if we apply pressure to someone below 3 things might happen :


A) they excel in their studies and grow up to be useful to the public

B) they totally give up on life and accept their own fates and in the future, they would still be useful to the public.

C) they would take a knife and stab you in where the sun don't shine and good bye to both of you. either he repeatably stab you or he gets panic and runs away. giving a nice scar at the place where the sun don't shine.



this morning , i called acer help centre for the check of warranty. every single time , i went to my 3rd home.(i had been such an frequent visitor till i literally called it my 3rd home.) they would call the following days or so , explaining to me my warranty had expired. but this time , things started to get a change.

expect it get worse. they told me that my warranty was confirm plus chop till 2009! then i had to start service report to rebuke my stand. i really really brought the 3 years warranty...... oh well , after much pressure give to this guy , he finally get things done. my warranty status would be updated at the database. but the problem is that , the estimate time to get my laptop would be 6 of jan.

it might be like what my mum said. they took out the 1st hand hdd and stuff the 2nd hand hdd inside.afterall , i'm under warranty , they always 'welcome' me back.


anyway new year is coming, i mean Chinese New Year.whose going to gamble , make some appoinment with me~~. it's only till this time that i actually gamble.

oh ya. anything but manjong , unless you want to play 0 tai. it's ok with me. other then that , i would be more willing to learn any card game.


Texas Hold'em Poker seem to be getting in trend , ditch BlackJack!! Play Texas Hold'em Poker.

i was taught and brought up in a way that the world was in the right order, where kindness begets kindess , where we should practice good karma.

but time to time , i ask myself. are they really happening? do the bad get punished and the good get rewarded?

i find myself in a dilmena.

do i want to get a good karma? or i should do whatever i want?

time to time , i stopped and think about it.am i really getting good karma out of the things i did?

am i really getting the things that i should have got it due to my good karma? it doesn't end up the way i plan to.

BUT

doesnt it warms a heart when you helped someone?

doesnt it make your day when you helped someone?

doesnt it make a good start when you helped someone?

it's a YES for me. actually , i had seen such cases helping before. cases where people being stingy and self-centered. once they had their parts of work , they would move on to doing their own activities instead of helping others. (well , perhaps if it's a girl asking for help. they might. )

i think they are up till that certain standard that helping others is just too boring.

i admit , it's been damn long ever since i'm updated. well , i'm like always busy, ya? like always busy...

anyway , had a fruitful trip with my polymates to Ubin. yes , shits do happens , but at least most of us had fun. yup , most of us had fun , other then.....

till then , bye

had my O level English today. i saw a topic about POWER , i so wanna write about it! but the only problem i faced was actually vocabulary.

And it WAS my birthday; I’m like official 19 and official older. That was actually quite sad as I’m reaching 2X soon!! Like so old~

so for the day itself, I had school so I just camp at school and this very new classmate of mine actually draw a cake for me which is like.... quite cool.




So after that, I went home to find dinner with my parent and relatives to a place at Changi Golf Club where it's a buffet!! The food was pretty alright and my gf damn love prawns, I believe if I were to peel for her, she would keep eating all day long. Did I mention about the 2 wines my relative gave to me? They said that I could drink in front of everyone now!!

I realise that I forget to blog that I brought my birthday cake myself, sound really sad. But I had my gf, friends and family to celebrate with, so it's pretty ok if I were to buy it again!

so after that , went to Clarke Quay to have a mini celebration with my polymates , but quite sad as not much drinks was consumed , they literally just drank 2 towers of beer with almost 10+ people.that sound rather.....

So the very next day! , I had another celebration again, which my gf's dear and her bf.

We went to fish and co to have our food which was literally my 2nd time there!! my first time was on other's treat and 2nd time , was also on other's treat!! Overall, it doesn’t seem really that bad.

IT WAS MY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!

