.Thursday, August 26, 2010 ' Thursday, August 26, 2010 Y
on a brighter note, im glad everything has come to an end. well at least to me it has.
im happy at where i am now. he gave me a sense of security none of you has ever given. he made me see things none of you could. i hope it stays this way. dont doubt me when i say im happy because im tired of going through ugly relationships. i looked backwards one night and asked myself what i was doing with the people ive dated. whom mistreated me. whom abused me. whom hurled vulgarities at me. who doesnt know how to cherish me for who i am. who made me cry endlessly for months and even years for. who left me in the lurch when i most needed them. it makes me wonder why daph? why?
perhaps HE has it all planned. for me to be treated like trash and allowing me to see the bad ones in order to cherish the final one. nothing is certain for now, who know in the next minute my bliss might be gone. i will leave it to HIM :)
.Wednesday, August 25, 2010 ' Wednesday, August 25, 2010 Y
as i watch them engage in a bad row, it suddenly hit me. the truth behind my negativity in love, marriage and relationships werent entirely due to my failed (ugly) relationships.i witnessed, love aint forever. it was just love for a moment and after which comitment forever. is this how love should be? is this how happily ever after should be? i hurt as i watch tears well up in her eyes. as a woman, she kept all her pain to herself she gave half her life away to her partner and have fulfilled her duties. what she got in return was a bucket full of disappointment. she made me see nothing lasts forever, she made me believe you have have to be independent in order to protect your fragile heart. my faith is shaken. she showed me her happily (n)ever after.Labels: faltering faith...
