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I thought this was pretty funny:
 (from my google stats)

Traffic Sources http://blue-eyedvixen.com/  69 http://www.sadiesopenmarriage.com/  16 http://www.google.com/reader/ 14 ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::               pic of BFD by BFD's friend writing down funny (drunken) things people say I took this idea from Jules @ Night Notes on Napkins ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::  cell phone pic by BFD Went to the Blake Shelton concert touched his hand and had  the::best::time!!! (great concert/night) My theme song lately btw :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Ladies Night (Thursday) took to the road We went to 'The City' and did it up right. Let me just say -  I don't know if I will drink in awhile and thank God for cabs. But WOW we had fun! (pics soon? if I can edit them enough to rule out identity) ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: I am so tired of being cold. As I type I am literally shivering Winter is so long and cold here- sigh! February is my hardest month, hopefully this year changes that   :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: I am the most insecure confident person you will ever meet- I am a walking contradiction I swear  (this just being one of many examples) ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: 2 of my friends and I just produced 115 comments on  a FB thread in a matter of minutes sometimes FB can be soooo fun! :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Finally I just ordered a laptop  A Dell XPS 15  with an upgrade on the memory If this is not a good purchase please do not tell me the transaction has already processed. (and I am excited) ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: That's all for now Happy Sunday Night

happy happy joy joy

Just returned from a concert.  Steel Magnolias, Easton Corbin, and Blake Shelton (with appearance by Miranda Lampert).   I like country music, deal with it so we can be friends.

21 questions.... just stealing sh!t from other blogs

(I filled this out Wednesday night)

1. Did you have sex today? Yes, yes I did

2. Did you have an orgasm in the last 24 hours? Yes I think I have had 3 or ....

3. Can you get off from a sexy text message? It can get me excited, maybe make me want to self touch.....usually a pic comes with these kind of texts though  :)

4. I have a friend that can get horny watching the food network; what channel or show gets you off? oh hmmmmm........ The L Word did when I was watching that on Netflix (shhh don't tell my hubby)

5. Ever given a blow job whilst in a moving vehicle with the blow-ee driving? of course- often

6. Longest you have gone without sex? Oh months and months (while being married) many babies quickly will do that to a gal

7. Longest you have gone without toys of any kind? Oh goodness the first 30 some years of my life.  

8. Most uncomfortable place you have had sex? 

9. Are you loud in the bedroom? *blush.........

10. Do you like to be in control or have none? I don’t want the control! I want to be used and held down and fucked.

11. How do you feel about choking? That taps into a huge fear of mine, and not a good one either.  no way. never. i feel anxious just thinking about it.

12. Have you ever vajazzled? Had to google this one... and NO and NO I wouldn't.  Seems like a young young girl thing to do ....

13. Can you yoodle? (Remember she said she was drunk.) I am guessing this means yodel... and no not well

14. What is the sexiest thing you own, in your opinion? My thigh high socks

15. Favorite kind of alcohol that makes you horny? ummmm beer makes me horny and whiskey makes me wild (those are the only two kinds of alcohol I drink anymore)

16. Have you ever had sex on a full bladder? Probably. I’ve had sex drunk quite a few times. Nothing particularly springs to mind though.

17. Biggest turn on in a man and biggest turn on in a woman? Turn on for a man for me..... hmmmm... been a long time since anyone drew my attention. ummmm Big.  I like Big men- ones that look like they could wrap their arms around me twice, could carry me all the way home...yes big dark haired men with strong shoulders.  Women- hmmmm  only one has ever really turned my head- you figure it out ;)

18. Do you like oral sex? Sometimes

19. Do you think you could watch your partner/significant other be with someone else?Hmmmm I think if there was mutual playing going on.  I couldn't just sit in a chair and watch him have at a girl.

 

20. Daisy was drunk, so she shared a picture.. and dared us to share one as well...  

and lastly

21. Have you ever tried ben-wa balls? No (I can't really say I even know what they are)

Cleaning III (with guest)

The Series continues:
Week 1-  HERE 
Week 2 - HERE 

*click*

I took photos for several of my friends before Christmas.  

Gifts for their husbands.  

It was a lot of fun and I loved the end result, I hope their men did too.  

The *click* is my dear friend, and this was one of my favorite shots of her
(if you talk nice (and blow up the comment box) she 
might let us see more of her photo shoot)

Cleaning III

I accidentally hit 'publish' a bit too early. But do return this evening to see my hnt pic and and and a GUEST. A smoking hot, female guest as the click thru....

Sometimes I wonder

OHHHHH FuckDamnShitMotherF'ingsooohotUnBelievable  Have you read this?????  Wow



Thought for the day.......

