would i treat you always the same after years? no, it's my harsh answer.



i will update about DIDM chalet soon!

you put away your past when you found someone new. i think i found one through she is kind of silly. haha.

my words are very harsh. so harsh that it made me lost a friend, but my words are the sad reality of life. the reality which everyone hates to admit it. the reality which everyone runs from it. the fear of losing friends and appearing nasty infront of everyone makes people scare from revealing their true selves.

at here, for some reasons and moodswings. i being telling her what the world is trying to hide from her. the reality of life. and just like things normally do, they backfires and got worst. but i guess, i did my part as a friend? i really did, because if such things just carry on, it isnt us that gonna suffer. it's herself that gonna suffer.

for such harsh words of mine, a good friend is gone.
i had so much more to explain but i had no more mood to blog about it.

this shall mark a day and experience that sometime, the harsh truth shouldnt be said.


sorry V.

i cant help to post only the sad stuff. i have many happy stuff but i only post the sad stuff. the things that made me feel the most



like just now when i was returning home. i saw her sister. i was shocked and panicked. i walked slowly so that i dont catch her eyes. i walked till LRT platform. i dont know why, i looked at her from a distance away to see if she is meeting her. i was so eager to see her. oh well. i realise she isnt there. i dont know what i feel. i just feel kind of sad that i started browsing all the memories with her. oh well, if it hurts, then it doesnt make a difference to make it worse.

i thought i could forgot but i realise i cant. time have to just pass for me to really get used to it.

it's the CNY eve and yet, i dont have the mood for CNY. i dont know why but the mood of collecting ang baos doesn't thrill me. i don't know but i'm pretty dull though everyone is so hype for CNY.




sometime, i think it's better to be single. i think, why i feel so terrible at times, is that i'm too used with a person with me. unless my secondary school days where i'm perfectly fine being alone. i need to change my thinking soon, that single is good. i should really get back my secondary school's mindset. that single is the best. the more i look, the worse i feel.


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it's time for gamble! huat ar!

sometime you shouldn't think about how things work. because you get vexed in the very end realizing things just happen the way they do.

dang! i'm too screwed to live in this world. the ability to think hinder me at times. i dwell too deep within.