12 april

gosh.i'm supposed to be studying now.ahhh.i have no idea wad we are supposed to do for the choc proj.sigh.if we dun hand up 2mr dan get zero.ahh.rubbish.there's chem test,tingxie 2mr!!i'm freakin out coz i've got so much stuff to do.and i can't finish them.i'm going to failmy chem test!ah.ms seah cuming in during free period to give us our test papers.ah.rubbish.i'm so gonna fail math.howhow?
after the nice weekend..its back to skul..and its only the 1st day of skul!!!argh!
yea.shall tok bout the wkend.maybe i'll feel better.ohwells

thurs.maundy thurs.haha.had chem remedial till 3plus.haha.after dat met lynn at orchard.yups.walked to lido.wanted to watch gospel of john.budan got not enuff tym..so we decided to hang around n talk.haha.yups.called sue lynn and dan met her.haha.we finally pursuaded suelynn to go for service with us.haha.she didn't want to go coz..______i shallnot say anyting here.haha.she wouldn't like dat.yups.reached church at 7 and dan grace jie,benji,suelynn,lynn,jeremy and i met and went kopitiam for dinner.haha.we met my dad there.he was with uncle andrew dae all.yups.bianca,keith,shawn n grace khoo jie were there.yups.aiyo,dat sue lynnn arh..duno how to buy food one.ahaha.was laughing at her the whole time.heh.went for service.were 5 mins late..buddan haven start yet.heh.worship was great.wah.kneeled down in front of the cross.was thanking God for his Love.His love is just so so great. that he sacrificed His own son for us.ahh..I love you LOrd.!!yea,God loves me so so much more.(:it lasted for 2h..budan it felt so short.ahh.sigh.ahahaha.were singing the oneway song at the end.haha.was jumping n jumping.haha!i love service!!(:

fri.baptism.haha.met esther n pearly at clementi mrt..supposed to go uncle kc's hse 2gther.actually frm my hse can walk to uncle kc's place..but since esther didn't noe how to go..so i offered la.haha.reached at 3 plus.haha.so many pple were there liao.wrote cards to all the baptisies and comfirmies(datz wad they call it.haha)yupx(:yea. it was really great to see them being baptised and comfirmed.its just so great. God was telling me"hey.it'll be yr turn to comfirm soon.then you'll be new!" yea.haha.ivan was shouting freedom when he jumped into the pool.(:yea.bassy ah..sigh.forever disturb me one.ahaha.dat grace khoo also.grr..haha.i took away her slipers.heh.dan she screamed n chased me all aroundthe pool.ahah.she wanted to push me into da pool too.haha.dan jasmine came and she was all wet and she hugged me.dan i wass all wet too.hhaha.yar.dan helped clear up.haha.went back with grace jie,pearly,esther and aunty licheng.haha.(:

sat.piano lessons filled my whole day.tried finishing my hmwk.dan i realised dat i had no graph paper.ahaha.went to buy it lor. i did sumthing really terrible and i will never ever forgive myself.grr.i'm sorry lord.i noe i'm not supposed to do it.i'm sorry.i will never do it again.help me. i know that with your strength,i will never do it again.thankyou.thankew for being here and forgiving me.amen.
if you want to know wad i did..ask me.but i might not tell.haiz.its super badbadbad..__________________________________________________

