Good Bye 2005.

the last meeting of the year. the last meeting as Ventures. maybe the next time we go back it will be as rovers or adult leaders.













6 years of scouting. all the memories and strong friendship.

it's the end of the chapter as a scout, as a venture...but it shall not be the end.



a new chapter will begin.

update of my life.

went hong kong from 9th to 15th. was quite an enjoyable trip. think i gained quite some weight. been eating and shopping and eating. went to hong kong disneyland on the first day of arrival. was glad that i listened to my mom and went there in the afternoon. the disneyland is quite small and packed with people. didnt get to try the rides there. the fireworks at night was great and i took a long video of the thing. and i only felt that i was in disneyland towards the night where the atmosphere there was better. the weather at hongkong was great. at least not as hot as singapore.

and i lost my wallet at 9am on 16/12/2005. curse that stupid ass who took my money and my ezlink card. but guess i was lucky to get back the rest of the stuff including the wallet. lucky i made a police report.

went back to chs on sat to play soccer. and ran today after going out. think i am slowly gaining back my fitness. shall perservere and try to exercise every day. i shall get back my fitness~

enlistment is near~sigh cant imagine man.

NS?

went to exercise today. yup the first time in like 3months? and the performance was embarrassing. think i ran less than 1/5 of the 4.8km route. only managed to do 50 situps. didnt even want to attempt pull-ups.

enlistment in exactly 1 month's time.

the feeling is like it's the eve of Alevels and i have yet to finish studying a subject.

shit.

Thoughts.

spent my whole day with scout bros today. ha i think most of the saturdays in my holidays are going to be spent with them. nice feeling to be with them can always laugh and joke around. somehow there's a sense of belonging whenever i step into chinese high and into the training shed where all that training is conducted. can feel the feeling of a big family there and i know that there will always be people around there to welcome me back. i cant really say the same for vjc...which explains my anti-social behaviour over there ha.
and it's great to be playing soccer again, though not for a very long time. still it feels good to be scoring a goal during the game ha.

went over to scout hq today to wait for leekwang to finish his aspire briefing. seems like the 9 of us always stick together when it comes to scout activities. even though not all of us will be around, we can always feel the support around. and i don't mind helping out in scout activities even though i don't get any points through the assistance. in fact many of the activities i did didnt reflect on the cca record. did them merely for the fun and passion i guess. cca record isnt very reflective of what i have done and gained through these 2 years. but i think it's the process that counts. i don't need to get a good grade and end up joining clubs and societies that i dislike.

was told that i was close to passing my aspire and getting my PSA. had mixed feelings when i heard that. of course i was quite happy. i think it helped my regained some confidence. didnt feel right whenever i saw those people at hq..had the sense of inferiority. but it's gone now i think. at least there was some recognition towards my skills. and i felt quite wasted too. if i had done my first aid etcetc better i could have been one of those at istana.

the world judges u not on how near u were towards the award, but on whether u have achieved it or not. it's a cruel reality. i can tell the whole world i was close to getting my PSA, but people will say "did you get it in the end?". no. that's how the society rates an individual and it applies to everything.
ha but it's all over now. i enjoyed the process.

good luck to lee kwang for his coming aspire. u carry the hopes of the 8 of us ha. but i am sure u can do well in the camp ;)

going off to hong kong from the 9th to the 15th.

the day i got conned....

shiyang called me in the morning today when i was about to play civilization iv.


shiyang: "hey u wan come with me and peng siang to check out the place for aspire?"

me: "where is it?"

shiyang: "it's a bicycle track at ********"


and the bicycle track turned out to be a forested area near an industrial area with a muddy trail for walking. we walked through those stupid plants in the forest and i got lots of mosquito bites in the end. my legs dirtied by the mud. what a good preparation for the army. the last time i had such an experience was during june at punggol. brings back memories man. in the end only peng siang came fully prepared with shoes and long pants. i should have known better not to get conned by shiyang. and i am getting a bit feverish now. hope i didnt get dengue or whatever disease.

today's the first time in many many many years that i played monopoly. went eetse's hse and played monopoly with them. ha didnt win any of the 3 games we played but at least i only lost once. it's quite fun to be spending 4 hours playing that game ha.

and i wonder if i will get so emotionally-attached to someone that i become depress when that person is gone.

she is coming back tomorrow ha.

....

it's been a long time since i last updated. wanted to change the template of my blog but i am simply too lazy to edit and everything. realised that my tagboard is gone. i have been using it for almost 1 year. i don't remember receiving any emails about terminating my tagboard.

anyway, A-levels is over~just hope that i can do well in it. the excitement has already died down after such a long time. been playing for the past 1 week and going out every day. kind of sick of going out already so i am here updating my blog ha. i can stop studying for 2 years after 12 years of notes notes and more notes. kept all my JC notes in the cupboard. don't feel like tidying them up. shall do so when i need them again.

got a new com and i have been playing games every day. civilisation IV is cool. i think sims 2 is quite dumb and i am considering uninstalling it. shall try playing warcraft soon. shall see what's so fun about that game.

still got around 1 more month before i become botak and join the army. shall enjoy myself fully and not think about finding a job or whatever. shall find time to learn driving.

this is a boring entry. i am bored.

Farewell.

today is the last day of school. farewell assembly and all. got to say the performances were quite entertaining...the out-of-tune band, the yr 1s and 2s house cap performances, the many many videos etc. and also the 3 song performance by the online singer jun yi. i think my class choir girls sing better than her. she must have regretted coming to vjc 'cos most people don't listen to chinese songs apart from good singers like sun yan zi and jay chou...and she is like no where near their standards. maybe she is slightly better than he yao shan and her miss zao gao haha.

anyway..took many pictures today..with class people, mr ueng mrs koh and many others...my vjc memories. took one photo with ueng last yr so decided to take another one this yr since i saw him at canteen ha.

2 years of JC life. cant say that it was filled with happiness and fun. been struggling with my studies these 2 years and gave up many things in the process. i was never one of those enthu ones around in the school with many many frens around. my enthu years were in chinese high and guess that shall be sufficient. but still...i am glad that i came to S22 cos i found my good frens and great classmates =) i dont exactly have fond memories of the school..but at least i have fond memories of my frens, my class and my teachers.
12 years of education for me...and classroom-based education has officially ended on 14th October 2005. i will certainly miss the classrooms...and the uniform that i have been wearing for the past 12 years.

and after my As i will be taking a break from all the books and all the studying, to be a soldier protecting the nation -.- . i still remember i was wondering what will life be like when i am in the army. and *poof* after 10 birthdays i am here...facing the green letter from MINDEF.
had a shock when my dad told MINDEF sent me a letter about my enlistment. I am required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (Cap 93), to report for enlistment on:

05 Jan 2006 (Thu) at 9.45am to Basic Military Training Centre School 2.
Address: BMTC Training Centre School 2
Pulau Tekong Besar
Singapore 508450

thought i will be enlisting in April due to poor results la -.- hmm guess but after 5 days of my enlistment i will be coming out due to Hari Raya Haji ;) den at the end of the month i will be coming out for 3 days due to CNY. shall enjoy while i can for the next 2 months.

tomorrow is President Scout Award presentation at Istana. feel happy for my brothers who got the award =) though i am not part of it i am still happy for what you all have achieved. congrats to png and peng siang!

24 more days to the final lap. good luck guys.

