at work right now. waiting for time to pass and for the clock to strike at 6 :)
Really bored at work.My transfer approved but now awaiting for HR to take action. And those HR are always taking their own sweet time. good ness me. That's why i really hestitate to go into HRM... Any way, still struggling with the decision to take business management instead of counselling. Alot of ppl would agree that couselling sound more like me.Haha. But seriously, i do not know. Business Management sound more practical .But it seems that my heart beats with counselling.. :( Any way, i need to pray over it. Keep me in prayers as well ok .
Looking forward to the trip to Thailand. in another 2 mth ?? haha...
shop shop shop... bonus bonus bonus...
Saturday, December 16, 2006
My Beloved Father
It touch my heart...
No matter how imperfect our earthly father is, we understand that they are human too and they make mistake. But our heavenly father is a representative of His original plan for His children. The true and perfect example of a Father .The Agape love
The Love of a FatherThis devotional was written by Kelly McFaddenHomeWord Devotionals
How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him.  1 John 3:1
There is a father-son combination that is like none I have ever heard of. In 1962, Dick and Judy Hoyt gave birth to their son Rick. When Rick was born, the umbilical cord was caught around his neck, cutting off air supply to his brain. The Hoyts were told Rick would be in a vegetative state for the rest of his life. Luckily, the Hoyts disagreed. In 1972, Rick was given a computer that would help him write out his thoughts, and three years later was admitted into public school. A few years later, Rick told his dad that he wanted to participate in a 5k race for a local athlete who was paralyzed in an accident. His father agreed to push his wheelchair in the race. Since then, Rick and Dick – known as Team Hoyt – have competed in over 900 events, including 64 marathons and over 200 triathlons.
So why does this father run, swim and ride with his disabled son through all these events? Because the day they finished their first 5k, his son said through his computer, ``Dad, when we were running, it felt like I wasn't disabled anymore.'' Dick wasn’t a runner, a swimmer or a biker before those words were said. He was simply a father who loved his son unconditionally. He was a father who wanted his son to feel like he could fly. The love of this father is amazing!
We too have a Father who loves us unconditionally and calls us His children. All of us grow up with different situations with our earthly fathers. Some people have fathers who coach Little League. Some have never met their fathers. Some fathers are workaholics, while others are alcoholics. Some people view their fathers as heroes; others view their fathers as villains. But, our Father in heaven is perfect. He loves us unconditionally, cares for us, knows what’s best for us and gives without asking for anything in return. He walks alongside us every step of life’s journey, its joys and its trials, never leaving us alone. Your Father in heaven withholds no good thing from you. And, just like Rick, all you need to do is ask.
[Article From Sports Illustrated, By Rick Reilly]
I try to be a good father. Give my kids mulligans. Work nights to pay for their text messaging. Take them to swimsuit shoots.
But compared with Dick Hoyt, I suck.
Eighty-five times he's pushed his disabled son, Rick, 26.2 miles in marathons. Eight times he's not only pushed him 26.2 miles in a wheelchair but also towed him 2.4 miles in a dinghy while swimming and pedaled him 112 miles in a seat on the handlebars--all in the same day.
Dick's also pulled him cross-country skiing, taken him on his back mountain climbing and once hauled him across the U.S. on a bike. Makes taking your son bowling once a year look a little lame, right?
And what has Rick done for his father? Not much - except save his life!
This love story began in Winchester , Mass. , 43 years ago, when Rick was strangled by the umbilical cord during birth, leaving him brain-damaged and unable to control his limbs.
"He'll be a vegetable the rest of his life" Dick says doctors told him and his wife, Judy, when Rick was nine months old. "Put him in an Institution."
But the Hoyts weren't buying it. They noticed the way Rick's eyes followed them around the room. When Rick was 11 they took him to the engineering department at Tufts University and asked if there wasanything to help the boy communicate. "No way," Dick says he was told. "There's nothing going on in his brain."
"Tell him a joke," Dick countered. They did. Rick laughed. Turns out a lot was going on in his brain. Rigged up with a computer that allowed him to control the cursor by touching a switch with the side of his head, Rick was finally able to communicate. First words? "Go Bruins!" [Boston's icehockey team]. And after a high school classmate was paralyzed in an accident and the School organized a charity run forhim, Rick pecked out, "Dad, I want To do that."
Yeah, right. How was Dick, a self-described "porker" who never ran more than a mile at a time, going to push his son five miles? Still, he tried. "Then it was me who was handicapped," Dick says. "I was sore for two weeks."
That day changed Rick's life. "Dad," he typed, "when we were running, it felt like I wasn't disabled anymore!"
And that sentence changed Dick's life. He became obsessed with giving Rick that feeling as often as he could. He got into such hard-belly shape that he and Rick were ready to try the 1979 Boston Marathon.
"No way," Dick was told by a race official. The Hoyts weren't quite a single runner, and they weren't quite a wheelchair competitor. For a few years Dick and Rick just joined the massive field and ran anyway, then they found a way to get into the race Officially: In 1983 they ran another marathon so fast they made the Qualifying time for Boston the following year.
Then somebody said, "Hey, Dick, why not a triathlon?"
How's a guy who never learned to swim and hadn't ridden a bike since he was six going to haul his 110-pound kid through a triathlon? Still, Dick tried.
Now they've done 212 triathlons, including four grueling 15-hour Ironmans in Hawaii . It must be a buzzkill to be a 25-year-old stud getting passed by an old guy towing a grown man in a dinghy, don't you think?
Hey, Dick, why not see how you'd do on your own? "No way," he says.
Dick does it purely for "the awesome feeling" he gets seeing Rick with a cantaloupe smile as they run, swim and ride together.
This year, at ages 65 and 43, Dick and Rick finished their 24th Boston Marathon, in 5,083rd place out of more than 20,000 starters. Their best time? Two hours, 40 minutes in 1992--only 35 minutes off the world record, which, in case you don't keep track of these things, happens to be held by a guy who was not pushing another man in a wheelchair at the time.
"No question about it," Rick types. "My dad is the Father of the Century."
And Dick got something else out of all this too. Two years ago he had a mild heart attack during a race. Doctors found that one of his arteries was 95% clogged. "If you hadn't been in such great shape," One doctor told him, "you probably would've died 15 years ago." So, in a way, Dick and Rick saved each other's life.
Rick, who has his own apartment (he gets home care) and works in Boston, and Dick, retired from the military and living in Holland, Mass. , always find ways to be together. They give speeches around the country and compete in some backbreaking race every weekend, including this Father's Day.
That night, Rick will buy his dad dinner, but the thing he really wants to give him is a gift he can never buy.
"The thing I'd most like," Rick types, "is that my dad sit in the chair and I push him once."
No matter how imperfect our earthly father is, we understand that they are human too and they make mistake. But our heavenly father is a representative of His original plan for His children. The true and perfect example of a Father .The Agape love
The Love of a FatherThis devotional was written by Kelly McFaddenHomeWord Devotionals
How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him.  1 John 3:1
There is a father-son combination that is like none I have ever heard of. In 1962, Dick and Judy Hoyt gave birth to their son Rick. When Rick was born, the umbilical cord was caught around his neck, cutting off air supply to his brain. The Hoyts were told Rick would be in a vegetative state for the rest of his life. Luckily, the Hoyts disagreed. In 1972, Rick was given a computer that would help him write out his thoughts, and three years later was admitted into public school. A few years later, Rick told his dad that he wanted to participate in a 5k race for a local athlete who was paralyzed in an accident. His father agreed to push his wheelchair in the race. Since then, Rick and Dick – known as Team Hoyt – have competed in over 900 events, including 64 marathons and over 200 triathlons.
So why does this father run, swim and ride with his disabled son through all these events? Because the day they finished their first 5k, his son said through his computer, ``Dad, when we were running, it felt like I wasn't disabled anymore.'' Dick wasn’t a runner, a swimmer or a biker before those words were said. He was simply a father who loved his son unconditionally. He was a father who wanted his son to feel like he could fly. The love of this father is amazing!
We too have a Father who loves us unconditionally and calls us His children. All of us grow up with different situations with our earthly fathers. Some people have fathers who coach Little League. Some have never met their fathers. Some fathers are workaholics, while others are alcoholics. Some people view their fathers as heroes; others view their fathers as villains. But, our Father in heaven is perfect. He loves us unconditionally, cares for us, knows what’s best for us and gives without asking for anything in return. He walks alongside us every step of life’s journey, its joys and its trials, never leaving us alone. Your Father in heaven withholds no good thing from you. And, just like Rick, all you need to do is ask.
[Article From Sports Illustrated, By Rick Reilly]
I try to be a good father. Give my kids mulligans. Work nights to pay for their text messaging. Take them to swimsuit shoots.
But compared with Dick Hoyt, I suck.
Eighty-five times he's pushed his disabled son, Rick, 26.2 miles in marathons. Eight times he's not only pushed him 26.2 miles in a wheelchair but also towed him 2.4 miles in a dinghy while swimming and pedaled him 112 miles in a seat on the handlebars--all in the same day.
Dick's also pulled him cross-country skiing, taken him on his back mountain climbing and once hauled him across the U.S. on a bike. Makes taking your son bowling once a year look a little lame, right?
And what has Rick done for his father? Not much - except save his life!
This love story began in Winchester , Mass. , 43 years ago, when Rick was strangled by the umbilical cord during birth, leaving him brain-damaged and unable to control his limbs.
"He'll be a vegetable the rest of his life" Dick says doctors told him and his wife, Judy, when Rick was nine months old. "Put him in an Institution."
But the Hoyts weren't buying it. They noticed the way Rick's eyes followed them around the room. When Rick was 11 they took him to the engineering department at Tufts University and asked if there wasanything to help the boy communicate. "No way," Dick says he was told. "There's nothing going on in his brain."
"Tell him a joke," Dick countered. They did. Rick laughed. Turns out a lot was going on in his brain. Rigged up with a computer that allowed him to control the cursor by touching a switch with the side of his head, Rick was finally able to communicate. First words? "Go Bruins!" [Boston's icehockey team]. And after a high school classmate was paralyzed in an accident and the School organized a charity run forhim, Rick pecked out, "Dad, I want To do that."
Yeah, right. How was Dick, a self-described "porker" who never ran more than a mile at a time, going to push his son five miles? Still, he tried. "Then it was me who was handicapped," Dick says. "I was sore for two weeks."
That day changed Rick's life. "Dad," he typed, "when we were running, it felt like I wasn't disabled anymore!"
And that sentence changed Dick's life. He became obsessed with giving Rick that feeling as often as he could. He got into such hard-belly shape that he and Rick were ready to try the 1979 Boston Marathon.
"No way," Dick was told by a race official. The Hoyts weren't quite a single runner, and they weren't quite a wheelchair competitor. For a few years Dick and Rick just joined the massive field and ran anyway, then they found a way to get into the race Officially: In 1983 they ran another marathon so fast they made the Qualifying time for Boston the following year.
Then somebody said, "Hey, Dick, why not a triathlon?"
How's a guy who never learned to swim and hadn't ridden a bike since he was six going to haul his 110-pound kid through a triathlon? Still, Dick tried.
Now they've done 212 triathlons, including four grueling 15-hour Ironmans in Hawaii . It must be a buzzkill to be a 25-year-old stud getting passed by an old guy towing a grown man in a dinghy, don't you think?
Hey, Dick, why not see how you'd do on your own? "No way," he says.
Dick does it purely for "the awesome feeling" he gets seeing Rick with a cantaloupe smile as they run, swim and ride together.
This year, at ages 65 and 43, Dick and Rick finished their 24th Boston Marathon, in 5,083rd place out of more than 20,000 starters. Their best time? Two hours, 40 minutes in 1992--only 35 minutes off the world record, which, in case you don't keep track of these things, happens to be held by a guy who was not pushing another man in a wheelchair at the time.
