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I know I haven't blogged for quite a while because I'm recently really down, physically and mentally and not recovering but whatever, DID YOU GUYS SEE THIS?
" SINGAPORE: A gang of seven was believed to have been responsible for the recent spate of attacks in the Kallang area on Sunday, which left one man dead and three others seriously injured."
-http://www.insing.com
MADNESS. That guy who was killed only had: Five sets of clothes, His curry pot, A rice cooker and An album of family photos. Why would this kind of people even get targeted as a victim........ please, that was all of his assets and you wanna rob him? Are you even human............. Ok not meaning it's right to rob people but at least rob someone richer right.. He was just an innocent Indian worker who left his hometown to work for his family who only had SO LITTLE assets. Honestly, as a 15 year old I have soooo much more than him - I'm sure anyone has.
From The Straits Times today,
"After his work at a construction site, Mr Shanmuganathan used to pick up and sell cardboard boxes and tin cans as an additional source of income."
"Home was a shabby three-room hostel in Joo Chiat Road shred with 14 other foreign workers. He slept on a bare bunk bed and had four roommates. Tiles were missing from part of the floor."
"The other workers did not know much about his personal life as he seldom spent time in the evenings with them. Instead, after getting back to the hostel at 7pm, he would change in to a fresh set of clothes and head out to trawl the streets for cardboard boxes and tin cans. He often returned only at midnight, long after the others had gone to sleep, and would wake up at 6am to go to work."
"He sold the boxes and cans to a rag and bone man as an additional source of income as he had to pay for his two sons' university education."
I'm not quite too sure about my purpose of this post but... I mean, it's really quite sad all these had to happen right. We're all children of God, why are we hurting one another like that? And we should really treasure what we have and learn to look out for one another, coz they'll always be somebody worse than you and yet contented and working the shit out of himself to earn a living and sadly got killed in a foreign country because he had no friends to help him when he was injured. I can't help but shed a tear for all these people.
SAD RIGHT, ok sorry I've been really passionate in helping others after seeing the people in Bali's living conditions, especially the orphans................ I know I'm not perfect but I'm trying, ok? Don't judge me.
R.I.P, Shanmuganathan Dillidurai and God bless you and your family.
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You know, I haven't told you I love you, but now it's all too late.
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I'll update real soon!! OH YEAH OH YEAH OH YEAH, HEY!
Oh my God I'm left with 3 hours of sleep. BYE
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Because we are awesome like that. :-)
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Guys who call girls beautiful instead of hot, pretty or cute.
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Hate it when people doubt you and judge you because of what you WERE, and not how you ARE now. Seriously, I don't care if you're gonna see this and get the entire world to hate me but people, you should really see for yourself who started it, and who's the one acting so innocent and hurt now. Bloody hell.
Anyway, just a stay-home Friday! Exco meeting in the morning and slacked at home the whole day with Andrea and Belinda on msn, playing stupid games. Tomorrow's gonna be great! =)
And no, I won't let you affect me anymore. At least I know I am true and I won't pretend just to make people think that I'm the innocent and hurt because nobody is. You're a damn hypocrite.
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"I wished we had another time, wished we had another place. But everything we have is stuck in the moment."
So much for the "partying" after exams. D&T paper was okay and the art students were just retarded! They threw crushed paper balls around and when the teacher turned around, they all pointed to a certain person and raised their hands with the "CHER NOT ME, IT WAS HIM" innocent expression. And I totally caught Rizqin staring at others' work and looking at his own work with the "wth" face. Nice, nice.
SO! After the paper Tahira and Azra came over to my place to slack! In the end we were playing with make up and nail polish???? Supposed to go out after "dressing up" but it was late for them and I wasn't in the mood so we just went to lepak at Changi Airport.
Wa lau eh this is nothing to be proud of but this caucasian guy came to ask me for my number and e mail at the bus stop! Didn't he read my "i'm emoing, go away and don't disturb me" face!? The worst thing was his pick up line! "I lost my number, can I have yours?" - I remember telling Daryl that was the worst pick up line ever created and today I heard it in my face! Hahahahahaha if it was in the past, my immediate answer will be "F you."
KKK so just drinking through that tiny bottle and Azra was drunk and noisy and irritating but I still love her. Tahira and I were like "OKAY......................" Yup yup then I felt so moody but nobody could meet me. Liars. A bunch of liars. After I reached home my mum was really nice to me so I guess I felt better.
Worst last day of exams ever.
Standard expression for the day: "What you want sia don't disturb me i no mood lah zzz" face.