My Holis.

time flies~it's thursday tomorrow and we will be getting back our papers. kind of scared to get back my papers don't want to see my results...i just hope i have the motivation to mug hard for the next 1 month plus. the short period of time that will decide the future...

been playing since thursday haha. went sentosa on thursday then kbox on friday. saturday went back to chs to play soccer for the whole morning. i love the feeling of being so carefree and able to sit for hours watching the tv. sadly these kind of time passes by so fast. went to watch Sound of Thunder on saturday with my bros. quite an interesting show but the special effects sucks. felt i was watching some show in the 80s. even the effects of Star Wars (the last few episodes) were much better even though they are older shows.

went to watch Be With Me on monday. haha didnt really know what was the show about. supposed to be philosophical or something. but it was kind of bored 'cos there wasnt too many dialogues. the cinema was damn quiet and ended up every sound that you make will be heard by others. think i am not suited to watch these kind of artistic movies. movies with a deep meaning arent suitable for me haha.

looking forward to the end of As. might be going for holidays at Japan or Taiwan or Hong Kong. i think it should be one of the last few overseas trip that i will be having with my parents. the future trips will most probably be paid by me and it will be my turn to look after them haha.

59 days =)

Back

last time i updated was about 3 months ago. wanted to change my entire blog after A-levels but when i saw a big empty space in my blog during prelims, have decided to bring forward the change haha. apparently the server where i upload my picture is gone..ended up most of the pics that i have uploaded were gone. anyway since i am nearing the end of my prelims, i have decided to come up with a new picture. took me about 2 hours to squeeze the photos into that picture. my life from the chs life to the vjc life.



anyway didnt want to update my blog for the past 3 months cos firstly, i didnt have much to say. life has been quite boring ever since i ended my scout activities. secondly, didnt want to blog about unhappy events until i have finally gotten over it, which i have managed to after about 2 months.

so..its back to the update-as-i-like blog...at least i won't leave it to rot after so long haha.

prelims was ______ (fill in the blank with a 4-letter word) just hope that i can improve and survive.

gonna blog about my scouts when i have time. anyway for those who still didnt know about it (or i didnt tell u about it) , i didnt get my PSA. nothing to be sad about, cos there is still a long way to go :)

Pressure.

juz a short post before i go study again.

i think pressure can really make someone perform beyond their potential.

went for a jog this afternoon and did my pull-ups when i was coming back. could only do 2 pull-ups everytime la -.-. and i managed to do 3 rounds of 2 pull-ups.

wad happened to my aspire 9 standard pull-ups man. must be under the pressure of the testers tat i managed to do well man haha.

or maybe it was cos i ate too much after i came back from camp. all the soft drinks and junk food starts coming back haha. 2 wks ago on this day i was still preparing for aspire. time flies~

kk back to studying haiz. i think i dun have enough time.

ASPIRE.

haha i am back from ASPIRE - the grandfather of all camps. i am back safe in one piece and didnt get attacked by any wild boars or wadever animals haha. was reading last yr's entry..the entry tat i wrote right after december's ASPIRE. actualli my feelings towards ASPIRE dun differ much this time round. but there is one thing that i can confirm. i haf definitely improved alot in this ASPIRE.

anyway...juz a prove of how tough the camp was......



My bag.

this freaking bag weighs like 20 over kg la. and i have to carry it for 4 days with the weight not going to decrease at all. i set off and return with the same weight...but i will feel heavier cos my energy level will decrease. yup so cant blame me for having such low morale when i set off haha.ok shall talk more about the camp now.



Day 1

the camp starts at 6 in the evening. the timing was kind of weird cos it's like neither here nor there. so we guessed that we probably haf night hike that night. anyway i couldnt slp at all the previous day la. slept at 2am and woke up many times at night. kind of nervous i guess. and i was sian at the thought of going for such a tough camp again.
went to find my bros and we had our final nice meal at J8 KFC haha. i didnt eat alot cos didnt really had the appetite. den i went to 7-11 to get a cup of coffee and made one last call to someone for a final chat haha.

the place to fall in was at a community centre near scouts hq. damn it i should have known what they planned to do la. at first they told us to lay out all our stuff in at the CC's open area. den some tester said "do u think ur standard is statisfactory?i give u all 15mins to run back to scouts hq and lay out all ur stuff." and so i had to grab all my stuff and tried in futile attempts to pack everything in. ended up i had to carry sumthings in my hands and luckily nth dropped out. was kind of shagged alr cos they didnt make their instructions clear. i had to run up the stairs twice cos they told us to change place again. and i thought that everything was over when we managed to get everything right....the freaking rain came and we were told to pack everything and move into the carpark -.- . so i had to move everything again. and i seriously think that having too many leaders-to-be at one place is not gd...cos everyone will start speaking and giving instructions with the intention of showing their abilities..and everything will start to go haywire when they start doing that.

finally at ard 8 they start inspecting. there was this tester hu was damn particular...he checked all my items and item quantity..den started niaoin me for not having the correct quantity -.- . hope i wun get deducted marks for that man.

we were den divided into different patrols. my patrol members were dennis frm tchs, gorden frm catholic high, terrrence sze toh frm raffles and yeejie frm dunman high. nxt we had a first aid test and a SRIT station in hq. the tester den gave us 2 MRNs and told us to start going off for our hike. the hike was quite easy cos the weather was gd. but we had to draw sketch maps of certain checkpts which made the hike quite troublesome. and i was quite tired during the hike due to my lack of slp too haha. the last checkpt was at somewhere near SGH and i was quite tired out aft the hike cos of my lack of slp and the heavy load. was kind of blur already by the time i reached. and aft that we were led to somewhere in the SGH vicinity and into this path where there are lots of tall grasses with height at around my thigh. that was our night restpoint and effectively i had onli 20mins of slp tat night.


Day 2

we woke up and had morning inspection. we had to lay out all our stuff in the bushes..which was quite muddy and some of my stuff got dirtied cos of the mud. we had to do SRIT after that and i think i did pretty well except for some first aid parts. shld haf revised my first aid carefully before i went for the camp. i didnt noe how to treat hyperventilation and that stupid ass tester asked me if i got my first aid cert. stupid ass hu looks like some drug addict should juz shut his mouth man. but think i was also quite lousy not to noe cos it's a very easy treatment. after the morning activities of SRIT and first aid...we were led to a home for the mentally-disabled pple. we did community service there and had to entertain the pple there. not a bad experience cos i rarely do such stuff. the leaders had to get those air freshners to make us smell better man. they kept spraying at us when we were at the home haha. and we had catered food for lunch with packet drinks. luckily i had tat to boost my morale man. we were den given a 100plus each to be kept for the nxt few days.

we had to hike to Pearl's Hill Park aft tat. at there we had to do physical tests and i was quite glad i did pretty well for the run haha. we had to run for about 400m wif our full pack on. and we had to do alot of jumping jacks under the hot sun. was exhausted after tat cos of the heat. and drinking too much water makes u feel tat water is simply disgusting.

a bus den took us to holy sec at punggol. there we did more physical tests and i think i did quite badly in them. i could have done better if not for my blisters and muscle cramp man. but for the first time in my life i managed to do 9 standard pull-ups in one go haha. we were given 10mins to shower after tat and it really helped me to freshen up man. was totally sticky and smelly after all the activities. leekwang had to drop out frm the camp cos of his injured leg. felt quite sad for him cos everyone of us really put in considerable amout of efforts. dun worry bro we will support u when ur time comes ;) with all our resources u will definitely make it haha.

hiked to some ulu part in punggol. i kind of hate punggol now cos there are simply too many places there undeveloped for the testers to make use of. had dinner at some ulu roadend in punggol with no street lamps. den we hiked for about 1.5km further to have our night navigation. it was a place wif many many bushes and we had to bash thru them when doing the night navigation. kind of glad that i got 5 out of 6 checkpts haha. was kind of worried before that cos i forgot to take my pacing and i didnt realli noe how to find the direction when given the bearing onli wif no map. i think tat was one of my best tests la haha. but i got cut really badly by the plants.

we hiked back and had to start building our campsite. and had to do sewing that night. i dun think i did very well for my sewing and also my shelter cos i was very tired already. my shelter was quite jialat cos the groundsheet was damn big and heavy so ended up mine was the onli one tat was not straight and neat.


