boring day.
poa 2 lesson = torture.
or perhap 1hr and half.


went to math class.
result 10/20
total disgrace.
started going crazy
or i mean those temple you see de.
jump jump de.haha.
draw 1 stroke at my hand.
than 2.than a fuck word come out.
i guess i am going correct.
but then i guess that can give a lesson to those going for tattoos or trying to cut themself.
imagining your life with scar permanment.
mine is awhile only.so people take care.dont ever do such stupid thing
for a stupider people also dont do that
i guess i am stupid at that time
as alway ba.
friend getting higher than what i getting.
even though i did study.
total disgrace.jm you are just lazy.xD
i going to make sure i score higher than you all next time
i cross my heart.

went to compass point in wendy dad car.
when arrive.forget to take the receipt from meimei.
so cant take a lift home from wendy car.
sad.haha.meet them again.they went to choose flowers.
i went in too.than suddenly.got a strange feeling.
so i just keep quiet from than.strange than.
for it me.haha.later met some teachers and x student.
they chatted and i went up first.
cause of something.surprised to see meimei following up.haha
than later pick cake and i went home
than later went to mall.to bring flowers.as promised.
but not 7.i cant tahan.
i going to give it when it in the middle of the compeition.xD.
or after the result is given?.
i guess i will wait

got to arrive in school at 6.50.
prepare to help miss ng.
i know why fish dont want take bus le.haha
i know it all along.xD.

till than
teachers that teaches me before.
no matter what you teaches me.
you are stil my teacher.
for that,i respect you
and i love you.
and wishes a happy teacher day in adv.

today stayed back at school
watch teacher day performances.
i still got the urge to wait till that day.
cause meimei will be singing.
but than.i needed to buy roses.
or flowers ba.xD.7 flowers.
stayed at hall than went to find fish they all at staff room 2.
they helped the teacher.and i looked.
did some of my english work.
but still havent do finish.
than later we went home taking 136.
i mean me derek mei wendy.
after we alighted.
i send her home.i mean wendy.
she stay so near.or perhap i would send her to the lift next time.haha
next time.haha.i was walking first.than wendy catch up
cause i heard about they said got people sending her.
in order not to worsen anything.
i walked first.than later i was dreaming or what.
thinking about thing i suppose.it suddenly appear so dull.
just wendy whack me in my back.didnt felt much pain
at least it bring me back to reality.


huang lao shi said my brain turned fast.
i not suppose to be sure.that why she tell me.
sometime i do feel i think faster than everyone.
thinking of the consequence and blah blah.
i am supposed to be touched.


i still love everyone.
of you.take care those going for performances.
i would be right here supporting you all.xD
right here.

today stayed back at school
watch teacher day performances.
i still got the urge to wait till that day.
cause meimei will be singing.
but than.i needed to buy roses.
or flowers ba.xD.7 flowers.
stayed at hall than went to find fish they all at staff room 2.
they helped the teacher.and i looked.
did some of my english work.
but still havent do finish.
than later we went home taking 136.
i mean me derek mei wendy.
after we alighted.
i send her home.i mean wendy.
she stay so near.or perhap i would send her to the lift next time.haha
next time.haha.i was walking first.than wendy catch up
cause i heard about they said got people sending her.
in order not to worsen anything.
i walked first.than later i was dreaming or what.
thinking about thing i suppose.it suddenly appear so dull.
just wendy whack me in my back.didnt felt much pain
at least it bring me back to reality.


huang lao shi said my brain turned fast.
i not suppose to be sure.that why she tell me.
sometime i do feel i think faster than everyone.
thinking of the consequence and blah blah.
i am supposed to be touched.


i still love everyone.
of you.take care those going for performances.
i would be right here supporting you all.xD
right here.

the thing was so long.
loading time i mean.
just get back from studying math at cp
with jas mei derek and fish.
so tiring after watching jm they all perform.
than after that we went to shop.
mini toon.i saw a kappo.haha.
than later take 372 went home.
nowaday alway follow they all go home.haha.
than reach home.i wonder why derek didnt wanted to alight there
got 82 what.

