freezing

im supposed to be studying really hard right now, but nothing seems to be going into my peabrain, so here i am. it's drizzling a little outside, and it's freezing cold inside my room. my roommate and i are totally scrunched up in our seats and occasionally we manage to mumble a few words of complaint about the weather to each other. i think even my cactus is frozen in its pot by now. i just skyped with my family 2 hours ago since i couldn't skype yesterday. my internet was cut off on thursday night because i exceeded my bandwidth limit downloading "devil beside you" and "mars". i was happily clicking on so many episodes and watching the download bars fill, until i realized that i wasn't connected to the internet anymore! i know it's my fault for wanting to rewatch all those dramas, but sometimes it's really boring just studying and memorizing only to realize that you forget all that you've stuffed into your brain. the cycle just repeats and i need some entertainment. so in the end i only had my notes and my bed to accompany me throughout the weekend.

today's yet another bank holiday! my roommate just said, do you know what? i think the laundry room is warm. hahahahaha. she's going to escape to the laundry room now. less than 1 month to the exams, and approximately 1.5 months till i can go back home! just thinking about how warm it is in singapore makes me feel a little less cold now.

yesterday jess showed me the youtube video of the liaoning girl who cursed the sichuan earthquake victims. this liaoning girl even gloated at the disaster because she was angry that she couldn't play computer games during that 3 days when china closed down all entertainment websites. it was appalling, and absolutely unbelievable. i was very incredulous at her blatant disregard towards the severity of the situation, and how she made a passing comment on the old lady who was stuck in debris for over 100 hours as to why she's not dead yet. that is just one out of the many rude and insensitive comments she made in the span of 4mins and 40seconds. the things she said were so out-of-the-world that i thought someone might have controlled her and forced her to say them. there are also many hate videos posted by other people in response to her irresponsible behaviour, and i think i learnt quite a few strings of chinese vulgarities from watching those. thankfully we didn't find any videos of people who actually support her behaviour.

china's plagued with problems. and there's also the cyclone in burma. getting news of natural disasters reminds us of the fragility of life, yet how many reminders does it take before it gets to our heads and we don't need any more reminding? hope the death tolls stop increasing.

and the rain is getting heavier. i still think the best thing about life is that there's always something to look forward to. when it's raining, wait for the sun. and there's always the long-awaited holidays after the exams! it'll be like spring that follows winter!

procrastination

we watched this animation during the commercials before iron man at the cinema the other day. it's so funny and it totally captures the essence of procrastination! and so here i am, making myself happy while i get my stuff done.

last friends episode 6

i thought #5 was good enough, but this is even better! i love the last part when they were playing on the swings, and the very timely introduction of the theme song at the end. the setting was right, and i especially liked the part when takeru kept swinging up and down oddly and smiling at ruka, trying to cheer her up, without any of them speaking. it was a very comfortable scene, with dialogue taking a backseat, and with an apt choice of music as accompaniment. when ruka smiled and the music suddenly stopped, it was quite a liberating moment. the way ruka wanted to tell him her secret was so sincere it almost felt devastating. and takeru did shock me a little, albeit pleasantly; not that it was entirely unexpected, just that given the circumstances, and given his character, i didn't really see it coming. maybe it's meant to be yet another twist in the story anyway. the way he expressed his feelings was very sweet though, and it was a very cathartic instant. despite all odds, i hope it doesn't end up heartbreaking.

the thing is, up till this episode, i always thought i understood ruka's character quite well. but i can't seem to guess how she'll react to takeru! really looking forward to the next episode, and i feel very tempted to ignore all the other characters in the story and just focus on this duo. having said that, i think it's nice that there's some development in eri's character as we get to see her sensitive thoughtful side in this episode! i can't remember much about the other characters (because i watched this at 1am yesterday and the last part was simply much more impressionable compared to the other parts), other than the fact that sousuke is still psychotic and we still don't know why, and michiru is still victimized and very lonely. and i like how everything fits in very aptly with the words assigned to each character. michiru - love, ruka - liberation, takeru - agony, eri - solitude, sousuke - contradiction. it's quite scary to watch how these emotions clash to give rise to such a twisted story.

:)

absent-minded me left my swipe cards in my lab locker today and had to walk all the way back from sheffield building to rcs building to get them.

but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise!

serial killer?

here's an excerpt from my email to cihan! too lazy to recount everything all over again, so here's my firsthand account of the story!

