.Sunday, August 27, 2006 ' Sunday, August 27, 2006 Y
.Thursday, August 24, 2006 ' Thursday, August 24, 2006 Y
well, papers r over. let me summarize what ive done aft the last paper.
*attachment briefing*checked out my new working place - learning how to take a bus there. ROAR~*lunch with him and his mom*facial. not as painful as i thot and its pretty good. i like. my new addiction.*dinner with JEANNNE n VANISHA black black.aft many torments, aft many individual struggles, i finally get to meet people i call friends. i didnt speak much. it was more of jeanne story telling and vanisha posing when the camera was placed back on the table ages ago. couldnt laugh out loud. i simply duno why. but i really enjoyed the company i had. thank u babies.facial was good. i was at it for 4 solid hours. total exfoliation of my skin. rejuvenating n thrist quencher for my dead skin! i slept when she was doing god-knows-what to my face. amazingly its as paifulas i expected it to turn out to be. i will go back to the lady.
.Monday, August 14, 2006 ' Monday, August 14, 2006 Y
we seem to be only related by blood. all the emotions runnning through us shall always be kept a mystery, a secret. Probably even after we grow up, step into the workforce, get married, build our own families we still wouldnt know how each of us have lived during our teens. its heart wrenching to have to see how much you trust an outsider over a loved one. efforts have been made to pull the gap closer. to an extent where trying is no longer in the dictionary. you try so hard yet you are no where near closing the wide gap between us. is this what we are looking for? is this what we want? is this how we are really gonna be for the rest of our lives?"You can have it all, but how much do you want?"
think about it. if what u want in yr life is about having everyone around you. and one day you really acheived it. how much MORE do you want? goes the same to money. one can really have all the money in the world but how much do you want? human beings are all greedy creatures. there's no stop to - wants.
i may seem to have lost it all. but then again, prolly this circle aint the one i can see myself blending into. trying to fit in was not a choice, it was a compulsory field to be filled in. as time goes by you tend to loose yourself so much, its close to impossible to find yourself back again. or do we not have the courage to start over? after certain tries, after certain amount of setbacks you can tell who the "leaders" and followers are. im not a leader neither am i a follower. somehow the thought of finding yourself back once in a while seems so vague. its barely present.
how many of us actually stop, breathe and take a look around people and things around us? how many of us actually appreciated someone or another for helping us along the way? we expect so much. but how much did we give?
childhood fairytale fantasies we all had. the wish of "living happily ever after" is fading away as each day goes by. why do some people seem to have it all and some who try really hard get nth at all?
do we really get to have the best of both worlds?
.Sunday, August 13, 2006 ' Sunday, August 13, 2006 Y
. ' Sunday, August 13, 2006 Y
we were suppose to study. we ended up sleeping like pigs when "hiroshima" an atomic bomb hitting japan documentary was aired on discovery channel.
-helpless shrug- he fell aleep aft some time too. cuz it was simply boring.
headed to town for dinner n a walk along town. i havent been shopping ard town for a long time. but nth excites me. nth in the boutiques. it was phone browsing!! samsung's good. touch screen. i like. or is sony ericsson better?
.Thursday, August 10, 2006 ' Thursday, August 10, 2006 Y
blank mind. overwhelming emotions.
run run run away. that's what ive been doing all along. is it time to stop? weary is catching up with me. where should i stop? when should i stop?