And that's my gf

and today is my BIRTHDAY!

today was the first day of school!! and it was pretty fun with people like jason and jason and still jason.well , it's fun cause there is always drama when he is now class.and there is this new girl called 'yu shan'. ok , she is not pretty new as i literally know her from my gf. heard about this girl that is in the course with me and few months later , she is now the same class as me! oh! i'm in the same class for 3 days straight and this week , i only had 4 studying days!!!


and it's 4 more days soon , to this very special day, where candles are blew.and can i request for a present please???.i just cooked and ate my homemake pancake and i feel like shitting this very moment. i wonder was it the pancake that went out of shape just now or my stomach just purely suck.it's been a while since i had an celebration by friends.

i'm back from DIDM camp , like few days back. well , i had this little problem and many 'busy' stuff to do.so i didnt really talk about it.well , there are at least things to do there as compare at home. i would have things to do if i really put effort in looking for a job. but too bad , i just dont practice what i preach and my point is proven by my gf.that's what she always says about me , but i still love her.



did i mention that next year , we would be the one organising the DIDM camp!!! there would be so much thrill to it as we are already issuing our roles for it.and school are starting real soon. on this very fine day , our GPA and classes were out.and on this very fine day , i score better and also my class are sticking with 1 class only. sorry guys , but good luck running around. the problem now is that i cant really look at my ex classmates anymore as i suppose most of them would be at Level 4.


oh yes!!! , my birthday is coming ya , any presents for me? or you want to celebrate with me? , please dial 1800-JINGLIE-BIRTHDAY for more information.



would you celebrate with me ?

finally , a new skin is complete , i meant i took from blogskins and edited it.i got to be honest ya. just ignore the archive part for i'm quite tired now as i encounter quite a few problems as my HTML codes is rather weak.

did i mention that my primary school friend passed away just yesterday , even though we were not really close but i wish to visit his funeral.BUT, i'm having this camp tomorrow as well which last till tuesday night. but he was a very brave man , he had this cancer for around few years , aren’t he a very brave man indeed?


why take life seriously when tomorrow we would just be gone with the wind! WOOSH!!! And people would say if that is so , why don’t you look around and looks at those that are fighting for their survival every single day. I don’t know , but I guess during different time phase , our thinking actually change and if anything didn’t happen to blogger or anything , trust me , I would take my time to browse though my archive. it’s this attitude that somehow helps and harms me which i remember someone told me that it is this very attitude that someday would make me regret things. But it actually helps me to ignore nasty insults and forgetting it after days.if you guys remembered/read , I said that I would post the story of a fatty but I guess the time is not now for we’re still literally ‘immature’.

, like all we knew everyone is wearing a mask.i dont know why but i get rather sick when people talks about it.i don’t feel good about it which i wonder why.when people hurl insults at you , you just smile at them , but i don’t really insult them back for sometime , i'm just used to it or rather , i'm numb to it.



is 'i love you' becoming a phase that its meaning get diluted over time?

spare this messy blog! for i shall create my own skin. like when i feel like it and free to do so and want to do so.it's just this few problems that is pulling me back!

a REMAKE is in process. i'm just lazy/tired to carry on editing as i had to travel all the way to jurong just to get my laptop fix and the time now is rather lazy . so ya you know.

it's at this few nights that i could actually slow my pace to relax instead of doing the same old things.being wondering about life , but they always say you need someone to talk to, to best express yourself and share , would you be the one?


my fonts getting screw as i'm quite lazy to adjust the font sizes according like how i learnt in my html lesson. which is also quite a disgrace as i realise the idea i has is rather little.

i realise that most of my links aren’t working anymore. am i getting lazy or the time is moving too fast for me?

