just a random thought but i guess one way to look at everything's that happened, is that it could have been worse, way worse. albeit the fact that this just seems like a happy-go-lucky optimist, i guess there's so much more worth in trusting Someone that's bigger, greater and stronger.
many uncertainties lie ahead, including lonely days and cold emo-nemo days which i dread to see how i actually will survive. the road ahead just seems so dark and bleak, but i guess even if technology fails me, even if i can't reach the people closest to me at home, i still have You to tide me through.
the grass is always greener on the other side. everyone always seems to have a happier ending, a better life, a sweeter story to tell. but what we fail to see when we're busy gazing at the pastures on the other side is the fact that ours is flourishing and blooming right before our very eyes and if we don't pause to breathe in the beauty, it will all wilt in time to come and then we wallow in self-pity because our grass was never green. that's the stupidity of the human race for you.
the workaholic in me has definitely wriggled around in insecurity at the lack of things to do as the sloth within me takes over. you know something is wrong when even your greatest hobby fails to thrill you. perhaps worry, maybe the dread of leaving or possibly just pure laziness? or maybe just everything jumbled together and rolled into one huge snowball.
and i will rest upon His promise,
patiently i'll wait