sun.easter!(:ahaha.had service at 9.combined service.haha.yups.met sze pui at the gate.met lynn.haha.worship was great.haha.dan during sermon i was bored.heh.dun really like sermons.yea.i like worship coz God speaks to me thru worship.ya..haha.after dat supposed to go out for lunch with the JYC peeps.ya.eh..aunty licheng,pearly,pui,ben,esther,grace,jasmine,bianc,jeremy,tanni,lynn,yingnuo,my bro,mervyn,astrid,sharon,mel,...(and summore lar)we all went for luuch at plaza sing.haha.pui dae all wanted to go kopitiam.but i was sick of it.so i was like 'eh.go ps larh'haha.dan pui started arguing with me.ahaha.dan jasmine said'abi,dun be scared of them.haha.you lead the way.'ahaha.i was like huh?(my usual expression)haha.pui was super funny.kept laughing at me.haha.yea.yar.so we all went ps.haah.went burgerking.we were making alot alot of noise.heh.and we took up alot of sppace.haha.yar.had a grat time of fellowship.ahah.(:dan after dat went trumpet praise..i decided to save up to get the hillsongs-more than life cd.haha.(:i sld be buying it nxt week if i got time.haha.(:yay!dan sharon jie gave me the 'GOD IS AWESOME' thing.ahha.its purple(: thankew sharon Jie!!(:
my n lynn were wearing monkey shirts-dan astrid was like'so cute!i should take a picture'ahaha.(:
aunty licheng,pearly,lynn,jasmine,esther,jeremy,my bro,yingnuo and i went causeway pt..to see whether there got the movie gosple of john.yah.yea.and as usual, i was stoning away inthe train.ahaha.when we got to causeway pt..guess wad.. the tix were sold out.ahaha.(:dan we decided to go pearly's hse.to rest n slack.hee.took so long to go there.had to walk a longlong way.haha.super tired when we reached there.haha.were slacking and talking in the room.dan we were snacking and watching 'pay..smthsmth."haha.cant remember.heh.went hm super late.ahah.

yea.my bro finally has a roomate for the church camp.ahaah.gavin.yups.i can't wait!haha.sharing rm with grace khoo jie.heh.bianca n lynn sharing rm.yups.bianca said before the camp go n buy lots n lots of food.dan we'll camp over at each other's room..ahaha.super cool!yay!ahaha.

i shall go n do my wk.sigh.

oh ya.we ran 7 rounds for pe 2dae.yea.it wasn't dat bad la.was singing the 'thru it all' song while running..and it helps.yea.(:was just talking and spending time with God wihile running.(:

here's a shoutout to grace jie:
dun stress out over your exams ya(:keep trusting God and he'll help you.look to HIm for strength whenever you are tired or you need a comfortor(:yea.will be praying for you(:come to me if you need anything ya(:lurv you jie!

Chocolate: a blessing or a curse

I am stuck
Hi stuck. Nice to meet you.
Haha.wad rubbish.
Rubbish is dirty. Eew.
aiyo.i noe rubbish Is dirty.you are rubbish
and you’re stuck.
And so…we’re rubbish stuck!!!
Rubbish is stuck in the rubbish shooot. Oh wait. Chute.
Shoot? *bangbang*
You got gun ah. I tell police ah!
Call 999 la.haha.
Lend me your handphone.
*ring ring*
this is rubbish. stuck has a gun.
*shhh….*cannot tell police.i will go jail
how to go jail when you’re stuck in the rubbish chute.
The jail is the rubbish chute!!
Huh? We’ve got two rubbish chutes?
Huh?*scratches head*
Dun scratch until got hole ah. You painful I dunno.
Stuck cannot scratch.anyway I got no head
Ohhs. I see the light. no head = no brains right?
Noooo...its pitch dark here. Light wad light?
I dunno. There’s a light coming from above… can you see?
*looks up*ohh.i’m wearing sunglasses!
Take them off then. Can you see it now?
I told you already..stuck got no hands!!
Oh yes. I’ll take them off for you. Can you see it?
Eh.yar.i see a torch??
Someone has come to get us!
Oh no!RUN!! how?but I’m stuck!!!
I’ll drop first! *rubbish drops down* nice meeting you.
i’ve got a new name: unstuck!!
That’s nice. Seeyou!
*plop*
WHOA. Light!
Who are all these men in uniform?
Unoh…

good friday
Once upon a time, there lived a king who reigned over all the earth. He was a good and powerful king. He loved his subjects and governed the kingdom with perfect justice. No one could find fault with him.