"No question about it," Rick types. "My dad is the Father of the Century."
And Dick got something else out of all this too. Two years ago he had a mild heart attack during a race. Doctors found that one of his arteries was 95% clogged. "If you hadn't been in such great shape," One doctor told him, "you probably would've died 15 years ago." So, in a way, Dick and Rick saved each other's life.
Rick, who has his own apartment (he gets home care) and works in Boston, and Dick, retired from the military and living in Holland, Mass. , always find ways to be together. They give speeches around the country and compete in some backbreaking race every weekend, including this Father's Day.
That night, Rick will buy his dad dinner, but the thing he really wants to give him is a gift he can never buy.
"The thing I'd most like," Rick types, "is that my dad sit in the chair and I push him once."
7 dec -some test
Single, taken or crushing
single but not available. Not time yet lah. haha
Are you happy with your life now?
hmm. Not bad la. Whats there to be sad right. Happiness is the way u look at things and not the circumstances u r in mah…
When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/ her fast?
I still believe friends first tin lah…
Have you ever been heartbroken?
yap…and it hurts …
Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating in love is acceptable?
No way man. A lack of communication, yes, but never cheat…
Would you take someone back even if he/she cheats on you?
If he would turn his ways, yes… if not, sorry …
Have you talked about marriage to someone else before?
lots… my church teaching abt it mah. lol
Do you want children?
yap.. I love them J the pride and honour of a woman .:)
How many?
2 .. one will be lonely mah
Would you consider adoptation?
yap.. why not.. J they need love even more …
If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him/her to let you know his/her feelings?
just tell me? I very blur one lo.. u cannot go in circles lah.i prefer direct…
Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
I believe all gals love to be loved …
Do you believe in love at first sight?
erm… ok lah… not love but inflatuation
Do you believe you can change someone?
haha.. no. It up to that individual.
If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
I want to hold some tin simple. By the beach /garden will do.. J
Do you give in easily when fighting?
ya… I care whether the person will get hurt or not. I too SSSSSS le
Do you have feelings for anyone now?
haha.. sort of.
Do you ever wish that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
no , don tin so. I don initiate any way..
Have you ever broken a heart?
erm… don tin very broken la. A bit maybe ? come on, guys should be able to get over fast bah..
If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you're deeply in love with, what will you do?Bless them lo. What else right.. seen best friend broke off due to that. Sad man.
Are you missing anyone right now?
not really.. my bed ?
5 friends to do this survey!(:mmy, nick.. who else.. haha
Layer ONE: On the Outside
Name: Cheer
Birth date: 22/01 coming soon :P
Current status: Single and not available
Eye colour: Black
Hair colour: Black.. but had my hair bleached to blone…
Righty or lefty: righty
Zodiac sign: Aquarius..
Layer TWO: On the Inside
Your heritage: Chinese
Your fears: ghost ? being in a room in the dark.
Your weaknesses: soft hearted?
Your perfect pizza: perfect ?? what u expect man?.
Layer THREE: Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow
Your thoughs first waking up: I wan to zzz
Your bedtime: btw 11 to 2 am bah
Your most missed memory: basketball times (sec sch)
Layer FOUR: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi. Coke is too gasy
McDonald’s or Burger King: mac for fries and BK for Mushroom swiss !!!
Single or group dates: Group bah?
Adidas or Nike: Nike … Just Do It
Lipton tea or Nestea: erm…
Chocolate or vanilla: definetly chocolate !!!
Cappucino or coffee: Cappucino is not coffee mah ?
Layer FIVE: Do you
Smoke: no way
Curse: use to but not now . PTL
Layer SIX: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: erm.. Yomeishu counted ?
Gone to the mall: of course lah
Been on stage: haha. Hop onto on the other day.but no audience lah
Eaten sushi: Yes.. or is it last month ? almost once a wk I suppose.
Dyed your hair: yes, its blone
Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever
Played a stripping game: yeah… hahaha. I know u cnnot imagine. Thast me, crazy.. but all gals lah.
Changed who you were to fit in: I am always changing. Lol kidding …
Layer EIGHT
Age you’re hoping to be married: 26 bah. (wanted younger so my kids age will be near to mine ..lol)
Layer NINE: In a Girl/Guy
Best eye colour: Black I suppose
Best hair colour: erm.. how would I know
Short or long hair: short for guys.. never long !!
Layer TEN: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago: this lah…1 hour ago: having my lunch..1.5 hours ago: WORKING !!!1 month ago: this time should be working lah, what else 1 year ago: come on…
Layer ELEVEN: Finish the Sentence
I love: God,chocolate ,coffee,sleeping,chatting,shoe,eating,sushi,hotdogs….I feel: sleepy. Slept at almost 2 am last night LI hate: liars… irresponsible ppl…. I hide: under my blanket.. I miss: My bedI need: to pray ?
Layer TWELVE: Tag 5 people
single but not available. Not time yet lah. haha
Are you happy with your life now?
hmm. Not bad la. Whats there to be sad right. Happiness is the way u look at things and not the circumstances u r in mah…
When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/ her fast?
I still believe friends first tin lah…
Have you ever been heartbroken?
yap…and it hurts …
Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating in love is acceptable?
No way man. A lack of communication, yes, but never cheat…
Would you take someone back even if he/she cheats on you?
If he would turn his ways, yes… if not, sorry …
Have you talked about marriage to someone else before?
lots… my church teaching abt it mah. lol
Do you want children?
yap.. I love them J the pride and honour of a woman .:)
How many?
2 .. one will be lonely mah
Would you consider adoptation?
yap.. why not.. J they need love even more …
If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him/her to let you know his/her feelings?
just tell me? I very blur one lo.. u cannot go in circles lah.i prefer direct…
Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
I believe all gals love to be loved …
Do you believe in love at first sight?
erm… ok lah… not love but inflatuation
Do you believe you can change someone?
haha.. no. It up to that individual.
If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
I want to hold some tin simple. By the beach /garden will do.. J
Do you give in easily when fighting?
ya… I care whether the person will get hurt or not. I too SSSSSS le
Do you have feelings for anyone now?
haha.. sort of.
Do you ever wish that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
no , don tin so. I don initiate any way..
Have you ever broken a heart?
erm… don tin very broken la. A bit maybe ? come on, guys should be able to get over fast bah..
If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you're deeply in love with, what will you do?Bless them lo. What else right.. seen best friend broke off due to that. Sad man.
Are you missing anyone right now?
not really.. my bed ?
5 friends to do this survey!(:mmy, nick.. who else.. haha
Layer ONE: On the Outside
Name: Cheer
Birth date: 22/01 coming soon :P
Current status: Single and not available
Eye colour: Black
Hair colour: Black.. but had my hair bleached to blone…
Righty or lefty: righty
Zodiac sign: Aquarius..
Layer TWO: On the Inside
Your heritage: Chinese
Your fears: ghost ? being in a room in the dark.
Your weaknesses: soft hearted?
Your perfect pizza: perfect ?? what u expect man?.
Layer THREE: Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow
Your thoughs first waking up: I wan to zzz
Your bedtime: btw 11 to 2 am bah
Your most missed memory: basketball times (sec sch)
Layer FOUR: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi. Coke is too gasy
McDonald’s or Burger King: mac for fries and BK for Mushroom swiss !!!
Single or group dates: Group bah?
Adidas or Nike: Nike … Just Do It
Lipton tea or Nestea: erm…
Chocolate or vanilla: definetly chocolate !!!
Cappucino or coffee: Cappucino is not coffee mah ?
Layer FIVE: Do you
Smoke: no way
Curse: use to but not now . PTL
Layer SIX: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: erm.. Yomeishu counted ?
Gone to the mall: of course lah
Been on stage: haha. Hop onto on the other day.but no audience lah
Eaten sushi: Yes.. or is it last month ? almost once a wk I suppose.
Dyed your hair: yes, its blone
Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever
Played a stripping game: yeah… hahaha. I know u cnnot imagine. Thast me, crazy.. but all gals lah.
Changed who you were to fit in: I am always changing. Lol kidding …
Layer EIGHT
Age you’re hoping to be married: 26 bah. (wanted younger so my kids age will be near to mine ..lol)
Layer NINE: In a Girl/Guy
Best eye colour: Black I suppose
Best hair colour: erm.. how would I know
Short or long hair: short for guys.. never long !!
Layer TEN: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago: this lah…1 hour ago: having my lunch..1.5 hours ago: WORKING !!!1 month ago: this time should be working lah, what else 1 year ago: come on…
Layer ELEVEN: Finish the Sentence
I love: God,chocolate ,coffee,sleeping,chatting,shoe,eating,sushi,hotdogs….I feel: sleepy. Slept at almost 2 am last night LI hate: liars… irresponsible ppl…. I hide: under my blanket.. I miss: My bedI need: to pray ?
Layer TWELVE: Tag 5 people
Monday, November 27, 2006
sick ...
at home now. havin fever on thu then see doc then have diarrheo.. oh my.. been sick.. haiz.. sleepy and tired...pray for my health pls...
thu 23/11
In office right now... been real bored these few days ....shall updates some stuff.
last thu went for pst make up cg. really good. Indeed its pastor :) mainly adults with children. And it really the first time i had been in a cg with children in it. Children who will cry during cg etc etc.. haha. an eye opener .As it is still early, we (wai me and ta ) manage to get peggy (she stays there) to join us for "kopi" .ended up the session with food food and food.Eugene came down as well with his unstyled hair. hahahaha.Funny but he look more refreshing without those gel stuff.Ta went back first and we continue to stay.. chatted till 1230 !! And we had to part.
had not chill out with peggy and wai for such longgggg time. really enjoy it despite i have to take a cab...Reach home about 1 am and ta already slept ( its her bdae :P) .
ON fri , i had a good rest at home before going to Vivo to grap my mac breakfast. Thanks God they still have it at 11 plus.. haha. Ate it and suppose to find a place at vivo roof top to read my book and spend some time with Him.. but no "ideal" place leh. too bad... i start exploring and ended up on a ship !!! Yes, its a ship. There is this international book fair ( held on this ship ) .So i went to take a look. and lo and behold , i am suck there .haha. They were playing christians music like Hill song, CCC etc. oh my ^-^ and the books were cheap !!! Unwillingly i only get two bks as they only accept cash :( One is God is near by max lucado and the other is about teenager gals problem...forget the name . had started the book by Max lucado. Nice :) it just draw u to Jesus. Not what He can do.. but who He is . God, yet human... and it cost only 8 bucks !!!Meet ta after 4 to go eat.Went to get her bdae persent before we go back to vivo to eat since she had not been there. She reommended me the BakersInn which offers pasta and cakes, desserts etc. I had some vuwdfwefwveu clam pasta.(forget the name). The base is from white wine with some herbs. it is slightly spicy. Anita Seafood Aglio olio did not turn out as nice but my dish turn out awesome :) Eventually she started aiming my dish . haha. She had her sumatra cake while i had some chocolate cake as well.Sorry, no photos.. haha.Chance upon this shop which is rather affoordable price. Imagine a dress at 40 bucks lo.. while top shop sell the similiar one for 80 plus. Would got there one day to grap a dress for my upcoming weddings for my friends. haiz.. so many getting married. i am sure getting old :( Anita pampered herself with a shirt she found there. Nice and cool :P
be going for some facial with her soon .Its a shop open by jia ling aunt...looking forward to it :)
Sat church is awesome . Pastor kong is really getting charming. haha. He just have that aura around him. Oh my...Anita remarked that pastor look like Andy lau from certain angle. Oh my.Sun must be happy. haha well, all out pastor are getting younger, handsome, prettier and the whole church is following after as well. really cannot imagine thats me in the photo the other day. sooooo toooooot. lol we have indeed all grown up...more prosperous,more outstanding,more creative...
