Will this be that straw?

Lately, I've been somewhat lacking in the motivation I have in the things that I do. Maybe its cos there's nothing to look forward to anymore. Actually, I'm quite sure that is the reason. And there seems no way out of this. Which is quite terrifying, not to mention demoralising.

What. Can. I. do.

What. Should. I. do.

What. Will. I. do.

Va fankulo. Indeed.

Omg.

Epic FAIL. =\

Why does it always rain on me.

Recently it does seem that nothing good has been happening for me. This rut that seems so hard to get out of.. Something must be done. Maybe I need a reaaaalllli good break. A lil bit more of that energy from two years ago would have been nice to have. Now where do I find it. Hmmm…

Bad news all around. Among frens. At work. All around. Even for myself. The shits this really is.

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By Travis

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I cant sleep tonight
Everybody saying everythings alright
Still I cant close my eyes
Im seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you'd be long
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
I cant stand myself
Im being held up by invisible men
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
Its so cold
I cant sleep tonight
Everybody saying everythings alright
Still I cant close my eyes
Im seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
Its so cold
Why does it always rain on me?
Why does it always rain...

Barely breathing...

Peak this time round was on a totally different level altogether. And facing it alone, twas terrible. But it was not up to me, what it was to be. And so the story goes...

Work has been so busy.

Sigh. Just a little bit more.

the economical universe.

when you do not make use of the chance you are given, it will be given to someone else.

simple.

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i want my life back. working 15hr days are no fun. no fun at all!!!

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have you been working late... lately? =\

a narrower view of the world at large.

in the blink of an eye.. my view of the world became just that smaller. so much to re-learn, so little time.

just once.

today is the first time i'm of this day and age. and today is a once in a lifetime. so how should i live it? how would you live it? without regrets... its the only way. the only way. it's an easy choice to make... but why does sticking to it hurt so much. why??

it cant be helped.

whn you're just a 3rd year employee. ah fuck.