wow its 27th dec. means 3 to 4 days to a brand new year.
hmmm perhaps its time for a recap.

so what have i been doing in yr 2007?

-reading engineering. i'm a 2nd yr student already !
- getting to know more people
- enjoying my hols to the fullest each time
- went on holiday to hong kong and thailand :)
- worked randomly . one of it as a gift wrapper
can finally wrap a present w/o my mum's help! haha :P getting to know more frens.argh but all of them are all so young. i want to be young and (not-so)dangerous again! but thoroughly enjoy myself working in a vibrant and young environment! argh not to mention the cute jap boss:P

What i want to do in 2008
- i want to travel travel!
i want to go n sightseeing trips! i want to tour europe, australia, japan, korea
- i want to work harder. i know hard work does pay off now. bit by bit we can do it!
- i want to be capable and independent. i hate the feeling of being a liability to anyone.
-i want to be a capable mech engineer
- i want to be more frugral. i have been spending too much $. my so called retail therapy! hahaha. these funds i will channel it to my expenses for travelling overseas
- i want to be tidy and neat
- get in touch with reality. i have been escaping for too long. time to face up to the world! i have to manage stress better
- =secret= hahahha, only some will know what i wrote here originally


what i hope to see in 2008
- my family and frens pls be happy and healthy

i'm now at changi airport. waiting to board my flight! :)

on the way to thailand!

hope i can shop till i drop man :P

enjoy your holidays everyone!

exams. my Nemesis .

=(

Akon Sorry, Blame It On Me

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my son
I'm sorry for the fact that I am not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I am so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me
Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do

Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings

He got a second wife and you didn't agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief
I'm sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would've listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry your life turned out this way
I'm sorry the FEDS came and took me away

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underagein a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn't anybody wanna take blameverizon out back disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans
I'll take that blame
Even though the blame's on you [3x]
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

how many can say sorry for all the wrongs they've done w/o playing the the blame game? i'm guilty of it myself.

it definitely takes a whole load of courage to take the responsibilty of all your actions and how your life turns out to be. maybe we shouldnt lament abt how life's unfair etc.

maybe its caused by our own actions.

Yest, went with LGG/ddsh to the grant a wish party. just a month ago, we granted 2 kids' wishes. a teddy bear and a bracelet kid set.

it was quite fun and took tons of pics. once again, i declare my love for small kids, best if they let me hug :P but i really dislike bratty kids. after seeing a particular spoilt kid, it renews my determination to take my children (if any infuture) in hand. never spoil ur child hor!

pics with this cute 4 yr old, siti and 5 yr old jia en! ;)

mich with siti

yf with siti

my women and girl (speaking like a true lusty emperor :P )

with jia en, yf

thanks everyone. i'm okay already . just feeling weary at times. but life goes on!

lets fight on everyone !
:)

变质的感情要如何挽回 ?

Sometimes i think the world has too much unhappiness. Everyone seemed to be entrapped in one's own problems .If only there's some way to buy a solution to our trouble, life will be so much better.

I think my happiness is slowly being zapped away. Negative thoughts seemed to flood my mind these days. Have been thinking too much abt too many things. argh i should just snap out of this mood.why should i dwell on these silly thoughts when there's always the many good things in life that i already have and may have overlooked. strange that unhappiness always magnify many times its magnitude, whilst happiness seem too shortlived. maybe we are all just greedy.

went out today with yihan to catch lust, caution :)

haha, an artsy flim but it caters to wide audience. at least, with my minmal level of cultural and arts appreciation, i find this flim quite a good show. This emotions and message that the movie is trying to bring across is certainly powerful and impactful. thanks to superb actors and the director. but i would say, wang li hom is more suited for music . hehs :P
Thank god for no gross sex scenes. thanks for censoring that out. though its supposed to bring out the essence and relationship btw female and male lead.

then we went to the HK cafe at cine to talk and eat. insightful talk indeed ;) haha, i miss hanging out with her. definitely one of the people i treasure alot.1 of the people who will listen to my woes, help me bitch quite abit, say stuffs that will solve my worries. woman, if u are reading this, i love u! hahaha:)

i used to wish the same simple wish for each year. i dun wish to have to have many frens, but please please let me have 1 really good fren. Which, i really thank god for granting my simple wish. i have the best/good frens in stages of my life. the people in my life that i feel a sense of deep gratitude to. i may not be popular, pretty, fun, but thanks for unfailingly be there for me when we got to know each other and up till now. i will always rmb the good times

at pri school/ sec 1-2 / sec2-4/ JC life/ uni
haha, i wont name names. but my actions show rite??

things will be better..
i'm ok. just a bout of emotions that i had accumulated, got unleased at 1 shot.
after this post, and some verbal grouchings with the few ppl, i'll be ok.

thanks ms, i will be alrite:) lets go out these days, oh the pregnant hairstylist, i tink is on maternity leave already, i went to check the other day >.<

i will not be silly.
i will be strong.
i will learn from my past mistakes.

damn its happening again.. what has happened in the past has come back to haunt me. the second time. so does the problem just lie with me ? i have tried to change as much as i could. so at the end of the day, it doesnt help?!
Please please dont let things turn out the way it was last time. hope its just plain silly insecurity and paranoia on my part. we shall see..