Stayed at home sun to clean up my stuff.Haha. i get so fed up with my dad that i start throwing away my stuff. And the best thing is that, i am scolding and niaming while i clean up. I am not some one who can keep things within me. i will just erupt. Thus i will niam . but niam too much will result in qurrel. so i can only vent it that way. i remember that i use to talk to "doggy" abt my stuff... haha. And my bro is such a poor thing. He have to bear with me shouting and scolding into the air.Thus he offere to get some ice cream for me. And he is gone for almost an hour(just to get peppermint ice cream). By the end of the day, when the things are clean and nice and order, i am satisfied.haha. When i am upset or happy ,apart from eating chocolate ,i tend to like to do cleaning too. Something good too. haha. Keep my house clean. :)
Tue went for prayer meeting. Nice one. Very inspired by what pastor say. Especially the part of Pst Ulf .He was in singapore and instead of sight seeing and relaxing, he actually went to the lands that we are "aiming" and prayer walk. Oh man.. who would do that ? esp its not your church some more. He is some one who will do that. Indeed he is a man of God...Praying for others... And after a week of prayer, he will tell pastopr Kong about what the Lord had speak to him about the land. Indeed he is in the natural , yet living in the supernatural at the same time. The truth is, as we are working hard and penetrating the marketplace. Even more do we need to pray like never before, to be in the spirit like never before... Indeed God is bring City Harvest to another level with Him.. Lets all rise up in our spiritual life as well .Christopher also shared that we need to learn to guard our heart . How true. its not automatic... but an effort is maked to hang on there, to wait upon Him when nothing seems to happen. Its that stepping out, that extra move, that hanging on that touches God's heart and cause Him to look upon you. It is said that God look tho and fro for some one whose heart is after Him...He is watching...
now in office.. back from lunch and that medical talk.. Got a converse gym bag :( wanted to get one long time ago and it happen to be sale mah...i got one with a mixture of grey and pink color.feeling giddy today...counting down...2 hrs more to HOME
thu 23/11
In office right now... been real bored these few days ....shall updates some stuff.
last thu went for pst make up cg. really good. Indeed its pastor :) mainly adults with children. And it really the first time i had been in a cg with children in it. Children who will cry during cg etc etc.. haha. an eye opener .As it is still early, we (wai me and ta ) manage to get peggy (she stays there) to join us for "kopi" .ended up the session with food food and food.Eugene came down as well with his unstyled hair. hahahaha.Funny but he look more refreshing without those gel stuff.Ta went back first and we continue to stay.. chatted till 1230 !! And we had to part.
had not chill out with peggy and wai for such longgggg time. really enjoy it despite i have to take a cab...Reach home about 1 am and ta already slept ( its her bdae :P) .
ON fri , i had a good rest at home before going to Vivo to grap my mac breakfast. Thanks God they still have it at 11 plus.. haha. Ate it and suppose to find a place at vivo roof top to read my book and spend some time with Him.. but no "ideal" place leh. too bad... i start exploring and ended up on a ship !!! Yes, its a ship. There is this international book fair ( held on this ship ) .So i went to take a look. and lo and behold , i am suck there .haha. They were playing christians music like Hill song, CCC etc. oh my ^-^ and the books were cheap !!! Unwillingly i only get two bks as they only accept cash :( One is God is near by max lucado and the other is about teenager gals problem...forget the name . had started the book by Max lucado. Nice :) it just draw u to Jesus. Not what He can do.. but who He is . God, yet human... and it cost only 8 bucks !!!Meet ta after 4 to go eat.Went to get her bdae persent before we go back to vivo to eat since she had not been there. She reommended me the BakersInn which offers pasta and cakes, desserts etc. I had some vuwdfwefwveu clam pasta.(forget the name). The base is from white wine with some herbs. it is slightly spicy. Anita Seafood Aglio olio did not turn out as nice but my dish turn out awesome :) Eventually she started aiming my dish . haha. She had her sumatra cake while i had some chocolate cake as well.Sorry, no photos.. haha.Chance upon this shop which is rather affoordable price. Imagine a dress at 40 bucks lo.. while top shop sell the similiar one for 80 plus. Would got there one day to grap a dress for my upcoming weddings for my friends. haiz.. so many getting married. i am sure getting old :( Anita pampered herself with a shirt she found there. Nice and cool :P
be going for some facial with her soon .Its a shop open by jia ling aunt...looking forward to it :)
Sat church is awesome . Pastor kong is really getting charming. haha. He just have that aura around him. Oh my...Anita remarked that pastor look like Andy lau from certain angle. Oh my.Sun must be happy. haha well, all out pastor are getting younger, handsome, prettier and the whole church is following after as well. really cannot imagine thats me in the photo the other day. sooooo toooooot. lol we have indeed all grown up...more prosperous,more outstanding,more creative...
Stayed at home sun to clean up my stuff.Haha. i get so fed up with my dad that i start throwing away my stuff. And the best thing is that, i am scolding and niaming while i clean up. I am not some one who can keep things within me. i will just erupt. Thus i will niam . but niam too much will result in qurrel. so i can only vent it that way. i remember that i use to talk to "doggy" abt my stuff... haha. And my bro is such a poor thing. He have to bear with me shouting and scolding into the air.Thus he offere to get some ice cream for me. And he is gone for almost an hour(just to get peppermint ice cream). By the end of the day, when the things are clean and nice and order, i am satisfied.haha. When i am upset or happy ,apart from eating chocolate ,i tend to like to do cleaning too. Something good too. haha. Keep my house clean. :)
Tue went for prayer meeting. Nice one. Very inspired by what pastor say. Especially the part of Pst Ulf .He was in singapore and instead of sight seeing and relaxing, he actually went to the lands that we are "aiming" and prayer walk. Oh man.. who would do that ? esp its not your church some more. He is some one who will do that. Indeed he is a man of God...Praying for others... And after a week of prayer, he will tell pastopr Kong about what the Lord had speak to him about the land. Indeed he is in the natural , yet living in the supernatural at the same time. The truth is, as we are working hard and penetrating the marketplace. Even more do we need to pray like never before, to be in the spirit like never before... Indeed God is bring City Harvest to another level with Him.. Lets all rise up in our spiritual life as well .Christopher also shared that we need to learn to guard our heart . How true. its not automatic... but an effort is maked to hang on there, to wait upon Him when nothing seems to happen. Its that stepping out, that extra move, that hanging on that touches God's heart and cause Him to look upon you. It is said that God look tho and fro for some one whose heart is after Him...He is watching...
now in office.. back from lunch and that medical talk.. Got a converse gym bag :( wanted to get one long time ago and it happen to be sale mah...i got one with a mixture of grey and pink color.feeling giddy today...counting down...2 hrs more to HOME
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Desire...
well, went to meet may and her cousin for a quick dinner after work at Vivo . But never did i expect them to take their own sweet time and fuss about what to eat. Being left with only an hour to eat, hungry and tired (and with their constant niaming), i just turn and went off. Very unlike of what i will do.. but may be thats what the bible say by a hungry man makes an angry man... Wrong of me to do that and thus i apologise after that and likewise over at her side. Believe that must have shocked her. I SELDOM vent my anger... was very hungry and tired.. and walking around that vivo is so hard (its big and going in circles). My mood just get worst. Went to grap a bite at this taiwan stall at basement. Mee Sua and honey dew milk shake. This gal (butch) is making my honey dew while i watch ,then suddenly she ask if it belong to ours...i am surprise and i just say no, mine... then she just smile and jokely say i "xiao qi", and should share share with her ... this really makes me laugh. Instantly i feel better and can smile... It seems that God had send this person to brighten my day. i cannot imagine going on with the day in a bad mood. (yes, i know its how u react but i am still human la..times where i have no logic too mah...) Wanted to walk over to thank her but i am really shy.. haha. Any way, i shall make a prayer for her then :) or drop by on fri .. hmmmm
Well, you see.. the power of good customer service. Indeed, a smile, a concern, a friendliness can brighten ppl's day .
went to YMCA after that . Pastor shared about having a new love for God , a new desire to know God even more, pray even more, etc. True man.. If your spiritual life is not well, alot of things around you will callapse...Because you will not be able to hear God's guidence (which is defininetly better) or the voice of God... HS cannot help you either... you will thus not know what to do in sitruation . Moreover, without the peace of God and the 9 fruit, u will get angry easily, fraustrated etc... how can things be right then ?
Alot of times people or even leaders backslides due to reason of tithing, giving, building fund, out reach events, admin stuff, attendance...etc etc .It might sound right that its the church's fault/ leader's fault or even helper's fault .. but is it ? All these things had been there since the start ... its still the same, just different appoach, different anointing .... SO..conclusion is that you are not doing well...its the root of it if you peel layer by layer ... its not condemation but rather conviction... you feel tired by all these because you yourself are not spiritually well... had not been praying ( praying according to God's will ), had not been reading bible... or even if you do those things, are you having a relationship with God.. prayer without touching the heart of God is... NOTHING !!!.That is why you are tired and could not understand ... God say He will give His beloved rest. I am not saying about sleeping but rather cpme to a state of rest. That the things you do are not troublesome.. but rather comes out of you . Things like outreaches,planning your money aside for BF, tithing, do follow up , admin ,going for prayer meeting, going for bible study...
It really struck me to want to pray more. It says those who seek HIm diligently will see His face. Not just seek HIm, but DILIGENTLY. There will be time of stillness, emptiness, silence .. but will you still wait upon Him?? Its not as easy just to seek but keep seeking till you see Him...
Jesus......
Well, you see.. the power of good customer service. Indeed, a smile, a concern, a friendliness can brighten ppl's day .
went to YMCA after that . Pastor shared about having a new love for God , a new desire to know God even more, pray even more, etc. True man.. If your spiritual life is not well, alot of things around you will callapse...Because you will not be able to hear God's guidence (which is defininetly better) or the voice of God... HS cannot help you either... you will thus not know what to do in sitruation . Moreover, without the peace of God and the 9 fruit, u will get angry easily, fraustrated etc... how can things be right then ?
Alot of times people or even leaders backslides due to reason of tithing, giving, building fund, out reach events, admin stuff, attendance...etc etc .It might sound right that its the church's fault/ leader's fault or even helper's fault .. but is it ? All these things had been there since the start ... its still the same, just different appoach, different anointing .... SO..conclusion is that you are not doing well...its the root of it if you peel layer by layer ... its not condemation but rather conviction... you feel tired by all these because you yourself are not spiritually well... had not been praying ( praying according to God's will ), had not been reading bible... or even if you do those things, are you having a relationship with God.. prayer without touching the heart of God is... NOTHING !!!.That is why you are tired and could not understand ... God say He will give His beloved rest. I am not saying about sleeping but rather cpme to a state of rest. That the things you do are not troublesome.. but rather comes out of you . Things like outreaches,planning your money aside for BF, tithing, do follow up , admin ,going for prayer meeting, going for bible study...
It really struck me to want to pray more. It says those who seek HIm diligently will see His face. Not just seek HIm, but DILIGENTLY. There will be time of stillness, emptiness, silence .. but will you still wait upon Him?? Its not as easy just to seek but keep seeking till you see Him...
Jesus......
Sunday, November 12, 2006
sleepy...
thu 9/11
Oh my.. so sleepy right now. the coffee i had earlier is making me sick :( Should not chat till so late with miss ang but really have not had long conversation with her for some time le.in office now.. very tempted to take half day as i am feeling tired physically.