Day 3

day 3 started wif a very long hike to punggol jetty. i think it was about 2-3km but it seemed extremely long cos of our heavy load and the big hot sun. and our water was running out too. at punggol jetty we had more first aid and SRIT tests. we were den transported via a speedboat to coney island - the island of the wild. there are monkeys and wild boars in the island and we were warned about them. we had to build a natural shelter there and i think mine was quite ok cos i managed to get nice big leaves..the shelter was quite strong too. and we did SRIT and knots test under the hot sun wif no wind at all. i did pretty well for the knots despite feeling that i was about to faint anytime. and there was this patrol that were punished for taking their own sweet time. they were pumped with their full packs on la. luckily the testers gave us grass jelly drink aft the activities. it was simply shiok to have a big pack of cold drink esp after such tiring activities under the hot sun. it was simply refreshing after using the packet to wipe my face and neck.

we had backwoodsmen cooking in the evening. was damn happy that i used only 2 matches to light my fire. if u guys recall i used 13 matches to start the fire last december so i was realli very happy this time. but i think my cooking wasnt very well-done cos quite alot of my food were not cooked -.- . the chicken was damn hard to cook cos we were giving one whole chicken and the rest of the food i didnt realli concentrate too much on them..ended up quite lot of them were not fully-cooked.

at night we had to do night pioneering. had to do a catapult by chopping down trees. was damn tired and mentally exhausted. finished everything at around 3 and my eyes were going to close by themselves after tat. i den went back to do my survival stuff. saw a 10cm centipede when i was doing my stuff. was quite freaked out by it cos it was rather intimidating to me. end up i had to start a fire at my campsite using my solid fuels. but i cldnt be bothered about maintainin it so it went out when i was about to slp. it was also emitting lots of smoke for sum reasons that i was unsure of. maybe i burnt sum weird log or it was cos i threw my wet wipes into the fire after using them haha. and my water catchment was quite sucky too cos the nxt day i saw lots of little cockroaches in my messtin -.- .


Day 4

the last day was quite shitty to me. all the bad things happened to me and i seem to be damn suay man. we tested out our catapults and my patrol's one broke after the 2nd try -.- . and den we had to do our vertical and horizontal ropes. i couldnt climb the vertical rope at all cos of the rope burn on my hands. damn it i know how to climb ropes since pri 4 la and now at the time when i need it most i couldnt climb it. and worse i worsened my rope burns when i came down frm the rope. and in the end it affected my horizontal rope performance too. was damn pissed after that man.

we went back to punggol island at around noon and there muhammad, one of the scout testers, told us the story of a biscuit and that we have to share circle of knowledge..juz like the round biscuit tat we were goin to eat -.- . were given a BIG melon to eat after tat and i thought we had to hike back to bishan cos the testers were like all giving us morale boosters. i took a big piece of melon and was damn shagged at the thought of having to walk over 10+km back to hq. the testers den gave us our first MRN..which was the MRN of the jetty tat we were in, and told us to give them the MRNs of our house. den they said from our 1st checkpt to our 2nd checkpt we were allowed to take any forms of transport. and ended up they told us that our 2nd checkpt's MRN was tat of our house -.-. the whole camp ended there and it was damn abrupt cos we didnt change back into our uniform or had any proper fallout.

haha i duno why but everytime when an ASPIRE ends i kind of miss the testers there. i juz suddenly haf the feeling that they are really nice to us and cared about us. despite them saying those crappy stuff and niaoing us...they are still very concerned over our benefits and welfare. at the end of the camp me and my bros walked back to thank the testers cos it was our 2nd and last time to go for the camp.

and we went to kallang KFC to meet up at night. we start at KFC and end at KFC together haha. leekwang shiyang changliang weepin came to meet us and the 9 of us starting talking about our camp life and laughing about everything. it's these moments that make me feel that joining scouts was never a wrong decision.

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i think i did much better for this camp compared to last year's. to be able to pass would be the ideal scenario...but failing to pass it wun make me feel too upset or disappointed la ( i hope ). cos at the end of the day i know that i have learnt alot more thru all these experiences which will help me alot in the future. i got to know new frens thru this camp and also strengthen the frenship wif my bros thru this camp.

this might be my very last major scout activity that i will ever participate. thanks to all hu have encouraged me along my way and to those hu have helped me. thanks to all my bros for helping me out. though it was rather gayish to spend my 2 wks of holidays mostly wif u guys...it was still a wonderful time spent wif u guys. brothers forever! =)



Once a scout, always a scout.

Pre-ASPIRE Syndrome

haha long time nv blog already...wondering how many people are still reading my blog nowadays.

anyway it's the school holidays now...the beginning of a long holiday with many things to be done. have been rather busy wif the orienteering instructor course that i have signed up...and coming up nxt the big event would be ASPIRE.

think i am suffering frm the Pre-ASPIRE syndrome. feeling rather uneasy now with all the memories of the previous camp still vivid in my mind. it's not that i am afraid of going thru all the shit again...it's the failure tat i am afraid off. i still remember before going for the last camp i was like filled with confidence...but nowadays i haf that inferior kind of feeling. it's like thinking that the testers have the look-down-on-you kind of expression. yup so kind of dread goin for the camp. the idea of goin for it juz kind of give me the sian mood.

yup...but i noe alot is at stake. regaining my confidence. and i must not disappoint those hu are close to me giving me the support. restoring my pride and most importantly the pride of TCHS scouts. it's certainly not the downfall yet...at least not for our batch, not in our time.
so let's work hard bros and the zi qiang bu xi spirit shall be present all the time in our mind haha.

going down to get my stuff at beach road tomolo. feeling kind of guilty cos again i am unable to join the class guys for sentosa outing. i think scouts is deprievin me alot of my time..especially during the holidays. but i guess there will always be another chance.



one goal. one destination

Happy Birthday~

ahaha i am wishing myself happy birthday. hmm not a bad day today received quite alot of presents haha thanks pple~. but no one said happy birthday to me at 12 midnight except jamie and junhong. minyan and mandy say they msged me at that time but i didnt receive. hmm i wonder if other pple sent me and i didnt receive too. haha i shall juz think that pple wished me juz that i didnt receive...juz to make myself happy ahaha.


thank you to:


jamie for giving me the very nice shirt and wrist rest with the pinky pig on it haha.

junhong bock brandon liren for giving me the nice and expensive boardshorts. i think yingqian and cindy also have a share in it haha.

shermaine for giving me the bean plant and the dinosaur egg. i had a hard time removing all the mud la end up my table was damn dirty ><

evonne for writing a testimonial for me and wishing me happy birthday. thanks for remembering =)

min yan and mandy who wished me happy birthday and are going to give me belated present. i am looking forward to it~

yingqian cindy ronald mingjie layqueen for wishing me happy birthday.