meimei
sorry la.xD
i wont say le.xD


than at home.drank coffee.
preparing for tomorrow.
but than.i still got chinese chess tomorrow.
how am i going to think when i am so sleepy.
omg.i wonder how.sian sia.
i want to win.xD.at least 2nd or 3rd.haha.
last year got join also.
lose to qiaoling.xD
quite long since i played.haha.
so dont thrash me please.
anyone who is playing.
please let me.haha.xD
can support me also.haha.2 at hubber there.or 2.30
still need bring own set.dots.
last year dont even need.
till here than.
i going to chiong my english now.
till than.byebye.
take care everyone

Junming.
just abit louder can le.
your bass.

Jas.
haha.you know.it him it him.j.......
xD

Meimei
sorry than.more roses than.xD

Jinglie
all the best to me.xD.



TAKE CARE EVERYONE.
EVERYONE ROCK ON.
and dont be so despo.xD

stayed at home for whole day.
sort of moodless.
dont know why.
keep pulling a long face.
sad sia.

poor fish doing the work alone.
i did help.but not much.my chinese language cant use than can use.
than now cant use.but i ask from help.xD
so it think it ok ba.
and i also said i will present to the class.

went to watch movie instead of zoo.
was quite fun.xD.
i thrashed derek in street fighter
i lose my policeman game far too fast.
people that expected to come didnt come.
dont worry there would be still 1 more time i asking
better come.xD


i sense hatred of you toward me
i am sorry but causing so much trouble.
for just i love you.

mr loh,stop putting up a false front
and die young.

i waited.
for the sound of it.
the special sound that make my heart change.
whenever that sound ring.i took a look
but to dissapointment.it was not you.
and there i go.i waited again.
ages pass.will i still be waiting here.
for you.i guess i will.till when i maked my stand.
than the waiting will stop.once
the hope of you not feeling sad.
make my stand drown.
till than.let wait again.xD


back from photocopying ic and stuff.
the thai trip need such stuff.
payment of 280.
still lack the ns stuff.sian.
i wanted for some.some online
some did not.xD

tomorrow got kidread and audition.
how am i going to watch.
i watch and read to them?.
lol.lame.xD.

till than.i still loves you all.xD
deeply.xD

what is your greatest fear in life.
i sdaw yuling blog de picture.
my greatest fear.is only just 1 thing.
regret.please friend.if i really said words that hurt you i am realy very SORRY.
i regret.so i at here say SORRY.just this word.it change a people lives. you know.
so people do say sorry no matter what.for sometime sorry arent worth as much as friends.
and i really SORRY to those that i misunderstand insult.
i wasnt mean to insult.
really SORRY.

friends.i love you.
love you all too much.xD
and girl.you too.
i promise.

thank to my bunch of friend that accompany me through the camp.
through my life.
trust me.till the day i die.
each and everyone of your name.
would be craved in my heart.
let the memories bury with me.
i can promise you all nothing.
but this i can promise you all.

I REALLY LOVE YOU ALL
DEREK JUNMING JAS FISH MEI2.
thanks.xD.
when time seem bad.i seem hope from you all.xD

