.Sunday, July 31, 2005 ' Sunday, July 31, 2005 Y
monday..finally i dont hav to wake up early in the morning rushing off to work or sch..but tt means ive to b home to study -pouts- i dont ever like tt..im competing agaisnt time..yay my job finishes officially today..cant wait to take my payy.then i can really do good w some retail therapy. yday boss n the few of us were talking abt pple who just come to those who just got their pay asking for a treat when they didnt do anything..i mean come on..what r u claiming credit for?ure just a friend nth more than tt..if i wanna treat u i would..why ask for it right?why ask for it making it look like ure desperate!?!some pple r just plain ridiculous..he taught us how to reject them haha..i gotta study now bye! cant wait till 12 august i'll be freeeeeeeeeeesunday....bought the new nicholas cd last wk but i only got to listen to it now..coz i left it in the car n i kp forgetting to take it..its kinda nice..DUH hallo my hubby okayy
work work work..the number of cars i do decreases each day.it gets so demoralising..bleah..had a long afternoon chat with boss n randy.nice fellas.practical n realistic.straightforward n decisive.
daddy was nice he came w mom to pick me up in the evening..i din hav to travel home myself.napped for 15 mins n had proper dinner..but it wasnt what ive been craving for..
.Friday, July 29, 2005 ' Friday, July 29, 2005 Y
i got myself a manicure whaha..tralalalalala im happy again..SEE its tt easy to make me smile again..went home aft loads of talking in sch...slept almost immediately once i changed outta my clothes feeling kinda sick.warm weather to nap in...but i napped all the way till like 5++pm?until hweelan called to ask fer directions n aft 15 mins later my sister called to tell me there was a sale somewhere out there n i mumbled a "yeah i'll b there" but i nv woke up..haha..had dinner at home..its so rare..watched my dvd..forced myself to love it haha..
cindy called..she MADE me meet her fer dinner!! so i went aft much persuasion.talked alot..sense of familiarity..missed tt bitchy bitch bitch so much..walked past nail palour..temptation sets in...we went for an express manicure but it took us an hour or more..coz they were slow...n my index finger's colour kinda chipped alrdy??coz we moved abt alot..haha..n we met our secondary sch tcher whahha n he thinks we're v freeee...alot of talking n story telling..
my day in sch was just pure talking..caught up w raz finally...n i ended up talking to banana berms whaha..she's quite funny person to talk to..our lame n wierd expressions flew outta us..
now im bored..dont wanna bloggg alrdy.BYEEEEE...coz im in a bitchy moooood
.Wednesday, July 27, 2005 ' Wednesday, July 27, 2005 Y
fatigue..gosh i need my slp badly i wonder when i can really have a proper date w my precious bed..i wanna do somethign crazy...something that is really outta hand just to cheer myself up whaha..i need to scrutinize at pple n just be really mean to da max..to de-stress whaha...dont wanna go on n on..BYE!
.Sunday, July 24, 2005 ' Sunday, July 24, 2005 Y
halllloooooooo..im back..ive been working!! yes yes i noe i mentioned a zillion times i wanna work but didnt but this time i really gotta jobb!!haha havent been online fer a wk now...busy busy busy...i kinda like the feeling of being busy.but now i think i had enough of tt feeling.coz ive no time to meet up w my precious bitches..i lurve working in tt environment thou its a little dirty n full of diesel..however u spell tt word..the tiring part of it is tt ive to run in n out of cabs with a heavy laptop.n is always dying on me!! i think my last day will b on mondayyy kinda saddd if only this job lasts me forever i'll b more than happy..i noe such gd things dont last.gotta get back to sch fer lessons on monday.presentation on tues..n i gotta start studying..i sound so nerdy.i cant stand it..lalalalalalalalalalaalalalalalalalalalala
.Wednesday, July 20, 2005 ' Wednesday, July 20, 2005 Y
being myself seems so tough..im sick of my life..i needa major change..played with tarot cards again today. it was pretty true..i want a major change now and as for the future it will b bright n nice fer me n u..i duno if there will really be a "future" i dont wanna believe in things anymore. believing in things tt hardly come true is so taxing...it drains me out qucikly.its a selfish thot but which girl wont want someone to love her fer who she is n accept her the way she accept others?mayb im too self-centered mayb my pride is pulling me down..mayb my faith n fears n stopping me. dont tell me who to be i dont wanna noe...let me live in the world i can call my own...nothing makes me wanna wake up each morning nothing makes me wanna look fwd to things each day...i dread each day.cheer me up today dont wait till tomorrow it might not come. dot wait till im in e stumps to care. i dont show how weak i m coz i believe i can b stronger..than anyone of u.
.Sunday, July 17, 2005 ' Sunday, July 17, 2005 Y
the wkend came n went off so quickly i barely caught hold of it...had brunch with mom after sending them off in the morning..brunch was yummy..meatballs..now im home doing my mkting proj n retail proj ive endless projects ta doooo......went to sentosa on sat..its been quite sometime since i went it was troublesome coz we had to take a train n den change buses to get in..coz there were like almost 10 of us..couldnt fit into a car..but it was messy renovating every where..there was no sun on sat greaaaat day! windyyy..i din even hav to wear my shades thou i finally remb to bring them out wahhah...i wanna get another pair..i want this n that but i gotta work fer them..oohhh i manage to get a job..cant wait to work..exams r coming up but nvm i need to workkk..i might not get another job over the long break who knows i might b wasting time n money over e 2 months!
