Exclusively to Dear...

Dear, the following song is dedicated to you..I heard it from the concert and realised that you fit in the song..I will bold those phrases which I think you fit in..heehee..

Last but not least I miss you..I know its the end of the year and your workload is increasing so i will see you less often..However your messages that you send me telling me that you miss me tells me that you have not forgotten me...I know your sacrifices for me and I appreciate that. You are the only one that will pick me up despite rushing your work & rushing back to work after that.I keep quiet doesnt mean i dont know.I observe with my heart not only eyes..

Thank you & Love you...


梁静茹 : 暖暖

都可以随便的你说的我都愿意去
小火车摆动的旋律都可以是真的
你说的我都会相信
因为我完全信任你

细腻的喜欢毛毯般的厚重
感晒过太阳熟悉的安全
感分享热汤我们两支汤匙一个碗
左心房暖暖的好饱满

我想说其实你很好你自己却不知道
真心的对我好不要求回报
爱一个人希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的
你比自己更重要

钟成虎回忆里满足的旋律
你手掌的厚实感什么困难都觉得有希望

我哼着歌你自然的就接下一段
我知道暖暖就在胸膛从来
都很低调自信心不高
你比自己更重要
我也希望变更好

Fish Leong Concert on 29th Dec 2007

Just back from Fish's concert,brilliant! Alot of stage crops,costumes & good songs..She didnt end the concert until its 11.30pm! However around 10% of the audience have left before 11.30pm as they may be catching the train..Well...Cynthia & me stayed till the end and Celine have to leave at 11pm as she n hubby are going out..Took alot of pics with my new HP..haha..

This pic taken by my HP rear camera...The 3 of us..

this pic is taken with my HP front camera..see the difference?

Start of concert & Opening...



Nice silver drape... & cheerleaders from Republic Poly...



Multi-Coloured Balloons fallen from up above...



Fish in the air...



Eiffel Tower.....



Beijing Acrobats Involved...



Tomato-shaped like hearts...



Saw the real heart-shaped at the LED screen? Thats what i mean by heart-shaped!



Last picture taken at the "Encore"...




When the concert ended i was still wondering how to go home! Luckily Dear come down from Mount Faber and send me to Yio Chu Kang before he rushed back to work again..i really appreciate that..The last time i went to concert without transport to & fro is years back and I have a phobia for that! I remembered I had to walked to Geylang to take a cab!! PHOBIA!


Dear thanks for that... you always give me unexpected help..I love you..

Christmas

Had a gathering at Celine's house on Xmas eve but it did not turn out good as some of them did not turn up and it did not turn out to be as fun..last year its also the same...I think for the next year it will be worse..I think its a matter of time we drifted away and each and everyone of us wants our own space to celebrate the special event. However I missed the past gatherings where all of us will "fall in" in the chalet every year without fail and we enjoyed each other company..although most of the time the guys are drunk and we are left gambling..heehee..but at least there is a motive..But well..we appreciate Celine's effort for the gathering as she give up her $60 Xmas dinner ...haha..

Christmas day itself I went to get a new HP N95 8GB..nice HP.Kerry paid the difference of around $460 after I sold my Samsung U700 for $230 which I only used it for 3 months and its showing signs of "hanging"! Therefore i decided to get rid of it asap before its worth $0! I am still trying hard to figure out how to use the GPS of the new phone! Damn it...I can't understand the instruction manual! Am i stupid or what? Decided to head down to Nokia Care Centre in the evening and ask them to do everything for me! I am clueless...really...

He is showing signs of planning these few days ..been upset with him for the past days as i feels that he seems to procrastinate things..however i give him the benefit of doubt that he is busy..

A meaningful night..

Went out with one of my close friend last weekend..have a nice chat..

We went to Altivo Bar at Mount Faber hoping to grab a bite,have some tea and catch up with each other..However it seems rather disappointing..The former Altivo Bar used to be crowded with people and laughter...Now..its just a few occupied tables..I think I know why..