Team Hoty!!! i always end up crying after i watched this very film.

hey , shitheads or should i say shithead? basically , i think i can count the amount of viewers that i have with just one hand.it's not even a handful of it!


i know i know , i have a pretty pathetic life that no one seem interested but after all , this is a place where i do look back at times to remind me that those shits had i ever done and those values that i always aimed or try to aim.and somehow , i always fail to so.


but it's kind of cute looking at archive , like how twit i'm used to be, foolish things that i ever done. thus triggering different memories that you didnt even know about it.


and also how time pass so fast that i'm in poly right now , make a bunch of friends and missing my sec school lifes.no doubts , i can confirm that this very emo-ish night would appear again.for everyone would had this once-in-a-moon feeling.such blues. such gloomy sundays.


on a lighter tone!! chalet is coming , which i presume would be either gambling/drinking/makelove. i guess that last part would be really happening. but once again , just cause you didnt see before doesnt means it's not happening.


on a lower tone!! i suddenly remember that someone used to told me when some wordy blog appears , they would mostly just skip it.which i cant really remember who was the one that told me this but it definably shows one thing , it's just cause you're not interested in that particular thing or person!seriously i find it rather true as this is what i do whenever i'm at some random blogs or reading some random things that does not arouse my interest.i guess it's a human nature thing.


i always talk about human nature, i remember i even used it in the recent O'level oral i told. i could remember the question was that ' there are fighting all around the world , what's your view?? ' and instantly , my MSN nick appears right infront of me.telling me to use it and whack it up their ass!! >.for those that didnt add me or didnt knew it's one suffers cause of greed and nurse hatred.
i did and even talk about human nature! it's even becoming my favourite topic other than the long long time ago topic:ah lians with hot pants


seriously i wanted to talk about so many things but my age had caught up on me already , i couldnt do things that i used to be able to do.i talked like i'm rather old , but infact i'm 19 , in exact i'm still 18!! , forever 18 YO! which remind me of another person. but it's no the age that matter , it's this very body that is bothering me.you would understand the trauma behind the story of fat person next time.and when i grew up and out of this particular stage in life, i would let you really know what is the life of a fatty.



if there are any human feeling that have this very rare chance to hop till this very little place. do me a flavour , do me just this flavour. just tag on what you're feeling right now or things you wanted to say but you knew you wouldn't dare to so. for you're helping yourself not just for me.well , for me could be that more and more viewers could actually view little very spot and i could actually counted the numbers of viewers with both my hands!! well , it just feel great when you're actually pouring things out. which is something like twitter i suppose.




EDITED
out of pure cool-ness , i went to check the amount of words in MS and it's only 600+ , cant even reach my record of 1000+ in my reflection journal! shit!

tomorrow i'm taking my O level, again. but i didnt really prepared myself for it.but the only thing that i know right now that i could score is the conversation topic.
my current school is RepublicPoly and the best thing that i learnt is to speak nonsense that make sense.

LIBRA MAN


A man who has no balance like his Zodiac symbol. He is not the gentle, cool , calm and charming guy like what you see. He has another dark side of aggression, stubborn and he likes to start an argument the most. Sometimes he can be so depress and unstable. Up and down like he is trying to balance himself most of the time.


To many people, he is a friendly guy and always smile even when he is mad or up set. His voice always gentle and calm. he always set and comb his hair as if he comes out from a shampoo advertisement. Mostly Libra men are good looking, even the ugly one is charming. When he smiles, it is so bright that the whole world is smiling with him too.


When he is in a balance mood, he is the type of person you want to be with. In other unbalancing mood, he likes to make people argue about something and watching it with fascination and fun. He will wait to be the one who compromise and clear thing up. He likes to be in a conflicting conversation.


Libra man is lazy by nature. After his tired day at work, he likes to sit still and just look out of the window or read quietly. He likes to be in his own world. After recharging his battery, he will be very energetic again and may even take you out that night.


Libra man normally will not do any shocking or abnormal things to be noticed. He likes to be conformed with his crowd, but if you watch him carefully, you will see the different. If he wear a shirt, it will have to be a zipper front instead of buttons, or a special tie bar. There is always something in him that he will not allow totally conformity to take him over.


A straight forward , no non-sense guy. He is careful and delicate in details. He will spent extra time to doing it right, than comes back to correct them later. He hates people who boost, or exaggerate. He does not like over dressed woman or make herself a center of an attention.


