.Saturday, February 17, 2007 ' Saturday, February 17, 2007 Y
reflections. regret. guilty.
i hated the way i treated you. despite my horrible words deep down, ure the world to me. i said no to going to chalets and movies but i badly want to. i lurve giving you surprises because the smile on your face lights up my day.
i dont know what's going through your mind now. i hope a small part of you miss me as much as i do. turning to every corner its you. every step i take is covered with tears. that is how much i regret not expressing my feelings often enough. when ive learnt my lesson im not sure of my second chance. but i know what's most impt to a couple is trust. the sacred word. and i trust you 100% i will wait for our furture to come back. you wont discard me just like that...right? love you .
.Tuesday, February 13, 2007 ' Tuesday, February 13, 2007 Y
going through what we've given each other makes me cringe in pain. its been 24 hrs, i find it hard to believe it happened. i bite myself many times to make sure i feel something. the emails, the essays, the childish things we did. the times i cooked for you everyday, the times i was sweet but somehow i happen to loose that along the way. reading back it shows how much i lov-ed you.i did the treated someone the same way and now im receiving it back.its gotta be karma. im no longer sure of the words i see on the 77 th day is still true.but i force myself to believe i tell myself its still true. it is still true...right?
.Saturday, February 03, 2007 ' Saturday, February 03, 2007 Y
dinner with weisze n 2 ex classmates. there was this awkwardness btwn us so i acted stupid to minimize it i guess i made a fool outta myself. saw black black n razinah at vivo. me up w them aft dinner. i like. heart pouring session. im glad they're still hanging around.
home n off to the damn porjects n reports. i cant help it if i have such a whore for one of my mkting modules. using sacarsm to cover up her OWN flaws. sagging old hag. shut up! uve such a big mouth its comparable to that of a hippo!! ure dress sense is way off. total fashion victim. so what if u gotta brain but cant present yrself well? ure zero value. perhaps u should attend some color coordination classes. grey white n red DONT GO well. dont try to stand out. if its for yr own viewing pleasure pls do them indoors. *roll eyes*
