Scenes from the fair- picture post

Scene from last night

A scene from last night

When we plan a party

We do it up right.

Because it isn't really a party until someone
brings the belly dancer!

VKasked- Let me show you, what are you afraid of?

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vixen kitten asked: What are you afraid of?
This is in reference to her question of why I won't let her show me that girls are better than guys.
I said I wouldn't because I was afraid....

so this question and one more set and I believe I am done.
(although the next set is a hard set to answer. I may put it off until next week)

So V.K. on with your answer. I am not afraid that I will find out I like girls better, I am not afraid that I won't ever want to be with a guy again, I am also not afraid of the confusion it could cause in my lil head. No...... I am afraid of the actual process. Much like a 15 yr old girl is afraid of figuring out what to do with a guy. I can honestly say I was scared to death before my first b.j. and it was a major disaster. I 'tried' to have sex with two different guys three times (total) before I actually lost my virginity (like penis up to and attempting to insert tried) to a completely different guy (who got it oohhhh so right the first time)

But, as with guys there is a learning period to a w/w relationship you say- I get that. It is that 'experience' of learning that I am afraid of. I doubt it would be anywhere close to the learning period I had growing up. There would be no movie going while holding hands and kissing in the car before the house so my parents didn't see. There won't be another date where the kissing lasts longer and the hand goes up the top or down...... yeah. I am sure as a woman in my 30's with another woman it is going to be all or nothing - now or never. That is kinda scary to think about.

Plus, what if I don't like it. What if it isn't as great as I think it could be? What if I ruin all future fantasies with a reality that doesn't play out like I have hoped in my head? Again these are all the same questions that can play into any experience - man, or woman..... The over riding factor in all of this is simply that I am married. Until my husband gives me 'permission' (or, let's go with 'the thumbs up') to be with a woman.... it is cheating in his mind. That is the biggest fear of all.

For me to be with a woman (because I have thought of this) it would have to 'just happen'. A in the moment sort of thing that continues. I am not saying never, I am just saying..... it's a bit scary.

And...here we go!

1. I'm going short trip, very short trip.... to crazy.

2. How I miss the days of adventure and daring.

3. Perhaps today you can make it a point to say what needs saying, do what needs doing, and be who you need to be.

4. I want to believe I still have a true adventurer’s spirit.

5. Compassion is something most people pretend to have.

6. Do what is best for you and yours no matter how difficult.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a birthday party- a group of girls being a bit ridiculous , tomorrow my plans include the rodeo! and Sunday, I want to go to the lake!

HNT-The River

If a tear fell from my face and floated down this river,
how long before it arrived on your banks?

*Click the pic*

photographed by Jon H.

The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own.
No apologies or excuses.
No one to lean on, rely on, or blame.
The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it.
This is the day your life really begins.
~Bob Moawad

Go see Os (hint hint) if you haven't already

Are you bored yet? Cuz Doug asked........

I totally forgot to mention TFT yesterday! Head on over there and show your support.....

Alright, maybe you are tiring of this question / answer thing I have going on here. I personally am enjoying it. So, it shall continue. Today I will post sexy pics for those of you here just for the pics ;)Questions from Doug:
How many times is the right amount of sex each week? With husband? With just yourself?Depends upon the time of the month. There is a definite cycle to me and my wants. When I just finish my period ( yeeessss, I said period) I could go three times a day. But a week before my period starts (yes, I said it again) I could go all week and not be touched- fine with me. A day or two before it starts I am all hands and want again. that is the way it works. I try to go with the flow and hope hubby gets what he needs out of it.

As far as with myself..... I have said this before, if my hubby could come home for nooners he would be the luckiest bastard around. I am always ready to go around lunch time. By night I am over it and tired of the kids and everything in general. Sooooo, since I am home alone and usually hot and bothered around that time. Someone has to do something about it. That being said I would say maybe twice a week.
How often do you have mind blowing sex?hmmmm wow. ummmmmm- maybe once every few month- like the kind that you should write about, should remember for all times. It is hard with kids. One can not throw their clothes off and go at it on the dining room table when the mood strikes. Like last night I could have had my way with him all over the house twice, but kids couldn't sleep and they were having issues, and he was tired and had to wake early in the morning. I went to bed w/o.

Do you ever have sex with your husband just because you think he deserves it? Even if you are not in the mood? Oh HELL ya. For sure. Part of the deal with being married is the give and take. Like tonight- I know he is not in the kind of mood that I am , but I will be in a big (internal) pout if he denies me. It is a matter of doing what works for the relationship. I also use sex- do not tell him..... if I get to go out for girl's night and have a blast and he stayed home and watched kids etc I come home and 'show him appreciation' for sure.
Do you have sex with your husband for a great night or great gift? Is it owed? See above. I do. Plus there are times where he just needs to get laid- it is obvious. I can go for a very very long time and not 'need' sex. But I can feel it in him -he needs that release that ...... so I do it. Owed is a strong word, I don't like that word, but I feel that it is deserved maybe?