And it came to pass one day that the king decided to plant a beautiful vineyard. He supervised the work himself. After planting the vineyard, he put a hedge around it and dug a winepress in it, and built a tower. Then, he chose one of the poorest clans in the realm to be the tenants of his vineyard. He promised them all the help they needed if they would place their trust in him and ask him for help when needed. This was an unbelievable privilege given to them to tend his vineyard.

In the early days, the king provided them all they needed. And he let them eat the fruit; he guarded the borders so that they were safe. Everything seemed perfect. But soon the attitude of the tenants began to change. They didnt like much the idea of giving the king all the credit for the produce. If fact, they started to resent the idea of being tenants. They wanted to be owners. Owners get the produce; owners get the rent; owners get all the credit, especially since they did all the work. They got tired of the patronizing help from the king.

So a terrible thing happened. One day, the king sent his servants to receive a load of fruit from his vineyard. When his servants arrived they found no one there. The vineyard seemed empty of people. Now these servants were 3 of the most faithful messengers of the king. They became tensed with fear because a strange silence fell about them. There were no birds singing. There had always been birds. There were no children around. There had always been children around.

Then, suddenly from everywhere, the angry tenants sprang up and surrounded the servants. Those who didn¡¯t have sharp pruning hooks in their hands held large jagged stones. The servants of the king were unarmed. All they had was the memory of the king¡¯s words to them when they left the palace. He said to them:

Though arrogance and rage assail,
Conspiracy will not prevail.
In death recall unerringly
That you will always reign with me.

With these words they answered the wicked tenants. The tenants rushed upon them with pruning hooks and stones. They grabbed hold of 2 of the younger messengers and made them watch while the 3rd older one was beheaded with a pruning hook. As the knife fell upon his neck, they heard him whispering the king¡¯s promise:

In death recall unerringly
That you will always reign with me

Then they turned upon the 2 younger servants. And beat one and stoned the other. And sent them back half-dead to the king with this message:

We¡¯ve had enough of sovereign care,
We see no need with you to share.
You have your kingdoms, fields, and towers,
Go now, rules yours, and we¡¯ll rule ours!

When the king heard this, and how his friend and servant had been slain, he went away and took counsel with himself in the royal chamber. All the court expected him to emerge arrayed for battle, for they knew he was a mighty warrior and deeply loved his messengers. But when he appeared, he did not gather his army. Instead, he called around him 6 of his most loyal ambassadors and asked, ¡°Who is willing to go for me and deliver my message to the tenants of the vineyard?¡±

The ambassadors were startled and said, ¡°What message, my Lord?¡± The king opened the scroll and read:

Of me it has been said of old,
It magnifies my strength to hold
In check my wrath, restrain my woes,
And offer mercy to my foes.
Turn now and bend the knee to me,
And I¡¯ll forgive your treachery.

The king looked up again and said, ¡°Who is willing to go for me and deliver my word to the tenants of the vineyard?¡± All 6 men stepped forward for there was no greater honour in the realm than to bear the message of the king. The king took each one by the hand, looked into his eyes, as if he had been the only person in the world, and said:

Though arrogance and rage assail,
Conspiracy will not prevail.
In death recall unerringly
That you will always reign with me.

And with that as their only weapon they journeyed to the king¡¯s vineyard. When they saw the guards, they paused outside the vineyard's gate, and renewed their vows of loyalty to the king. They entered into a solemn covenant not to avenge one another even if their hearts should break. As soon as they stepped into the gate, they were captured, bound, and taken to the leader. The king¡¯s message was read. And the tenants were enflamed with rage. 3 of the ambassadors, they killed with long knives; 2 of them they stoned to death; and, 1 they flogged until he passed out. They loaded all the mutilated bodies on to a cart and sent them back to the king with this message:

If we should ever want a king,
If we should ever want to bring
Our homage to a royal seat,
Know this: we¡¯ll stand upon our feet,
And ask no mercy, bend no knee,
We¡¯ll build our own if need should be.

when the good king read the message and saw the dead bodies of his beloved ambassadors, he paused, then turned and walked into the chamber of his son. Together, the 2 of them went into the hills to talk about what had happened.