Been tired spiritually these few weeks too...Really had a war with my carnel mind.. Been crucifying it again and again....I have learnt to depend on the Word of God to help me overcome. This is the first time in my walk with Him that i experience this. And i do believe its part of the walk with Him.A test of commitment and faithfulness. Indeed obedience is better then sacrifice.
Do not turn Your face from me
LordAs i seek You and yearn for YouI
know the many times I've broken Your heart
And the many times You've forgiven
One thing i ask is for You to be near D
ays without You are empty and dead
Dry and forsaken
Quiet and still
That i could not breath any more
My head is spinning and my heart is heavy
I feel weak and had no strength nor joy
I feel i am back to the starting
The me without You in my life
You say
Those who are pure in heart will see Your face
Lord, Purify and cleanse me
That i may stand before You.....
Its You i want from the start....
Oh my.. so sleepy right now. the coffee i had earlier is making me sick :( Should not chat till so late with miss ang but really have not had long conversation with her for some time le.in office now.. very tempted to take half day as i am feeling tired physically.
Been tired spiritually these few weeks too...Really had a war with my carnel mind.. Been crucifying it again and again....I have learnt to depend on the Word of God to help me overcome. This is the first time in my walk with Him that i experience this. And i do believe its part of the walk with Him.A test of commitment and faithfulness. Indeed obedience is better then sacrifice.
Do not turn Your face from me
LordAs i seek You and yearn for YouI
know the many times I've broken Your heart
And the many times You've forgiven
One thing i ask is for You to be near D
ays without You are empty and dead
Dry and forsaken
Quiet and still
That i could not breath any more
My head is spinning and my heart is heavy
I feel weak and had no strength nor joy
I feel i am back to the starting
The me without You in my life
You say
Those who are pure in heart will see Your face
Lord, Purify and cleanse me
That i may stand before You.....
Its You i want from the start....
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Lets Arise & Built
Today is Arise and bulit weekend. Although this yr i have not given/pledge as much as last yr but the peace of God is within. I have learn that God desires obedience even more then sacrifise. U might wonder why but i do know God's way is higher then our way and i have learn to comprehend this through my yrs of walk with him... Had a number of friends joining us. PTL. W117, lets work hard for the harvest and lets bring Christ into culture. Let shine in the whole .:)
Glad wai stayed with us today.. its been so so so so long....
And oh ya... i finally receive my baptism cert after 3 yrs.. yes, 3 yrs. haha
Nov 2 (Thu)
Well.. have not blog for some time.In the office right now , drinking my Star bucks Mocha coffee, My Boss is not in for the week and practically i just rot for the week (-_-)"' . I suppose i am a workaholic but some how i am not given the work i expected to do... haha. Ppl long to be like me while i envy that they can keep their time occupied and make them self useful. Why am i in such state ? I do not know... but i do know that i will learn some thing while in this state...Patience ?
Last Sat i went for the Global Chinese Music Award.Manage to see Andy lau and i do believe he is the highlight. the rest of the star were so far behind him. He was just so stunning that he don't seem to belong there .I suppose he should be in Hollywood . SHE were very cute. they just brighten up the place with their playfulness. Think they sure know how to self entertain and enjoy themself. Love them even more now.Most of the singers were terrible and do not know basic stage manner. Not to blame them, they were young and the coordinator should think about the flow and inform the singers . Well, Andy amaze me with his stage manners his humble style.He is very interactive and been chatting with the people beside him despite him being the BIG STAR . I can see that he is really bored to death there but yet he sit through out the whole event .WOW. Moreover, he really gave his all when he perform.He was so excited to sing that he ended up jumping at the end .This is what i call good singers. No wonder he is still so famous.Some other singers do not even know how to perform. Oh my.I think my church singers are better then them ALOT !!! At least my church singers have such nice smile . It was rather disappointing. Twins, the goup of two had only one turn up....,"wu yue tian " , the group of five had only one representative ,Jay chou not there as well and the rest of the Singers were unknown to me .The events were boring, the crowd were dull and dead , the sound is not very nice and the whole thing is so draggy. Can u imagine it is suppose to start at 730 but it don't and it end after 12 ?What mode of transport are the crowd suppose to get apart from cab ? Oh my... 4 hours of prize presentation..Why am i there ??
Well, at least i get to see Sun Ho, SHE , Ekin and Andy perform. I do hope FIR and JJ could be there too. haha
ok...some things for u to know abt me
100 things abt myself...
1. I talk alot when i am tired
2. I am naggy and i am trying to change
3. I do housework.
4. I prefer to be at the back end
5. My Christian name is given by God -Cheer
6. My chinese name means moon light ( light in the dark..woohoo)
7. ppl do call me moon cake
8. or moon moon, ah yue, ming ming
9. I use to serve in my church dialect
10. I love the elderly and i miss them
11. currently helping in my cg
12. I love youth. how good to be young
13. I use to fight with guys(pri& Sec)
14. I use to play net ball in my sch
15. I love badminton and still do. :)
16. I use to play basket ball even on rainy days .haha
17. I will play from after sch to evening almost every day
18. I join addidas 3 on 3 basketball. Do not get in but good try
19. I use to support a group of basketball team and go with them wherever they go
20. I took ALOT of cab in the past. And its all on calls.
21. The most unforgettable is the london cab. nice :)
22. I normally do not do well in tourament.Think i just not on form
23. I lost out 3 yrs to this guy in my badminton double competition in sec times. Oh man
24. I wanted to join band in my sec time ( haiz.. why i did not ?...)
25. I am a librarian . lol
26. I use to scold 3 letters word .
27. Thus i get my friend to fine me whenever i speak.
28. I use to dislike christians
29. I say i will never be one
30. But now i had been one for 4 yrs plus le
31. And i never regretted..
.32. I love red wine
33. And i hate beer. taste terrible
34. I don think i can take one can of beer...i think...
35. I have never been drunk and vomitted..
36. I play true or dare . haha..
37. Use to play "die xian" and "bi xian" (siao **)
38. Use to chant in Thai and was a temple high monk's god daughter
39. Use to have asthma and was very skinny in the past
40. Thus led to my skin allergy . its look scary but thank God.. it had been under control
41. I got betrayed by friend. Even when times i am super down...
42. I learn to dealt with money carefully and wisely
43. The root of all evil is not money but lust for money.
44. I use to think that i do not want to get married (tin i have built a wall)
45. But the Word of God changed me.
46. all my ex are not local
47. I finally took a plane this yr
48. And went Medan for mission with ppl i just know for one day
49. But we really click and i miss those times
50. oh ya. i am a super high S person
51. I am a cry baby
52. I am spolit but i have changed alot la
53. Still a bit stubborn . lol
54. I have alot of good friends with me
55. I am very "siao sa"/cool...
56. I don't have crush for ppl
57. Nor do i fall in love for some one first
58. But now i do.. :P
59. My taste for man changes over yrs..
60. oh.. i am short.. haiz
61. But i am cool with it..
62. I need to cut down my weight !!
63. I use to love Nike
64. I use to draw alot but wonder where my patience goes now
65. I love coffee
66. And chocolate
67. I am without likes and dislikes in the pas
t68. Now i know who i am. My likes and dislike
69. I am so dull in the past
70. My dressing sucks
71. Now i dress better and with style. haha
72. I am working right now
73. I wanted to study badly !!
74. I need to go facial !!
75. My mum left me when i am less then 5 .
76. I don't remember alot about her
77. My grandparents raise me up
78. Both of them are not around any more
79. I pray they could go to heaven
80. I wrote songs. haha
81. I need to write some by this yr too !!
82. Its only for me and God ...
83. I am learning guitar
84. I wanted to learn flute and piano
85. I wanted to dance
86. I love the name Josiah and Joshua
87. I like stitch :)
88. Use to like tweety alot too
89. I like Jeacy cheung,Anita mui, leslie , ah mei ,Takeshi Sorimachi and tony leung
90. I like the butterfly lovers show
91. I have the CD and every time i still cry when i watch.
92. The first show that i follow is a date with the vampire. haha
93. I use to cycle at 5 pm every day from pri to sec..
94. I like to sit in th swing
95. I use to carry my "doggy" wherever i go.
96. I have a pet bird that died when i am pri 5
97. I can sayang it with my hand lo. haha...and i cry alot for it
98. I have sinus
99. I love beef alot
100. Hmm.. what else should i say ?I love children. haha
Glad wai stayed with us today.. its been so so so so long....
And oh ya... i finally receive my baptism cert after 3 yrs.. yes, 3 yrs. haha
Nov 2 (Thu)
Well.. have not blog for some time.In the office right now , drinking my Star bucks Mocha coffee, My Boss is not in for the week and practically i just rot for the week (-_-)"' . I suppose i am a workaholic but some how i am not given the work i expected to do... haha. Ppl long to be like me while i envy that they can keep their time occupied and make them self useful. Why am i in such state ? I do not know... but i do know that i will learn some thing while in this state...Patience ?
Last Sat i went for the Global Chinese Music Award.Manage to see Andy lau and i do believe he is the highlight. the rest of the star were so far behind him. He was just so stunning that he don't seem to belong there .I suppose he should be in Hollywood . SHE were very cute. they just brighten up the place with their playfulness. Think they sure know how to self entertain and enjoy themself. Love them even more now.Most of the singers were terrible and do not know basic stage manner. Not to blame them, they were young and the coordinator should think about the flow and inform the singers . Well, Andy amaze me with his stage manners his humble style.He is very interactive and been chatting with the people beside him despite him being the BIG STAR . I can see that he is really bored to death there but yet he sit through out the whole event .WOW. Moreover, he really gave his all when he perform.He was so excited to sing that he ended up jumping at the end .This is what i call good singers. No wonder he is still so famous.Some other singers do not even know how to perform. Oh my.I think my church singers are better then them ALOT !!! At least my church singers have such nice smile . It was rather disappointing. Twins, the goup of two had only one turn up....,"wu yue tian " , the group of five had only one representative ,Jay chou not there as well and the rest of the Singers were unknown to me .The events were boring, the crowd were dull and dead , the sound is not very nice and the whole thing is so draggy. Can u imagine it is suppose to start at 730 but it don't and it end after 12 ?What mode of transport are the crowd suppose to get apart from cab ? Oh my... 4 hours of prize presentation..Why am i there ??
Well, at least i get to see Sun Ho, SHE , Ekin and Andy perform. I do hope FIR and JJ could be there too. haha
ok...some things for u to know abt me
100 things abt myself...