If you could be a man for a day, what would you want to experience? A bathroom line at a big event that didn't take an hour, being able to scratch my own balls, a blowjob (why are they that good?), seriously though- I don't know. Just to know the stress men feel first hand. It obviously can't be easy being the primary care giver and the stress that comes with being a man.
If you could have a night out on the city what would you do and what city would you do it in? Unlimited money for the night.
I haven't been able to travel all that much. So to have a true reference as to where I would like it to be is hard for me. But what I would like to do is easy enough. I would like to have time to get ready - like really ready, not the -do my makeup in the car- kinda ready... where I step out of the room looking like a knock out (if I still can?) , drive downtown for a drink where we run into friends and chat for a bit, go to a small fabulous restaurant for amazing food where we eat slow and drink much, followed by a stroll to a club where more friends and music are. Sitting with my back to my lovers front as he whispered in my ear suggestions until I can't handle it anymore and we have to leave. I then hope we don't even make to the car before we have to have each other. Followed by a late morning where nothing but sleep is required.

pics from Vi.sualize.us

Sage and Os asked- Part 4

Osbasso asked:

When do we finally get to see your pierced lady bits?

Well, when I get them pierced. Which fyi will be never.

Southern Sage asked

Do you think my tractor is sexy?

Oh you know how I feel about tractors. I love tractors and guys that drive them. I spent hours in a tractor, trucks, combines, etc. with my boyfriend from college- hrs and hrs.... I really did enjoyed it. Looking back I think I enjoyed it more than I realized at the time (most days. Cultivating at 3mph does get a bit boring after several hrs mind you!)

If you had $322.34 to spend on you, not the fam what would you buy?

Wow... ummm. I think I would spend it on the plane ticket to get me from my town straight to Vegas vs driving the 4 hrs and going through the hassle of getting into the bigger airport in the cities. Second choice would be to put it toward new lingerie- the everyday stuff. It would be a luxury to have matching, well fitting, underthings just for daily use.

what is your second fave color?

Red

What do you think your best feature is below your neck?

My legs. For sure. They take up over half my body and childbirth didn't effect them (too much)

Can you cry underwater?

I can't do much underwater. I swim well- but feel very suffocated underwater. Plus you have to inhale to cry more then a simple boohoo.... So... no

Even if one could cry underwater who could tell?

Toilet paper, under or over?

Over - for sure. UNLESS you have a toddler or cat that likes to unroll the t.p. (I've had both) then under works great. Try it, it doesn't unroll very easily that way.

If you could wave a wand and make it so you never had to do a specific household chore again what would it be?

Putting things away- clean laundry, clean dishes, other peoples crap, toys, groceries, the mess after meals. I can NOT stand putting things away. Once I am done with the work of cooking, washing, cleaning, etc. I do not want to then go through that last step.

Have you ever been filmed having relations?

No- never. That stuff doesn't go away very easily.... evidence. Plus I never thought it would look good, or was something I wanted to see.

Would you? Would you again if you have before?

I would not. Noone needs to see that sort of thing (shudder) including myself.

Do you enjoy freezing your ass off 6 months out of the year?

You can always add more clothes or turn the heat up higher- how do you take more clothes off once they are all shed and it is so hot the devil won't even step foot down there?

Actually, the ultimate goal is to retire and move South for the Winter and return for the Summers. Ahhhhhhh our beautiful summers. It was 87 degrees with a 7-10mph breeze today- heaven.

Do they call a male bobcat a Tom Bo Cat or a Bob Tom Cat?

Around here they call the DNR and then you can call it dead

if an apple is on an apple tree and an

orange is on an orange tree why do people look at me oddly when I say acorn tree?

cuz they think you are a nut

If you were going to do a celeb. chick who would it be?

I am not interested in celeb. chicks- nope. real life people, real people interest me. celebs of any kinds don't.

would you prefer to give or receive in bed?

Receive for sure. But there are nights when I am not in the mood and that feeling is not mutual. I find it quite attractive some of those night to give. Almost to the point that my mood changed and I wished I would have just joined in.

what is the oddest place you ever had relations?
*Against a chix coop in the middle of a party, in the shadows just feet from everyone else.