AKLTG.seriously i thanks you all.
althought i know some thing le.haha.
but than thanks for the effort put in.
i was sad.when you started screaming.haha.
verge of crying.xD.seriously i am touched.
i do hope i can touch people live too.haha.
i learn alot.i guess we really need to get scolded.
people are sleeping and getting late.
if i were you i would get angry too.
or perhap not angry.just tthinking that everything you teach fial
i guess i did a correct thing today.
stuart asked who want get straight A
i stood out.without thinking.xD
i guess everyone can do it.
just whether you want anot.
last time i never paid much attention to how much they put in.
even i know they put in effort.for i never find out how much MORE.
i found out now.sorry.haha
than he started shouting cause it clearly show that what he teach never work.
and blah blah blah.and he coughing blood.
and of cause a free 50 dollar note was given to derek.
cause he said three dollar for a 50 dollar exchange.
i never wanted to do so.cause if there a gain there would be a lose.
and i dont wnat to take people money too.it like i can work for that 50 dollar also.
and there arent any free lunch right.
but than jasmine goes too.
but got cheaped.xD.
half a 50dollar was given
but than i hope everyone learnt a lesson.
and derek you can choose to use it or keep it to treat it as a lesson learnt.
and there was dinner break.we ate and went to hall
when it started to get mushy.
everyone was going up to the stage to talk.
so did it.i didnt know why.just that a feeling in me.
i keep telling other people i am going up.haha.
but i guess i enjoy it.xD.i really do love you all..
and friends.and you.xD.
and other shared.and other CRY.haha.
or i mnean alot.
touching what.
jasmine and yuling i dont mean to ask
i would say SORRY here.
SORRY.x)
'STOP' let go back to where i missed out.xD
at the stuart there right.after he finish saying what he had to say
he told us to shake friend's hand and say wish you good luck.
i just went on a shaking spree.shaking alot of people hand.haha.
mostly girls la.also got boy la.
andi remember this thing the most.
by what she said.she say i love you.LOL
not bad la quite happy.haha.
you know.xD.than at dinner we joked.haha.awhile.
she talking on handphone than i talked with her lor.
as i am boring.haha.seriously quite happy.haha.
than go BACK to HALL thing.
everyone talked and cried.haha.
than go home lor.than i saw her.haha.than i said never cried ar.haha.
than later dont know say till what.than we almost hug.haha.xD.
just jokinh la.if not i would get killed.haha.
than we went home.fish or i mean dog.haha.take 83 with a fool.xD.
i mean foo.haha.than i take with that clever meimei.lol.jas and kingkong.haha
than i followed them to where they stopped.
than mei2 walk other place than we walked our own.with jas.
we talked about shit.haha.than i went up this staircase.
abit creepy.cause it dark.haha.than when i was walking back.
i heard the dog bark.which wasnt a very good sign during the night.
which i saw got no people.but than i just ccarry on.haha.
did turn bcak to see who there.but lucky no people.haha.
than go home lor.than no more le lor.


seriously i learn alot.
choice and more choice.
i learn to make choice not abide by choice make by other.
i make my choice.haha.
this my motto when we are asked to do.
i mean mottos.
quite alot.haha.

1. the attitude of others doesnt need to be my reality
2. everyone was born unique and special for we shall be the eagle that sor in the air rather than the sheeps.even if i was the sheep i would be the sheep that LEAD.
3. 1 failture doesnt mean it the end,no matter how big it is,i would strive on.
4. we got to make our own choice rather than following what they do.
5. even if i fail in the things i do,i would still be GRACIOUS IN DEFEAT,i will still keep on challenging it,till one day i would be SOAKING IN VICTORY.haha

that my motto.some are quite lame.haha.but than do with it cause it mine motto and not your.

to those that cried.i would said WELL DONE.

for a tear cried.it shown that you are remorse.of how you are.

now with your life.

cried more.xD.

clevermeimei.xD

To blah blah and more blah.
seriously i really dont like her.if i needed to shout at the top of my lung.i would.
i wouldnt be angry.but i just fucking dont like it.xD

ellen.
since you say it hard.than dont.
what you like.i will change.
trust me.

derek.
i know what you feel.
dont need to feel anything,
if you just like just go ahead.
i dont mind.


about the course today.sad.no crying.wasted my bag of tissue.haha.bring there still bring back.
currently not in a good mood.sort of got ps like that.but than it life.life is really quite lonely.haha.
when the time i start doing silly things.please watch out.i am going mad.


please stop mention it.please.
i really had it.


meimei.xD.xD

shayne ward
ward ward and even more ward.

shayne ward rock.xD

sort of boring.haha.
that explain the crap.
but than shayne ward still rock.
that no crap.haha.
just now a dumb classmate of mine sms me.
than didnt reply le.xD

the night is young
but i am tired already.
really getting old.
cant withstand.haha.