OHMAN ok i just discovered something vvvv scary. and v freaky!!!!! you noe i always meet my friends before i go off to sch right? mark yahting leefeng and khaiming. mark yahting and leefeng stay at wilson house, which is this hall that's 5 mins away from mine. basically, my friend leefeng just found out from her hall bulletin that A SERIAL KILLER (WHO IS HER HALLMATE) WAS KILLED IN HER HALL! AND FOUND DEAD IN THE LODGE IN NOVEMBER 07! SUPER SCARY!!!! that guy killed 4 other pple, 3 of whom stayed in wilson house, meaning they are imperial students! and one of them is a lecturer who's a warden at the hall! till now no one knows who killed the serial killer i think. GOODNESS. we're all super freaked out by this. and the creepiest thing is that the 3 of them haf been staying there for so long yet they never heard anything about this all the while!! the guy was found dead in their hall... ohman. and the way the serial killer murdered the 4, it was all by stabbing and knifing.. the news reported that this guy's psychotic.. and probably has split personality!!!!

and then after my friend told me that i was telling her how glad i am that she's still safe right.. but she was still v freaked out. so i tried to be funny hahahaha by telling her that im v glad that di yi hao (ok we call him di yi hao cos he's my number one! HAHAHAHA. that's our nickname for this guy who's our coursemate and who lives in wilson house too, and he's VERY SHUAI! hahahaha some angmoh guy who's very very smart and hardworking and nice and has a very nice smile hahahah okok) is still alive!! then she was like walauuuuu, you care more for him than for me. who noes he may be the one who killed the serial killer!.. ok so that's how our conversation ended like a few hours ago. AND NOW, she just bumped into di yi hao on the streets.. and she asked him whether he knew anything about this at all! AND GUESS WHAT, DI YI HAO ACTUALLY WITNESSED WHAT HAPPENED TO THE SERIAL KILLER ON THE NIGHT HE WAS KILLED! OHMY GOODNESSSS!!

OKAY. AND YOU NOE WAD MS LEE? hahahahahahahahahah the previous two paragraphs that i just typed out. HAPPENS TO BE A PRANK -.- i JUST found out from my friend, who found out from di yi hao that... he witnessed that the "serial killer" was just drunk on that night, and was playing with the computer in the lodge, and was typing rubbish to post on the bulletin. -.- okay.. you can ignore me now. hahahahahahhaha.

(hirowei87 is leefeng)
[7:17:44 PM] hirowei87 says: coz jus nw i met him on d street
[7:17:52 PM] angchieh says: yah then?!!?
[7:17:53 PM] hirowei87 says: den he said hello
[7:17:56 PM] hirowei87 says: ok
[7:17:58 PM] angchieh says: (nod)
[7:18:00 PM] hirowei87 says: den he told me
[7:18:08 PM] hirowei87 says: he witnessed d whole thng
[7:18:11 PM] hirowei87 says: dat nite
[7:18:13 PM] angchieh says: why he suddenly tell you about this??
[7:18:15 PM] angchieh says: did you ask him abt it/
[7:18:19 PM] hirowei87 says: ya
[7:18:25 PM] hirowei87 says: den he recalled
[7:18:29 PM] angchieh says: HE WITNESSED IT?!!!!
[7:18:30 PM] hirowei87 says: super scary
[7:18:33 PM] angchieh says: OHMYYYYYYYYYYYYY
[7:18:34 PM] hirowei87 says: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
[7:18:41 PM] hirowei87 says: dis wat he said
[7:18:44 PM] angchieh says: OHMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
[7:18:46 PM] hirowei87 says: dat nite
[7:18:59 PM] hirowei87 says: dat Josh
[7:19:03 PM] hirowei87 says: remembr?
[7:19:10 PM] hirowei87 says: josh reees
[7:20:02 PM] angchieh says: YAH
[7:20:04 PM] hirowei87 says: he was drunk
[7:20:13 PM] hirowei87 says: in d lodge
[7:22:59 PM] angchieh says: then???
[7:23:52 PM] hirowei87 says: den he started doin silly things
[7:25:35 PM] angchieh says: like wad??
[7:25:43 PM] hirowei87 says: like
[7:25:52 PM] hirowei87 says: goin up 2 de comp
[7:25:59 PM] hirowei87 says: n started writin artcle
[7:26:09 PM] hirowei87 says: dey tried 2 stop him
[7:26:19 PM] hirowei87 says: but couldnt
[7:29:21 PM] angchieh says: HUH??
[7:29:22 PM] angchieh says: as in wad?
[7:29:56 PM] hirowei87 says: he wrote a very silly article
[7:30:04 PM] hirowei87 says: 4 d bulletin
[7:30:15 PM] angchieh says: CHEYYYY
[7:30:20 PM] angchieh says: SO THAT MEANS IT'S FAKE LA?!?!!
[7:30:29 PM] hirowei87 says: YAAAAAAAAAAAA
[7:30:33 PM] angchieh says: WU LIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
[7:30:37 PM] angchieh says: HAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHHAA
[7:30:39 PM] angchieh says: DAMN FUNNY