*On a stone bridge in a public park, downtown across from the local college

*Our vehicle at a wedding dance
*To me the oddest is when we conceived our oldest child- we were at my in laws for an early Christmas and we were keeping track of my cycle. It was time THAT morning! Hubby came out of the shower- and I told him NOW. The bedroom is right next to the living room that everyone was in. I then stood on my head- gravity and all. It worked, but ughhhh not really romantic

would you rather watch folks have sex or be watched?

I don't know. I do not know if I have done either. I guess be watched probably.

Do both of the Vixens here in blogville want to do you?

Maybe so- jealous?

tell me if you want me to think of more!

fire away- they make me giggle

You asked, I answered Part 3

Part 1 can be found HERE
and
Part 2 can be found HERE
of You asked, I answered........

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Sir Thomas asked:

If you could screw one historical figure, who would it be and why?

One of the legendary Western guys/ cowboys- Like Wyatt Earp (although I don't know if I could handle his mustache) Sam Bass, Jesse James. Because then I could say I did.


ConTemplate asked: What is the source of your inner strength? I'm thinking about your recent posts regarding dealing with challenges while keeping that bouncy/flouncy/jingle-y thing going ...

My inner strength comes from ....well, me. Seriously. I do it myself. I reach in and pull myself up and dust myself off and keep on going. Why? Because what else am I going to do? Who cares if I am in a lump on the ground in a melt down? No.One.

It doesn't serve to be jaded......

I have four children that depend on me, a house that does not take care of itself and a ton of other responsibilities that won't go away. I do hunker down at times, avoid town and people and their stresses. What I can't solve I try not to stress over (read money, other people's behaviors, the weather, uncontrollable circumstances). I go through my ups and downs like most others..... I just try not to burden those around me with it. I also look toward others, my friends and lately my blog friends too. Someone told me this weekend, "...everyone needs to bounce themselves off from others". I agree. I read or watch movies if it gets too bad - a false reality to escape to for awhile. If all else fails I look at pictures - picture after picture- hundreds of pictures.

Plus I just remember how lucky I am. Many people would trade lives with me in a mili-second. I have a home, a car and truck, children that are healthy and friends and family around. We have food and clothes and needed supplies. Money is tight but we make it work each and every month. We have some luxuries that others could only dream of. My life is not bad, and as long as I wake each and every day I get another shot to make it better.

sin asked: What blog do you read first?

That goes between Sage and Vixen. If Sage is posting something political I have to have my coffee first, if Vixen's title grabs me etc I go over there first.

Those are the blogs I started reading when I was a mommy blogger...... I stick to what I know/like

I have two more posts where I answer questions. I have about 20 questions asked by Sage..... so I will devote a whole post to that. Then there is an interesting email that came in that posed some tough questions.... that may take me awhile to work on, but I intend to answer them.

You asked, I answered -Part 2-

The next segment is about to begin.
(if you missed the first installment, you can catch up HERE)
Grab yourself some tea and get ready.....

Kenny asked: OK...TOP or Bottom?


This is a very simple but good question. Good because there is a very clear cut answer to this. I can not handle the bottom for sex. I was date raped when I was 19 in the winter and I had a guy (very large and heavy football player) attempt the same thing that following summer. The pressure of a guy on top of me is suffocating and frighting. I still, all these years later, feel trapped.

nitebyrd asked: If you could photograph one historical figure, who would it be and why?

There are a few subjects I am not good at, Geography, Mathematics, and History. History bores me a bit. I could be good at it if I wanted to (except the memorization of dates - nope). So I really have to think of who I would like to photograph.
After consulting with Sage and Os (you know how well they work together) I have come up with Joan of Arc. Burned at the stake, kicking ass in a man's world. Yes. Her.

rockman asked: Where did you grow up (what part of the country)?
I have talked about this before but people come and go on blogs, so let's review. I have lived in three states. Two in the Midwest and Colorado. I now live back in the Midwest. We moved back here to be near our family when we had kids. (I regret that decision).

vixen kitten asked: What is your biggest regret in life? I have a few big regrets. I think the biggest regret is the way I dated. As soon as a guy turned his attention toward me I was smitten, I was his. I dated guys that I didn't even like for months (until they broke up with me). When I dated a guy my life became all about him- his friends, his schedule, his likes and dislikes. I wish I would have 'dated'. Two guys in a weekend, for fun. Kiss at the door and go to my place. Had fun with dating, realized that I was worth something and the guys were lucky to be going out with me - not me being the lucky one to be with them.

Why won't you let me take you out and show why women are better than men?


Because I am scared.

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Now Friday Fill-In, out of habit:

FRIDAY FILL IN
1. I feel HAPPY.

