at the last part.canot tahan.hahaha.went church.grace jie taught me chem.thankew so so much!(: lynn,kelsie,jo chan were there.haha.we were laffing lyk siao la. duno wad funny mosquito exploding advert.haha(: progress report.reached hm ard 8 lyk dat. purposely slept so i dun have to show my progress report.haiz.really really scared of my dad.didn dare to show him.but inthe end. i show la.haf to.coz need parents signature.dad scolded me at ard 12am.siao rite.haiz.listen to him talk and talk, nag and nag.he say i muz get the highest and blahblahblah.i juz stood there, nodding my head.didn't look at him.didn't dare.haiz.expectations expectations.haiz.ahhhhh..i need a break!!!!!sigh. i really really dread going hm when my dad's at hm.ahhhh..help!!i duno la.i'm afraid of him.i can't face him.this sux.

fri.morning.got scolding frm mum about my results.haiz...stupid.i really really feel super stupid.lyk i'm such a loser.coz my bro is super smart.results are super gd.dan look at me.sigh.i sux la.
went safti.haha.saw lionel kor.hee.the guys there are funky man.haha.stupid riffle super heavy.haha.dan laura took foto of me with the riffle and the vest.haha.super fun(:heehee. went beat's hse after dat coz i didn wan go hm.haiz.ahhhh...but end up had to go hm la.kor pursuaded me to go hm.yea.got so much hol hmwk!!ahhh...

2dae.oral.it was ok i guess.haha.was freezing in the library man.after dat went orchard library with ria, clara, yinling.did cip.wah.being a libarian is not nice lor.haha.dan went for piano lesson.yea.tirring dae.tirring wk.haha.haiz...

its hols nxt wk.but it doesnt seem lyk it.
MON- bio: 9to12
chem: 1-3
tuition: 4-6

TUE- bio: 9-12

WED- cip: 9-12
help auntyhueyjen: 3 onwards

THURS- cip: 9-12

FRI- either bio project or cip.

haiz.still got so much hmwk.ahhhhhhhh...wat is this man.haiz.