For a few minutes

The house is clean (enough), I am (basically) ready for tomorrow morning, the laundry is underway, I am feeling better (long story I may tell later), and for a few moments I am feeling good.  I will breathe it in, enjoy it. It is a fleeting feeling.......


(pics from this morning)

Drift apart.....that's a good way of putting it

When I wrote you that letter
You'd already made up your mind
All my words were writ in vain
When I called you up that day I was only calling up to say Hellooooooooooo
But goodbyeeeeeeee.....

Was the word that she'd been thinking 'bout for days
I didn't know that you were going to leave me
 I wish I knew the way to make you come home
What can I do if this is right for you

 Chorus
 I have not been perfect for you
 Although I think I was back at the start
You have no more patience for me
So now I guess we'll both just drift apart
 All those times I wasn't there
The times you thought I didn't care
 I hope you can believe I thought of you
Cause you were everything I needed
 I've been selfish and so self-absorbed
 I thought that you'd be waiting when I reached the other side
 Last night I put my arms around another woman's waist
The touch was sweet but bitter as we danced
 And great love can bring greater pain
 I hope I fall in love again
What can I do if this is right for you

Chorus
 I have not been perfect for you
I like to think I was back at the start
You have no more patience for me
So now I guess we'll both just drift apart
 Da da da da da da da da da da da\
 I want the best for you and now
 I realize that isn't me
I haven't been the man in need,
 I wish I'd been able to be
I'm sorry that I did not give you everything that you desired
And that I made you feel upset when you just made me feel inspired
I have not been perfect for you
 I wish we could go back and just restart
But you have no more patience for me
So now I guess we'll both just drift apaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaart
Drift apart - ah da ah da ah da da da ahhhh da ah da da

Coping Skills

I went to a winter festival. A big party on the ice (lake). It was a good time for the few hours we were there. I want to go back again and stay longer. In keeping with the party theme I posed for a pic in my swimsuit top.  It was a good day

Expectations....it's what ruins and disappoints

So I have this whole big thing for today on Valentine's day and how it is expectations that ruins the day for males and females alike, single or dating, or married....doesn't matter.

BUT, I am so tired and beg for a rain check.

nigh night all

F You Snow!

I laugh at you snow!  I take out my bikini and I lay on you and I smile! I run around in you and I don't get bothered. You will not win. You will not drag me down! I will watch you melt and I will still be here. Good try though, you almost had me

....and then it snowed....and it still is

Long...very long!

 Winter is long up here.
Like, your toe nail being pulled out slowly , kind of long

And while there are those days that the sun comes out and things look white and sparkly and pretty....it is usually grey and blah and dreary....and unending.

and as you can see by the shadow on Groundhog's Day, there will be at least 6 more weeks of Winter.