Friday, May 02, 2008 :::Selfless-ness of a dog's love:::
A piece of cardboard, A box of rice, A container of water, and A towel white.
That's all he has That's all he's got Waiting for time And it's all to God.
A skinny pack of bones Covered with skin. Not a single layer of fat Could be seen.
I've seen you many a times before alone. I even thought you were an abandoned dog. Alas, I was wrong. It's a common sight to see strays in such a condition, but you aren't. Because you do have a home, or at least you did. Now, you call the corridor on level 2- home.
If you were ill-stricken, it may be understandable of the state you're in. But you aren't.
Warmth you used to experience, now you're left to suffer. Such a friendly persona, such a dear.
My heart ache when i saw you climbing back home with all your might. And yet, your body gave way and you fell.
Down the flight of stairs and up the flight, it leads to the place when you call home. As you tried again to continue uphill, i followed closely behind, for you resist any help rendered to you. But when you could no longer take on the next step, I had to fight back.
Fearful i was: you may bite. But thankful was i, for you didn't bite.
Seeing your living conditions, they may not be the worse. But nevertheless, it was full of heartlessness. As you lived your days till the end, I just wish you'd have it better. Afterall, you've dedicated your life to us, humans.
Heavy my heart may be, Helplessness i feel.
But i learnt an important lesson from you, and the likes - love is selfless.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does notenvy, it does notboast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves." -- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
That was for you, Ah Boy. 人间有情. Albeit a short encounter, you've left a footprint in our hearts. You were loved. =)
If only you knew at 11:41 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008 :::In Loving Memory:::
23 May 2008, you departed us. Leaving behind Auntie Audrey and family devastated.
The news of your depart shocked even my family. We were all looking forward to your return from the hospital after your operation. Alas, the day never came and it never will. I saw Wati at the door with a white towel,and I asked her excitedly where's Mimi. Her reply wasn't something within my expectations although there were times when I casually mentioned to my mum that you probably wouldn't survive this year. But still, despite having to go under the knife at the age of 98 dog years (14 human years), I should have expected and prepared for the worst. It took me a few minutes for reality to sink in, tears flowed when i broke the news to my mum. I just can't help it. Even till now, I still tear when i think of you.
You must have suffered. Going through the pain of the many infections and spreading cancerous cells within you and suffering in silence is not an easy feat. But you did it. From the day you went deaf, the hustle and bustle of life around you ceased. But your instincts were still strong and we still loved you as much, if not more.
My memories of you were faint before Chinky arrived. But since then, I knew of you as such a darling. Ever so faithful, ever so loving. My last physical contact with you left a deep impression within me, for I seldom see you when your doors are open. I remembered you running towards me with a wagging tail as I exit the lift. You were there with Auntie Audrey. Of course, those times when you were still well and healthy and i saw you by the gate. You greeted me with your wagging tail, looking forward to a pat. Not forgetting the time when you step into our house and played with Chinky. Those memories I treasure.
I vaguely remembered snapping a few shots of you with Chinky and rummaging through the pictures on my computer..i found two:
The pictures are really not clear, but at least it does help me remember you. You made an impact not just on Auntie Audrey's family but also on our lives.
I love you, Mimi. Rest in peace.
If only you knew at 1:13 AM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008 :::FYP:::
What a way to start the year with FYP.. But wat a way to start FYP with such working hours and professionalism of the supervisor that I've got myself into..
7Jan 9.30am Report to labt @ CGH 11.30am Supervisor strolled into the lab, without a word of apology 11.45am Briefing for everyone 1.30pm Lunch 2.30-5pm Discussion for ppt 5.00pm Home sweet home *supervisor: present*
8Jan 9.30am Report to lab 9.30-12pm Slack 12.00pm Lunch 1.15pm-4.30 Slack/discussion 4.30pm home sweet home *supervisor: absent*
9Jan 9.30am Report to lab 9.30-12 Slack 12.00pm Lunch 1.00-4pm Culture plating/slack 4.00pm Home sweet home *supervisor: present*
10Jan 9.30am Report to lab 11.00-1pm Gel electrophoresis 1.00pm Lunch 2.00-4pm Gel electrophoresis 4.00pm home sweet home *supervisor: absent*
11Jan 9.30am Report to lab 10-1pm Gel electrophoresis 2pm home sweet home--> proceeded to Kallang Mac to tap on wireless to complete ppt 2pm-5pm Lunch + research + intensive discussion and completion of draft ppt *supervisor: absent*
14Jan 9.30am Report to lab *supposed to have ppt today* 11.30am Supervisor called and says he's not coming, will come in tmr 11.30-12.30 Subculture 12.30pm Home sweet home *supervisor: absent*
15Jan 9.30am Report to lab 9.30-11.30 Slack/research/chat 11.30am Supervisor called and says he's not coming 11.30am Official home sweet home 11.30-12.15 Slack/chat 12.15 Off to meet serene for lunch *supervisor: absent*
If only you knew at 6:04 PM
Thursday, August 30, 2007 :::The car accident:::
I met with a car accident with my dad on PIE as he drove me to school. It happened around 8am and my dad was too close to the lorry in front of us and could not brake it time..So tis is the result:
Thankfully no one got hurt..and the lorry in front..suffered no damages, with the exception that the license plate dropping off? That's how sturdy the lorry is and how 'paperish' my dad's car is!
Freaky or not, we were talking about how this car got towed off and was in a wrong towed position because of the front-wheel drive and back-wheel drive thingy. The next thing we knew, our car had to be towed. So our car was towed to Clementi Loop before the insurance company sent another tow truck to send us to IDAC for assessment. And so I was at IDAC Portsdown settling adminstrative stuff with my dad, and i had to skip my morning class. Thankfully it was only a 1-hr lecture which happens to be a presentation, so nth important. Took a bus with my dad to Tiong Bahru to take the MRT. Daddy went to Raffles Hospital to get MC for obvious reasons. And i went to school.
So now, we've got a replacement car, which used to be the previous 2 models that my dad used to own before we got our Wish. Suddenly i feel short to be on the roads. Driving beside an Rx300 makes me feel shorter by half.Argh!
It's down to the last few hours..like say 13 hrs before i depart from SG.. Coz i dun intend to come online tmr morn..so yah.
Anywae..everyone..pls take care of yourself..and don't miss me!
P/s: If anything untoward happens, please make sure to help me take care of yourself, as well as my family and my beloved Chinky..ok?
sheesh..serene's gonna kill me if she see this!I promised her directly that i'll be back safe and sound, and indirectly by telling her i'll drive her around when i return..Hoho!
I wish upon the San Francisco Golden Gate Bridge that something special would happen!
Maybe I should just continue dreaming..
If only you knew at 12:54 AM
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Name :Heavens Arms
Birthday:November
School:School of Love & thoughts
Horoscope:Scorpio
Will I forsake my pride for love?
Yes, I would so long as you're worthy of it.
When I do, you would know that your worth weighs as much or even more than my pride.
So handle my lost pride with tender loving care and show me that you are worthy of it.
I can lose my pride once, twice or more.
But with each subsequent loss, a little more is required to take that pride out of me again.
It does not matter if a different person is involved, once I've lost my pride, a higher threshold is needed the next time round.
