.Monday, October 31, 2005 ' Monday, October 31, 2005 Y
friday was fun..we had dinner. FRIED food oh gawd..there goes my face!! we finished dinner rather quickly walked ard wanted to look at belts but couldnt find a mango branch.we ended up singing in some party world tt major conned our money.2 hrs for $90 what rubbish. but we had loads of fun.we took everything from the room.from the pen, tissue paper, bottle whaha..cant stand making fun of the way they served us.wheee im happy.after many days of being gloomy im laughing once again.went home argued w mom like crazy all the screaming n shouting has done me good.it dampened my mood for the evening.all the laughing has gone away.i loathe her biasness. detest her temperamental mood. upset w her pin pointing. fark.you : thank you fer making my week better. i appreciate all yr efforts really.just as i thot things would get better for the better. talk about the good willl come aft the bad has passed. bullshit. spare me from all the hypocracy. let me get away from all the impatience. take me away from all the fakeness and in-sincerity. i can do much better without.
.Thursday, October 27, 2005 ' Thursday, October 27, 2005 Y
things went wrong again once again yday. i was sick of all the calling up of my friends. i felt tt i was taking all the initiative. i noe i was being sensitive but i cant help it..no matter how hard i try to tell myself not to be so sensitive my mind got better of me. i learnt that no one can be physically there for a person. its pure bullshit. this makes me depend on myself even more.this makes me trust less many a time i told myself to push nostalgia away. it comes back to me esp on such a day like yday. it makes me weak. and i hate it. my pride doesnt allow me to to tell anyone about what im upset about. and by the end of the day i realise..i dont even know what im specifically sad about.each day i play monopoly and uno..watch my nicholas thou its damn boring coz its a traditonal chinese show whooooo...but im watching it coz of him haha..*cindy : this is much better eh?haha
.Wednesday, October 19, 2005 ' Wednesday, October 19, 2005 Y
okay updates updates.cindy: hey im so sorry my dumb sch doesnt enable tagboards so i cant read yrs..i'll do it at home..dont worry..haha talk about chickens!! i wanna have far east chicken rice!!ive been busy since the week started..i didnt noe we hav to do so much in admin...i forgot to bring my wallet today. boo hoo n i couldnt board the bus..i could only cab n ask smarties to pay fer me first..n i hav v bad blisters..it hurt so much n i had to speed walk to sch.i almost cried ..boo hooo.i kinda forgot what i did or what happened over the past few weeks..basically im coming to sch to waste my time..im in admin in charge of attendance n stationary.YES how dumb is it when u have to record every single piece of paper u use..and ive to be in sch at 8.30AM each morning -pouts-..and its only the third day and im alrdy late..and i wanna cheat..but the one doing the late list isnt me.humph it should hav been meeeee!! im PRO at it.i just want to go on n on about it..im skiving..i keep running ard talking to pple..when im suppose to be taking attendance.but it was fun..whaha..that's about it..and im watching the korean drama. the girls r ugly.the guys r disgusting looking.but the storyline is nice. its so not me. someone ever said this to me : " u will only listen to a song when u have seen the singer n if he's cute u will listen to their album...u will only watch a movie or a show if u like the artiste. u do a certain thing only after u have seen it.."and its perfectly true.but for this case.im purely watching the show for the story. is this change in me a good sign?b4 we left sch i went to look for something i threw and it was a rather pathetic scene.coz i clmbed up to the grass area above the fountain and walked thru it and it rained b4 that so it was wet.and vanisha stepped on a snail!! and the cleaner or something came to ask us to come down n i told him i was looking for something n he believed me.it was just funneh that's all haha..met up w hweelan and all aft sch, wanted to catch a movie but timing wasnt right so we had dinner n talked.its funny how we laughed over trival matters.i was dead tired when i finally made my way home.my fat baby neighbour was oh-so-happy ta see meee she ran ta me hugging me aawww so sweet..all her fats were on me!!gave her a sweet n sent her home.she cant get enough of the prettae me..dont deny it okay..i slept when my hair wasnt totally dried.but i couldnt care more.i duno why im so sleepy.i shall slp at 10pm tonight.i feel like i need to shop.i shall get more tops perhaps lingerie too.wheee...alright time's up.im gonna meet jeanne for breakfast.oh..good morning everyone haha..early early entry for the day!!to that someone: u asked me if i hated u..let me answer u now..i dont have the energy to hate u. not anymore. im plain sick of the routine that's all. when u did that. u should know that there's no turning back. but mayb what ure trying to acheive is to make me hate u.u dont have to try harder to make me hate u. im disappointed that's all. but it isnt the first time..im alrdy getting used to it. fatigue.
