zzzz....or not

The full moon can stop now because I really need some sleep. Of course, if my brain would shut off that would help too!

Not ok....But "I'm Fine"

I was struck with an overwhelming sense of sadness today. It seems like it came upon me for absolutely no reason, at least not ONE particular reason I could identify.  There are "things" of course, we all have that, but nothing I could pinpoint. But, man! It's hard to struck out of the blue like that.

I miss you, we haven't spoken in weeks. I need you. I think of you often, too often. I wish you were still mine.

Each new day brings a promise of a better tomorrow

copyright BFD 2012


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Random thoughts by Jules

People are realllllllly bugging me lately. I am sure it is because I am at the end of PMSing and it is starting to get cold and grey and blah here. But dang!

I miss my friends. I haven't seen them in a very very long time. I haven't seen L, one of my very bestest friends, in almost a month other than when she quickly said hi as she walked by at her work. That's super hard.

Thanksgiving was ok, but today was wonderful. The most relaxing day I have had at my own house in years.

I love naps

It is 10 degrees outside right now

My chickens are back to laying eggs

I think I have finally watched all the back episodes of Duck Dynasty, I can't seem to get enough of it

Why can't anyone replace the tp roll when it's out (including myself lately)?

Tomorrow the boys are heading up to the hunting shack to mark the trails for the dozer to come in and scrape them clear after the loggers finished up this Fall. Can't wait for those trees to grow back!

I need to get back on a routine at the gym, that will help my mood.

I love 1/2 price day at the consignment store.

I love my new c'boy boots that aren't so very new anymore- they are getting all broke in. Now I wish the same could be said for my new deer hide gloves

We drove home in a storm last night. People can live here their whole lives but give them the first 1/8 inch of snow and a little wind and they will drive like 14 yr old girls again. ugh! 

I loved dressing up for work all summer but find that I wish I could just wear jeans all winter. (since that is what I have done for the past 11 yrs) this is going to be hard!

The drama at work has hopefully died down for now

We booked a trip for our school's Spring Break- we are heading to Seattle.

yup.....that was random

p.s. don't type "random shit" under Google Image search unless you reallllly want a bunch of random shit to come up!

New tatt....Now I'm done......orrrrr not

I took the above design and gave it a twist.  I wanted a compass, but I have NO sense of direction so I took the N E S & W out. I took the anchor and flowers out but kept the tree (to match the one on my leg), I took the globe out since that doesn't really fit with my life either. I kept the bird but had it match my other birds.  I added a few swirls to go with the swirls on my foot.  Finally we twisted the whole thing to go with a tatting tradition from one of my favorite Great Lake towns.

I like it

I'm not your mama, I don't want your drama

I am about sick to death of the drama that one person/area (co-worker/work) is creating in my life. I have basically decided that people need to back the fuck off!  Damn!  Get your own life and stop making mine hell. If you are that miserable could you just drip your misery somewhere else? I don't want it!!!!!!

This is what I get for working in an office with all females and one male Dr.

Because there is no way to make poop attractive

Follow these links to see wth I am talking about:

http://www.danoah.com/2012/10/16-ways-i-blew-my-marriage.html

http://www.danoah.com/2012/10/the-other-16-ways-i-blew-my-marriage.html

NBD Just packing meat

Not heat....meat

I spent the night packaging up:
200 lbs of meat

41-43 degree temps stands as a good motivator. I had to get that stuff into the freezer if mother nature wasn't doing it for me anymore. ugh. done, done and done

148 lbs of ground meat
60 pounds of chunked venison
2 packages of back straps.

done
done
done

Of course I could just go with this way of thinking"

or not

Cast of characters

I have an interesting cast of characters in my life.

Meet Alice- she is an artist, she paints with her fingers and makes a living doing so. She takes weeks to paint a portrait. This is for real.  She is a roller derby chick. While she is strong on the track she is pretty quiet and meek off from it. She is smart though. She likes historical fictions. She can be quiet but she is the one who every once in awhile gets loud and crazy and drunk and is such a blast. 

She is just one of my friends.

Bad timing and you don't always have to lead with your penis

Here is the hard core honest truth. Most woman will not tell you this. Most woman will flat out lie to your face (and then there is that smaller percentage that has the bigger voice and will deny this completely because it is not true for *them* but just because they make more noise does not mean it is true for all)

I (and as far as I have read) ,many other woman, have a very hard time cumming from sex alone. A penis in a vagina with nothing else going on kind of sex is very hard for me to enjoy much less cum from. There it is. I said it- BAM! It's true. Hell, half the time it hurts-ish.

My absolute favorite way to cum? Fingers- yup. Fingers in, fingers rubbing, fingers/hands on my body....fingers.  Maybe that is why sex with a he or she is just fine with me.
 (and maybe why the idea of a female is so much more enticing at times...no penis to worry about!)

The absolute best sexual experience lately involved no penis. Ohhhhhh there was one in the bed with me, it just didn't go anywhere that involved 'in'. No penis in the vagina, nor in my mouth, or my hand....it was just 100% attention given to me.

Selfish? Maybe....I don't care right now.  I am just laying it out there. The man's turn will come around. If I am treated to the fullest amount of pleasure possible I am not going to forget that and while my mind may be blurred for a few days and I crave more and more of the bliss I just had I will eventually regroup and return the favor and you will like it ;)

Tonight I was well on my way to an amazing orgasm, I was just on the edge and the fingers disappeared (far far too early) and the penis goes in. (pillow goes over my head to hide my lack of excitement for this) again I start to feel it,  (penis plus my own fingers assisting the process) and he pulls out........ugh....horrible timing again. I unknowingly was on the very edge....as he pulls out I cum. But not an earth shattering /enjoyable orgasm- a more..... oh! shit! I guess I am cumming, weak, alone, why the hell now....orgasm happens. Now I am disappointed, he feels bad- why didn't you tell me??? is said....I didn't know!!! is responded..... Yeah, sex isn't always good and penises aren't always wanted or needed

F'ing Filter

Here is the deal......real life calls for censoring one's self. If you do not control what you say, you will have problems. So as much as I would like to say what ever I want or post whatever I damn well feel like.....I can't always do so. Please know right now there is so much I wish I could share



but can't.  It wouldn't benefit others and in the end it wouldn't benefit me because of that. sigh....

Sometimes I wish I could just remove the fucking filter and go full out.