Meanwhile, the palace of the king was full of commotion and noise. The mighty men were preparing for war. The blood of the martyred was screaming for justice! The desecration of the king¡¯s name was an intolerable offence to those who loved him and served him day and night. The chariots were assembled. The armour was polished. The swords and spears were sharpened. And thousand times ten thousand were gathered at the palace ¨C they were the army of the king. And at the head of the camp stood the great white stallion ¨C the largest, strongest, most beautiful horse in the realm. Only one person could ride the stallion and lead the king¡¯s forces into battle ¨C the king¡¯s only son: the mighty son upon his horse, and ten thousand, thousand warriors in his train!

But then, a great silence fell across the army as the king and his son appeared. What they saw was utterly beyond comprehension! The king was dressed in mourning garments, leading a donkey with a rope. And on the donkey sat his son dressed like a common beggar. They entered and passed through the ranks, as warriors reverently bowed themselves to the ground.

What had happen in the hills? What strange plan had these 2 royals made? It was a strategy from the depths of the king¡¯s wisdom and love. And the son had joyfully agreed.

At the far edge of the palace grounds nearest the vineyard¡¯s territory they stopped. The king embraced his son and whispered just for him:

Though arrogance and rage assail,
Conspiracy will not prevail.
In death recall unerringly
That you will always reign with me.

After the king¡¯s son rode off on the donkey, the king turned back to his loyal subjects. They suspected what the wicked tenants would do to the son. Not only will they kill him, but they would first humiliate and torture him. It was hard enough to understand that the all-wise king would send his 6 beloved ambassadors to certain death. But now his son, his only son: to be toyed with, and destroyed by worthless scoundrels! The king knew the army expected a word of explanation. So he took his stand before them in his mourning garments and simply said:

When we have given all we can,
Then we will fight, but only then.



So the army of the realm kept itself in readiness. And the king sat down on his throne.

The word spread everywhere. Most people found it incredible that the king¡¯s son was coming dressed like a beggar and riding on a donkey. The old books say that he wears white and purple robes and rides on a stallion. But some old men knew better. When they had seen the son, they knew they had seen the king. And they were afraid of what was about to happen.



But the children didn¡¯t know any better. Even as he entered the vineyard¡¯s gate, they loved him. They ran to him, they leaped, and they cheered and threw branches in his path. It didn¡¯t make any difference to them that he was dressed as a beggar and rode on a donkey. You see, they hadn¡¯t yet learn from the adults that one must be rich to be happy. Instead, they saw in the son¡¯s eyes the eyes of love. So for them, the visit of the son was wonderful and they shouted: ¡°Long live the king!¡± Long live the king¡¯s son!¡±



Now, the wicked tenants watched from a distance. They could hardly believe that the king was so foolish. They said to each other: ¡°This is the heir. Come, let us kill him and have his inheritance for ourselves.¡± And as they plotted the death of the king¡¯s son, the children chanted over and over again:

Great is the son! Great is the son!
Who comes in the name of the king!
He is the one! He is the one!
All homage to him we bring!

Finally, the chanting faded and the children returned to their homes. As the son surveyed the vineyard, he saw the rich and succulent grapes. And he wept over the treason of the wicked tenants and the desecration of his father¡¯s name.

When he lifted up his head, he saw that he was surrounded by armed men. Then, reaching into his coat he pulled out a scroll and said, ¡°I have a word from the king.¡± ¡°And we have a word for him,¡± said the leader. ¡°Come, let us trade messages.¡± The king¡¯s son opened the scroll and read these words:

It is not seemly for a king
To beg his subjects that they bring Him love.
But I do not delight
In mustering my awesome might
To end your lives forever more.
I send my only son, therefore,
With news that I will yet forgive
And let those who repent still live.