HAHAHAHAAH sorry cihan i think this is super funnyyyyyyy. that's our conversation. hahahaha i was about to tell you to be always be careful and not go around alone, and be safe!! heheheheh okay, guess it's still applicable. STAY SAFE OK!! hahahahaha.

haiyohs im laughing like mad now. hahaha you lucky girl you get my first-hand and most genuine account of this story! now i read back at those 2 paragraphs and i feel so dumb hahahahha.

and sorry yayi! i made you freak out and worry too!

many first times in london

that famished, no-glucose, zombified feeling
bayswater pizza hut
3-hour pizza buffet
singapore v malaysia food fight
green-faced mark
14 slices of pizza!
feeling full. very very full.
cinema at whiteley's
iron man
tony stark with eyes that can speak

and that's our nice wilsonut holiday!

faces

i was looking for a particular photo just now when i stumbled upon this special photo folder of mine! here are some of the faces i really really miss seeing.

21°C!

my past weekend was an extended one! because yesterday was bank holiday! i don't know what the holiday is for though. maybe for the banks to rest? or for them to do their accounts or something. not too sure, just that there's another one coming up soon! so nice right, totally compensates for the sad fact that the people here don't rest on labour day!

today i only had a 1 hour lecture during which i was totally lost. together with a few other coursemates, leefeng and i entered the lecture theatre in a rush after climbing up 5 storeys. it was quite embarrassing because we were late and the lecturer actually stopped talking and waited for us to settle down. after all the panting, i just let my mind drift off while the very nice lecturer just clicked on and went on slide after slide. and im serious, this lecturer's really nice! he puts in alot of effort to make sure we understand. it was just that i wasn't in the right state of mind to absorb anything he said. towards the end of the lecture leefeng and i started to notice that there's this very mysterious asian guy in our course whom we seldom see around, yet manages to, albeit very subtly, capture our attention. he's always in lectures, but never seen talking, and he doesn't doze off in class, doesn't take down notes, and always looks very engrossed and attentive during lessons. the funniest thing is, we found out that he's actually in the same lab group as us! but neither of us has ever seen him around during practicals! so invisible yet noticeable.

i like to watch people during lectures and wonder what exactly goes on in their minds when they furiously copy down whatever the lecturer says. how many are actually really listening? or are they just like me? there're those who are scribbling or doodling on their notes, and these usually look very intelligent, like they already can pre-empt what the lecturer will say next. once i saw this coursemate holding a sweet in his hand for a few minutes, just waiting for the lecturer to look away before he could grasp the opportune moment to pop the sweet in. it was quite funny watching him wait to eat his sweet. at other times, i watched how people struggle to keep awake during lectures, and how miserable they looked while trying to keep their eyes open. at times like this, i'll start thinking whether there's anyone else in the room who is doing the same thing as i am, watching the same person, thinking the same thoughts. maybe yes, maybe no, but it's just one of the many questions i'll never have the answers to.

after lecture today, 5 of us biochemists went to hyde park to bask in the sun! the weather's finally less unpredictable now. after all that snow and sudden showers, the sky has begun to clear up more, and there's more sunlight! we can start walking around in just tshirts and bermudas now! after our mini impromptu picnic, we lay down on the area near the river and enjoyed the cool breeze while taking in our dose of vitamin D from the sun! it reminded me of my trips to holland and zagreb, because those were the most recent times when i derived alot of joy from being in the sun! and so we just lay there, underneath the blue skies, surrounded by greenery, and with many other fellow "corpses" (that's what we call the european people who were also lying down on the grass; most were found to be semi-naked guys!) all over the park. it's a very nice lazy feeling, it's almost like the skies will always remain that same shade of blue, the winds will keep on blowing, and the sun will just.. keep on shining?

last friends episode 4

“如果你保护美知留的话，就由我来保护你。”

“要说孤单一人的话，大家其实都一样”

how can anyone be so sweet and gentle! every little thing takeru says and does makes me feel like melting. i like how he usually doesn't say much and has that thoughtful, concerned and intent look in his eyes when he listens to other people talk. when ryuka was crying i could actually feel him feeling the pain! when he does say anything at all, it's always something deep. he's the kind of friend to whom you'll want to pour your heart, because he really listens with all his heart. i wish things were simpler so that he can be with ryuka, and they can live happily ever after.