the days where i could just listen to songs and do self-reflection/emo for the night.i kind of misses such nights where i could just do nothing. even tho it's not good to be emo but it had been awhile ever i feel this way? is it because of my gf? my friends? i dont know. i just love the endless flow of feeling flowing inside me. of cause it doesnt feel good but at least i could be 'someone' for now. there are times when your alternate self just pop out. i think this is my 'weird' alternate self. on a side note, this post sound so emo. but who cares since no one visit it. ~ i have seem many things in my BMT life and i realise i had been doing enough for the people around me. example like putting more effort to help them in their problems, understanding them better and why i would want to do this? i dont know but it's just in me. i feel it's ok if you take advantage of me but dont let it become a habit. and POP lor!

it's been long, real long and ONE more week to POP. days really passed and its already the 5Th month to be thus ending my 19weeks OBESE BMT life. had our ups and downs. see different side of people. what i actually learnt from my BMT is that treat people with respect even if they come from a different background and learn to accept others for who they are. i learned not to take things for granted. in this ever changing world, we need to help and understand people rather then judging them. the daily routine make time pass real fast. you might see that this blog don't make sense, but trust me. it make a difference to me.