.Friday, July 15, 2005 ' Friday, July 15, 2005 Y
hectic week fer me..presentations and tests all week.one after another.i feel the pressure i feel the stress. exam time table is out i hav a 2 month break.wheee i better be shopping my lungs out n working my heart off..coz the next sem will be internal attachment n wont hv breaks so often. ive been tired. mom's friend from paris has been staying ouver in our house n ive been entertaining the 2 kids speaking a mixture of broken french english plus mandarin. their mandarin is way better than mine!!! they played w my computer n changed my wallpaper to harry potter!! what the hell. my beauuuutifooool face vanished. they're only 12 and 9 yr old girls..n they're obsessed with lord of e rings potter n pokemon gosh i thot tt was way out yrs ago?they hav it in paris too?cant wait fer hols but tt also means i will hv to go thru exams b4 da hols..aaww..i was really disppointed angry upset furious n i teared in sch!! wheee tt's what anger does to me...tt's what disappointment gives me..but i noe i can coz im superwoman..im finally done w my mkting project..hav to work on my retail over the wkend but i'll b going to sentosa with those girls on sat...i dont like the sun. i will melt away whahha...im hungry but im not eating..to the hell with it.*i tried with my very last ounce of energy, i spoke w the last nicest breath of tone im left with but what happened?*
.Tuesday, July 12, 2005 ' Tuesday, July 12, 2005 Y
i duno what tt poem meant.actually i took a glimpse only..i guess its suppose to b meaningful haha im bored!!
. ' Tuesday, July 12, 2005 Y
to fall in love is always easy
to start a relationship is always simple
to build it is always tough.
i got nothing to says:
to maintain it,is better said than done
to break off is easier said than done
to remain frens after u broke off is nv possible..
to forget the memories is always doing but nv succeeding..
to heal the pain within is hard and tough and nv near simple
but one has to try to heal u own heart
the heart belongs to u..
if u dont heal it and have a space for someone to walk in
the heart will always b sealed
memories will nv b forgotten
the pain will nv go
and u will nv move on from where u start
.Sunday, July 10, 2005 ' Sunday, July 10, 2005 Y
friday..
i didnt go to schooool today hoho..coz tut was cancelled n i wasnt in the mood to sit in for finance so i continued to dream in my lala land till 11++am..i got super bored. suddenly realised we have tons of projects due next wk. im totally packed. im a dead cow..im going to mooooooo my stress away haha..helped my mom in the late noon n i went off to meet the lamers..had sushi fer dinner..it was rather good. lotsa variety. and after which we played in the arcade..loved the shooting one to bits!!got me really engrossed in killing monsters!!and then it was racing time but i came in last once again..ugh whatever i nv came in first i it ever.whaha..its a norm..to tt special angel :thank u fer protecting a sweetie pie like meee i noe u cant resist my sweet smile haha..but thank u..u noe what i mean..saturday..went back to sch fer biz law project..we thot of super lame cases and wanted to sue everyone for everything..it was a hilarious afternoon..and den yuwu had to leave for work..so we all left..hweelan accompanied me...thank u woman!!hmmm just when i needed some company she was there..she shopped..AGAIN..she really prints money..went ta look at some shoes again but i refrained from buying..had dinner w my parents as my sister went off hiking somewhere...had thai food..ok i noe i dont really eat thai coz its sour n spicy but i ordered a few dishes tt were not sour nor spicy..n lastly i had my favourite thai deserts!!!hmmm yummy...simply love thai desert to bits..but i got so bloated aft a while haha..that's my weekend..humph i still have to meet my grp to finish discussing the law proj..n ive an impt test tmr UGH..the ulcer in my throat kills me literally.i cant even swallow water much less food.oh my goodness i hate this!! haha im gonna die from oral ulcer wheeee
.Friday, July 08, 2005 ' Friday, July 08, 2005 Y
im convinced love is not for me. i can nv love the right way nor can i love someone enough. nothing i do is ever enough fer anyone. i think i repeated tt sentence a trillion times n im still repeating it. nothing i do is ever enough fer them..for u. somehow i just dont reach the mark u EXPECT me to. realised how vulnerable im. i just do not live up to expectations. i didnt cry coz i was sad abt the final decison i made. i did not cry coz i was sad it will end for real. i cried out of anger fustration and helplessness. but tt lasted for 5 mins? jeanne was telling how tired she was n how her feelings frayed for her ex. i felt the same way. my feelings just faded. it might hav frayed a long time ago but it just hit me yday. it has been dragged long enough. im totally drained. im left w no energy to do anything else for it. i will find myself back for the time being. kinda lost myself for quite sometime. thank YOU for everything...for giving in to me.thank you jeanne sha and sze .
. ' Friday, July 08, 2005 Y
ayee do this quiz everyone just click on da link n they will show u the results.i KNOW u all r bored whaha..i did mine n my results shows...haha..how ture is it?u tell me..i agree totally on the marriage..true love doesnt exists anymore..http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
.Wednesday, July 06, 2005 ' Wednesday, July 06, 2005 Y
i fell down once again..in da computer lab..i was playing ard w my shoes near the kerb in the computer lab n suddenly i found myself loosing control..n *boom* i fell onto da floor..landed on my left kneee n then my left buttt...*pouts* someone helped me up n my friends started to laugh at me. i needed a paper bag to cover my face!! lucky no pretty boys. laughed at myself aft a while..hur hur...PLUS! some idiot ''rolled the chair over my foot , this time over my right foot!! thanks..thanks i needed ANOTHER injury whahha...at first i didnt feel the pain..aft a while..the pain came to me..tears came to my eyes..but my friends ended up laghing so e tears went away..whaha..over all i just want to say...im totally injured up down left right...even on the most vulnerable place..my butt!!! humph!