He loves to read. He loves poems and loves art. When he works he can work like crazy, but after work he can turn on romantic jazzy music and treat you so gently. He loves to give people advice and normally give a good advice. If you fall for him, you will stay like being trapped in a spider web. If you want to break up with him, he will persuade you a zillion ways to stay and you can not stop him anyway. After he persuade you to stay, or after a big fight, he will be so sweet to you as if he has never hurt your feeling before ever.


He will has his own way to win a girl love and affection. Once she says yes, he will lay back and wonder if he should go on or if he should back out. In his teen, he changed many girl friends because he can not clearlyseparate loving a friend and loving a girl friend. He will check and re-cheek if his match is suitable and compatible with him.


Even he is a romantic man, he can hardly understand the emotion of the one he loves. He is a generous guy even he sets his life so systematically. He never knows when he makes you unhappy. He never knows how he up set you. He will never knows what he said wrong. If he is your lover, be prepare for this.


A not so pretty girl with no brain is not his type of woman. If you are not pretty enough, he will not mind talking to you but he does not care to get to know you. Any girls, pretty or ugly can ask for his help, he will be happy to help. He hates to argue by yelling at each other, so you tend to see he argue with his girl friend seriously but try at best to be very quiet.


He likes to have a girl friend by getting to know each other like a friend first. If you want him, you have to like the same thing he does. He prefers a pretty and gentle woman than a smart and ugly woman. You have to understand his mood especially he can has many different moods. He is a private person, so when he needs to be alone better let him be.



do take your time to read if you wish to know more about your Libra friends and me!do msn me and i'll send you the rest of the horoscope to you.

reality bangs real hard on me.

somehow , i managed to study for my UT.skipping that , i have a sleepless night today, cant really fall asleep might as well don’t sleep.

so here I’m literally wasting my time on dota and facebook.sometime it’s pretty boring because most of the times you're just doing the same old things, click here click there.

when UT3 finishes, it’s time to rock and roll!!

the power of cast-netting( called hei yu in hokkien )


let me fish at pasir ris main pond/sibu real soon please!!!

it’s been real long and I don’t really have the intention to blog or do what so ever to it. It’s like boring for me though.

but skipping that, I got a fishing trip overseas soon!! but it also reminds me that my O level is coming. yes I’m taking my O level again. come on , I am only 16.the thinking of it make my mind goes blank as I knew I would flunk again. like what emest always say , my standard of English , only a few is able to understand.

skipping that , someone is jealous of me always fishing and neglecting her. come on , I’m not that type of person. I still accompany you ya.


and back to school topic! today suck balls. Cognitive alike module make those A's wannbe talk a lot and basically for me I’m getting screw as I had 9 straight C. and of cause late.

I Am Thankful...
1. For the husband who snores all night, because he is at home asleep with me and not with someone else.
2. For my teenage daughter who is complaining about doing dishes because that means she is at home and not on the streets.
3. For the taxes that I pay because it means that I am employed.
4. For the mess to clean after a party because it means that I have been surrounded by friends.
5. For the clothes that fit a little too snug because it means I have enough to eat.
6. For my shadow that watches me work because it means I am out in the sunshine.
7. For a floor that needs mopping, and windows that need cleaning because it means I have a home.
8. For all the complaining I hear about the government because it means that we have freedom of speech.
9. For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot because it means I am capable of walking and that I have been blessed with transportation.
10. For the noise I have to bear from my neighbours because it means that I can hear.
11. For the pile of laundry and ironing because it means I have clothes to wear.
12. For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day because it means I have been capable of working hard.
13. For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours because it means that I am alive.

I'm boring , aren't romantic and likes to game at time.love me for it , would you?

Previous day, was taking the bus back with my friends as one of them went to donate blood and so the conversation continue. I wasn’t really listening to them as the bus is loud and noisy. But what really strike me was that this guy was talking about his trekking trips and experience while the other guys are talking about his experience in other fields.