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Look, my being nice probably doesn't include you because you don't deserve it. I didn't freaking said a thing about you even though I admit I was unhappy - from the day you started all these nonsense. Don't pretend like you're the innocent one because everyone knows you're not. All you want is A to yourself, you selfish bitch. You told the rest you disliked me because I kept using vulgarities, rubbish. I don't even use ANY now. I know deep down the real reason is that you were afraid you would lose your "best friend". Don't worry, I don't need you either. Same here, if not for Jane and for God, I wouldn't even have tried to be nice and talk to you. So much for "good friends", don't call yourself one when you never were. Hypocrite. Fuck you, bitch. (Take that, it's vulgar language too.) _l_
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Liars. I hate to hear "I'll be there" now because whoever that said they'll be there left. Don't tell me I'm your everything, don't give me false hopes. Don't make me fall for you, then leave me. This is my heart, it's not a toy. I wished the breaking of hearts could be heard from the outside - You'll see how broken I am inside. If you planned to leave, you shouldn't even have offered to stay in my heart. You can say I'm desperate for you, but who made me this way. I never had to try so hard just to one's attention. If I'm irritating, I'll tell you it's all because of and for you.
Maybe I just need a little love now. "Friends come and go, the ones who stay are the ones that shine." Familiar but it never came true. I just need somebody whom I can rely on, somebody who would rush out just to lend me their shoulder to cry on, somebody who would sacrifice all his or her time just to spend time with me, somebody who can give me a long warming hug when I need it, somebody who would never leave me broken, somebody who would be there. No matter what. Please.
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Life's overall quite good and I need not explain further. Shall post up more pictures of the great moments of my life in the next few posts! Wait for it. Wait for it!!!!!! For now, historyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Yay english down, chinese down, math down, physics down, chem down, POA down, ss down. 2 more papers! Woo-ha! PARTY PARTY PARTY PARTY PARTY.
I think I really suck at relationships. Straight F9. I cannot handle them! In a relationship, sad. Like a guy, sad. Reject guys also sad. What!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I really miss you, A. Sorry I suck but I need to talk to you badly. KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK BYE.
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Okay I decided to post again he he he.
SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME WITH THE POST PART. look at thissssssssssssssssssssss it's so screwed. HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME
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I miss you so much I'm breaking down and going crazy.
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well even the best fall down sometimes.
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I know I haven't talked about my family problems for quite some time but this time I really really have to destress. I'm trying so hard to be nice now but you know the freaking devil is obviously still inside me right. Do you guys even understand how hard it is for me to change? To swallow my pride? And what the hell is with your "I totally regretted giving birth to a person with no future like you." I'm having so much stress and all, so I asked for your permission to go out after school to study and of course destress and you allowed. But now you're blaming me for going home late and calling me a useless kid who only knows how to use the computer? Despite how sad and how tired I am, I know I have to study hard to make my parents and teachers proud of me. I know I need to do it to earn their trust. That's why i'm trying. But I'm human too, I got my emotions. You said I don't share my problems with you anymore and only tell my friends, that's the reason you think I'm hurting you. But you won't understand. Sometimes I really just can't take it anymore so I really don't have the mood to study for that certain day. If I tell you, will you understand? You'll tell me how bad my attitude is and all. Seriously, what do you want from me? I really need a break from everything. I'm barely holding on. School is like hell for me and I have to come home to face this?
If it's so tiring to be nice, then I rather not be. I don't have to put on a brave front and pretend I'm so strong and comfort my friends, and try to help them when I can barely help myself. I don't have to act like I'm fine and try to help the rest in need when I'm not any better. It sucks to be nice.
Anyway, mid years' in two weeks. I wanna die. I swear.
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Both days were good!
On Monday after lessons, I skipped Floorball and went to Plaza Sing with Robi and Guo rui to watch Ju-On!!! Kinda shocking but not really scary! Robi and I were laughing non stop............ maybe we're just weird. McDonald's happy meal!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - Cheeseburger, Small fries, fresh milk, TOY! Just what I needed. 7pm but we did not feel like going home yet so Guo rui and I took 36 all the way to the air port while Robi went home. Slacked, played, did my POA work and went to look for Sean, who was risking his work just to meet us, awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. HA HA HA. 11pm and we went home. Awesome day spent!
Today was a... 
POA was just tiring, and Miss Mara's mood has been really weird and all. Always scolding us, but yeah who would be in the right state of mind when something like that happened to her right. Be nice and forgive! SS was shit, history was no better. For math, Yuan ling, Diyanah, Rizqin and I skipped half an hour of class. Got our names on the board, as usual. What's new?
