one just like any other.

i am the infant who was doted upon by his family.

i am the kid that remembers playing with my lil cousin, and being left out from the games the older cousins played, all because we were too young.

i am the son that follows mom to the market and gets to order and eat carrot cake from that one stall. i am the kid that has my carrot cake with an extra dose of sweet black sauce. i am the kid that remembers being left either at the fruit stall or at my friend's shop while my mom did the groceries. i am the kid that got bought a toy by the fruit stall uncle, all because i picked the right numbers on my birthday.

i am the son that sometimes followed dad out at night. i am the kid that would be told i looked like my dad. i am the kid that enjoyed these night-time trips to ulu places where i think dad was drinking with his friends while i ran around with other kids.

i am the kid that grew up at the 'seaside' as we call it. i am the kid that goes fishing with dad and his fishermen friends on weekends. i am the kid who has had my share of sandcastles and campfires.

i am the kid who was quite the expert with fire.

i am the son who got a rude shock on the value of food one day at Yaohan, when i didnt finish my donut and kicked it under a bench, and saw someone else pick it up. i am the son that asked you why and will remember this for life.

i am the boy that got stung by some insect on the lips, and had to go to the a & e for it.

i am the cousin who sleeps over at your place, building lego cities and tents from blankets. i am the cousin who bullied the both of you. i am the cousin that remembers making you cry. i am the older cousin that was afraid of the dark.

i am the younger cousin that only you would play with, and i remember all the simple and silly things we did down under the flyover. i am the cousin with whom made grandma worry so much when we stayed over and disappeared for the whole day.

i was the boy in primary school who accidently elbowed my friend on the nose and he bled, he was a teacher's son. i was the tall one in school and by primary six was also quite very round. i was the student that was suprisingly one teacher's pet. i was the student who loved the school trips we had, singing silly songs along the way. i was the student you called in the middle of the night and had my mom check if i had done my chinese homework. i was the student that hated you and proved you wrong along with the whole class.

i am the boy that learned how it was like to be alone early.

i was the boy who had a bad bad temper. i was the boy who was not very well liked. i was the boy that had to change.

i am the guy that wondered why i got those letters. i was the guy that didnt get much mail.

i am the guy that loves camping. i am the guy that still remembers the first time we talked at the rest hut in mount kinabalu. i was the guy whom you had much faith in. i was the the guy whose world crumbled when u left.

i am the friend who likes to talk on the phone. i was the guy that learnt to make more sense, learning that thinking happens before talking, not the other way round. i am the guy that has seen what can happen when i talk before thinking.

i am the guy that has learnt to be quiet and listen.

i am the one who did not take many pictures in the past and now regrets it. i am the guy who now takes many more pictures.

i am the son that did not study well enough to get into a local uni. i am the son and brother that left for perth and misses you greatly. i am the son and brother that can never bring myself to say now much i love you. i am the guy who tries not to worry all of you by doing what i can, when i can. i am the guy that needs to be reminded once in a while.

i am the uncle that wishes i was there to watch you grow up. i am the uncle that knows he will get angered easily by what you do. i am the uncle that finds it hard to stay angry just because its you.

i am the guy who should study more. i am the guy that wants to camp and travel more. i am the guy that has to save more. i am the friend that will put in effort if i see the point to. i am the guy who tries his best to live a life of no regrets.

a kid. a son. a boy. a guy. a student. a friend. a dreamer.

i am one just like any other.

who are you?

by mercermachine but ju made me wanna do it la. :P

rained in.

for a holiday, this was just plain sucky weather. unpredictable. which means even if plans are made it can be spoilt just as easily. but its alright. cos.... time left after the boring audit assignment i have to complete isnt all that much anyways... but it did give me ample time to play with this...

which imho... is better than any nike gear ju! :)

meet my oly. ir-300.

of eagles and swans.

with nothing much to watch most times on tv here, the only slightly interesting stuff left was sometimes aussie rules football. or footie as they pretty much call it over here. its not that bad, a lil american football + some rugby + some wwf action. just that its sometimes a lil scary to watch. anyways, so today was the grand final match between the west coast eagles and the sydney swans.