This is where it strikes me, for no reason, I was thinking of what story actually to tell my sons when they grow up, how I was literally being bored throughout sec school and poly with no events other than going home to play games? I begin to think what stories would there be really available for me to talk to my kids like how some parents does.

Seriously, there aren’t many things to really to talk to my kids about? , how much your dad play games? , we all wanted to say things that would amuse our kids to letting them feel that we are the hero in their heart but actually how many are able to do so.

I guess only that much of parents would have enough of stories to make their kids admire them. Which was literally almost similar as my parents, not that they share stories to make me admire them but they do things to show that they care for me. Like today, I went back to home and when I first saw my mum, I greeted her and I was return with the word you came home. such little words don’t really mean much at that point of time as you are tired from school/work but the problem is when you really start to think, it’s often this few small little words that literally lighten the burdens you’re carrying and seem that life is actually so wonderful with so many people helping you and that you’re never alone.

After reading so far, have you really wondered what stories are you going to share? Or how you really to show care and concern, there are aren’t really the needs to let them know as when they are feeling low, they would feel it the warmth of such little words.

yes! it has been long ever since I updated and the reason why? I don’t really know too.
school pretty good for me, like in a blink of an eye 4 weeks has already passed and our first holiday is coming up.

I think I somehow screw up my UT which is like pretty common to me. did anyone read the recent news? , a year 3 students jumped due to FYP.from what we discussed; it's somehow making me tense up too. I guess I would had to start learning real soon as mine is about codes!! codes and more codes, if you get the basic wrong and you are gg!!!

and like somehow, it's already been a year. time really files.

boys and girls , school have just started!! and i saw so many familar faces in RP!!!

often , you can know how much you means in her heart when you gone missing.

hello people had fun the previous night at my aunt house(update soon)


i'm feeling like i'm forcing you to doing something you don't like

hello people , it's been a long long time since i ever post and there are reasons for it.


1. i am a busy person , what more could you expect from a busy person.

2. just like 1. but i forget to say that i am a very busy person.

3. seriously , i was just lazy.

4. i think it's because of the new game that i am playing.

5. i guess i have a dull life which explain why i dont blog that much.
(i don't go out , i don't go shopping , i just rot at home and play my game which explain why i might be a gamer and i have lots of life as gamers are immortal. they just keep coming back.)

all right , that's the reason for not blogging ever since then.

till now , couple of things has happen.

1. my laptop crush on me yesterday while i was busy playing my new game. and it was pretty shitted.
i had reformat once but twice!

so i decided to send a mail to acer to whether they could send someone to help me fix my laptop and the reply i got that it costs $30 transport fee + $80 labour fee.

aren't that figure owning? to acutally call someone to go down to our place and fix our laptop and the problem is , it wouldn't confirm plus chop be fix.

so i went this morning to go all the way now to jurong with my gf to get my laptop to fix.and it was left there for some 'fix'.

i guess my hard disk crash and lucky i asked about the D drive and i was told it would be deleted too so now , i could prepare myself for a 'brand new laptop'



and the lists goes on and on but i dont really have the mood to talk about it , was pretty tired the whole day and was wondering why would be able to tahan till now.

guess i would be going to sleep now as tomorrow is going to be a long(gaming) day.
will update about it somehow sometime.

oh ya , it's raining now ,remember to keep warm keep safe.

sorry people but i had been back from genting long time but i am just lazy to blog about it.i guess it's my nature.genting was not so bored though as i went with my neighbours and their kids.so 4 person can work wonders.we had joy and fun and that for sure.

and days back , i pass my BTT ,like finally.i missed 2 e-trial test as i went genting on that day , i was really worried as i had to choose between going to genting or staying for the celebration.but i went to genting instead as i thought it would be a bonding session.FTT is like 1 more month away and i think i can start driving right now with a instructer behind? that's cool.