1. I talk alot when i am tired
2. I am naggy and i am trying to change
3. I do housework.
4. I prefer to be at the back end
5. My Christian name is given by God -Cheer
6. My chinese name means moon light ( light in the dark..woohoo)
7. ppl do call me moon cake
8. or moon moon, ah yue, ming ming
9. I use to serve in my church dialect
10. I love the elderly and i miss them
11. currently helping in my cg
12. I love youth. how good to be young
13. I use to fight with guys(pri& Sec)
14. I use to play net ball in my sch
15. I love badminton and still do. :)
16. I use to play basket ball even on rainy days .haha
17. I will play from after sch to evening almost every day
18. I join addidas 3 on 3 basketball. Do not get in but good try
19. I use to support a group of basketball team and go with them wherever they go
20. I took ALOT of cab in the past. And its all on calls.
21. The most unforgettable is the london cab. nice :)
22. I normally do not do well in tourament.Think i just not on form
23. I lost out 3 yrs to this guy in my badminton double competition in sec times. Oh man
24. I wanted to join band in my sec time ( haiz.. why i did not ?...)
25. I am a librarian . lol
26. I use to scold 3 letters word .
27. Thus i get my friend to fine me whenever i speak.
28. I use to dislike christians
29. I say i will never be one
30. But now i had been one for 4 yrs plus le
31. And i never regretted..
.32. I love red wine
33. And i hate beer. taste terrible
34. I don think i can take one can of beer...i think...
35. I have never been drunk and vomitted..
36. I play true or dare . haha..
37. Use to play "die xian" and "bi xian" (siao **)
38. Use to chant in Thai and was a temple high monk's god daughter
39. Use to have asthma and was very skinny in the past
40. Thus led to my skin allergy . its look scary but thank God.. it had been under control
41. I got betrayed by friend. Even when times i am super down...
42. I learn to dealt with money carefully and wisely
43. The root of all evil is not money but lust for money.
44. I use to think that i do not want to get married (tin i have built a wall)
45. But the Word of God changed me.
46. all my ex are not local
47. I finally took a plane this yr
48. And went Medan for mission with ppl i just know for one day
49. But we really click and i miss those times
50. oh ya. i am a super high S person
51. I am a cry baby
52. I am spolit but i have changed alot la
53. Still a bit stubborn . lol
54. I have alot of good friends with me
55. I am very "siao sa"/cool...
56. I don't have crush for ppl
57. Nor do i fall in love for some one first
58. But now i do.. :P
59. My taste for man changes over yrs..
60. oh.. i am short.. haiz
61. But i am cool with it..
62. I need to cut down my weight !!
63. I use to love Nike
64. I use to draw alot but wonder where my patience goes now
65. I love coffee
66. And chocolate
67. I am without likes and dislikes in the pas
t68. Now i know who i am. My likes and dislike
69. I am so dull in the past
70. My dressing sucks
71. Now i dress better and with style. haha
72. I am working right now
73. I wanted to study badly !!
74. I need to go facial !!
75. My mum left me when i am less then 5 .
76. I don't remember alot about her
77. My grandparents raise me up
78. Both of them are not around any more
79. I pray they could go to heaven
80. I wrote songs. haha
81. I need to write some by this yr too !!
82. Its only for me and God ...
83. I am learning guitar
84. I wanted to learn flute and piano
85. I wanted to dance
86. I love the name Josiah and Joshua
87. I like stitch :)
88. Use to like tweety alot too
89. I like Jeacy cheung,Anita mui, leslie , ah mei ,Takeshi Sorimachi and tony leung
90. I like the butterfly lovers show
91. I have the CD and every time i still cry when i watch.
92. The first show that i follow is a date with the vampire. haha
93. I use to cycle at 5 pm every day from pri to sec..
94. I like to sit in th swing
95. I use to carry my "doggy" wherever i go.
96. I have a pet bird that died when i am pri 5
97. I can sayang it with my hand lo. haha...and i cry alot for it
98. I have sinus
99. I love beef alot
100. Hmm.. what else should i say ?I love children. haha
Friday, October 20, 2006
Building lifes not buildings...
awaiting for the bell to ring.. haha. there is an inner bell within me that rings when its time to go home . lol
been singing some old song. nice...
may be i should start an online blog/ journal with God since i am so bored at work. with pass word of course. Its meant for God mah. so only He have te key to the blog. hahaha. Just like He have the key to my heart. Yeah, shu xian is coming this sat. :) more ice cream for me.
wow, thank God that we had been having friends that join us... Frog, Gauva and the Dion . Praise the Lord. It really liven the cg when there are new ppl. If not it seems to be in a rug. I need more sisters !! Shall pray hard and work hard on it. :)
Like pst say on tue. We are building lifes.. not building. Whats the point when you built buildings but life are not change ? When your life is change by God, you learn to be more giving . You can give without loving but you cannot love without giving. And yet its true that there are ppl who engross so much in "sacrifising " and did not realise the true meaning behind the word Giving....
Etc Abraham when chose to part with Lot actually gave Lot the choice to chose . And Lot, although righteous chose the better land. The bible say Lot is righteous but did not day He know God . That is why he do not have the character of God. The Giving character... while Abraham has....
This building fund... i wanted to give God my best . But not only that, but to give Him praise through my words, conducts, character... To meet the needs of others and heal the broken hearted. A very simple one line word but many christain are so "churchy" that they forget the essential part. Church, cg is not only abt bible study, cell group, service, attendance, fasting, praying. Those things are important but do not forget, its all about people and their life.
When is the last time you meet up ur cg member to have some simple fellowship ? when is the last time u learn to be flexible to meet up with your friends and listen to their problem ? Life is not abt ministry ministry and forget the real meaning behind ministry
some ministry say that they are too busy to always follow up , or rather they are harsh or direct in their word..
True to a certain aspect. But eventually it cannot be an excuse.
Imagine a young usher who join the usher and being excited . But got scolded without knowing why. And thus when she rise up, she will do the same. Is that the way Jesus do things ? i doubt so. Yes, scoldings but later a communication to let the younger one understand . May be that is why .. it just got pass down from above... (Usher is taken as an eg only)
I learn that when i realise that some of my members were handling things the way i handle.. and it shock me. People, esp younger ones would learn from those near them..
so ppl, be a good example,,,,think, what would Jesus do/say/react....
Imperfect ppl but going onto maturity .
been singing some old song. nice...
may be i should start an online blog/ journal with God since i am so bored at work. with pass word of course. Its meant for God mah. so only He have te key to the blog. hahaha. Just like He have the key to my heart. Yeah, shu xian is coming this sat. :) more ice cream for me.
wow, thank God that we had been having friends that join us... Frog, Gauva and the Dion . Praise the Lord. It really liven the cg when there are new ppl. If not it seems to be in a rug. I need more sisters !! Shall pray hard and work hard on it. :)
Like pst say on tue. We are building lifes.. not building. Whats the point when you built buildings but life are not change ? When your life is change by God, you learn to be more giving . You can give without loving but you cannot love without giving. And yet its true that there are ppl who engross so much in "sacrifising " and did not realise the true meaning behind the word Giving....
Etc Abraham when chose to part with Lot actually gave Lot the choice to chose . And Lot, although righteous chose the better land. The bible say Lot is righteous but did not day He know God . That is why he do not have the character of God. The Giving character... while Abraham has....
This building fund... i wanted to give God my best . But not only that, but to give Him praise through my words, conducts, character... To meet the needs of others and heal the broken hearted. A very simple one line word but many christain are so "churchy" that they forget the essential part. Church, cg is not only abt bible study, cell group, service, attendance, fasting, praying. Those things are important but do not forget, its all about people and their life.
When is the last time you meet up ur cg member to have some simple fellowship ? when is the last time u learn to be flexible to meet up with your friends and listen to their problem ? Life is not abt ministry ministry and forget the real meaning behind ministry
some ministry say that they are too busy to always follow up , or rather they are harsh or direct in their word..
True to a certain aspect. But eventually it cannot be an excuse.
Imagine a young usher who join the usher and being excited . But got scolded without knowing why. And thus when she rise up, she will do the same. Is that the way Jesus do things ? i doubt so. Yes, scoldings but later a communication to let the younger one understand . May be that is why .. it just got pass down from above... (Usher is taken as an eg only)
I learn that when i realise that some of my members were handling things the way i handle.. and it shock me. People, esp younger ones would learn from those near them..
so ppl, be a good example,,,,think, what would Jesus do/say/react....
Imperfect ppl but going onto maturity .
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
new vessel...
10102006
ya.. i am sick. at home right now. haha. not very big issue but take the chance to rest lo...shall take some time out to pray too... eating moooncake cos my house got too much.. dots.
last fri my boss boss talk to me.. haiz.. was rather down and confide to miss mah. Thank God for her. really blur as to where i am heading. Still, i thank God for favour of man. i do believe He will guide me ....
well.. as i have thought, miss ang buy me a key chian.. haha. thanks thanks.:)
got my name one k. personalise one. she is getting more and more nu ren le.. haha. know how to buy things for ppl le... she also learn to "hug hug" me .. haha. cos whenever pst call ask to hug those beside us.. both of us will just do nothing one.. now she still will give me a squeeze ... lol. she say i too short to hug (-_-)"' . well.. i am a Qulity time and physical touch person mah... haha
was with miss ang on sun.. was going back home when i pump into him... almost 3 yrs or so since i last saw him. he just disappear. when he saw me, he just hid behind the pillar even when his friends went to sit at the chairs beside me... he don even dare to see me.may be i will feel better if he dare to walk over to chat then to avoid me . the atmosphere is so weird . his friends just keep looking over while i just keep acting...and miss ang still donno some tin not right... i have mix feelings then.told her that there is some one that i don felt like seeing . if not my whole train journey will be very hard . Seriously, i do not know what i am feeling... wanted to tell miss ang and share with her but i just donno how...where to start. where to end. i don even know what i am feeling...mix feelings...sms her but she hor....she is that way.. i can understand ...cannot blame her la...
what am i feeling.. i do not know ...even till now... maybe God knows... and only God knows...hahaha. maybe i should start peeling my emotions... i do believe it will hurt so much....may be its time to settle it...
03102006
in office right now typing this article away. Had been a cold day without my jacket .well, Life had been an adventure.It had only been a short whle since i updates my entries and yet alot of things ad happen. I do not know where to start. and where to stop. So many things to dealt with yet so limited wisdom and knowledge and strength.Had been spending rather alot . Its time to stop and save it up for raining days and not to mention the coming of building fund.Still praying and waiting for the amount to give to the House of God....Well, these few weeks i finally have some time to meet up with some of my friends and catch up with them .
May - went to salon with her and spend some time with her eating and sharing.doing facial etc etcGrace - Its always a refreshing time with her . Continue to serve Him my dear friend. P/S : stop dialect for almost one year already.How time passes... have i achieve what i wanted to... Shan - Our heart to heart talk... abt God, friends, family ,struggles, life , church ....Mic - nice shopping and phone call with her. Miss her lots...
well..i want to thank God for His peace .For His guidence. Was about to flare up last sun when the Holy Spirit just calm me down .Thanks God.. amazing how i could calm down from this "injustice" that i have . haha.Indeed we are to change and grow in us the fruit of the Holy Spirt.Mon took a day off as i need to rest .Haven really sleep for so long....
Oh ya, miss ang brought me some thing.. wonder whats she is up to. haha
ya.. i am sick. at home right now. haha. not very big issue but take the chance to rest lo...shall take some time out to pray too... eating moooncake cos my house got too much.. dots.
last fri my boss boss talk to me.. haiz.. was rather down and confide to miss mah. Thank God for her. really blur as to where i am heading. Still, i thank God for favour of man. i do believe He will guide me ....
well.. as i have thought, miss ang buy me a key chian.. haha. thanks thanks.:)
got my name one k. personalise one. she is getting more and more nu ren le.. haha. know how to buy things for ppl le... she also learn to "hug hug" me .. haha. cos whenever pst call ask to hug those beside us.. both of us will just do nothing one.. now she still will give me a squeeze ... lol. she say i too short to hug (-_-)"' . well.. i am a Qulity time and physical touch person mah... haha
was with miss ang on sun.. was going back home when i pump into him... almost 3 yrs or so since i last saw him. he just disappear. when he saw me, he just hid behind the pillar even when his friends went to sit at the chairs beside me... he don even dare to see me.may be i will feel better if he dare to walk over to chat then to avoid me . the atmosphere is so weird . his friends just keep looking over while i just keep acting...and miss ang still donno some tin not right... i have mix feelings then.told her that there is some one that i don felt like seeing . if not my whole train journey will be very hard . Seriously, i do not know what i am feeling... wanted to tell miss ang and share with her but i just donno how...where to start. where to end. i don even know what i am feeling...mix feelings...sms her but she hor....she is that way.. i can understand ...cannot blame her la...
what am i feeling.. i do not know ...even till now... maybe God knows... and only God knows...hahaha. maybe i should start peeling my emotions... i do believe it will hurt so much....may be its time to settle it...
