.Sunday, November 27, 2005 ' Sunday, November 27, 2005 Y
its so hard when u hav to fight w yrself to make decisions ure afraid u might regret. but i guess i made e decision again.
there's really a high price to pay when we dream. dreams should always stay as dreams.
who can guarantee a better tmr?who practices what they preach?who is there within a snap of fingers?who gives unconditonally without getting upset?who is there when lonliness gets into you?i dont have exact answers to all of the qns above. but i noe friends play a huge part in those answers.
weisze: uve always been there whenever i was in trouble uve always been there quietly when i fell. trying v hard to pick me up slowly. u try not to smack the harsh facts right in my face but instead u let them come to me naturally. thank u fer putting up w my nonsense. for the times where i just broke down. for being ever so patient n understanding.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
desiree: ure always far away from me but u do noe tt once we start talking we actually share views tt r so close to our hearts. thank u fer listening n for all the late night msn sessions we had.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
vanisha: u always scream at me trying ever so hard to wake me up.ure always the one tt makes me realise alot of things i chose to ignore. willing to stay back w me when u DONT nd to rush off somewhere. willing to explain things to me tt i was never aware of and not making me feel embarrassed.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
jeanne: *meow* haha..we only had one shopping outing tgt thou we've been friends for a yr and a half. but its really been great bitching w u. thanks fer listening to me when i needed someone to. hope we can have MORE camps tgt!! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
khorkai: pussy foot..uve the same dancing skills as i have so dont laugh at me!! ;-) we havent known each other for long but i guess we had alot of fun tgt in yr mini!! camp again ok? chinese new yr camp!!------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
junxiong: uve always been there. just like my other gfs. i dare say ure the one tt might be there within a snap of fingers. u wont speak much. but ure always ard. always there trying to cheer me up praising me thou i noe half the time its not SINCERE!! but thank u. it was difficult to maintain a platonic relationship. but we did it.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
hweelan: all the cheapo shopping sprees we had. for all the times i got majorly pissed n irritated. for caring for me whenever i was ill. for sharing almost the same story as me. thank you mu lan!!------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
you: there's too much to be said i duno where to start off from. thank u for this short period of happiness u brought to me. i felt yr sincereity. thank u fer giving into me when i was unreasonable. the good times will always stay in me. ive nv been fair to u i guess. im sorry. that's smth i cant make it up to u. thank u fer putting up w my pride. thanks fer making me laugh again wen i was stressed out, thanks fer "massaging" my shoulders when i was tired out at work. but let's be glad we once had each other. i guess nth lasts forever. but we once had each other. goodbye.
.Saturday, November 26, 2005 ' Saturday, November 26, 2005 Y
sat came home to rest in the late noon while vanisha n joanne came over to get ready for their night haha..but i was in a irritable mood.was kinda grouchy. KK n i were tempted to camp again but we decided against the idea.too risky. mr tan went for training while i went to meet weisze. havent met her for the longest time. had ichiban boshi finally. n it was as costly as we thot it would be. due to my huge appetite i wasnt satisfied w just sushi n some rice..so we headed to Central..for some peanut butter w condensed milk on thick toast. lurve it..n it goes majorly well w ice red bean but by the time we arrived. they said it was alrdy their last order n they wont take me in. UGH. tt instantly made me get pissed off n irritated. esp when im alrdy in a lousy mood it made things worse. got aunt annie's pretzel's instead but it wasnt what i wanted! recently my temper is getting from bad to worse. very little things just agitates me. its no big deal actually but i just get so affected. i dont know why. and then i saw this major irritating guy i cant stand. it made me feel worse. i noe iw as rude when he said hi n i didnt reply but wtf..im pissed so dont make it worse. thanks for the effort thou. but i guess i cant be friends w pple i cant trust and pple tt are inquisitive. call me childish.i had CAMP on friday..it was fun really.yes miss jeanne phua the shots were really nice. thank you!! =) enjoyed ourselves thoroughly.loved the way vanisha's strap GLOWED under UV light haha. yes mr tan aka mr pussy foot..thank u fer being so attentive n nice throughout..went really high when dry ice came down on us!! -squeals-thanks for the evening jeanne vanisha n mr tan aka pussy foot..i really enjoyed myself.