¡°Is that all! ¡± they snarled at him. ¡°No, my father said I should add this: ¡®For you mercy has almost come to an end. Soon your houses will be empty and you will be no more. And the vineyard will be given to a new, faithful people. And I will return to this place on a great white stallion. And by the mercy of my father a new generation will welcome me with palms and grapes and love and happy submission to the king.¡¯¡±

The wicked tenants stopped their ears when they heard the word, ¡°submission¡±. The leader cried out, ¡°Now, here's is our message to your king.¡± They rushed at him, beat him mercilessly, dragged him out of the city to the highest hill for all to see and nailed his hands and feet like a poster to a tree. They mocked and cursed him.

If the wicked tenants could read his lips they would have known what carried him through the ordeal:

Though arrogance and rage assail,
Conspiracy will not prevail.
In death recall unerringly
That you will always reign with me.

As he died, he lifted up his eyes towards the region of the palace of his father, and there he saw the army of the king. Ten thousand times thousand with arms lifted in salute to the velour of the king¡¯s son. And standing alone before the myriads of warriors, the king himself, holding the golden reigns of the great white stallion; waiting, waiting, waiting.

6april
ok.i havent been updateing.heh.yup.i have alot to blog about.haha.yups.i'm supposed to be studying for amath n learning tingxie now.but.aiz.i guess i'll do it later.heh.i feel like blogging bout djw.haha.
yar.we finally had proper worship.i mean proper.haha.thank God for that.the previous 2 djw was er..duno how to say.i just felt it was not right la.yar.i mean,they were talking bout bgr and how the heck is it related to God?what mu en said was really true.we shouldnt have worship like dat.as it most of it was singing pop songs that are not related at all.and dan like 15 mins dan we sang christian songs.its not right.as in how can we just give 15 mins to God only? and___(i better not say the name),she's not really a christian.she doesn't go church.yar and she thought the 'i'm sorry,i can't be perfect' song was a christian song.gosh! i can't believe that.i think dat djw gave the non-christians or those who dun really know who God is the wrong impression.sigh.

fri.no cca.coz had to bring the taiwan students out.haha.gosh.we had to talk chi.and my chi is super lousy.i can't speak.ahha.my grp-amy,claire,min and me.it was raining.haha.and dan we ran in the rain.aiya.the taiwan students did not talk to us.as in we ask them qns budan they never anser one.sigh.maybe they don understand our lan chi.heh.brought them to scotts to eat.we went far east afta dat.took neoprints.haha.the neoprints are super cute.hehe.rushed off coz had piano lesson.the bus was super crowded.min and i slept.haha.may,beat,gail,yuanyu were with us.haha.they were super noisy la.and min and i were trying to sleep.haiz.dan haha.i dint have piano.coz it was super late liao.so cancel lor.anyway i was super tired.so thank GOd.(:

sat.swim meet.sigh.had to wake up like super early.woke up at 615.sigh.met beat,may,qiyi at the bustop.haha.we reached acsi late.heh.claire,min,laura and i slept during da prize presentation.i only woke up when jackson was screaming.haha.and i realised our hse won.haha.afta dat had to go bk skul for netball.sigh.super tired.slept in da bus.haha.was super sticky,hot and disgusting,i wass irritated too.haha.was stoning during da lesson.haiz.dan still must go down to the court and play.sigh.went for piano lesson afterwards.sigh.super tired.went hm and slept at 12.arhh..

sun.woke up at 6.to do finish my hmwk.or else i can't finish.super tired.morning called yuxi at 8.haha.he sounded so funy.heh.(:went church.was practically stoning.edlyn and i were sort of napping before worship started.haha.yup.and i prayed for her and she prayed for me.heh.didn't have word today.we played games.haah.it was super funny.there's the big fish and small fish game.and i still dun really geddit.the more i noe,the more i end up confusing myself.and so,i anyhow play.sigh. and i always die one.haha.laugh like crazy.heh.dan we played the funny animal game.grace-dolphin.sharon-platapus.kelsie-hippopotamus.yingnuo-mouse.auntylicheng-orangutan.chenhwa-rhinosaurus.pearly-polar bear.edlyn-giraffe.me-dinosaur.suelynn-rabbit.xianhui-starfish.haha.ok.the game goes like this.once you are 'it'you must shout the name of another fellow 3 times.'giraffegiraffegiraffe'must say it fast.dan the fellow who is giraffe must try and say its own name before the 3rd giraffe is said.ok.haha.haha.i dun think anybody reading this would geddit.haha.it was supper funny.so hard to say platapus and hippo.haha.grace and i kept on dying.ahaha.supper funny.laugh untilll stomach pain.haha.like wad claire would say 'laugh untill got abs'haha.after church went grandma's hse.haah.was playing playstation the whole time.played with my cousin too-javen.haha.he's super cute.haha.(:

mon.was looking forward to chapel.haha.yups. and it was great.the speaker.paul hopkins...dunno how to spell.yup.he came to my church before. bible=love letter from God.(:
he asked us to ask God: how much do you feel about me?
God said: i love you very much.(:

yups.God's love for us is so great that he sacrificed his beloved son to die on the cross for our sins.His love for us will never change no matter how bad we are.(:yea.

going church on thurs.duno whether i shd go for bio lecture-its not compulsory.or whether i shld go out with lynn and watch gosple of john.sigh.dun even know whether there's chem remedial anot.sigh.
fri.going uncle kc's hse.for da baptism thing.meeting esther first.haah.
sat.duno whether got chem remedial.duno whether got cca.piano.sigh.
sun.church.combined service.
my whole weekend is filled up.ahhh.

i discovered something.when you are running during Pe.sing a song to God or just talk to God.cause it'll help you.God will be there.yup. and it'll be easier to run.me and min did that and ya.it really helps(:

kaes.i betta go n study.or else will flunk my amath.sigh.

-start the day by saying a little prayer to God-

2april
its 2.30am now.sigh.i'm super super sleepy and tireed.gonna be dead soon.i'm gonna tire myself out one day soon.sigh.i got no more energy liao.its a friday!!ahahaha.finally.heh.its been a longlong wk.i really want to go back to church!ahhh!haha.yay!but sat is gonna be a longlong day too.have swim meet dan later hafta go back to skul for cca dan later got piano lesson.sigh.ohwells.i guess i should not complain.yups.look on the bright side la.haha.always look on the bright side of life..lalalalaala.haha.i'm going crazy.probally coz i'm super tired.i wonder who blogs at this time man.i wonder who's still awake.my bro just give a very lame ans..the people in other countries.sigh.i'm too tired to laugh.sigh.i shall laugh here.ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.my bro is mad.sigh.hahah.have no idea whether there's gona be B1 cell.haha.didnt' even plan.sigh.yups.

i wanna go church!ahah.okies.i wonder how many times i've been saying this.ahaha.oh ya.claire,you still haven send me the ringtones!!ahhh.haha.sigh.send la.i duno wad to do with the choc proj.aiz.duno la.

i just did finish my hmwk.i think that's all i need to do.haha.duno la.at most go to skul dan do la.i'm too tired to do anythign now.i wanna play my guitar. havent played it for so long.haven had time.haha.oh ya.i think i'm gonna watch the gospel of john with lynn.haha.i wannat watch the passion of christ but dan its m18.sigh.haha.my fingers are freezing cold.ahh.my feet tooo.sigh.

i think i shld really go to sleep.i've been lacking sleep.sigh.alrites.i have alot of stuff to type butdan i'm too tired.sigh.nites.

I’m forgiven, because you were forsaken
I’m accepted, you were condemned
I’m alive and well, you’re spirit is within me
Because you died and rose again

I’m forgiven, because you were forsaken
I’m accepted, you were condemned
I’m alive and well, you’re spirit is within me
Because you died and rose again

Amazing love, carry me
My king would die for me
Amazing love, I know it’s true
It’s my joy to honor you
Amazing love, carry me
My king would die for me
Amazing love, I know it’s true
It’s my joy to honor you

I’m forgiven, because you were forsaken
I’m accepted, you were condemned
I’m alive and well, you’re spirit is within me
Because you died and rose again