03102006
in office right now typing this article away. Had been a cold day without my jacket .well, Life had been an adventure.It had only been a short whle since i updates my entries and yet alot of things ad happen. I do not know where to start. and where to stop. So many things to dealt with yet so limited wisdom and knowledge and strength.Had been spending rather alot . Its time to stop and save it up for raining days and not to mention the coming of building fund.Still praying and waiting for the amount to give to the House of God....Well, these few weeks i finally have some time to meet up with some of my friends and catch up with them .
May - went to salon with her and spend some time with her eating and sharing.doing facial etc etcGrace - Its always a refreshing time with her . Continue to serve Him my dear friend. P/S : stop dialect for almost one year already.How time passes... have i achieve what i wanted to... Shan - Our heart to heart talk... abt God, friends, family ,struggles, life , church ....Mic - nice shopping and phone call with her. Miss her lots...
well..i want to thank God for His peace .For His guidence. Was about to flare up last sun when the Holy Spirit just calm me down .Thanks God.. amazing how i could calm down from this "injustice" that i have . haha.Indeed we are to change and grow in us the fruit of the Holy Spirt.Mon took a day off as i need to rest .Haven really sleep for so long....
Oh ya, miss ang brought me some thing.. wonder whats she is up to. haha
Thursday, September 21, 2006
my cell :)
simplily love my cg....
it seems that i am some one who enjoy going out in groups. and Yes, its true. times where i do enjoy private moment with one or some friends. Those close to my heart esp. Love those delicated time to them... so many that i need to catch up again. Once again i say, i am a people person :)
Recently alot of war fare in my mind. haiz... ppl are often trap in their mind. I thank God that He had set me free and His Holy Spirit will help me to renew my mind to that of His's DAILY .... its not that gd to be able to visual any way, some times it gets so scary....
Recently i have a few encounters with communication btw two person. How important it is. Few things that i learn during the marraige seminar
- DO NOT NAG AT MAN ( which i always do.. oopss)
- MAN HAVE PRIDE ( give them face)
- GIVE RESPECT ( esp to my dad)
- SHOUTIN AND YELLING IS NOTWHAT GOD LOVES ( if i am not wrong, its sin !!!)
- DO NOT GENERALISE THINGS ( which many fall into this..me too.. )
- ATTACT THE PROBLEM,NOT PERSON ( this would solve alot of conflict)
- SHARE ABT HOW U FEEL ( its something all of us need to learn... ) and the list goes on..
its really applicable to even singels :)
this wk is abt intimacy and romance ...hhhhmmm
oh ya, side tract a bit. this seminar had changes alot of my singels friends around.. ahaha. some of them FINALLY wanted to get attached and those attached people are even planning for marraige . Praise the Lord. As for me, i look forward to it. So, let His will work upon me.. waiting for my prince charming.. haha
Adios ...-
Monday, September 11, 2006
i am blessed
11 /09/2006
So much to share ...but i donno where to start ...
Firstly, very bless by what pastor taught... inner vows etc etc... hmmm...i do have a part of my growing up that i totally don remember.. hmmmm, any way
Been singing old song recently and its so nice...
i love you , i love you , i love you,
i love you, i love you , i love you
i love you, i love you , i love you
And my heart will follow wholly after you ...
yes Lord... i Love you
well, before i am a christian, i am even more shy and keep things to myself. i do nott hug nor touch nor embrace ppl.. and i have learn to now... Because of Him...
some times, it get so scary as the Lord reveals things to me. I do know i am ready to dealt with this area already.. but it still not easy .. many things of the heart , is hard to deal with....
And i do know its for better :)
ah gong is gone for 100 days le.. hmmmm... it seems that this time, it is easiler for me. Because He is with me.... :) love u papa
So much to share ...but i donno where to start ...
Firstly, very bless by what pastor taught... inner vows etc etc... hmmm...i do have a part of my growing up that i totally don remember.. hmmmm, any way
Been singing old song recently and its so nice...
i love you , i love you , i love you,
i love you, i love you , i love you
i love you, i love you , i love you
And my heart will follow wholly after you ...
yes Lord... i Love you
well, before i am a christian, i am even more shy and keep things to myself. i do nott hug nor touch nor embrace ppl.. and i have learn to now... Because of Him...
some times, it get so scary as the Lord reveals things to me. I do know i am ready to dealt with this area already.. but it still not easy .. many things of the heart , is hard to deal with....
And i do know its for better :)
ah gong is gone for 100 days le.. hmmmm... it seems that this time, it is easiler for me. Because He is with me.... :) love u papa
good article
5 Sep
Found this on www.galvin.worshipsingapore.com
No More Mr. Nice Group
No More Mr. Nice Group
Five practices that take small groups beyond polite sharing to the disciplines that change lives.
By John Ortberg
God has entrusted us with his most precious treasure - people. He asks us to shepherd and mold them into strong disciples, with brave faith, and good character. I would not give my life to any church that was not serious about this calling - the transformation of human beings. God has decided, for his own good reasons, that people are not transformed outside of community.
Years ago, while on vacation, I was going to fix something on the grill. I made a pile of charcoal, I poured a few gallons of lighter fluid over them, and I started the fire. My son was just fascinated by fire, as most young boys are. He asked what I was doing, and I told him.
"There's something about the way these little briquettes are constructed that when you put them together, the fire glows and they get real hot. And if you isolate one it cools off quickly. It loses the fire. But when they stick together, there's fire, because they feed off each other. God designed them to work that way."
This fits what Dallas Willard has said about the Christian life: "Personalities united can contain more of God and sustain the force of his greater presence better than scattered individuals." Think about that. Personalities united people in community - contain more of God and his transforming power than isolated individuals. We should not be surprised that transformation requires community; it's how God designed us.
When we are alone, it's easy to think, incorrectly, that we are spiritually advanced. I can watch a Hallmark commercial alone and find myself moved to tears. I tell myself that I am a very compassionate person. But when I spend time in community with a person who annoys me, it's amazing how quickly I experience "compassion fatigue."
In community we discover who we really are and how much transformation we still require. This is why I am irrevocably committed to small groups. Through them we can accomplish our God-entrusted work to transform human beings.
However, experience tells us that simply meeting with a small group does not automatically result in spiritual growth. There are certain practices that must be present, spiritual disciplines that must occur, to facilitate the transforming work of Christ in us. The presence of these things is what makes the difference between all-too-typical small groups, and life-transforming communities of spiritual formation.
What are these practices? I asked Dallas Willard that question once because he's forgotten more about spiritual formation and church history than I will ever know. His answer surprised me. He said, "I don't know." Rather than being discouraged, I saw this as a rare opportunity to discover something Dallas Willard didn't know. I launched into a time of deeper reflection and study.
After months looking at Scripture, reading church history, talking with respected people, and meeting with leaders of small groups, I don't think I have the definitive answer, but I have observed five essential practices:
Confession: remove the masks
We all wear masks. We hide from each other. It's part of our fallenness. That is why one of the most formative practices in a small group is confession. Confession is the appropriate disclosure of my brokenness, temptations, sin, and victories for the purpose of healing, forgiveness, and spiritual growth. Without confession we are a community hiding from the truth.
I know what it's like to do church with people who wear masks. I've attended very nice churches where people smiled, talked about their jobs or the weather, but never really removed their masks and revealed themselves.
I recall one couple, pillars of the church, whose marriage fell apart when the wife ran away with another man. The church was shocked; the couple had hid the reality of their troubled marriage for years. Another woman in the church was well liked by everyone, but one day she landed in the hospital to have her stomach pumped of the poison she had taken. She was so miserable she felt unable to face another day. And no one in the church knew.
I will not invest my life in a community that doesn't value truth and confession, and neither should you. Without confession we cannot accomplish our God-given calling to transform people.
Throughout church history, whenever God has done great things, confession has always been present. In the church, confession must be freely offered-never manipulated. A small group serious about transformation should be moving into ever deeper confession-removing masks to reveal our core feelings and fears, sins we still struggle with, and areas where we're not growing.
We need to avoid "confession killers" in our groups. These include the inappropriate use of humor. Some people are embarrassed by deep honesty, so they may mock the person confessing or diffuse the atmosphere with a joke. It sends a signal that this is not a safe place to confess, and the masks go back on.
Judgmental statements also shut down confession. I recall a small group where a man admitted his struggle with lust. That was a risk, and then someone else said, "I can't relate to that struggle at all." I wanted to say to that guy, What kind of hormonally challenged, repressed robot are you? His statement shut down an opportunity for new openness in the group.
To see real transformation, small groups must begin with reality. By removing our masks through the discipline of confession, we acknowledge the reality of who we are and open ourselves to God's transforming work.
Application: look in the mirror
James 1:23 says, "Those who listen to the word, but do not do what it says, are like people who look at their faces in the mirror, and after looking at themselves, go away and immediately forget what they look like." A small group is a place for people to look into the mirror, discover who they are, and then ask, "How do I apply God's word to my life as it really is?"
As a teacher I am regularly astonished by people's ability to hear a sermon, nod at it, be moved by it, write it down, and then do precisely the opposite of what they heard. This frequent occurrence shows the extent to which people need painstaking, patient, and careful application of Scripture to their daily lives.
We may hear biblical instructions like be gentle, be loving, be faithful-but how do I actually apply that to my boss, spouse, or kids?What would Jesus do if someone cut him off in traffic? Would he say, "I don't condemn you; go and sin no more"? Or, would he roll down the window and shout, "Woe to you, you whitewashed sepulcher, it will be better for Sodom and Gomorrah on the day of judgment than for you"? What would Jesus do? A lot of people have heard about Jesus, but many have not been taught how to apply Jesus' teachings to their real lives. Small groups can address this gap.
What we desperately need are small groups to be schools of life. Imagine someone has a problem with anger-a small group leader should ask them: "What kinds of situations tend to get you angry, and how do you respond?" Give them some alternatives to sinful patterns of anger. Roleplay these situations in the small group. Then next week ask, "How did it go?" If they got it right, celebrate it. If they didn't, investigate what happened, and encourage them to do it differently next time.
If this kind of application doesn't happen in small groups, it may not happen anywhere, and people will not be transformed.Accountability: stand on the scale
I have made certain commitments about food and exercise in my life, but how serious I am about those commitments is difficult to determine without measuring my progress. A scale serves as a tool of accountability for me. Am I achieving my goal, or am I missing it? Ultimately the scale reveals how effective I have been in living up to my commitment.
Small groups are the place for people to get on the scale and reveal how intentional they have been to pursue transformation into the image of Christ. William Paulson writes, "It is unlikely that we will deepen our relationship with God in a casual or haphazard manner." I think he understates it. People do not drift into full devotion to Christ. People do not drift into becoming loving, joy-filled, patient, winsome, world changers. It requires intention and effort.
But the default mode of the human heart is to drift. If a person has experienced real transformation, it's typically because someone else has cared enough to say, "I want you to live God's way, and I want to help you know if you are serious about it."
We need to make some key decisions on our journey of transformation: what are my commitments about prayer, about Scripture, about my use of money, about evangelism, about servanthood, about truth? Keeping these commitments requires a community of accountability to serve as a scale revealing how we're achieving our goals or missing them.
During the spiritual revolutions of 18th century England, the Wesleyan movement thrived on small groups. When those groups originally formed, they existed to hold people accountable to their commitments as followers of Christ. They gathered in little bands to ask one another how their obedience to Christ was going. History notes, however, that over the decades the focus of the groups shifted from accountability to vague "sharing," in the process the power of the revival was lost, and eventually the groups died out.
Guidance: follow the map
When people need directions to a place they have never been, they use a map. Too often when people have major life-forming decisions to make, they make them alone.