Where is your mind during sex??

Kicking butts and taking names- Roller Derby

I made it to the roller derby again.

I was there as team photog this time.

Noone said what I could and couldn't take pics of

So...for you, I took a few 'butt kicking' pics

Not gonna do it

I will not drunk text, FB, or email tonight.  No, I will not.  (thankyouverymuch)

But apparently I will drunk blog.

Funny, I heard two guys talking about me, it was interesting.  

Just off to my left and discussing what? 

Me....... hmmm. 

It was good, very good actually (what they were saying) but a very out of body moment.... 

A "who are they talking about, I want to see this girl" moment.  

Which for me is odd... 

I don't always see it.

Kind of feels good for this old bird to have a few college guys thinking she's 'all that, and sooo sexy'.  

Past that I almost had to bring a b!tch down tonight for getting in my face about something.  I just used my words and showed her the errors of her crazy talk..... pppffftttt! Don't mess with me, especially if you are wrong and being a dumb bitch.

Alright- enough.  To bed with thee!

FFI

Hope your week ends well

 pic from Tumblr

No Thursday night recap today.  We postponed our evening for Saturday night instead- Roller Derby!!! woohoo.  So instead I took the kids to the gym, a chance to get out yet stay warm in our -30 below weather.  So, all I got is Friday Fill In..... and the fact that taxes are starting ...yeah- I'll be whining about that soon I suppose.

1. So many of us are just making it up as we go along.

2. I try to find grace even in hardship.

3. Those who are accepting of themselves can accept others.

4. It isn't me who is waiting quietly.

5. Light is in both the East and West.

6. Don't be fooled by all that is ordinary.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to hanging low and maybe watching a movie (it's going to be coooolllldd), tomorrow my plans include going out Saturday night- roller derby!!!! and Sunday, I want to hang with the kids and take a nap!

Cleaning II

Cleaning: The series  continues.
Last weeks post was HERE


See, I'm not the only one who thinks less is more when cleaning house




I also posted something you might like HERE
(I am wearing flannel.....bottoms)

Enough to give you chills

pic from HERE

Forecast for tonight:

40 Below Zero

(F)

How to heat up

Crawl under the covers- flannel sheets, soft blanket, down comforter
Naked so you can soak up my warmth
Get as close as possible....closer
From here the kissing starts, soft at first but working up to harder and deeper
We are trying to warm up here after all - follow my lead
The activity level will have to increase if you really want to warm up
It will start with me since I am warmest- I will climb out from the covers to get on top of you
I will slowly lower myself onto you- help me
Rise to meet me as I slide down you
Then when you are warm it is your turn
Let's switch, you on top.  Continue to guide me though, hands on my hips lifting me to meet your thrusts.
Then when the sweat starts despite the chill in the air, and only then
Flip me over onto my knees, rub my clit while you ride me
Make me scream, make me beg, make me cum

pic by and of BFD

I think things should be heating up

Hold me tight

Wrap me in your arms

Hold me tight

and 

Keep me safe

Demons in my mind

Fighting

Help me win.

Bring me back.

Just you.

Drunk... kinda

I am drunk.  Not the first time in my life.  I am 37 yrs old after all. But I am a different kind of drunk tonight.  I am a nasty mean kind of drunk.  Not the best kind to be.  I don't suppose I will remember the texts tomorrow or the stream of thoughts I was having, but that is what happens when you drink sometimes huh?  I blame it on the dream I had right before I woke this morning. 

Sigh......... 

I don't know what else to say

Thursday Night Follow Up and Friday Fill In (with a bonus pic)

Thursday Night follow up:

Last night was GNO (girls night out).

I was so so so very pumped up for it all day long

I cleaned house (in my socks and shirt of course)

 I folded and put away allllll the laundry

pic of and by BFD

I also started watching Weeds on Netflix, and I goofed around on FB all day- it was a good good day and I was in a great mood.

BUT..... it is Winter sports season and that means 2 of the 4 kids have activities on Tuesday and Thursday evenings. This Thursday it was my task to bring them in at 6 and 6:15 and hubby would pick them up at 7:30. I dropped one off at Bball without an issue, and then drove over to Wrestling. The H.S. wrestlers had a match last night. They were sitting in the wrestling room and sitting and sitting..... and you get it.... leaving the parents and kids (we are talking little kids here) sitting outside from 6:15 until 6:50 frustrating!!!! I may as well not have wasted my time nor gas to get the 2nd grader there. Regardless, the point is this---> by the time I showed up to g.n.o. (girls night out) I was mellow very very mellllllowww... PLUS as I was walking in my girlie girl called to ask where I was and how far from the house I was (she knows the answer to both of these questions) , which made me curious and served as even more of a buzz kill. THEN I had to talk with my hubby twice while at the bar and return texts several time (MAJOR grounding there- keeping me level and my mind back home) Ahhhhhh well. It was all still good, and always so much fun to see 'my' girls.