:(

omg.. today i've met a person whom i didnt see for 6 years..
brought back the good memories..

sigh

two's a party, three's a crowd.

like always.

disllusioned.

is a person's looks really that impt? beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder doesnt it? why does physical appearance still matter so much? Recently i have been hearing and i,myself is guilty, of enving and lamenting that other girls are so "pretty" , "slim", "how i wish i could be like them". sometimes i wonder, why do we always look up to girls with pretty faces, instead of people with gd hearts. i have to admit i do mind how i look. judging from the money spent on skincare, clothes and fashion.all this is done to cover myinsecurity.

and how does luck come about? do you really believe that luck plays a part in how your life turns out to be?

well, i certainly believe all that.

:X

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Thanks!! :)

recently i have a fetish for dresses! shucks! is it cos of i'm coming of age?

:X

my heart really goes out to the south korean hostages held by Taliban terrorists. it is so unfortunate that a missionary trip ends up a tragedy for the nation and the world. 21 lives remain hanging on the hook in exchange for the release of the prison mates. this is really insane. to submit into their request, will mean that in future terrorists will have no qualms into mimicking this to get their way. But if they dont, 21 innocent lives will be lost. just saw the news. it was really heart wrenching to see families of these hostages in pain and sorrow. lets pray that the negotiations will be successful.

On a different note, the hols are coming to an end! it has been quite enjoyable, except for the fact that i didnt earn enough for the amount that i spent. spent most of my time gg out and catching up with my friends from pri/sec/jc/uni. really really glad that we met up! i know its hard, especially as we grow older, but we must all put in effort to keep our friendship going, alrite? we mustnt lose these ties of friendship :)

(*ps! not all pics/pple are up there! like mingsi we didnt really take any pics when we go out. haha we must do tt soon!)

August is here. sigh. the beginning of a mad semester. cramping all the knowledge in a matter of 3 academic months into my minuscule brain.drat. i wished i had a bigger brain. haha, ok maybe size doesnt matter. BUT I NEED TO PERFORM BETTER! grrrr...

do catch this david blaine's video. freaking funny!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYxu_MQSTTY

GRRRRRR
i'm hating myself rite now!
sauage lips and digusting patch of cold sores. arghh pls let me heal fast :'(
feeling so terrible

it has been many many weeks since i updated my blog.
I've been doing unproductive work this holidays. 1 equation says it all:
input < output
ARGHHHHH

i have been spending and spending like no body's business! i calculated my buys just from this holiday( and i still have 1 month to go). the GSS frenzy has costed me an estimated freaking $400 - 500 . and these only includes tangible items and some online buys! freak. i really need to practice more perseverence and resistence in face of sales.
i think i'm safest at home.. with the comp shut down.

but life's been quite fine so far :) met several pple! intentional or not. hahaha.. slack , enjoy life. sigh. blissful life of an idler. minus for the fact that there's no income, pocket money :(
caught bump off lover 17 (ai sha 17) by angela zhang a really good show. must watch!

okie entry's up till here. gotta go bathe! will try to put pics:)

i wish to be a free bird. free of worries, free of ties that bind. now i'm just a fat bird who's tied to the ground. i feel so useless tt i'm complicating simple stuff in life. getting myself troubled and worried over trivial things. its such a sad fact i dun even know myself, what i want.
hai. dun mind me. its just 1 of my down-moods. argh i wanna know more ways to self-improve!

and ya! i miss my old friends!my best,good friends! still havent got a chance to c u all! its always such a joy to c each and every one of them, even though they have such vastly diff personalities. i love u all! :)

FINALLY ANOTHER POST!
have sort of abandoned the blog after so many months. i'm back!
exams have finally ended. its time to enjoy the holidays!

it has been quite a enjoyable sem :) due to many contributing factors!
-NO STATICS, NO MATERIAL SCIENCE SYLLABUS! yeash!
-i've made several good frens in uni!LGG!getting to know each other was definitely worthwhile!
-gotten to know bao li mei better!and it was also quite thrilling to get to know ahem ahem ;) haha, bao li mei, rite?!!?
-gotten to know more pple, at least i know i'm not a total hermit

but there are several things i wished i had done over last sem,
-pract more for CS, math and everything. haiii
-meetup more pals like ms,yh,ph yy. argh! i'm so sorry! this sem have been crazy with labs! next sem k? i promise we'll meet up for lunches ard nus campus more! :)

argh now i'm down with a lumpy eye (hive i think). spoilt my perfect plan of shopping and exercising!GRR.. but i'm looking forward to catch up with my friends!pri,sec,jc,uni! everyone! puiyee misses all all of you !