In every church there are people facing decisions about vocations, ministry involvement, finances, relocation, and relationships. How sad if they make these decisions without the benefit of community. Their decisions may be impulsive, emotional, based on too little information. The result is too many broken lives.
The small group is to be where we find guidance, where we help each other learn how to listen to God. Small groups who rely upon God's Spirit serve as a map for us when making important decisions. In his book Celebration of Discipline, Richard Foster talks about guidance as a corporate discipline-something that groups should be doing together.In the early church, the Spirit guided believers as a community. In Acts 13, for example, the church fasted, prayed, and listened to God. Then, in response to the Spirit's guidance, they sent out Saul and Barnabas to minister.
In Acts 15 the church faced a major decision about the behavior of Gentiles, and they listened to the Spirit's guidance so carefully that in the letter explaining their decision they were able to say, "It has seemed good to the Holy Spirit and to us ... "
Small groups should be places where people gather to hear God through prayer and listening. Every small group meeting should include the question, "Is anybody facing a significant decision this week?" And in community the group should seek the Spirit's voice for the person facing the decision.
Church of the Savior in Washington, D.C., practices this discipline by what they term "sounding the call." When someone has a significant decision to make, the community enters a time of prayer and listening to God. They speak openly with each other about their sense of what God is saying. They take seriously the leading of the Spirit while avoiding any sense of superiority or control.
Encouragement: embrace each other
A hug is a gesture of love and encouragement. An embrace represents what we all need from a community of transformation. We need to know that someone is committed to us and loves us. That cannot happen when we are alone, and it cannot happen in a large gathering. It's going to happen through smaller communities.
Today small groups have the privilege of loving and accepting human beings for whom Christ gave his life. In these groups we can supply the love, encouragement, and embrace people need to continue their journey of transformation.
A long time ago I decided I wanted to talk to someone honestly about my temptations, where I had messed up. I wanted to practice the discipline of confession. So I asked my friend Rick if we could meet. By that time, I had known him for about ten years.
When we sat down together, I told him everything there was to tell about me-all of the darkest stuff and everything I felt the most embarrassed about.
When I got to the end my confession, I could barely look up at him. When I finally did, Rick looked me in the eyes and said, "John, I have never loved you more than I love you right now."
Those words were so powerful; they felt so good that I wanted to make up more bad stuff to tell him. To have someone know everything about me and still love me was truly life giving.
That kind of love is what we ultimately need in small groups to transform lives. We can make small groups so complex and difficult, we can build the perfect small group strategy, but if we do not have the love of Christ present, we are not really engaged in transforming people into his likeness.
Spiritual formation in community is mostly about loving people, and that is something we can do.
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Found this on www.galvin.worshipsingapore.com
No More Mr. Nice Group
No More Mr. Nice Group
Five practices that take small groups beyond polite sharing to the disciplines that change lives.
By John Ortberg
God has entrusted us with his most precious treasure - people. He asks us to shepherd and mold them into strong disciples, with brave faith, and good character. I would not give my life to any church that was not serious about this calling - the transformation of human beings. God has decided, for his own good reasons, that people are not transformed outside of community.
Years ago, while on vacation, I was going to fix something on the grill. I made a pile of charcoal, I poured a few gallons of lighter fluid over them, and I started the fire. My son was just fascinated by fire, as most young boys are. He asked what I was doing, and I told him.
"There's something about the way these little briquettes are constructed that when you put them together, the fire glows and they get real hot. And if you isolate one it cools off quickly. It loses the fire. But when they stick together, there's fire, because they feed off each other. God designed them to work that way."
This fits what Dallas Willard has said about the Christian life: "Personalities united can contain more of God and sustain the force of his greater presence better than scattered individuals." Think about that. Personalities united people in community - contain more of God and his transforming power than isolated individuals. We should not be surprised that transformation requires community; it's how God designed us.
When we are alone, it's easy to think, incorrectly, that we are spiritually advanced. I can watch a Hallmark commercial alone and find myself moved to tears. I tell myself that I am a very compassionate person. But when I spend time in community with a person who annoys me, it's amazing how quickly I experience "compassion fatigue."
In community we discover who we really are and how much transformation we still require. This is why I am irrevocably committed to small groups. Through them we can accomplish our God-entrusted work to transform human beings.
However, experience tells us that simply meeting with a small group does not automatically result in spiritual growth. There are certain practices that must be present, spiritual disciplines that must occur, to facilitate the transforming work of Christ in us. The presence of these things is what makes the difference between all-too-typical small groups, and life-transforming communities of spiritual formation.
What are these practices? I asked Dallas Willard that question once because he's forgotten more about spiritual formation and church history than I will ever know. His answer surprised me. He said, "I don't know." Rather than being discouraged, I saw this as a rare opportunity to discover something Dallas Willard didn't know. I launched into a time of deeper reflection and study.
After months looking at Scripture, reading church history, talking with respected people, and meeting with leaders of small groups, I don't think I have the definitive answer, but I have observed five essential practices:
Confession: remove the masks
We all wear masks. We hide from each other. It's part of our fallenness. That is why one of the most formative practices in a small group is confession. Confession is the appropriate disclosure of my brokenness, temptations, sin, and victories for the purpose of healing, forgiveness, and spiritual growth. Without confession we are a community hiding from the truth.
I know what it's like to do church with people who wear masks. I've attended very nice churches where people smiled, talked about their jobs or the weather, but never really removed their masks and revealed themselves.
I recall one couple, pillars of the church, whose marriage fell apart when the wife ran away with another man. The church was shocked; the couple had hid the reality of their troubled marriage for years. Another woman in the church was well liked by everyone, but one day she landed in the hospital to have her stomach pumped of the poison she had taken. She was so miserable she felt unable to face another day. And no one in the church knew.
I will not invest my life in a community that doesn't value truth and confession, and neither should you. Without confession we cannot accomplish our God-given calling to transform people.
Throughout church history, whenever God has done great things, confession has always been present. In the church, confession must be freely offered-never manipulated. A small group serious about transformation should be moving into ever deeper confession-removing masks to reveal our core feelings and fears, sins we still struggle with, and areas where we're not growing.
We need to avoid "confession killers" in our groups. These include the inappropriate use of humor. Some people are embarrassed by deep honesty, so they may mock the person confessing or diffuse the atmosphere with a joke. It sends a signal that this is not a safe place to confess, and the masks go back on.
Judgmental statements also shut down confession. I recall a small group where a man admitted his struggle with lust. That was a risk, and then someone else said, "I can't relate to that struggle at all." I wanted to say to that guy, What kind of hormonally challenged, repressed robot are you? His statement shut down an opportunity for new openness in the group.
To see real transformation, small groups must begin with reality. By removing our masks through the discipline of confession, we acknowledge the reality of who we are and open ourselves to God's transforming work.
Application: look in the mirror
James 1:23 says, "Those who listen to the word, but do not do what it says, are like people who look at their faces in the mirror, and after looking at themselves, go away and immediately forget what they look like." A small group is a place for people to look into the mirror, discover who they are, and then ask, "How do I apply God's word to my life as it really is?"
As a teacher I am regularly astonished by people's ability to hear a sermon, nod at it, be moved by it, write it down, and then do precisely the opposite of what they heard. This frequent occurrence shows the extent to which people need painstaking, patient, and careful application of Scripture to their daily lives.
We may hear biblical instructions like be gentle, be loving, be faithful-but how do I actually apply that to my boss, spouse, or kids?What would Jesus do if someone cut him off in traffic? Would he say, "I don't condemn you; go and sin no more"? Or, would he roll down the window and shout, "Woe to you, you whitewashed sepulcher, it will be better for Sodom and Gomorrah on the day of judgment than for you"? What would Jesus do? A lot of people have heard about Jesus, but many have not been taught how to apply Jesus' teachings to their real lives. Small groups can address this gap.
What we desperately need are small groups to be schools of life. Imagine someone has a problem with anger-a small group leader should ask them: "What kinds of situations tend to get you angry, and how do you respond?" Give them some alternatives to sinful patterns of anger. Roleplay these situations in the small group. Then next week ask, "How did it go?" If they got it right, celebrate it. If they didn't, investigate what happened, and encourage them to do it differently next time.
If this kind of application doesn't happen in small groups, it may not happen anywhere, and people will not be transformed.Accountability: stand on the scale
I have made certain commitments about food and exercise in my life, but how serious I am about those commitments is difficult to determine without measuring my progress. A scale serves as a tool of accountability for me. Am I achieving my goal, or am I missing it? Ultimately the scale reveals how effective I have been in living up to my commitment.
Small groups are the place for people to get on the scale and reveal how intentional they have been to pursue transformation into the image of Christ. William Paulson writes, "It is unlikely that we will deepen our relationship with God in a casual or haphazard manner." I think he understates it. People do not drift into full devotion to Christ. People do not drift into becoming loving, joy-filled, patient, winsome, world changers. It requires intention and effort.
But the default mode of the human heart is to drift. If a person has experienced real transformation, it's typically because someone else has cared enough to say, "I want you to live God's way, and I want to help you know if you are serious about it."
We need to make some key decisions on our journey of transformation: what are my commitments about prayer, about Scripture, about my use of money, about evangelism, about servanthood, about truth? Keeping these commitments requires a community of accountability to serve as a scale revealing how we're achieving our goals or missing them.
During the spiritual revolutions of 18th century England, the Wesleyan movement thrived on small groups. When those groups originally formed, they existed to hold people accountable to their commitments as followers of Christ. They gathered in little bands to ask one another how their obedience to Christ was going. History notes, however, that over the decades the focus of the groups shifted from accountability to vague "sharing," in the process the power of the revival was lost, and eventually the groups died out.
Guidance: follow the map
When people need directions to a place they have never been, they use a map. Too often when people have major life-forming decisions to make, they make them alone.
In every church there are people facing decisions about vocations, ministry involvement, finances, relocation, and relationships. How sad if they make these decisions without the benefit of community. Their decisions may be impulsive, emotional, based on too little information. The result is too many broken lives.
The small group is to be where we find guidance, where we help each other learn how to listen to God. Small groups who rely upon God's Spirit serve as a map for us when making important decisions. In his book Celebration of Discipline, Richard Foster talks about guidance as a corporate discipline-something that groups should be doing together.In the early church, the Spirit guided believers as a community. In Acts 13, for example, the church fasted, prayed, and listened to God. Then, in response to the Spirit's guidance, they sent out Saul and Barnabas to minister.
In Acts 15 the church faced a major decision about the behavior of Gentiles, and they listened to the Spirit's guidance so carefully that in the letter explaining their decision they were able to say, "It has seemed good to the Holy Spirit and to us ... "
Small groups should be places where people gather to hear God through prayer and listening. Every small group meeting should include the question, "Is anybody facing a significant decision this week?" And in community the group should seek the Spirit's voice for the person facing the decision.
Church of the Savior in Washington, D.C., practices this discipline by what they term "sounding the call." When someone has a significant decision to make, the community enters a time of prayer and listening to God. They speak openly with each other about their sense of what God is saying. They take seriously the leading of the Spirit while avoiding any sense of superiority or control.
Encouragement: embrace each other
A hug is a gesture of love and encouragement. An embrace represents what we all need from a community of transformation. We need to know that someone is committed to us and loves us. That cannot happen when we are alone, and it cannot happen in a large gathering. It's going to happen through smaller communities.
Today small groups have the privilege of loving and accepting human beings for whom Christ gave his life. In these groups we can supply the love, encouragement, and embrace people need to continue their journey of transformation.
A long time ago I decided I wanted to talk to someone honestly about my temptations, where I had messed up. I wanted to practice the discipline of confession. So I asked my friend Rick if we could meet. By that time, I had known him for about ten years.
