It's 2:39 AM and I'm both physically and mentally exhausted. I was starving a few minutes ago but I now have a hot cup of Horlicks to help me 'unwind for a good night's sleep'. This was actually advertised on the can! I never knew that Horlicks was so sleep-inducing until I drank it in the midst of rushing my dissertation one day and had to give up and go to bed. Oh, and I think I've reached the main point of this entry.
I'm done with my dissertation!!! It's finally done! They are all printed out and sitting obediently on my desk now. I am so happy! I had imagined the ecstasy to simply last for a few seconds, or minutes at most, but it's now nearly 3 hours past midnight, the time at which I realized I had finished printing all my coursework.. and I am still feeling so super happy.
Maybe it's because I'm in disbelief. It's been a while since I've had a chance to experience such a sense of academic satisfaction. I honestly cannot remember the last time I completed a piece of coursework without being either just on the dot, or just a few hours early, or even most unfortunately, late. I wish I could say this is because I've learnt my lesson and am starting to become more disciplined and less of a procrastinator. But I guess the truth is, I had no choice but to finish it today. My college library is under construction, and there's nowhere else near me that I could go to print my reports in colour. I had to go to my lab in the hospital to print them, and even though I had anticipated to finish them this evening, the entire process had taken me all the way till midnight. It just didn't feel secure printing them out so early. I think it was just too engrained in me to make sure that I drag everything to the eleventh hour. The whole process of printing was exciting as well. The printer was on a floor above me, and I had to keep shuffling between two floors to check my test prints and to feed paper into the printer. It was such a waste of paper because we had to print 5 copies, and they all had to be single-sided. It was a good thing I brought a stack of paper with me, because even my stack was used up and I had to source for more paper. Poor trees..
The past few days were draining because I had to try my best to squeeze every little bit of brain juice I have into words. I have never thought meeting the word limit would be a problem. Yet these 10,000 words were exceptionally hard to make up. I don't even think my brain can register what I'm doing now because it must have shut down already. I probably ought to be resting and sleeping happily to celebrate. But now that I have all the time in the world, I seem to have automatically lost that sleepiness that plagued my eyelids whenever I tried to do some work.
Perhaps I just have too many things to say to this blog in my excitement. It's been such a long time since I last said hello to my little mushroom. There are so many things that happened between then and now and there are simply so many things that I want to share. Little things like, I just skyped with my dajie and dajiefu this morning and they made me so happy! And also really big things.. Like, my dajie has given birth today!! My niece is so cute! I am now an aunt! I wish I were back to see her grow up. It would be so amazing. I want to pinch her little chubby cheeks!
It's funny how I have all these words tumbling out of my fingertips, only when I least need them. I could go on forever, but I think the Horlicks effect is kicking in. I think it's off to bed for me now! Got to wake up in a few hours' time too to get my reports bound and submitted!
Still so happy!