sure hope you can go.
and i will make sure you can go.xD

jui ko bu ti ai ni - zheng zhong ji

ai hen jian dan.zhen de hen jian dan



stay back at school for the audition of punggol superstar
quite funny.haha.than went home.take 136 with jas.
than talk cock lor.about studies.xD.

tear are dropped only when remorse are there.

jas.
you grown smarter.xD.
but due to mine advice.xD

chat with fish.
encountering problem.haha.but no fear i would alway be here..
i promise.haha.give in is what important in such.and understanding too.
try putting you in his shoes.
think why he asked that question
what his proveance
motive? biased or not.
LOL.wahaha. i put ss to use
mr chan i know i am good.

fish
take care.
sure hope you can go.
cause derek not going le
talking about that.
he not going le.
stand by.
sad sia.my partner is gone.
but till to great hope.
i am sure something would come out of this thing.
surely.
i know what you going through.
you cant lie to me.xD


fish anything still can ask me.xD

went to school with new bag.beechin got a same.xD]
white colour
went for the thailand thing
asked nonsense
derek if you cant go i give you place.xD
steady boo bibi.

chatting with marr.
thinking how her.xD
punggol superstar.
go derek.xD

even though i am not your special one.
but if anything happen.
i am still here.
as alway.it a promise.i would watch you cry.


went to simlin than to bedok.
brought a new bag n slipper
which my dad made spoilt.
conserve sling.
black with converse gold word on it
50 dollar.complaing le.



tmorrmow audition for thailand trip
hope i can go.and derek too.
if not i going along.my parent allowed me go le.
it just teachers.
but it hard.my result are so blooding worst.
HARD!.but i want go shopping shree.haha.
and also see you.haha.and sleep with you.lol
yup it you derek.sorry but i am gay.lol
and also her la.haha.i would miss her.xD

i missed you.
missed your shouting.xD.
change.



seriously i rather people call me QingWa.haha.
call me QingWa from now on.haha

if i am faster.it wouldnt happen.xD

i really do have myself to blame.
for dumb and slower.
but my heart doesnt want to.

i found out the whole truth
the fault lie with not you but me.
i guess it the way.
but i cross my heart.i really do love you.
it the first time i cross.perhap not anymore.

school startin tomorrow.again.
not dotaing.xD.wasting time.haha.
brand new day for me.xD.
must face it with a new attitude.xD
you know.xD

after what ellen told me.xD.
i guess i get it right.
for i know i not stupid.haha
highlight the hidden meaning.haha
waiting wont die.xD
for now.let wait.xD


remember me this way.xD

talked to fish about the girl i like.xD
you know what i know.didnt really tell much
cause you know it other girl from other school.hahahaha.
sorry fish.but it ok if they know.haha.
you can try to ask them.but none will know who is the girl.haha
none will know.she teach me how to capture her heart.haha
for those that know.you know what going on.xD

today woke up at 11.30.going out.

i went to heaven and hell.
in hell i saw different treatment of people.
the guy is so alone and sufferinng.
i got burn also.

in heaven.i saw that everthing need to be own fufill.
or what.need to know the own need.
having things now doesnt mean forever.
so i decide that sometime i would have it later.


i wish to had it when i am grandpa and grandma.xD

lol.i am back again.haha.1 day 3 post.haha.it ok also right.haha
seriously i thought about it.or i tried.
haha.the result is. walk 1 step count 1 step lor.
i will wait than see how lor.haha
unless i die the next day la.haha.
so hard to say.haha
so just be it.xD.i still .... you.xD
haha.later got people busybody again.
xD. let your heart itchy itchy.haha.lol.
for those that read only la.haha.
xD.so than.