2. I WONDER IF I LOST YOU, YOU NEED to catch up.

3. Do YOU TRY TO CHANGE?

4. DO YOU TRY TO BE completely unique.

5. It's hard to know how much TO CHANGE, TO BE DIFFERENT

6. IT IS NICE WHEN OTHERS follows suit.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to GOING OUT TO A PARTY, tomorrow my plans include WORKING AROUND THE HOUSE and Sunday, I want to GO TO THE LAKE!

HNT- The benefit of being the DD

I answered some reader questions one post below....
I think you might be interested if you haven't read it yet.
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HNT-
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I went out this last weekend for a gal's* birthday (we are new acquaintances, but I adore her) We all dressed up and walked from place to place in the downtown area. A group of hot chicks taking the streets by storm. FUN. When I started the evening I had every intention of driving myself home later that night. I wasn't at the first place for more then 45 minutes (2 beers and one shot) before I texted my designated driver (my hubby) at home and informed him he may need to drive me home and to keep the phones by the bed.
My knight in a Ford F150 pulled up outside our local Legion club at closing time (where we had just finished an embarrassing karaoke session) to whisk me away.

*click*

The bonus of being the DD?
Loose inhibitions due to extreme amounts of alcohol, of course!

* what do you call people in their mid to late 30's? Girls seems too young, women seems old, gals... nope.... I don't know.

You asked, I answer Part 1

I asked you to ask me questions here on this post.

Here are the first set of answers, with more to come.

Mr. B asked:
Do you have a lock on your bedroom door?Yes, we do have a lock. We just started using it however this summer. The kids are getting bigger and sex seems easier right after hubby gets off from work (when he needs the stress relief and isn't dead tired yet) Up to this point though it has been a non-issue. My kids are amazingly well behaved and respectful.


Danielle asked:
What made you veer away from your more vanilla blog?
I don't post over there because of a few reasons (that I have finally figured out)
1) Facebook- a lot of those blog people are on my FB page, it is quicker and easier, and you can download more pics quicker :)
2) Comments- the judgmental b.s. I was trying to escape in my life would creep in through comments -mostly from my mom and my friend in S.W. Colorado.
3) It takes a lot of time to do 2 blogs plus FB plus my project website, plus plus..... I was on the computer all day and all night.
4) I can't be myself over there. I am tired of faking it- why keep on doing it daily there?
5) You guys are way more fun.

Do you have a crush on any bloggers other than Vixen?
What? You think I crush on Vixen? pfffttttt..... what would make you say that? (unless of course you looked here or here.....)

So, ummm, yeah.... of course I crush other bloggers. Not saying who. Some people think they know. But they may not really know. (and no, I am not naming names )

Speaking of Vixen she asks:What is your favorite position, and why?
I would have to say K-9, doggy style....whatever you call it.
Why- 1) because it allows me to easily touch my own clit- with a toy or hand.
2) it feels the best to me (and him too)
3) it allows his hands to be free- to roam as they wish ;)

Side Note - as i was looking for a pic to go with this answer I started realizing that any sort of position that puts the man behind me.... that is it.

Alfie asked: Your first time. Where and when? (first I have to say, I love Alfie. He has read my blog since the beginning. I rarely make it to theirs, but he remains dedicated)
My first time was the summer after high school. In a grey Ford F-150 pickup one hot summer evening in a back field in Smalltown Midwestern USA with the most handsome guy ever. sigh.......


This is fun. Thanks to Sage who gave the idea to Danielle- in which I stole it!

all pics from Visualize.us

Ask me a question

Alright, here is your chance.

Ask me a question- anything. I will answers the ones that tickle my fancy in posts to follow the next few days.
Please know if you get *too* personal or explicit... I will ignore you, or send my goons after you. You have been warned.
(goons are unionized and spendy these days.....don't make me use them if I don't have to)

Want, need, desire

I want him to grab my hand
lead me away
not be able to wait the short distance until we reach privacy
pull me aside
push me against the wall
feel his rapid breath on the top of my head
leaning in
kissing me
whispering his wants

I need him to take me
take me there
away
where clothes can be shed
and bodies can touch
and our anticipation can meet
hands moving, eyes locked

I desire him
his touch, his understanding
hearing his heart beat through his chest
touching him, rediscovering
excitement, arousal

How I want his hands on my skin
his fingers playing me like an instrument
bodies colliding and connecting

Want, need, and desire
just words- but that is all I have this morning.

pic from tumblr

Productive Day

Helped build a deck addition

Took the kids tubing

and still enjoyed the sun set over the water.

I found this song interesting. This is something I have been talking to my oldest about. Isn't it interesting there are some things we hold true to - our country and our name.....