And I helped Rizqin skip the rest of her class! His "see me slip" from *cough ahem cough* Ms Abraham was a total failure so I helped him write one! "Rizqin. 3D" Zong xian came to get the piece of false info from the back of the class, and passed it to Ms Loo, asking to see Rizqin. Cock sia!!!!! She did not believe at first, Yl and I were like "OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT" when she asked Jo yi to send Rizqin there! Good thing Jo yi helped him and he managed to get out of class successfully. SUCCESS!
After school - Lunch/ Cheese Sausage with Mee Sua with Herbal Tea Egg with Fried Chicken with Milk Tea with Frolick at Tamp1 with Lin ying and Jing en! YAY I like. Crapped at Uni qlo!!!! Met her friend Eileen! She's so nice!! I always thought she was really scary.
Churchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Watched some boring movie which was supposed to be funny anyway, and Kumar!! And Russell Peter. Lmaoooooooooooo!! After those shit we were slacking like crazy, like the above picture suggests!!! Then watched Jon, Marc, Ben L, Royce, Jy, Hr, they all play soccer!!!! The ball freaking hit my face. Anyway, dinner near marc's house before slacking at the void deck! Guitar woooooooo. OH YA BTW, the uncle selling rice BTK sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was like "uncle, na ge shi shen me?" (uncle, what's that)
then he said "zhu ba jie la"
I thought for damn long and finally got it so i told him "ok, i want that."
Then I said "uncle wo yao na ge!" (uncle, i want that)
He said "huh ni yao wo ah?" (you want me ah?)
me: "no la wo yao tou fu!" (no la i want tofu!)
him: "ni yao wo de tou fu!?" (you want my tofu?) WTH
me: "uhhhhh..... okay??? ling curry." (curry gravy please)
him: "ling ni hai shi ling fan?" (on you or on rice?)
me: "ha. ha. -____-"
him: "xiao mei (blablablablabla)
me: -_________________-
PSYCHO SIA STUPID BTK. SICK OK BYE. LOL
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-SORRY HAHA TOO GAY-
AND I woke up.
Hahahahahahahahaha what the hell right!!!!!! It was a stupid dream!!!! Not my void deck, not my house. Weird! Drama-mama, everyone I told laughed hard at me!!!!!!!!!!!!! I bet the readers of my blog are, too. Okay la whatever, funny things are meant to be shared! Funny memories. Hahahahahahaha.
So.......... this stupid guy Ben threatened to tell "O" that I dreamt of him and even said those words to him if I don't go to church! And so I did. Slacked and I went back home to change, and went out again! Family dinner @ Sakura! Awesome woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. Oh yeah some pictures of us!! Standard family pose!!!!!!!! And a picture I found in my grandmother's room! Before and After.
AND I CAN'T BELIEVE THERE'S SCHOOL TOMORROW. SHITZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cya people hope this stupid post made you laugh. Stay that way and be happy always!
I looked so horrible, I knew it before you do.
Alright, ciao. Love.
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OKAY....... I'm back! Haven't been blogging because life's seriously like shit. Seems to me that things are going back for almost everyone around me! Oh damn. Really pray that everything would turn better for everyone, people whom I care for especially and may God bless. Even though things suck now and all, but I know He'll be always there and forever caring for me no matter what. I love going to church. Nice people and of course to worship our awesome Daddy. Hahahahahahahaha.
Anyway, I've recently learnt to learn to love my enemies! As one of my status said, "Love your enemies like how God would love them". So yeah! I guess going to church and knowing God has really benefited me A LOT. I'm no longer trying to find trouble and all, I've stopped using vulgarities, I'm no longer rude to my parents, I don't quarrel with my friends anymore, I learnt to love everybody, I've learnt not to hate and last but not least, I'm trying to bless everyone by doing the really best I can and yes...... smiling to everyone! I'm sure a smile from even a random stranger can light up your day right! Love is the most powerful thing in the world.
My results suck and I'm sick and all......... AND the most important and crucial thing is that Mid Year Examinations are coming in 3 weeks' time. What the hell!? Like seriously wth!! I admit I haven't been listening in class and I don't know A SINGLE SHIT about sec 3 math and history. OH AND PHYSICS. And chem!!!!!! Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz gotta catch up la!!! Holy ma ma!! Alright alright gonna wrap up by praying everything would turn better for everyone and of course myself!!! I love Daddy God!
A smile a day keeps the sadness away!
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