WALK ONE STEP COUNT ONE STEP.
YOU WOULD BE HAPPY.xD.LIKE ME.xD

would you remember me if i am gone
please remember me if i am gone
PLEASE !!!
PLEASE!!!
PLEASE!!!!

confuse now.
held up high drop down pain.
or it my wishful thinking.
determine to find out what happen.
but i dont want to face the truth.
omg.i am such a coward.give me strength.
to be back who i was.
but for now i cant.
puzzled by the missing puzzle piece.
whether it ruin or not.just give it to me.
for no people will care.whether the puzzle is beautiful anot.

pardon me for being selfish
i was just not being me.
fuck me if i done wrong
for now i would say sorry.
for now i wasnt longer the person i was.

so call holiday ended today.
2 days off.
without school.
tiring day today.sleep late wake up.still tired.
a boring day for me.
as usual.school starting tomorrow
time to prepare and go to sleep.
take care.and you ellen neo.xD
sorry for that but i cant go out.xD

back from friendster.haha
i went to see my testimonial.
long long time ago de.
sort of miss those day.
where got people talk to me de.haha
i guess i missed clarice.
omg clarice write testi for me.haha
alot of her testimonial.
than i read other de.
it really how year pass.
from sec 2 to sec 3.
it passed so quick
yet so calm
i missed alot people de testimonial.
come on,stop lefting me out here.
read my testimonial than you know.haha.from the starting.lol.
i promise i will go and be good.LOL.
i wont be good.sorry i lie.haha
day passed so quicky.august now.
perhap when the day i really wake up.
i would b lieing in coffin.
seriously i dont really remember what happen.
kind of sad.sian.
from testimonial.i also saw how thing change.
as silent as the storm.
the sky is very quiet when a storm is approaching.
or sort of.haha.
come on stop left me out.xD
i quite miss alot of people.people which i used to speak to.
but now.i never.wonder why.sian why.
talk and talk than never talk.
omg there i go bullshiting again.
perhap this is my life bullshiting.haha
time is late.time to take pill.lol

the rights to choose
the rights to give
the rights to love
the 'rights' to be loved.

today it national day.haha.xD
haha.blogging on national day.haha
yesterday was punggol idol.shijing wont.
i brought a stupid rose from derek
and i give it to goldfish.lol.
not really.it she say for me ar.
than i say ok lor.give you.
than like that lor.
dont think too much la.
you all.xD

than later went out.
with derek play pool.
it they play pool.
not me.haha.went to play lan with zehan.
under 16.too bad.haha
owning.first game i random
tio own.
2nd game i pick.
wahaha.OWNING.
than later went home lor.haha
they say yuling coming.haha
lol.and they tell me.lol
dont know why tell me also.haha.xD
LOL.haiyal later people anyhow think.haha
than went mall.brought a fucking keyboard,
it suck.but bo bian.spoilt le.sad.haha
so the lesson learnt is
cheap doest = quality.
never buy cheap keyboard.lol

here to blog again
as usual 4.17+ le.
as usual.haha.
it fun playing with friends.haha



ELLEN.
i dont had my computer as my wife.
i had a person as my wife.
and i will stop
don compare me with a iraq.
that way out of point.

impossible is nothing
there must be some thing between us
just wait for that impossible thing to work us out.
haha


as usual.
dota dota dota
driving me crazy.haha
but now only 2+.haha

suddenly have the urge to do poa.
lol.

suppose today went to pick them up de.haha
but derek tell me not to come.haha
so i didnt.seriously i wanted to go.haha
and you.lol.glad everyone is fine.haha


sunburnt.haha.so sad.lol

wahaha they are coming back
finally.haha.
missed them.haha

DEREK
missed.your singing.
missed.someone to play with
missed.someone to eat with.
missed.someone to cock with.
missed.your qi mo.
missed.your laughter.
missed.everything

GOLDFISH
missed.your BIG BIG EYES.
missed.your big big smile.
missed.your laughter.
missed.everything.

JASMINE
missed.your small small eye.
missed.your laughter.
missed.your smile.
missed.everything.


I MISSED EVERYONE.xD
FINALLY.BACK!!

here to blog again.
misses them again.haha
today was not a bad day.haha.
poa was not boring.
not bad
not really lonely.haha.
cause shandy sitting beside me in class..haha.
all the bastard never come.
than the class lesser people.haha.
only 25 people.haha.
than mei mei so good.she help fill in the information for tomorrow and friday le.haha
dont need fill in.haha
till here than..

MISSED!