the class for singin happy birthday song after the house meeting. quite paiseh though haha.


thanks alot pple! =)

Thoughts.

i had this blog a few days after my grandma passed away. that was in 27th March last year.

my grandfather passed away this month on the 29th. 1 month and 2 days. coincidence or fate?

anyway this time wasnt as sad as last time. maybe every one sorta of got used to it and the mood there was not the very sad kind. and on the 3rd day i had to shou ye. did it with my cousin and my jie fu. didnt sleep the whole night but it was quite okay cos we talked at night and part of my hour was spent talkin on phone =).

this whole funeral thingy makes me feel that the people involved in it seem to be only interested in money. i still dun understand why the monks are collecting such large amounts of money for conductin the rituals at night. 2000 per night can u believe it. actualli if they do it properly and well we shldnt complain la. but there was this monk who kept looking around when he was chanting and he kept looking at his watch la...like rushing off to somewhere lidat. stupid attitude man. didnt remember my grandma's wake had such idiotic monks last time.

and the crematorium...it was like airport lidat...with the names and time indicated on those kind of screen u see in clinics. kind of high tech cos the doors etc were opened and pushed by juz pressing a button. the environment there is quite good too. better for the spirits to rest in peace i guess.

kind of sad to see this kind of things. when a person is dead...what's left are the memories left behind and the ashes. it's sad to see a living body being reduced to just ashes and nothing else. memories will be present..but sooner or later people will start to forget and life still goes on.

cherish your loved ones cos you will never be able to treat them nice again when they pass away.

PW

woo long time nv update already. didnt really know wad to update cos my life was quite boring haha. every day is go sch...go home take a nap...do work at night...sleep...and go sch again haha. sian~

anyway today we got back our PW results. 1 year of work (hard?) and the result is juz a grade 1,2 or 3. VJC has 99.1% of band 1 and 2s...and 59.5% of people getting band 1. yet what happened? our whole class has band 2 and below and none getting band 1s. the only reason can only be due to our dear pw teacher screwing up our project file or sumthing. and now she has gone into hiding by taking maternity leave. what a clever move.

hope there is sumthin wrong with the PW grades. even though i didnt put in all my efforts..i still think that for that amount of efforts that i had put in i shld have deserved something more ba haha. at least give someone a band 1 in our class and i wun be feeling so...erm...upset? but den again maybe the white shark might feel worse as her books and other sources didnt manage to get her a 1 haha.

hopefully someone complains or at least ask the school wad went wrong. hope~

You will remember me.

it's a long weekend and i guess i have had enough rest already. been slacking these few days so basically i did nothin haha. friday was one boring day for me and i was so bored that i could cry la haha.

went back to chinese high today. most of them in hcjc had bio paper on monday so they didnt come...end up onli 4 of us turned up. didnt realli had much to do at scouts today cos there were simply too many ppl around helping there. the problem of LDMR haha. ended up the 4 of us walked to hcjc wif the rest of the ventures and we did our pull-ups there. haha not bad i can do 4 at one go now...guess my strength is returnin now. did quite alot today guess i shld make an effort to do some each day so i can improve haha. and i went to try to break open to the hcjc council room door. was trying the lock there and guess wad...i managed to open the lock after my 3rd attempt haha. guess i juz haf the luck.

after our soccer our seniors told us about army. i guess there are limited places into OCS nxt time. i want to get my sword~ so i shall work hard on my physical now hahaha. went scout hq after tat. they had some scouts activity and i saw minyan's angel there. quite surprised that he actualli recognised me haha.

saw quite a few of my ASPIRE testers there too. duno why i felt some kind of pressure when i saw them. have the kind of being-looked-down-at feeling. i dun think they recognise me or remember me cos i was simply too lousy for them to even notice me. but the next time i go i will make sure that they remember me after the course and my presence will be noticed. shall ensure that. even if i failed i can at least tell myself that i have tried my best.

i got my ipod screen protector today. 8 bucks for 4 pieces. and guess wad i wasted one cos it dropped off onto my carpet when i was peeling another one -_-''. 2 bucks gone lidat. haiz. and the one tat i am using now has air bubbles inside. one day when i cant stand it i shall remove it and put a new one since i haf 2 left =).

exactly 3 more months. good luck to my bros in advance.

Happy Birthday.

woohoo long time nv update le. nothin much to update cos my life has been quite boring haha. and i haf a feeling once i update my tagboard will start havin weird pple taggin already haha.

anyway...happy birthday shiyang! paiseh forgotten about it hahaha. hope its not too late haha. feeling kind of guilty haha. once again HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)

went nus and ntu open house last weekend. lots of pple there man. saw quite alot of frens there haha. hmm and i am still not quite sure of what i wan to study in the future. cant believe it man..nxt yr i will be in NS and 2 yrs later i will be studying in the university. have always thought that NS and university are 2 things tat are still very very far away. but not now. hmm dun really feel like growing up haha.

life is quite sucky now. but i guess thats the life that we all lead when we are in jc2 haha. i wan to lead a simple life~

My week.

it's amazin how fast time passes. seems like yesterday when we had jts at suntec. so fast one week has passed. nxt wk will be the start of the march holidays.

this week hasnt been too great for me. been kind of busy wif chem review test. didnt think i do too well. shall see it when i get back my paper. right now i juz dun feel like doing anythin work-related.

glad that i finally have a deserved break on friday. went to watch howl's moving castle. great show. the characters are damn cute and the story is meaningful too. didnt expect an animation to bring me so much entertainment haha. shall wait for the vcd to be released.

didnt do any work this weekend. sat went back for scouts. think i really gotta brush up on my skills already. i cant do the horizontal rope alr and i think i have some difficulty doin the vertical rope too. the worst thing is i cant even pass lifeline la. haiz cmi alr better start trainin on my physical soon. jobweek coming soon. vivan wans us to set our target at 60bucks. but dun think i will give a damn abt tat cos from p4 till now i have always been "earnin" 20 bucks. shall not break this tradition of mine haha.

tony roma's is nice. but damn freakin ex. so overall it's still not worth it to go eat there. and the waitress claimed that she heard "cold water" as "coke". so she ended up bringin 3 cups of coke and cheatin us of 10bucks. wth.

shall go watch my naruto vcds. strictly no work till monday haha.

JTS!

i am never ever gonna play soccer without shoes. even if i do play without shoes i shall wear socks next time. blisters are all over my feet now. cant even walk properly damn pain. sian.
scouts wasnt very useful. realised there is still quite a long way to gettin PSA. i still got my service...my instructor course and ASPIRE. not exactly very eager to go for ASPIRE cos i haf to go thru shit for 4 more days. but den again...no pain no gain.
instructor course. now quite a major problem cos it's quite hard to get a school to instruct. den still haf to organise dragon boats etc. time-consuming and boliao in my opinion. better get it done before june holidays man.

JTS today! ah i am seriously sick of fish and co. had it yesterday and today. i ate stingray today. the taste is quite good but i am lazy to spend my time eating and scrapin all the meat from the bone. oh and i manage to get free fries from fish and co haha. the woman muz haf felt tat i was damn mafan haha.
and my stupid bunny-like angel tricked me into doin something which resulted in everyone takin pics of me -_-'' . grrr i will get u back nxt time stupid shermaine...haha =p. too bad i didnt manage to kiap her handphone to her ear or nose lol. wld haf been damn funny haha.

yup not bad took quite alot of pics. but sian leh had to pay 10bucks. tot i was goin to have free dinner lo haha. yawnz quite tired now. shall slp early tonight i guess.