.Thursday, November 24, 2005 ' Thursday, November 24, 2005 Y
im on leave from the horrendous sch attachment. but i went back today to discuss my project.such a good girl. yes i noe. -laughs-went off to meet cindy for some manicure but i duno why i was majorly tired by the time i met her. i think im not "charged" enough.got myself some nail art pen..mom expected me to sleep in the full day as i always do aft working but i guess i can only do tt on sat or sun..cant wait to have tt HOT..HAWT date w my bed..pms is really bad for me this time round i duno why.i dont wanna noe.ugh!! things were really horrid for me recently. worked for the past 4 days (sun- wed) in suntec city convention hall. supposedly to b a regitration girl for this big show ADASIA05. but i ended up working in the secretariat room. in short i think its just a room for the delegates to rest n for us to do some paper work. so admin again. tt's what i always do in sch yet ive to do the same things even when im on leave.from an admin i became a runner. had to run errands each day. i was located at level 3 but i had to run up to level 4, level 2 and level 1..carrying REALLY heavy stuff..n i dont even carry my lecture notes to sch so moreover carrying heavy loads! like 1500sheets of A4 sized paper? 10 packets of chicken rice and another 10 packets of char kway teow? carrying 7 heavy magazines n deliever them to various hotels ard city hall n getting totally lost? i see the building but i cant find the entrance. and aft 4 days of hell training i think i still duno how to get there.had to go over to clark quay to collect some token engravement, omg ive nv worked so hard for such pathetic pay. really anger. luckily vanisha was w me..i walked n ran so much tt my blister burst n bled so bad..lunch was horrible..everyday was CHILLI food..chilli was free to them.
.Thursday, November 17, 2005 ' Thursday, November 17, 2005 Y
16 nov wednesdayofficially down today..went to the doc's he was nice he gave me a 2 day..if there wasnt a limit of mc's we could get i would just ask for a week of mc..but i still had to work despite having a damn mc coz i couldnt get anyone to take over me. moreover it was a difficult job. damn tt fat bitch who roared at me..ugh made me uber pissed..so what if she has such huge breasts?! bitch. attitude problem..im BIGGER than her okay.todayyyi gotta damn mosquito bite on my left eye n its so swollen now..im wearing a cap to cover it but it doesnt seem like its of much help.ugh..im so sleepy n its such a cosy weather to sleep in..the tle survey job was pathetic the pay was even more pathetic..i didnt noe why i was working for such a job tt pays so little.im working next week tooo!! at some ad asia exhibition. kinda looking fwd to it coz im working w vanisha.someone I KNOW.okay im gonna watch full house now then head for breakfast,..BYE!!
. ' Thursday, November 17, 2005 Y
16 nov wednesday
officially down today..went to the doc's he was nice he gave me a 2 day..if there wasnt a limit of mc's we could get i would just ask for a week of mc..but i still had to work despite having a damn mc coz i couldnt get anyone to take over me. moreover it was a difficult job. damn tt fat bitch who roared at me..ugh made me uber pissed..so what if she has such huge breasts?! bitch. attitude problem..im BIGGER than her okay.
todayyy
i gotta damn mosquito bite on my left eye n its so swollen now..im wearing a cap to cover it but it doesnt seem like its of much help.ugh..im so sleepy n its such a cosy weather to sleep in..the tle survey job was pathetic the pay was even more pathetic..i didnt noe why i was working for such a job tt pays so little.im working next week tooo!! at some ad asia exhibition. kinda looking fwd to it coz im working w vanisha.someone I KNOW.okay im gonna watch full house now then head for breakfast,..BYE!!
.Monday, November 14, 2005 ' Monday, November 14, 2005 Y
fri - 11 novi had interview for some job so i had to go down to tanjong pagar during lunch time.i had to bun my hair, full make up, blacvk blazer. oh gawd how much more formal can i get?n seriously blisters hurt! i ran all the way..after the interview i came back ta sch n we watched vcds all the way.then it was time to go home.khorkai came to my room n i told her i needed to go home to change out of my oversized pants.she ran all the way out of sch leaving me runnoing my myself in my heels.im so gonna kill her!! finally made our way to town to meet jeanne.she was bored to tears. had dinner at glasshouse.n vanisha was surprised tt we all came.we all said we had smth on..whahawent to meet yuwu yanling n all at esplanade talked for a while n we went home!! was tired..slept aft that.it was an eventful dayyy but i had slight flu
.Wednesday, November 09, 2005 ' Wednesday, November 09, 2005 Y
there's a girl named nicole and aishah in my stopover. THIS IS OUR NEW ACTIVITY!! YAY
and the two of them are happily PLUCKING MY DAMAGED HAIR OUTTA MY SCALP!!! until i think there's a hole in my scalp now...*ouch* and now ive asked them to snip it off instead..but they're trying to look for wise hair...its impossible coz I DONT HAVE ANY WHITE HAIR!!!
