.Saturday, April 30, 2005 ' Saturday, April 30, 2005 Y
ugh yet another day.sick of waking up daily with nothing awaiting me.but today was a tiny weeeeny bit different.my sister woke me up and she had breakfast laid on the table.sausages and scrambled eggs with cheese.she cooked...fer me!! my grandma was out n she was doing the cooking which is really rare.kinda touched.was happy abt it.thou it din taste exactly great hee.read vanishas blog.each time i read it..it nv fails to make me think n reflect.but no im not gonna b all emotional n sappy here.im not an emotion freak.it did make me realise some stuff.her entry made me think of sam!! it made me smile n say i was happy once.sam: i doubt u will ever read this but thank you mr macho mr strong. miss weakling is still surviving okay.not so weak aft all huuh?i may b small n short but i hav a strong surviving belief whaha..hopefully ure doing well.i havent been talking much to u.but weakling will always be here yeah?hugStalked to yf n mabz last night n those 2 babes r wonderful pple.they really made me feel wanted n loved.little did i noe tt they were there fer me all along.thanks girls..im so glad.simply lurve sze fer accompanying me through out this whole saga without her n the few pple i hav in sch i might have died.hoho..i will be leaving fer msia in 15 hrs?kinda looking fwd to it.but i havent packed haha..the only sad thing abt the trip is my mom declared NO SHOPPING.yeah tell me abt it.but i shall not coz vanisha is so gonna say im the cheapo who buys stuff frm msia.im not okay..i wear ROXY whhaa..loved yr reaction.oohhh did i mention i joined yoga with vanisha?i duno how it will be but i noe it will help us to relieve tons of stress..who knows we might b able to see 6% body fat in BODY watch toooo
.Thursday, April 28, 2005 ' Thursday, April 28, 2005 Y
i got my time table..whahha....i practically don have sch on thursdays..i go to sch fer a 50 min french class.n oh ive got myself a french name..i mean EVERYONE has to hav a french name..n mine happen to b sandrine..not SAND-DRINE okay its pronounced as saun-drine..wheeee im loving it..my tutor is funny.
had bad cramps today couldnt even walk to sch..but now im feeling a whole lot better i noe everything will b okay thanks fang yup we will meet next thurs..oohhh i will b going to msia wheeee on saturday will b back on 1 may im a typical sporean im going there ta EAT!!!!!!!!!!
.Monday, April 25, 2005 ' Monday, April 25, 2005 Y
havent been blogging fer quite sometime..oohhh ive gotten ta b the OGL fer oriation this yr my class was uber fun lovely..they gave us flowers on the last day to me vanisha n razinah.the sweeeeeetest thing my class did was they sang "ure my sunshine" uber sugar rush...so sweet of them.they r v nice pple!! had fun fer the first 3 days of sch n den back to normal routine..sch sch sch and sch..alot of things r done online something tt i suck at totally. became bitchier recently.major PMS period fer me..
21 april--thurs
the only day i rem going out. met sze at city hall..walked ard din have mood at all...everything in appeal to me..but i bought a spagh top from topshop..i din really like it tt much i just bought fer the sakeof buying thinking tt it would make me feel better.eye infection again.was totallly sick.tears flowed.had cartel fer tea cum lunch?i din finish my food at all halfeaten.uber broke.everything's not right. sounds like big time PMS huuh? lousy mood.but thanks ta sze..she was w me all the while.went home early.hybernated at home fer the whole evening/night. everything i did tears flowed.that added on to worsen my eye infection.somthing must b wrong w me lens..just SUDDENLY.