Valentine's Day.

hmm not updating very frequently nowadays haha. been kind of busy so there wasnt much time for me to update. okie mayb i am juz too lazy to update anyway haha.

valentines day!didnt receive alot of things but still not too bad. went school early to give away all the stupid chocs and gifts that made my bag damn bulky. yup and i discovered in the morning that the roses i ordered were not available -_-''. damn it la last minute den tell me. but towards the end of the day i realised the flowers are actually quite useless cos they wilt quite quickly. nvm there will still be a chance for me to give roses ;)
am very touched by my angel haha. love the things that she gave me. thanks alot shermaine =) . yup and alot of other things tat i received frm the other pple. thanks to jamie minyan cindy and the class girls~.
and thanks for the time spent with me =) remember it always.

oh and happy birthday to shermaine! hope u will be happy always and good luck in whatever u do!

i realise that vj pple are realli everywhere. wherever u go u will definitely c vjc pple hangin ard. this is no gd like no privacy at all haha. boo i feel exposed haha.

yup great week. thank you =)

Chinese New Year.

Happy CNY to all! hmm cny has always been borin for me cos i dun get to go to many places to bai nian. neither do i get to gamble cos my family dun do tat. neither do i get to play mahjong cos no one in the family except my bro and my mom noes how to play. so basically i spent my new year eating and slacking. i ate alot in an attempt to fall sick but in the end i didnt fall sick but i became fatter -_-''.
but nvm at least i got 800+ bucks of hongbaos this year mwahaha. goin to put 650 bucks into my bank i think. i shld start saving up soon.

every yr i onli spend the first day morning to bai nian. after tat the same pple come to my hse in the afternoon to bai nian and eat. by evening they will leave the hse and den my hse will be all quiet again. the 2nd day i might go to my cousin's hse and bai nian also...and get to play with his child too. haha she loves to play wif me when she comes to my hse. pls note tat i didnt take the initiative to play wif her but it was she hu came to play wif me. so i am not a paedophile haha.

sian i dun haf many places to go bai nian...which is why i am rotting at home now doin nothing. shall go nap for a while and maybe do some work later. sian.

I need sleep.

woke up damn early today. stomach was very pain den i couldnt slp at all. mayb it's cos of the meat at seoul garden last night. muz be i didnt cook it too well. or mayb it's cos of the noodles tat i was cooking all night. haha.

tidied up my room today. but dun think it looks tidy now haha. shall do some last minute clearin up on tuesday. chinese new year is quite sian for me considerin i onli go bai nian on the first day..or rather the first morning. den after tat i stay at home for the rest of the time listenin to pple tok and occasionally hearin comments like "wa siang han hen guai" or "siang han yao bu yao chi dong xi".....

went to the other house in the afternoon and slept there for quite long. went joggin after tat. i have decided not to look at kids anymore (not tat i am a paedophile)...cos today while i was joggin i noticed a uncle smiling at a kid walkin pass him with tat grin on his face. i think he looks kind of pervertic. maybe he doesnt mean tat. but still he looked quite weird haha. shall not b like him.

dun feel like goin sch tomolo cos there's nothin much happening also. sian.

Reunion Dinner.

haha went for reunion dinner today wif my bros. was late for the dinner cos had tuition before tat. they didnt eat lunch before tat cos they wanted to save money for the big meal at night -_-''.

yup had dinner at seoul garden at taka. hoa damn ex man 25 bucks! hopefully i can claim back the money from my parents or sumthing haha. i want to start saving money now man. started eating at 6.30 and by 7.30 i am already full haha. i dun think i ate alot la haiz wasted. i ate alot of meat and the noodles...so after the meal i ate lots of fruits. hopefully the fruits can be of some help haha.


Outside Seoul Garden.


Outside Taka.

left seoul garden at around 9.15. den we walked to the outside of takashimaya and sat down somewhere outside taka. nice place to sit down and tok crap cos there was the breeze and it was quite cooling. very rare tat we get to come together and talk about all sorts of things. last time we had 20+ pple from our batch but now it's onli left wif the 12 of us. not bad as least we are close haha. and we talked about the past activities tat we went thru...like the malacca jamboree etc. brought back lots of memories.
oh and we talked about soggy biscuit the whole night too haha. i think after the straits times published the article more pple know about tat thing la. kind of funny haha.

hmm we rarely get all the 12 of us together...always haf some pple missing but today is a great day. tat's y i wanted to take more pics but they say i am gayish haha.

okie my weekend is not tat bad. my prob has been settled and the reunion dinner is great. hope i haf a great week nxt week too!

hmm..long time nv update already. exactly one week already. wanted to blog a few days ago but everytime when i started typin i decide not to do so cos i dun really know what to type. mayb i dun even noe wad i want or wad i am thinkin about.

i think i really need to go for scouts. get away from my present environment. at least i wun be thinkin about anything related to my present life for tat couple of hours. it's juz a few hours yet i think i will feel better after tat. at least let me stop thinkin about wad is happenin around me for tat little while. i will feel better and mayb i will haf a clearer idea of wad do do and wad do i want.
which is why i am still doin my work now.

i think life is quite sad. sometimes no matter how hard u try how much efforts u put in...in the end the outcome is decided by some other parties. ever tried tat? no matter how much u put in u wun haf any idea what the outcome wld be...cos ultimately the outcome is not determined by ur efforts but by some other factors.

nope i am not feeling sad now. more like i am feelin lost. mayb it's juz some temporary feeling tat i haf. hope it will be gone soon.

haha i think i am talkin crap now. muz be my lack of slp. shall go slp now if not i wun be my usual self tomolo. haha.

To my bros.

ahh today is juz not my day. damn today is bad day spoilt everything.

hmm...aspire results out. happiness and sadness from all the different people. there's no need to feel sad or wad if u didnt pass or wad. wad's done is done as long as u haf given in ur best there shld be no more regrets. it is not necessary to gain recognition from others. some people even though they get the badge they dun haf the respect nor recognition from others...so wad's the point of getting it? as long as you noe u haf given in ur best there shld be no need to feel sad or disappointed. we haf gone thru so much..been thru so much fun and hardships. at the end of the day it's not the badge tat is of great importance...it is the process tat matters. yup so if u are readin this cheer up!

my turn in 5 months time. will i be disappointed or happy? no matter wad happens i am not goin to regret wad i have done.goin to focus on wad is comin up nxt. good luck to jian an junrong leekwang xavier for nxt aspire. gonna work hard and prove to them tat we are good.

not goin to think too much nxt time in wadever things tat i do. i shall juz follow wad i think is correct. not goin to regret again for things tat i have not done.

End of a journey. Start of a new one.

hmm came home today and received this letter from scouts. haha not tat i was expecting anything or wad. but hmm...juz felt tat i could haf done better. and the thought of the girl passing makes me kind of bushuang. not tat i am jealous...or tat this is some kind of sexual discrimination... but underserving people shldnt pass at all. cant imagine man in 9 months time she will appear on the newspaper saying "The 3rd Female PSA in Singapore".

now i juz hope tat png pengsiang weepin will pass. efforts have been put in and they deserve the pass. juz hope tat the blind pple in the hq can recognise tat.

it's the end of one of my attempts in PSA. goin to embark on a new one. this shall be a more meaningful one. no more regrets.

sometimes it is really not the amount of effort you put in tat matters. no matter how hard you try...no matter what you have been doin...some things juz wun turn up the way tat u want it to be. kind of sad isnt it? life is like tat. luck, opportunities and external factors all play a part in ur success.

when will my efforts be recognised? sometimes it's better for me to gif up den for me to go on. the higher the expectations the great the disappointment when u fail. tat's y i nv like to expect success for things tat are uncertain.

lack of confidence?maybe. but i dun wan to be too disappointed when i fail. shall not be disappointed too much anymore.