the match was an interesting one, with the lead switching over a couple of times in the four quarters. and it ended with the swans winning by 4points (i tink) :P . which.. was good for me in a way i spose. cos if the eagles had won i think i would have died from washing the plates of the people out celebrating an eagles win. *phew*

you see.. i happen to live in the west. woots! go eagles!!

hmm..

i'm aud300 poorer. and i believe it will worsen, before the weekend is up. lol.

more than words

one week into the hols and only one left to go! this hols is way to short for my liking. havent done anything really holiday-ish and this is just sooo not right.

its been occuring to me that i no longer feel very down about things. i mean there are still downs but no longer are they as extreme as they could be. its good if looked in isolation i spose, but not so when it kinda also means i dont feel extreme highs either. this sort of midde-ground feeling is a lil.. boring. it gets you thru the day but looking back its still boring. much too boring for my liking if i might add. hmmmm...

and i really do need to take more photos. the 'unposted' album's looking pretty empty already. rah.

"to more extreme ups than downs!"

ps. repost of an old pic over the swan.

shades of blue.

i happen to like.

been feeling a lil disorientated recently. lack of sleep. lack of energy. and given that its the hols i really shouldnt be feeling so. maybe its just me wanting to cram everything i can and wanna do in the given time i have, and that all of it just eats into me. bit by bit. i've decided that cept for sch and work. everything else can wait. for now. :)

but wait. that doesnt free up a whole lotta time to rest still! :s

RAWRRR!!!

but. i will manage. somehow. dont we all? ;)

spring break.

the day the sun was out.

so yesterday i handed in my essay after churning it out at the very last minute. it was the slackest i've been for my biz law units and i'm not too sure why. heh. maybe its cos its the last one i'll be taking! :) after four and a half semesters the end is in sight. which, is scary in its own way i spose. ohwells. i enjoyed it and its all that matters really. yups.

after a not nearly enough nap of a few hours, i handed in my essay at noon and officially began my two week non teaching break (or study break like they intended it to be). but it wasnt feeling particularly like one. :s but accompanying an army fren to drive ard wasnt too bad at all, it was nice to be out where it was breezy and sunny. and its something i need to do more of over here. :P so it was all good cept for the fact that i had to start on my next assignment due straight after the break... sigh. i have no life.

so that was yesterday.

charlie and the chocolate factory today was enjoyable, and yes.. i finally got to watch it after hearing both good and bad reviews about it. but the dreamer in me liked it alot. hope. thats what makes each day worth going thru isnt it? :)

feeling sleepy. work tomorrow. then project meeting at night. die freddy die..

grossly under the word count.

but already printed out for submission. time to sleep! ;)

2533. 2533. 2533. 2533. 2533. 2533. 2533. 2533.2533

live updead.

erm.... 5%

t - 47 hours. *gasp!*

live updead.

music coming from the direction of the trinity dining room... pink panther. heh. must be the secret agent themed party they're having tonight. ooooooo... :)

marketing law essay progress = 1% done. so dead.

why do i subject myself to this?

one business law unit after another. *groans*

luckily its the last one now... but unluckily, there's still the 30% assignment left to do. help. need to focus...

on a happier note, kind friends are helping check out the prices for digicams! camera or holiday... hmmm... which would you choose? and no. i cant have both. i tink.. :)

a weeek.

so the holidays are one week away. as is the due date of the essay for mkt law. help! work during the week resumes but it should be alrite, it just means less time rotting in front of my comp after dinner. less time to laze around. :) its just strange that most ppl say its boring when they stay at home, methinks that even if one is forced to stay home there are lots you can see and learn online. tho going out is almost always a better option. :P

i cant wait! one week. ;)

bedtime.

after 14.5 hrs of work... i'm feeling tired but contented with the now fatter wallet (woots!). and a little happy that i survived. :)

goodnight everyone. zzz...

know anyone who works at konica minolta?