• Blangadesh Servers ( I seriously cant catch their accent & they have to repeat several times to me )
• Expensive Food ( if the food is good, i am ok..but the food sucks!)
• Lousy Service ( I asked several times for my sugar & in the end Mel have to go n get it personally)
• Lousy Service II ( they tried to clear my plate before i am done & I have to stop them)

We stayed there till around 3am and we leave for home. We talked about anything and everything under the sun and he made me realised that I have changed..He told me i used to be confident, full of drive & motivation but now i seem to be in my own world..Dun feel like arguing with people and no effort to explain myself to others when in dispute! ( which i feel is rather true). In the past, I will explain myself clear but now I cant be bothered..if you dun believe me,too bad..The 'me' now is goaless,passing each day as it is..accept whatever that comes to me..No direction, no motive.. i feel like i am a parasite..sticking onto whatever I can find and holding on to it until one fine day I get shaken off..

He urged me to be myself again which is for my good..but I feel that I had fallen too deep into the pit and I need time to climb up !! or maybe i am too used to in this position that i dun wana move..But i know its not me.. Mel asked me to set a goal in life and move towards it but I do not have a goal! In the past I have but now no.. I feel that my future is bleak and there is no plans ahead..maybe its an influence from someone close as i think he feels this way as well.. So the company of friends that you chose is important..Some could drag you down with them wherelse others could pull you up in times of need..

For me, I really need time..How long I dun know..Maybe when I have a goal in life..Whether is it long term or short term goal.

My Suppressed Thought

Kerry is down with gastric flu for the past few days..poor thing..

I can't do much except to see him vomit & sleep..However currently he is recovering well and is back to work again. He love his work so much or should I say he is a workaholic? Well, but i believe that once you are in a job that you like, everyone will react this way..

I have thought for a period of time before i post this as I just dun wish to bring it up and move forward. But today is really a " nothing to do " day so i just post what i have been feeling for the past few months!

Continuing from the 2nd paragraph, To me, MCs & Urgent leave are very common.. Its not that I dun like the job but just disappointed with the working environment.. In such a small department, i didn't believe that back-stabbing actually occur to me! And the worse part is i am the one being stabbed! When I first joined the company in June, I simply love it..short working hours ( 8.30am-5.30pm, lunch time 12.30pm-2pm), small department ( 7 pax), big company ( UOB KayHian - largest stockbroking firm in Singapore) & helpful colleagues ( not to mention names but you know who you all are).

However things change after joining them for 1.5 months! Boss began to give me attitude, colleagues still as helpful except for ... whom i think is the backstabber.. I have proof to support my statement and I dun see the need to publish it here.. I am very disappointed by the fact that in order to survive, human have to stoop to so low! Well.. my conscience is clear.. Therefore for every accusation that Boss say to me in the face, i kept quiet as I know deep inside that no point saying so much since the damage is made..even if i rebut it's of no use. Boss will not believe me either.. So deep in my heart I am fighting against every word of accusation that he says.. In the past although I also encounter such situation, I will ignore,However this time is different..I will retaliate..
Based on the feedback i got from my friends, I know where I stand and i firmly believe that I am not incompetent just that he is practising favouritism! By not being impartial, its already against his job etiquette as a HR Manager! I have more points to support the fact he is not fit as a HR Manager! But i shall not disclose it as it may be seen unauthorised personnel who view my blog.

Well, I think I shall go for my Japan trip on March and make plans after that. Trying to save for the trip and spend every single cent there! Haha..

English Lesson

Sorry
: adjective
: full of sorrow, pity, or sympathy: also used as an expression of apology or mild regret

Prom·ise
: NOUN
: A declaration assuring that one will or will not do something; a vow.
: Something promised.

As·sume
: verb
: to take for granted or without proof; suppose; postulate; posit: to assume that everyone
wants peace.
: to take upon oneself; undertake: to assume an obligation.

As above are some of the words that we used daily,but do we really know what they mean?
If No, here you are..
If Yes, Please read it again & make sure you got it right!

Just sick of hearing all these words!!

***Juicy***

Thank God! Dear is finally back..Miss him so much...heehee

Anyway he bought something for me from Juicy Couture! Its a surprise though as i told him not to buy that before as its very expensive.
He bought a tracksuit( only top) for me in PINK! Its around $352 for a tracksuit top! Haiz...Tell him internet buy is cheaper but he says its ok cos we cant authenticate & check the item..Well...

http://www.juicycouture.com/store/catalog/prod.jhtml?itemId=prod2810031&parentId=cat1504&masterId=cat105&cmCat=cat000000cat134&index=9&tid=P9

Cant seem to copy n paste the pictures in..so please refer to the link to see the item if you wish..

But thanks anyway, I love it!

Thanks for paying attention to me...cos if you are not, you wont know i like it! ** Smuaks**