Jiu Shi Ai Ni.

i haf moved room already. back to the bigger room facing the sea haha. but actualli not much of a difference juz tat i haf a bigger room tat's all. went to send my sis off yesterday night. she cried b4 she left. think can understand her feelin la all her loved ones over here and she has to go to such a faraway place to study and live on her own for such a long time. definitely not a very gd experience.
and i broker her luggage while i was carrying it for her to the car -_-''. luckily it broke at our house there and she can go home quickly to pack everything into another luggage. anyway it was not my fault cos the luggage was made of quite lousy material and the plastic end of the handle broke when i was tryin to get it onto the car. and my sis was saying tat it was kind of exciting cos this was the first time sometime lidat happened ~_~

went parkway for dinner. ah shit i seriously think tat i eat alot. after the dinner at the thai restaurant i went to eat another rotiboy bread -_-''. cannot make it. and i went to buy the tao zhe cd today. jiu shi ai ni is a very nice song haha. shall post the lyrics up some other time.

sneezing like mad now. mayb someone is saying bad things about me or wad haha. or mayb something bad is goin to happen. okie nvm i am juz superstitious. shall go rest for a while after some studying haha.

Aviator.

hoa i am tired today. think i had onli about 5+ hrs of slp. and friday was worse i think i woke up at every 1 hour starting from 4am. haha.

went to watch aviator wif jamie yesterday. i think it's kind of boring and stupid haha. the movie was damn long and abit draggy too. haha but nvm i enjoyed myself. it was quite funny at times. i didnt noe it was a real story until i finished watchin the movie haha. anyway catch the movie if u are interested to see leonardo dicaprio's butt haha. anyway it was a movie worth remembering heh.

give me the blueprint give me the blueprint give me the blueprint give me the blueprint give me the blueprint give me the blueprint........... haha.

went for scouts today in the morning. didnt haf much to do so ended up doing backwoodsman wif junrong. i think i need to work on my fire-startin skills very cmi. i doubt i can use less than 10 matches now. hopefully when everything settles down i can haf more time to practise haha.
and we took the sec 4s for SRIT after tat. Self Reliance Initiative Test. basically to haf situational tests to assess on ur reactions towards the casualties there. ah now i know the feelings of the testers at aspire. sometimes u see them doin the wrong things and u will feel like vomitting blood haha. and i think i will remember CPR forever already. am getting quite pro at tat haha.
and my boots are spoilt. damn it was kickin the sand today when i was tryin to dig a hole for backwoodsman and i ended up havin the sole of my boots comin out. gotta go beach road to buy new boots some day. still haf to use it for the nxt aspire too haha.

played soccer as usual after scouts. this time no security guards came. anyway we played till 2 and went to coro for lunch. i had to eat damn fast and rush off cos tuition was at 3. damn felt like vomitting after i chiong up the overhead bridge. took a taxi to parkway and paid 10bucks -_-''. muz try to change the time for tuition or else realli cmi.

and i bought kungfu hustle vcd. haha finally man shall find the time to watch. hope tat it doesnt disappoint me.

Xin You Yu Ji.

woo finally the long weekend arrives. hmm looks like time passes quite fast haha. very soon it will be the alevels..den nxt yr i will be botak in the army serving the nation haha. 18 yrs old. i still remember when i was in pri. 6 i was still talkin to my gd frens about army etc and i was still thinking tat there's still a lot of time for me. how fast.
and hmm it's been a long time since i last had tat feeling. the xin you yu ji kind of feelin haha. am glad tat i dared haha.

and bizclub today made me unable to eat durin my break. lucky jpoh got pizza for the class haha. thanks jpoh! and i think i am quite a gd salesperson cos i managed to get 4-5 pple buyin the nuts haha. and today i was tearin after i ate the spicy pizza. hoa was like cryin lar damn hot manz.

went kbox after school to celebrate jpoh's bday. long time nv go there already but i dun realli miss tat place cos i think the service sux big time. the last time i went there i quarelled wif the stupid woman there and today i went i quarelled wif a guy -_-''. not tat i haf a bad temper or wad but seriously those pple there lack common sense and basic service attitude man. hmm nvm shall not keep sayin them in case pple say tat i am scary again haha.
sang for like 4 hours today. not bad i got to sing all the songs tat i wanted to sing heh.

gotta bbq tomolo. hopefully tomolo is gonna be a fun day! shall eat alot tomolo haha.

Wa lau!

juz wanna say....WA LAU~~~. ah sian nvm shall not elaborate more on tat.

today is a slack day. come to think of it every day is a slack day for me...esp after school. dunno y i am startin to feel quite sian everytime when sch ends cos every one seems to be busy with their own things while the only thing tat i can do is to go home and slp -_-''. not tat i love slpin so much (though i cant deny tt i like to slp) but den it's quite sian to stay in sch when there's nothin to do. mayb i shall start on my service soon at least there will be sumthin to do after school. anyone interested to do cip at old folk's home with me?

anyway was lookin thru the NYAA gold award thingy which i haf signed up for last year. it's actually quite easy considering i haf fulfiled most of the things there thru my scouts...but the onli thing tat i might haf some trouble in would be the part on the service which requires me to do service for 12 mths...and i haf not started on any yet. mayb by some luck i will be able to con thru tat or sumthin haha. shall see about tat. mayb i shld work on nyaa too.

tomolo is another sian day i think. still havin muscle ache. hopefully i will be okie tomolo.

Tired morning.

this morning was tiring for me. woke up at 7.15 to send me dad to airport cos he's going to guangzhou for sum conference thingy. went airport to eat breakfast at mac. haha big breakfast rox. got home at around 10 and i went for a jog after tat. been running quite often these few days so my body is aching now. nvm tat means tat i am trainin my muscles already haha. shall exercise more often next week since i am already gettin used to jogging again.

slept for about 1.5 hour in the afternoon and watched tv all the way till night time. oh man i am damn slack gotta start studyin soon. realise all my frens starting to mug already -_-''. anyway tiger cup match was quite exciting...at least for the first half. should haf gone to the stadium to watch the match cos the atmosphere there shld be quite good i think. at least the indonesians didnt throw anything or wad when they lost haha.

3rd week since sch reopened. tomolo is the 4th week. lots of things for me to do this week. shall go find an organisation and start my service. my aim is to get 80+ hrs by may haha. and saturday most prob am going to the forest to practise on cooking. gotta improve on tat. and of cos got to start working hard already. i dun wanna see that stupid expression on her face ever again.


quelle est je peux dire à toi....