These few days i couldnt do much but to clear and pack my bursting wardrobe. i have no idea i bot so many stuff!but i still want to shop!haha, to think of it, i think its the process that is enjoyable ,not really the clothes that you are getting!i want to buy shoes plus casio watch! eyeing it for a long time. my frens pls chiong shopping with me k?! i'll make sure we dun bust our budget.hehe..

now yh is in phuket.haiii! lucky woman!i'm jealous! what a different experience, to sightsee, and just to relax.i guess tackey n my plan to go thai'bankok will fall thru.nvm, therell always be a next time..

okie! gotta go clear the warzone at my desk! WISH ME LUCK!

i'm so sad. i failed 2 mid term tests. i'm dying in engin le :(

hua yang shao nian shao nu , channel u, 7pm is nice! must watch!

Arghh. i'm mesmerised by wu zhun! he has such a nice pair of eyes, small lips, nice hair and a awesome figure! damn are all brunei-ians so good looking?

ok back to studies.mid term tests next week. haiizz

CNY coming! and i haven lose any weight! how to gain weight/pig out w/o any leeway for expansion?? yeah! pineapple tarts, mua chi, bak gwa, i love them lots! :D awfully sinful food. but its ok, i can always excercise, after this right??? i wish.

i have been avoiding my maternal relatives over these yrs. they commented that i'm very precious cos they only see me once a yr. which is CNY.lol. cant help it! i have a phobia o meetin them actually. i'm quite thin skin,my ego always suffer a big blow when they say: "wa, ni bian bang le!" "ni nian wei si me you zhi me duo pimples? " yada yada. hey, its very sensitive to me!
hope this yr, they will be kinder to me >.<

valentine's day coming! i wish all of my friends would stay happy and cheerful forever . hope our ties of friendship will stay strong for the many many yrs to come! :)
to those attached, and going to be attached(HAHA ;) ), enjoy this special day with him!

the irony of the results. haha..i was coerced by my bro to take it cos he cant stand me complaining abt engineering.

http://quizfarm.com/results.php
got try it out:D though haha, so what if we r meant for other occupations? our roads are FIXED now.what we are studying in uni = the job in future(oftenly)

BUT i can still dream abt it, cant i?

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i think this blog is going to be my ranting ground very soon. my original intention wasnt even to post my unhappiness.sigh.i think i'm going to age very rapidly.so unhappy, stressed abt engineering stuff >.< cant do the tutorials,modules all are bu shi ren take de! each lab manual and instructions are at least 10 pages long,y cant they just let s do simple pendulum experiments? and i wish more frens will drop from the sky! i blame myself for the predictment i'm in cos i'm pea-brain-ed, slow and uber anti-social.
i shd be so lucky that at least in nus, i have wonderful pals like ms,ph,ham and etc with me. my pillars of strength definitely to keep me alive in this cold heartless environment. thanks ms,ph for being ever so sensitive to listen thru my very freq bouts of complains.
sigh. engineering certainly was the wrong-est choice of my school life. Grr.. not alot of cute guys(HAHA but still have la. haha!! ),alot of CMI indians and PRCS,alot of lousy lecturers/tutors from china, the female population is so small, that we need to approximate it to dF.
i'll just grit my teeth thru this sem. and the following 6 sems to come.

SIGHHH!!

i hate studying! everything will go back to wad it was from this week onwards. Tutorials,labs..



SIGH!

Just packed my heap of rubbish and it finally resemble a desk:P at this moment i'm feeling kind of proud. hehe..an untidy person like me who actually find pride in her tidy desk:P actually i like tidiness, but i'm just plain lazy to be tidy.

After a gruelling sem i have learned to enjoy my holidays thoroughly. this hols i have met up with frens that i treasure very much. i have tried baking. i have tried being a bad girl. i have lazed around. i have watched enough TV serials befitting a couch potato.i tried to excercise. i should b contented.. shouldnt i?

In a matter of few hours, we are all going to start a new semester:/ i wish i can sighing but i cant. the short 1 month of freedom/shopping/lazing around has come to a end. i'm going to start a new semester doing things i hate.ENGINEERING!and i have computing this sem! i'm already sweating at the thought of this. The only things i do with my computer is.. online shopping/ MSN/surfing forums/youtube/friendster..how am i going to handle java script ? i'm acting like a bimbo. well.. maybe half a bimbo. just w/o the hot figure/ looks. :D
Uni is a big,cold,mean environment. either u make it or u break it. just 1st sem at nus, it has already taken a toll on me. NUS is filled with smart people. sigh. who am i to compete with them?i'm exuding negativity.haha a pessimist.
wth. i'm gg to just work my ass off this sem. last sem's lesson is just too painful.

I AM A GOING TO BE A ENGINEER!

argh korean dramas are so nice! totally addicted. though they tend to follow the same storyline, just different faces. But heck. as long as they have pretty eye candies, i'm hooked!

i'm watching "my girl". Its is super nice! i like the male lead. sigh. too bad these gd looking guys only appear in reel life. hahaha.
some links to mv:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=I4XLRiuMv14&mode=related&search=
http://youtube.com/watch?v=EMxhDK1_N7E&mode=related&search=



and thanks to ham, my phone got a extreme makeover! :D love it! and i'm not VERY gian peng ok?? maybe just a little greedy. BUT wad abt the pp,opi,lipsmacker,wetseal top?? i'm generous too if i do say so myself *proud * hehehe..


HAppy new yr everybody! 2007 is going to be a great yr :D