Friday Fill In

1. Right now I need to shower and change.

2. Coffee is what's in my glass.

3. A copy of this letter will float around cyberspace.

4. Bullshit is best with a spoon.

5. The best movie I've seen lately is Valentine's Day.

6. It is easy to like; but hard to stay in love.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a blanket and a movie, tomorrow my plans include finding a fun activity to do with the kids and Sunday, I want to relax with the kids, and a long long nap!

 pic from HERE

A new series- Cleaning

 

You sometimes see a woman who would have made a Joan of Arc in another century and climate, threshing herself to pieces over all the mean worry of housekeeping.  

~Rudyard Kipling

Here is the first pic

in a series.

These pics were inspired by an email conversation about what I prefer to wear around the house, especially when cleaning.  I mean who doesn't wear long socks, a t-shirt, and underwear ...right?  

pants??  ppfffttttt.....!

p.s. If you missed it I actually wrote a few things this week- a rambling mish mash earlier today and a bit of erotica the post before that.... go- see, I'll wait

Being a "good" wife and other ramblings from a cabin fever mindset....

I am trying very hard right now.

Trying to be a "good" wife* and a more attentive (calm, less critical) mom and a more organized individual (I even have things written in my calender).  Getting back to the **gym has helped tremendously as far as my anxiety and general frustration levels, continuing to go out Thursday nights with my ladies has been an extreme help (to the point that we almost cling to the idea like a weekly life preserver), and ***I am continuing to gradually push the idea of my employment- slowly.

 click to "big" it

Music has been a big help.  I went years with the radio OFF.  Too loud, too much noise, my house was already too loud- with the children and the games and toys and voices and television and animals, it was all sensory overload and adding the radio to it was too much.  I am even starting to walk through Walmart with my mp3 player on, because while I may be ready to add some noise to my now quiet life I am not ready for the idiosity of most individuals (especially the kind you find at 10am in Walmart).  My favorite tune right now seems to be this




*Hubby  called me out on my cold behavior.  We push and pull - that is our relationship.  One pulls away and the other tries to pull them back .... eventually the puller gets tired or gives up and starts in turn pulling away too (you following me?) so the first person who was already showing dis-interested and pulling back now notices that the other is no longer chasing after (oh oh) so they are now the one saying "nooooo, wait- don't go, don't lose interest in the game" and the ebb and flow switches.  Crazy? yes.  True. for sure.  So, apparently it is now my turn to chase, to bring him back and make sure he doesn't pull back too far..... sigh....

** I have been getting into the gym regularly and upped my milage by an extra 1.75 miles yesterday.  I can feel myself strengthening quickly and was actually smiling and singing (to myself) through the last of it all.  When it is so cold out I actually enjoy sweating and being out of breath and tired out when I am done.  Our Winter encourages such a sedentary lifestyle, it is nice to be able to break out of that for an hour. 

this gives me motivation!

**As far as the job front goes I called to see where this group was in their thinking.  (to catch up those that are behind--->  I have a website, it is for my hometown.  A company , that is a pretty big deal, may pick it up and pay me to do what I am now doing for free which, I started doing for exactly this reason- to eventually get paid doing it.  Before the holidays I met with a few of the members of this company and was encouraged. )  They had to meet with another man to set up yet another meeting.  This meeting would be with some very very big names in our town, names that bring a lot of money....  nervous...  So, I am waiting now for them to have a meeting to set up a meeting--- I do NOT miss that part of working for others.

Thursday nights have been amazing.  They don't last long 6-10pm(ish) but OH! the fun and therapy and release we squeeze into such a short time, it truly has become what we look forward to weekly (our little group of five that make enough noise and scenes to be a group of 10...ughhhhh  ;)  

me wrestling my friend into submission, so she would agree with me (I am the one in the back).


Other rambling news...

I just watched the entire two seasons of Pushing Daisies (thank you Netflix).  I don't know that I have ever adored a show that much before.  I wish I would have realized I was watching the last episode of the entire show though the other night,  I would have relished it more, I definitely wouldn't have pushed "next episode" at 11:10pm and rushed it..... why do all the good shows end so quickly?  Next I think I will watch Weeds (although I hear only the first few seasons are worth watching, is this true??)  I have also heard good things about Burn Notice (opinions?)  But, hey, it is Winter here people- like 40 below and four feet of snow on the ground kind of Winter- not much else to do.