Scouts.

scouts this yr. lots of sec 1s manz haha. but i think most prob in june mayb the number will decrease by half. shall see hopefully tat doesnt happen. interacting wif the sec 1s was quite fun but pple started callin me paedophile after tat -_-''. but realli some sec 1s are quite cute haha. but i haf decided to maintain a certain distance and not be too friendly wif them...not tat i am afraid of being called a paedophile...but it's juz tat when u treat them too nice they will start gettin overboard. some sec 1s were lidat today...but shall not bother wif that since they are new and they dunno wads required of them. and there was this fat sec 1 who kept swingin his arms when we were doin ceremony. wad an ass no basic courtesy manz. 3 months later and if he is still lidat he's gonna be whacked already haha.

played soccer after tat till ard 4+. and the sch is gettin quite sucky man. there was this stupid security guard chasin us off when we were playing at the side field. the army pple were playin at the street soccer court and he didnt dare force them not to play cos they were simply more muscular and taller than him. instead he came over to us to ask us to stop playin. haha stupid ass. we played when he wasnt ard and when he came over we juz sat down in the middle of the field pretendin to sun tan haha. in the end i think he gave up or sumthin. ah stupid chs policy. or mayb it's the 5-day week policy fault too.

oh and there's a new pe attire for chinese high. no longer the orange tshirt wif red shorts. i will miss my old pe attire man haha. long tradition already. anyway i think the new one is quite yucky too but certainly better than the old one haha.

yawnz tired day today. i think i haf had enuff exercise these 2 days already. but if i am in the correct mood tomolo mayb i will go joggin again haha.

Weekend!

long time nv update already. this wk was not a very good week i guess. but luckily yesterday and today were quite okie for me. hopefully weekend would be better.

anyway...went to exercise today. hahaha long time nv exercise already. i think i ran about 6km today? shall start running regularly already. and i went to do weights today. haha i still think it's quite sian to sit there and lift all the stupid weights. but nvm i will become stronger~~ haha.

and the sp thingy started this wk. not bad i think i got very interesting angel and mortal. shall write to more pple when i haf the time haha. lidat mayb i will be able to get more presents on Vday hahaha. Vday the big day lol.

watched shutter wif my parents tonight. not too bad not as scary as i thought. mayb i am used to such shows already haha. i think the plot is quite interesting. quite scary at times but come to think of it the show is like some kind of love tragedy show or wad. and the show is also about karma. do bad things and expect tragic ending. yup so the show wasnt tat scary. the ending was the onli part tat shocked me i think. wasnt a very pleasant scene.

and it's saturday again!and i gotta wake up damn early tomolo cos no one can fetch me to chs tomolo. damnit.

Hope. well.

woo great i think i am going to fall sick soon. got sore throat and running nose. hope i fall sick! haha. quite sian of sch now no mood to study haha.

went to c jamie today after sch. she seemed ok but i think it shld still be quite painful. anyway hope she gets well soon~ =) take care!

went parkway at night. had dinner at jack's place which kinda sucks and i dun realli like the food there. anyway bought SHE encore cd and wang li hong cd for 20bucks. cost so cheap cos it's those kind of manufactured-in-china-and-meant-to-be-sold in china cds. the packaging is not very good. but considerin tat i dun realli support them and i juz buy the cds cos of one or two songs tat i like....i think it's damn cheap lar haha.

writing gp essay tomolo i think. should medical science always seek to prolong life? tough qn. hope i wun write rubbish haha.

Aspire Debrief.

woke up damn earli today. went chs to take the scouts and as usual they are quite shit. the sec 3s are supposed to take their footdrill test. i think they are quite suay cos i was thinking of relieving my stress on them today haha. and so i takaned them a little bit here and there. wanted to do more but had some meeting wif miss sim cos she wants to discuss with us about the cca pts system.
realised tat i shld haf spent more time on scouts last yr. apparently i am able to get quite alot of points from organising camps etc. shall go see howk nxt wk and talk to him abt it haha.

rushed to scout hq after tat to hand up my project report. and i realised tat i didnt fill in some parts at the last minute. so had to rush thru in writing all those stuff in damnit.
went bishan pasta mania after tat for lunch wif bros. ordered a hawaiin pizza and garlic bread. hoa was damn full after tat manz. chatted there for a while before we went to walk ard. had to wait till 3.30 cos we haf aspire debriefin after tat.

at j8 there was liang jing ru autograph session haha. we decided to stand there and wait for her to come. lots of pple there man all her fans club and everything. realised tat fans of all these idols look the same in certain ways haha. anyway there was also the yes 933 dj there. after waiting for about 30mins with those ah lians she finally arrived. we managed to stand at the very front by the side of the stage where she comes in. and yay i managed to capture such a great foto of her haha. took quite alot of pictures but all quite blur cos she was standing quite far away from us. haha and we walked off after she sang 2 songs...ning xia and yong qi haha.



Liang Jing Ru!


went hq at 3 after tat. i went there wif failure in mind actually. i knew where i went wrong and what i could improve on. definitely not my best performance this time round. so i was quite relax actually. but could tell that png pengsiang weepin quite nervous cos it's the last time for them already.
indeed it was juz debriefin for us. no results announced. first they juz asked us about our general comments about the camp. i was quite bu shuang with the pple there cos b4 tat they were kaobein and niaoin all of us. so i juz said "no comments" when it was my turn haha. seriously leaders shld talk with a more serious attitude. even if it's not a serious or formal occasion, it's impt that the right tone is used. u dun talk with pride and respect no one is goin to respect you.

after tat we left the room and were supposed to go in school by school to hear our individual mistakes and noe where we can improve on. waited outside for 1 hour. when it was chs turn it was already like 6.20. anyway response from testers was not good. apparently they felt tat we didnt care about the others' feelings and didnt work well with them. we were the majority grp (5 of us) and the 3 of them felt they didnt work well with us. basically it's juz backstabbing here and there for this camp. think it's unavoidable. pple in their desperation to pass will do all kinds of things.

and the thing tat i didnt wan to happen happened. the only girl candidate is goin to pass cos apparently the testers feel that she is much better than us...or rather they feel that she is doin the right thing instead of us. so what if she has the skills. seriously i thought her attitude was quite bad and she was damn fake. she did things only when the testers were around and appeared damn enthu when the testers were there. if attitude and leadership were the components tested i dun think she deserves to pass. if her leadership was so damn good she shld haf been able to change my opinion of her throughout the 4 days in camp. but apparently tat was not the case.

well everything is over now. juz hope tat the results wld be a fair one. pple hu deserve to pass will indeed pass. there will be another female psa holder this yr. but definitely she is not a deserving one. if she gets it i muz make sure tat i will be there with her at the same place on the 29th Oct.

oh and comments abt me was not gd haha. expected. didnt prepare and i tot i was quite shitty after the first day haha. gotta improve on my survivor skills. shall go to the forest and practise twice every month since i haf so much time with no hockey ard to bother me anymore. the nxt time i go i will make sure tat there will be sumthin for them to mention about for my gd pts and i will definitely make an impact. trust me to do so. determined.

and to my bros. no pt feeling down and upset over wad pple say. wad's done is done. as long as efforts were put into there shld be no regrets. enjoy the process and forget about the outcome. the outcome is onli a bonus, not a necessity.

went mac after tat for dinner. hoa the prosperity beef burger is nice haha. the curly fries are quite good too. shall eat tat again soon haha.

Woohoo!

woo i am out of hockey! haha today they told me some crap which says tat i am out of hockey cos i didnt go for trainin in the holis. haha not tat i care about them. actualli quite a gd thing cos i can now conc on my psa. shall not type too much abt this cos it will kind of reflect tat i am some sort of stupid loser saying everything on my blog haha. and dun worry i am nv sad over this. the onli thing i worry is all the stuff tat will b quite useless now -_-''.

and dunno y everytime when sch reopens i will start feeling that sec sch life is still the best. haha mayb it's cos i dun like jc life or wad. today was chattin wif jin han in the canteen. den both of us feel tat sec sch life is still the most carefree time cos it's like u can tok about anithin. pple now are kind of fake. cant seem to talk abt all everything in life. but mayb tts the way the society works. true and gd frens will become lesser and lesser as we grow older.

and i started on my tutorials today haha. though i onli did a few qns onli at least i started. shall progress day by day haha. gotta do my scouts report now. the project sux manz. but at least i got the fotos i need from some leader already haha.

okie time to go type serious stuff.