the rest of the days were plain boring.sat dinner w family.sun dinner at aunt's house.gonna slip into post natal depression filled with guilt wheeeeeee
.Sunday, April 17, 2005 ' Sunday, April 17, 2005 Y
yoh yoh yoh !! havent been blogging fer sometime coz my com is down n it is STILL down using my sister's com now.difficult ta type. had my supp on wed n i saw tt guy who din offer me skittles again!!! supp was alright 50-50 chance of passsing...oohhh vanisha called n said raz me n herself can b OGL tgt in e same grp.i can finally push pple ard n tell them how terrible nyp is acually whaha..i hate e keyboard so i shall stop here argh!! miss me huh? i noe whahah muackZ
.Monday, April 11, 2005 ' Monday, April 11, 2005 Y
oh no gotta blog again..but im bored from stats..hmm din get to see renfu again..i doubt they are coming again anytime soon so sze pls don comfort me tt way haha..saw him on nkf..he looks chubbier but still as lovely..aft tt i went out w my parents to look at plasmas duno how pple actually work w the dumb electricals.
went to church..gospel was kinda interesting..talked abt walking with pple.its not how much of being there fer pple but how much u walk w them thru their darkest period of their lives.only then u can say uve been there fer them..its not so much of being there fer yr friend but more of lending them yr time and listening to wad they have to say..all in all..its more of listening than being there. more of walking with them thruout than being there..
logical?hmm sounds exhausting.don wanna think whaha..no more cells..fell aslp when listening to sermon.both my cousin and i were closing our eyes.n naturally i fell aslp.sch is gonna start in less than a wk aft my supp..dread sch alrdy coz im not gonna meet much new pple.it will get boring again.and we will get v sick of seeing each other.
gonna make full use of my pathetic 3 or 4 days aft my supp.gonna shop eat n watch plenty of movies..fine im bored now don wanna blog anymore it might b published anyway..blogger sucks to the max.hehe hopefully fang mabz n i can get to meet real soon..whhaa mmissing cindy too =)
.Friday, April 08, 2005 ' Friday, April 08, 2005 Y
oh my god im really gonna hav a bitch fit now!! ugh!! blogged abt today and yday and it din appear feck it!!
went ta sch fer lessons today andi have to complain abt this other guy who also failed his stats.he is so super unfriendly.the worst thing he did was he din offer me his skittles during the lesson!! -pouts- -stamps my foot-
i happen to see dear vanisha sashaying into the students affairs office!! hee went right up to her to see if it was her i was almost 100% sure it is her. -squeals and giggles- it was her -huggies and kisses- and guess who walked past us as we were doing tt? her ever dearest bababababababababababababa--lalalalalalalalalaalalaalalala!! she almost died. coz she was suffering from a thing called BAD HAIR DAY!! wheeeee...we talked abt almost everything we need to talk abt within 20 mins but obviously not in detail.details will be when raz is ard!!hehe.
went fer diner w grandma aft i came home.decided to make breakfast fer myself tmr so i got myself some ingredients.haha i hardly even hav my breakfast and im actually making breakfast tmr.um wad else did i talk abt just now oh no i forgot guess tt was all i said...
thursday-7april
watched movie w sze and had our shopping spree which as usual ended up to a window shopping.ugh hate it tt way. plans of getting shoes were ruined.saw some nice shoes but...somehow..haha..saw a nice nice nice NICE white shirt frm mango..but it was kinda outta our budgets.whahaha SINCE WHEN there were budgets set in shopping sprees? never ever ever....disturbed her abt her..cant wait fer him ta pester u more whahha..no worries if he drives u up da wall ive the number to woodbridge.oh and i LURVE my hair now.absolutely totally.its not perfect but i just like the length now.hope it grows more quickly.mmhhh tt will be all i guess...gonna watch goody luck now.takuya kimura is hot!! but hideaki takezawa is oohhhh yummeh!!! but den again..nicholas...renfu...oh no tooooo many!!hehe smooooooches girls
.Thursday, April 07, 2005 ' Thursday, April 07, 2005 Y
read vanisha's blog.it made me realise how sick i m of my life right now.i made everything seem perfect i made believe everything is fine. warp perception. ignorance is accumulating. hurting is increasing. much as i want to say i hate everyone and everything--i cant. i need my girlfriends. missing everyone tt i need right now. feeling real paranoid abt everything. im only hurting everyone ard me. WHY GOD ..WHY?!?!