Cabin Fever is starting to set in.... you have been warned.

Posts that I need to make myself write -
::I owe Eden Fantasy two (yes two!) reviews from way back before I went to Vegas
::There was that night- the one in the bar where he was..... and then we left and parked in a parking lot and we..... and then I ...... yeah- that one, I need to write that one.
:: What else?  I thought there was something else I was behind on????

HNT is tonight, and I took out my camera.  Not only did I take out my camera (says the wanna be photog) but I played with the settings and snapped snapped snapped away - achieving the exact look I wanted.  Yay Me!  come back tonight for that  *wink

p.s. Hit the post below for some *ahem*cough*fuckinghot*phew  erotica  (and click the pics on that post- I threw in one extra photo- surprise!!!!)

 OH HELL!  

(guess who this looks exactly like *swoon*)

pics from 

various locations on the net

I want

Soon. Real soon.

I want to put my fingers inside you.
I want to taste your mouth
Your neck
Your back
Your ass and stomach
Breasts
Legs
All of you

**remember TFT**

I want to take you and be taken by you
I want to exhaust you and you to wear me out.

I want to sleep because staying awake is impossible
I want to fear not being able to physically cum again.

I want you to be sore
I want my marks to be on you.

I want
I want

I want.

pics from Vi.sualize.us

Please read this- everyone.... I doubt I am alone

What I know today is this

Gratitude

I am grateful that I am allowed to sit here in my warm house surrounded by my things (all of which are lovely) in my pajamas.  I got ready my four beautiful children (who are perfectly healthy)kissed them goodbye and sent them on their way to a great school with amazing teachers where they are excelling.  I then handing my husband his coffee and breakfast and kissed him good bye and watched as he drove away in a decent vehicle that starts on even the coldest of mornings.  He went off to a very steady job that he will have until he retires.  I was then able to stay in my pajamas and recover from my night out with the most amazing friends.

I am pondering what to fix for supper and hating that it comes every night without a break, but realize that we are blessed because we have food and the means to get more when needed.  I may have to do a load of laundry today, but all I have to do is walk down to the basement and throw it into my large capacity washer, hit start and wait.  (no laundromat nightmares)  I need to progress with this next stage in my life by securing employment but have been allowed time to find the right fit and a good job by my husband.

For all of these reasons and so many more I am grateful this morning.

Sure, I complain about my man and I may not be happy all the time but who is?  Married people fall into a hard place - after knowing everything there is to know about each other, mixed with the need to deal with so much everyday-ness we fall into a daily funk, yet we still want to maintain a feeling of excitement while feeling less 'trapped', that is not easily done.  (Hell, I have had roommates I have tired of (the situation) faster.)

I used to post 5 things a day I was grateful for, lately I think I have been stuck thinking about the parts of my life I am NOT happy about and I want to change, and while I want to continue to work on me I think I need to pull myself out of that hole a bit....  


There is something to be said for stability and security........

In the darkest of winter days it is hard to be content, I doubt that I am alone in this thinking, so join me- let's (all) stop the negative for just a moment...

Tell me
What are you grateful for today? 

Treadmill 0 Me 2

My favorite song to run to (in side bar)  -----------> 

I am back to exercising.
Amazing how much better one can feel after a bit of walking, running and sweating.
I found that after the holiday season I was in shape
But the shape was a bit more round than I like.

So....treadmill 0 me 2- I win!

Another good song to run to- plus WOW! at the hot woman in it....pant pant

My Resolution (and I don't make them)

I am making two resolutions this year

I NEVER make resolutions (anymore) I grew up Catholic and was stuck with penance, abstaining during Lent, and resolutions.  But, this year I am going to try it again.

The first one is easy- I am going to start reading again.

Not just online (read: blogs) BOOKS the kind with paper, and characters, and plots.
Yes, books..... it is time to start reading again.

The second is a bit profound.
I am going to stop being invisible and feeling like I am in the way. 

I plan on writing a whole post about this
(and yes, I know I still owe you all one on my little experience a few weekends ago...... I know I know)
But, in the mean time- pay attention to woman around you as you are out in public.  Most woman are scurrying, and hurrying.  They run across the street if there is a car waiting, they sneak out a door if you hold it open for them, they step out of the way, and stand back and wait.  They (especially those burdened by kids around them) become invisible and in the way.  (It might be a Midwestern woman thing, and I am not saying all women do this-but just pay attention)

What (if any) are your resolutions?