Over.

woo finally everything is over. slacked my whole day today watchin tv at night. haha nvm tutorials can wait. shall start tomolo. didnt wan to go training cos i didnt haf the mood. anyway again they say they are kickin out pple. as usual i am goin to say as if i care. haha. think i gotta c this yr's schedule. dun wanna spend so much time there. no sense of belonging haha. dun mind quitting also since i got a cca in vj also. quit already got more time for scouts too. think i haf been neglecting my bros and all. and i gotta start on my service soon.

anyway scout activity change to morning 9am already. tt means i gotta wake up damn early lar. and maybe our soccer time will be affected cos it's already afternoon by the time activity ends. damn. i dun like the 5-day week thingy.

aspire results coming out soon on sat. not tat i still haf any hopes of passing. i juz hope tat deserving pple will pass. not goin to gif any comments yet. shall wait and see. hopefully there will be gd news on saturday.


i have gone too far to turn back. not going to give up in anything now.

Tell me please.

hoa i swear tat i am not goin to stuff myself with food anymore. this is no gd for my body. had KFC and pizza for lunch. okie tat was not tat bad yet. den in the afternoon while i was studyin i ate 1 durian puff tat tasted sour. think spoil alr so i threw it away. den i ate the famous amos cookies. went to slp at 5 and went parkway after tt for dinner. swensons as usual. and i made a terrible mistake in the food tat i eat. ate the omelette and the apple crumble. hoa was feelin damn sick after tat manz. my stomach couldnt take in so much food. lucky feelin better now.

and today my family was quite funny. they were tellin me there was this real BIG cockroach in my bro's room and can fly somemore. haha they were busy catchin it yesterday but in the end it flew into the ceiling thru the lights and disappeared -_-''.
den today when i was studyin i heard some sort of high-pitch scream. tot it was from my bro's hp ringtone or wad haha. den i went out of the little room and saw my bro's gf standin on the chair in the living room. den she was tellin my bro tat there is this big centipede in the kitchen. haha my dad came out and both of them went into the kitchen to settle tat shit. and my dad got the chopsticks to press it down. den he wanted to use the scissors to cut out the fangs so tat it will be non-poisonous and we can play with it -_-''. haha his childhood memories. wonder why there are so many big creatures in my house nowadays.

woo i am tired today. tomolo is my second day of sch haha. and i am still in holiday mood. this is no good man.

1st day.

hoa today is a damn tiring day for me. try doing 2 papers in one day and i think u will feel the same as me. bio was shit. this is the first time i feel that my maths can actually be better than my other subjects. kaoz try doing an essay qn on electron microscope. sux man.

didnt haf the feeling tat sch starts already. i didnt get to meet any of my teachers today except for mrs k. and the new maths teacher...i only saw her outside the classroom. rest of the teachers are the same. hmm dunno if gd thing or bad thing. gd thing is tat i noe all the teachers and bad thing is they are all quite slack except for mr. chew. muz study hard this yr already manz. crucial yr. not goin to repeat wad i did last year.

woo i am damn tired now. not goin to sch tomolo. haha 2nd day of sch and i am already ponning. gonna study for chem tomolo manz. think tts the sub tat i am most confident of.

oh yar mandy's birthday today. haha didnt realli notice actually cos i was too stressed up wif my papers today. yupx so HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANDY! haha.

i am tired now. shld go slp early tonight..but i dun feel like slpin so early haha.

Full.

hoa 1 more day and sch reopens! totally sux manz. and this morning i wanted to slp until damn late. but my dad's voice was so loud tat i woke up lar. he was tellin my mom "hoa xiao han ah zuo wan qu countdown countdown dao bu hui qi lai le" -_-''. yar in the end i woke up at 10.

went for tuition after tat. not bad i think i am quite pro in organic chem already haha. die i am like so ill-prepared for the r-papers. maths sux totally i think.

went to paragon for dinner at night. and i calculated. i ate 14 xiao long baos in total. sometimes my appetite scares me haha. den my family walked to wisma to follow me go look ard for my boardshorts and wallet haha. but i still didnt get any in the end -_-''. ate this nice gelato ice cream at night. durian flavour. hoa was damn full after tat manz.

came home to eat durian again -_-''. and this is the first time i hear tat pple will get allergic to durians. today my sis was eating the durians den she got rashes after tat. not the first time already. this is kind of weird pple haf all sorts of allergies haha.

my bro's treatin lunch at paragon again tomolo haha. eating lunch at 1.15. hope i wun die of hunger manz. gonna go do my last minute studying already. sigh.

hope every one spend their new year happily!

New Year.

Happy New Year to all! haha went out for countdown today. finally an occasion tat i am not bored or wad haha.

went to suntec in the afternoon with my family. had lunch there and wanted to get my boardshorts loz...but i couldnt find a nice design. and i went to wallet shop wanted to get a nice wallet. but i couldnt find one tat's nice too. haiz maybe i am fated not to get new stuff this year haha.

went to have steamboat at night with jamie simin and jpoh. hoa 10 bucks and i ate all the meat etc. not too bad actually. but i think maybe seoul garden is more worth it considering tat there is a free flow of drinks too haha. and i dun like the rain makes things mafan. alot of pple eating steamboat today den it was damn crowded. hmm since i ate today den tomolo i wun be joinin my bros for steamboat alr...c how tomolo.
went plaza singapura after tat with the intention of playing pool. den we went to gelare where i was asked to treat the girls cos i was late today -_-''. okie i shall make sure i wun be late anymore. will not be punished again haha. anyway i think wild peach smoothie is nice haha.

walked to orchard road after tat for countdown. hoa the place was like filled with all kinds of people lar.but mostly all the blanga there dunno why they all go in crowds. then all the people were spraying the stupid foam thingy. haha at first we were trying to hide from those foam. the girls even hide behind the police lar! -_-''. but after tat the foam was like coming from everywhere so i decided tat i shall stop hiding and juz get dirty never mind already haha. and i think the blangas are quite pervertic lar. cos they were like sprayin the girls onli and occasionally juz shun bian go spray at the guys. haha i think mandy had quite alot to complain about. and the mean jamie splashed her cup of drink at someone hu was sprayin at her -_-'' haha. in the end by the time we reach the mrt station we were like all covered with the foamy thingy haha. my 2nd time experiencing this. last yr wasnt tat bad cos we reached orchard at about 1.30am lidat den i think all the sprays finish already haha.

hmmz..the beginning of a new year. muz thank all my friends who have helped me in one way or another. muz thank my bros for helping me with my hike aspire and everything. thanks for all the help and support and cheers to the brotherhood! haha it's onli today tat i realise tat all of us are quite gayish cos we started to say mushy stuff thru sms at night lol. yup thanks to all of u! and whether or not we get our psa in the end does not matter at all. wad matters is we go thru this together and it's the experience together tat counts. bros forever haha.

and muz thank my friends and classmates too..mainly our clique pple haha. yupz happy new year to all and hope all of you will have a wonderful year ahead!

and i shall be a nicer person this year. shall not be so slack anymore. and my new year wish is....to haf a gd ending wif my loved ones haha =p.

happy new year!


~ new year. a new beginning. but the same old feeling ~