they say i'm unbreakable, it's not the truth.
the truth is that i refuse to be break.
the truth is that i refuse to give in.

Everyone thinks I'm unbreakable.

All my friends say that no insults, put-downs, or verbal abuse will get through to me.

But the truth is, I'm actually a very sensitive person, and any little negative comment you make hurts me . One day I hope someone will understand the words, 'used to it'.

But until then, I hide under this mask of invincibility.

i missed the bombing of basses.


had a little 'mischap' during driving today. i made it a point to go with my dad for the 7th month dinner, so he could drink till his fill unless the past. where he cannot drink as he had to drive. oh well, i talked like a saint, telling people the good point of me only. i think that humans, they're born to see their good sides only.

I'm afraid that I made a mistake when I told you to move back for me.

It just doesn't feel the same anymore.

I'm not sure if I still love you.

a/eric; strawberry lipgloss girl

i want a leather watch.
i might want a iphone.
i want new t-shirts.
i want new shoes.
i want a new hairstyle.
i want to graduate.

there're many 'i want' but none of them are going to be true till you work hard for them.


Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle.

happy 20Th birthday DANNY~
had a little BBQ at jaron's condo and it was great. well, prolly due to the people there. as usual, we had a swimming session and a cake smashing session which i was not taking part in it. i just lied. oh well, how could i miss such fun. anyway, i was being sabo to get into the water and i tried to hold on to things that i could possibly find and lucky, the guard walked past and i was saved! well, it's 7Th month now, i don't really want to get into the water at night.

and next was the cake smashing session, Andy was the grossest of all. his acts are indescribable.
and that ends off with nothing much already


well, if you guys been following. i had a dream of this strawberry lip-gloss girl that i dream of due to a clip i watched online.
and today, i didn't know if it is true or what, but i just saw this similar girl in my dream. it's pretty hard to confirm whether is it her because it's a dream and they don't have much facial features on it..


and i was thinking, does the strangers in your dream are having the same dreams as you? if that is so, are that strawberry lip gloss girl having the same dream? a dream that makes me feel sweet at times. anyway, this girl look almost exactly like her. even the height. and this made me real HYPE!


but now, i just remember that there are many people with a similar look around the world. but i would ignore it and enjoy while i can.


they call it eye-candy, i call it my strawberry lip-gloss.

ya, it stings for awhile after what you post.

but i realise, we acutally dont really know each other thoughout these years. we didnt knew about each other well, or i should say its a superficial thing.

anyway, i think i got things to say and now i would say. for once, i really wanted to know you from the start because i find that i dont remember what you like anymore, what you love anymore.i would want to start as a friend and no, i wont tell you directly because i'm not a direct person.i like to beat around the bush hoping you get me. but anyway, doesnt really matter much now, you should just move on, and so should me we're better just friends, i suppose.

for some reasons, i'm addicted to tau huey. or i should say i'm actually addicted to selegie tau huey because when i was young, i love to eat tau huey. oh well, real often, i would go to eat tau huey with my tau huey partner.HAHAHA


it would been real good if you had something of her in you and we're so much better. but if its really so, then you aren't the person you're suppose to be. if you know, how much i love such interaction, we're so much better together. =/
or perhaps, it was me along. keeping you away from my heart, rejecting you,i don't know why, but such topics doesn't seem to come between us at all. all this years, i don't know why but we never had even talked about it, not even once.
i think it's really me, i started keeping myself close to myself, not to let anyone know about me as i would know about you. i suppose it really me that needed a change, but i cant seem to maintain the change for long. or i should say, i don't wish to change.

there are many things that could be done, just a want or a need.
and now the thing is, i don't know if i'm better with or without you.
i don't wish to lose a friend like her.
i'm greedy, i wanted the best for myself. but have i really think for others? i doubt so, if i had, i wouldn't be in a dilemma. but if i think about others, would they think for me? which is yet another dilemma.


meanwhile, let such things remains the way for it is now. i cant seem to find a way to get the best of it.



what love; deem love. i cant seem to get the hold of it. was it being together happy with someone called love?

i like to drink water with a big bowl.

doesnt matter if she is a ah lian or what-so-ever.
what difference must there be if she is really a good friend?

we use our heart to feel, not our eyes to see.
late night insanity.

FYP is over, it's finally over.

when i would have the mood to drive out at night aimlessly =/
and i'm somehow afraid of driving around aimlessly, i feel weird for no particular reason. and i want to fetch people around but i'm afraid to let them bet their life on me. this is some scary shit and i really need to find the courage to drive around aimlessly.
or just one night, i would really stop thinking and start driving. just one fine day.

a man that make those beautiful eyes cry isn't worthy for you.

sometime, i would wake up hoping to see a text in my phone.


should i stop doing anything and fail my fyp? because i myself cant seem to find the effort i put in.




hi, can we be friends? can i know you?