am currently drooling over this. prob is that its ard 550aud on ebay ( incld accessories of course) and its only got quite average reviews. but still... tho if i get it then it means i'm eating into my travel fund! :s

i should wait. for a new (improved) model or the price to drop. or maybe my sis will just win it in a lucky draw.. heh. that'll be very very nice indeed. no?

the brain drain.

i hate tackling ulcers at a time when i am so so busy. and they just had to come this week. sigh. my fault anyways for not taking better care of myself. ulcers hurt. and the lack of sleep is of no help at all. add all that to a no-time-to-cook-a-proper-meal-due-to-mid-sem diet. i wanted to go on a holiday just die. anyways, mid sems are over! *packs room and gets ready for...*

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A S S i g n m e n t s... dont you just loooove'em? :)

whatever comes till then...

i will take.

i have (a strand of) white hair...

1. i am getting old

2. i am overworked (heh..highly unlikely..)

3. i am too stressed out

hmmm.... something's wrong. cos i never get stressed out enough to get white hair. :)

ohwells, doesnt matter... yet.

a little time off ...

somehow or rather its the time of the sem when i should be doing what i complained of during the countless previous semesters, to start studying for exams early. but as usual there are reasons (not excuses mind u) that stop me from doing so! but i did start early actually, its just that the units are getting harder so they require more than what would suffice for previous units. booo... but as much as i complain, i dont want school to end. and as it is its too close for comfort.

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taking a lil break from work to study in gp3 brought back not-so-fond memories of endless mugging and assignments. and worse still, the time to camp in gp3 this sem is about to start! :s but if the cute girl that i saw tt day in gp3 is there, then i so wont mind la. lol. and i'm sure the others wont too. :P aighty time to sleep. cos its audit on friday... sigh. laters!

i really should be studying...

on thursday after the horrid mkting law presentation and before afm lect. it was cold but the sun was out! so we headed for the oaklawn for abit. if only we had all the time in the world... which sadly isnt the case as most of us would have noticed by now.

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the other two and the blue blue sky! a common sight over here, rare back home. this is what i will miss when i get home.

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ciao italia.. and an empty table. which isnt a good thing! we waited for ard 1 hr outside and 30mins for the food. but i did think it was worth it... small small place so the advisable number to go with is ard 4. otherwise the wait is long while they free up space.


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veal...is BEEF!!!! which... was tasty!! wells there was this discussion/argument abt the said pieces of meat. and the outcome was a dodgy one till we could get online. ;)

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here you see the grilled squid. fet marinara. special pasta of the day. veal. less the pollo ciao italia... which 3 of us ordered! also missing was the smoked salmon pizza that was very nicely done up :P

trying to get the formatting done properly is hard...argh. but now's not the time. zzz...

a sinful affair.

instead of a friday cookout, a bunch of us headed to ciao italia just along millpoint road. i'd recommend this place if you like rich italian food. thick sauces. woodfired pizzas. yum! oh and not forgetting the 'bouncy' music! second time at the place meant that we sortof knew what we wanted to try this very night. there was this creamy chicken dish that i spied the last time round and i just had to get it. pollo ciao italia. and it didnt disappoint. what the others got were very good too. the kinda food i like i spose. full of flavour and nicely done up. the grilled calamari. the veal. the pasta. the salmon pizza! too bad we didnt bring along any wine tho, cos apparently a number of us were 'craving' for it to accompany the food. wells, next time i spose. we took some pics, but the time we waited made us too hungry so.... yea.

thumbs up from me. but go early cos they open at 5pm and it fills up pretty quick!

will post pics soon... till then i'll be nursing my empty wallet and my empty mind. ;)

boing boing boing.

spring is here.

but as usual the end of winter sees us all freezing our asses off over here, at a time when it can go from nice and warm one day to cold and windy another even with the sun shining so so brightly. not that its a big problem, but it just makes decisions on what to wear to school very tricky. so tonight... when winter officially ended and spring began as i cycled home after work... my ears were numb from the cold. the sky however was beautiful, and it made the eighteen inches seem shorter once again. :)

ais assignment 2 over. now for the mkting law presentation tomorrow.. and the mad week ahead. till later! sigh...

"let me make it through each day alive and well... for i want to see what lies ahead."