oh ya , i have realise that i had drag my ' finding work ' process till now which is about a month now.sometime when you said you want to do it , you dont really do it unless you take the first step.

oh ya, i think i really need to exercise! and i came across this wonderful mrt tracks of 'singapore'

i feel kind of lost for a moment.staring at blogs and manage to find out what i had been missing throughout the years.

i got to agree with bailin though , when we grow up we tend to lose friends.

cool ,i forget what my previous class is.cool~

they told me to let it go

for some reason , my laptop is lagging and i cant seem to understand why.

and oh ya, new year is over but i didnt really enjoy it though , it's like a normal day.

shed the past and get ready for the new start.and the next start is valentine day.omg!

I failed my BTT which is supposed to be the basic for everything but well, I still failed.
CNY is coming about 2 day’s time and there would be foods and money!

From young, I had no one expect my family there to guide me on whatever they can, but still there is a limit to it. From young, I had to learn lots of thing by myself, how to mix in with a group of people, how to be a part of it and staying with it. How to make a fool out of myself to be a part of what we called clique. But they didn’t teach me about what is love, how much time you must spend with each other and on and on. I realise there wasn’t really any ways to learn about love , instead you need to be fall in love , get ditched for love and others to realise what is really love.

Sometime, a guy would do anything for his girl, like picking her at school, meeting up for everyday and many more. But suddenly 1 day the girl said, you don’t love me at all, don’t you. The guy than realise wasn’t what I do everything for you is love? The girl didn’t say anything about that but carry on to say that she don’t love me anymore and just walk away. Or even post this guy tons and tons of questions that he wouldn’t even know how to explain it for he was..never really into love. Much less to say to even experience what is love like. He realise that even if he ask his friend , the answer would only be on a general basic. So finally after a few days , the guy didn’t do anything after that for he is still in a daze for it the first time he experience love.

So what is love? , there are actually no answers for it. When you are in love you would be able to feel what I said.

i realise that i have the tenquency of not blogging which explain why i blog lesser or even none , for weeks or months.but then , i am back for the further good , if anyone is still here reading it =)


but the problem now is that CNY is coming, it's time for collect angbao , count money and gamble all time long.seriously , my hands has been itchy for quite some time , i dont know why but i feel like gambling.it's shit i know , but i cant help it , guess after CNY , i will stop.meanwhile , it's CNY time.

and i realise that it's the first time that i flew a kite and it's with my gf.got to tell you , kite flying is fun!!! everything there got to be a first time.

it's amazing how things can ended up till here and amazing how could one store the anger and unhappiness in her till a single incident and it just start coming out non-stop.just like fishing , a big fish get hook and runs till the end of the line and it snapped. too bad.

I Am Thankful...
1. For the husband who snores all night, because he is at home asleep with me and not with someone else.
2. For my teenage daughter who is complaining about doing dishes because that means she is at home and not on the streets.
3. For the taxes that I pay because it means that I am employed.
4. For the mess to clean after a party because it means that I have been surrounded by friends.
5. For the clothes that fit a little too snug because it means I have enough to eat.
6. For my shadow that watches me work because it means I am out in the sunshine.
7. For a floor that needs mopping, and windows that need cleaning because it means I have a home.
8. For all the complaining I hear about the government because it means that we have freedom of speech.
9. For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot because it means I am capable of walking and that I have been blessed with transportation.
10. For the noise I have to bear from my neighbours because it means that I can hear.
11. For the pile of laundry and ironing because it means I have clothes to wear.
12. For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day because it means I have been capable of working hard.
13. For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours because it means that I am alive.

i know i am late , but still happy new year.spend my time watching fireworks with my love and family.imagine the feel of it , power.oh ya , the video of fireworks at sengkang.




after searching , i still realise that the game that kept me most addicted is maple , no doubt it is rather dumb playing it but i cant understand the reason beside it that make me playing it on and on and private server is funnnnnn.

what i gonna to do next year , achieve what i always want to do in mind and put it to action.

meanwhile , i love you.