When we sat down together, I told him everything there was to tell about me-all of the darkest stuff and everything I felt the most embarrassed about.
When I got to the end my confession, I could barely look up at him. When I finally did, Rick looked me in the eyes and said, "John, I have never loved you more than I love you right now."
Those words were so powerful; they felt so good that I wanted to make up more bad stuff to tell him. To have someone know everything about me and still love me was truly life giving.
That kind of love is what we ultimately need in small groups to transform lives. We can make small groups so complex and difficult, we can build the perfect small group strategy, but if we do not have the love of Christ present, we are not really engaged in transforming people into his likeness.
Spiritual formation in community is mostly about loving people, and that is something we can do.
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006
me and me and me
alright... u think u are wondering why am i MIA again.. well. my company bane me again !! haiz... think it really had to do with the firewall test the other day... haiz. Any way, i shall be fine. focus 100 percent on my job then .lolsome things to do at work..haha
1. What books sparked your interest in reading? Meaning, what books first took reading from being a forced activity to being an enjoyable pastime for you? Enid blyton ?? Not sure how that author's book get into my hand but i had been stuck to his nook .. and really kept me reading. AND don't ask me why my english still sucks ...
2. Which three books have most changed your life (in a practical, tangible way)? Ulf ekman book,your capacity in God. Listerning to others by XXX and Heaven is so real by a korean lady
See answer to question 1.3. Which three books (outside of the Bible) have most shaped your thoughts on God? er hem.. lots.. recent one will be Happiness by AR bernard.. only on day two man.
4. Which book(s), if any, have you intentionally read more than once? practically all my books. i don't normally buy books that will be left on the shelves.
5. Which three books would you recommend to a brand new Christian? Brand new.. hmm... faith by Phil princle, this happiness book which is structured in such personal and practical way and ahem... no idea..
6. Which three books do you plan to have your kids read? (Or - “Which three books were most exciting to read to your kids/for your kids to read?” - for those of you who already have children) ??? no clue yet
7. Books that stand out -(i.e. Ones we’ve REALLY enjoyed as family read-alouds: ) They don't read....or my bro and i loved harry potter...
8. A book that made you cry Apart from christians books which a few had manage to shed some tears... i remembered this japan novel called ugly ducklings.. i also cry over this comic call "liu man yi sheng" . Have read like thousand times but i still love it.9. A book that scared you Ghost stories?? i have nightmares after it and keep making sure there are no heads flying around. haha10. A book that made you laugh comics !!!11. A book that disgusted you No Idea12. A book you loved in elementary/primary school enid blyton.. don really read much at those age13. A book you loved in middle school (yrs 5, 6, 7, 8 ) ???14. A book you loved in high school Vampires book by Christopher pike...
15. A book you loved in college Hate books.. don really read.16. Any more favorites? erm... no room to remember those stuff
17. What are you currently reading?
Not really .. sourcing for more books.
18. What’s your family reading?dad into his toto.. bro into basic driving and me into the bible ??.. haha
1. What books sparked your interest in reading? Meaning, what books first took reading from being a forced activity to being an enjoyable pastime for you? Enid blyton ?? Not sure how that author's book get into my hand but i had been stuck to his nook .. and really kept me reading. AND don't ask me why my english still sucks ...
2. Which three books have most changed your life (in a practical, tangible way)? Ulf ekman book,your capacity in God. Listerning to others by XXX and Heaven is so real by a korean lady
See answer to question 1.3. Which three books (outside of the Bible) have most shaped your thoughts on God? er hem.. lots.. recent one will be Happiness by AR bernard.. only on day two man.
4. Which book(s), if any, have you intentionally read more than once? practically all my books. i don't normally buy books that will be left on the shelves.
5. Which three books would you recommend to a brand new Christian? Brand new.. hmm... faith by Phil princle, this happiness book which is structured in such personal and practical way and ahem... no idea..
6. Which three books do you plan to have your kids read? (Or - “Which three books were most exciting to read to your kids/for your kids to read?” - for those of you who already have children) ??? no clue yet
7. Books that stand out -(i.e. Ones we’ve REALLY enjoyed as family read-alouds: ) They don't read....or my bro and i loved harry potter...
8. A book that made you cry Apart from christians books which a few had manage to shed some tears... i remembered this japan novel called ugly ducklings.. i also cry over this comic call "liu man yi sheng" . Have read like thousand times but i still love it.9. A book that scared you Ghost stories?? i have nightmares after it and keep making sure there are no heads flying around. haha10. A book that made you laugh comics !!!11. A book that disgusted you No Idea12. A book you loved in elementary/primary school enid blyton.. don really read much at those age13. A book you loved in middle school (yrs 5, 6, 7, 8 ) ???14. A book you loved in high school Vampires book by Christopher pike...
15. A book you loved in college Hate books.. don really read.16. Any more favorites? erm... no room to remember those stuff
17. What are you currently reading?
Not really .. sourcing for more books.
18. What’s your family reading?dad into his toto.. bro into basic driving and me into the bible ??.. haha
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Nothing like Home
forget to mention something. well on sun, daddy had to "bai sheng", so cannot drive me to church. so well, they went for their breakfast while i slept .was dressing up when kor came back from the breakfast with a packet of my FAV porridge. Really feel so loved. was hungry and cold and there it was.. my hot porridge from daddy. :)
Despite of their many weakness... they are the ones God had place in my life and i am grateful to Him and to them .. Thanks daddy...i wan no one else but both of u...
Despite of their many weakness... they are the ones God had place in my life and i am grateful to Him and to them .. Thanks daddy...i wan no one else but both of u...
my gals...
haiz...been sneezing the whole night man Feel cold and warm at the same times. Keep perspiring and sneezing.. oh no.. haiz...hate this kind of night where i cannot sleep at all. Esp with the drunk man making a fuss at the playground... goodness...currently in the office, sneezing and feeling sleepy at the same time.try to stay awake by drinking alot of water.lol
some thoughts i have been thinking for a while ...i have learnt that its harder to draw the line when both of u get too close. haiz.. . friends, no matter how close both of u r , u should gave each other respect still and take them for granted .i had a revelationof this from the marraige BS .. lol.every one wanted to feel appreciated and respected. Moreover, the Word says that we are to esteem other higher then ourself. teasing, playing is alright, but do know your limits... esp when the person gets angry .some times ppl take me lightly just because they do not think i will be angry..or rather,i don't seem to be angry . goodness.. its so hard when u are angry and they do not know. what can i do. they are kids what. some times i wonder whether i can be the kid for a while. its hard. Maybe that is why daily crucification is hard. Its against the normal...any way, sooner or later i have to teach them . and yes, respect is earned.. if i don allow them to do this to me, i must not do back to them, and thus will i earn their respect ..hate dealing with such kind of issue .. but really feel a need to...i rather be the one correcting then some one else to do the job... i can only pray for God to work and Holy Spirit to move in their heart
was really excited just now as i thought of meeting up my gals this sat after service.its been SOOOOOOOO long ago that the 4 of us gathers.. haiz...gonna bring my cam and take neo print !!! so w117 , sorry lah.. i gotta go off earlier. i believe u guys understand. cos sun shan cannot make it thus left with no choice. think we are going to chill out till rather late... hope things will be fine btw S and M then ...God, restore the friendship pls...
i Miss the times with them
i Miss the times we play badminton together
i Miss the ice kachang trip
i Miss the shui jiao mian
i Miss the loud laughter
i Miss playing and rotting at my home
i Miss the sweat
i Miss the togetherness
i Miss so much of the 4 of us....
updates u guys again of our get together... ^-^ btw, going for NEW YOKE NEW YOKE Cafe (and mel and miss mah went w/o me !!) mel ate my hot dog some more !!)
some thoughts i have been thinking for a while ...i have learnt that its harder to draw the line when both of u get too close. haiz.. . friends, no matter how close both of u r , u should gave each other respect still and take them for granted .i had a revelationof this from the marraige BS .. lol.every one wanted to feel appreciated and respected. Moreover, the Word says that we are to esteem other higher then ourself. teasing, playing is alright, but do know your limits... esp when the person gets angry .some times ppl take me lightly just because they do not think i will be angry..or rather,i don't seem to be angry . goodness.. its so hard when u are angry and they do not know. what can i do. they are kids what. some times i wonder whether i can be the kid for a while. its hard. Maybe that is why daily crucification is hard. Its against the normal...any way, sooner or later i have to teach them . and yes, respect is earned.. if i don allow them to do this to me, i must not do back to them, and thus will i earn their respect ..hate dealing with such kind of issue .. but really feel a need to...i rather be the one correcting then some one else to do the job... i can only pray for God to work and Holy Spirit to move in their heart
was really excited just now as i thought of meeting up my gals this sat after service.its been SOOOOOOOO long ago that the 4 of us gathers.. haiz...gonna bring my cam and take neo print !!! so w117 , sorry lah.. i gotta go off earlier. i believe u guys understand. cos sun shan cannot make it thus left with no choice. think we are going to chill out till rather late... hope things will be fine btw S and M then ...God, restore the friendship pls...
i Miss the times with them
i Miss the times we play badminton together
i Miss the ice kachang trip
i Miss the shui jiao mian
i Miss the loud laughter
i Miss playing and rotting at my home
i Miss the sweat
i Miss the togetherness
i Miss so much of the 4 of us....
updates u guys again of our get together... ^-^ btw, going for NEW YOKE NEW YOKE Cafe (and mel and miss mah went w/o me !!) mel ate my hot dog some more !!)
Monday, August 14, 2006
new song Lord
Well, how times flies man...its monday again. some how my weekend always passes real fast (-_-)"' . Did not reallyhave enough sleep.:( sat morning accompany maymay to see dentist. woke up at 830 after she call me .. and yes, i overslept. took almost an hour to dress up and meet her. Well, rot at mac with my hotcake breakfast meal while waiting for her lo.. finally at around 11 she came with Dennise(her cousin)then went novena for his interview...ahem... then went to walk walk a bit. then the two of them left me alone and went may may house to play maple.. dots.. so, i decide to go expo. BUT ... i blur blur follow them to take the train to boon lay. so i ended up at commonwealth ..yes, i am slow lah.. haha. was sleeping on the train ma.
any way
learn a new song in church.. nice :)
FIRST
I Love Because You First Love Me
I Live Because Of What You Gave
You Died To Showed Me How To Live
Your Mercy Taught Me To Forgive
You Came And Poured Yourself So Free
Your Blood Washed Away My Shame
And Now I Can Live Again
I'm More Of You And Less Of Me
My First Love Forever You Will Be
My First Breath You're The Life In Me
My First Joy The World Can Never Take From Me
My Convenant With You
Jesus
Your Love Falls Down
Your Love Falls Down
Your Love Falls Down
Over Me
as pastor taught about marraige and thus this song fitted so nicely. the married couple will turn to each other and sing and change Jesus to their partners name.. wah.. so sweet.hahaha then we the singles will just stare.. lol
oh, we celebrated bro tony bdae.then sis sher came over and bro tony did somethings that he never does in front of us.!!! he hold on to sis sher and thank her .. so sweet . and sis sher returns with a hug and kiss..so nice right. looking forward to baby tony.. haha...the baby is so blessed with this two loving couple... :)
forget to mention...mr b is sitted very near me both on sun and sat.. and i get teased like donno what lo... bengz... i do not seem to be so crazy over him as them . haha...and mr eugene seems to be very concern to married me off.. or is it the marraige BS that is affecting him. lol. well, mr b is just some one that ya, i like . but whether is he the one.. its up to God lo...not rushing or demanding to be him .God always know whats best for me :P and of course the timing too...so, i like him but not crazy over him...so ppl,relax lah... bro tony might just faint reading this article... haha...but i am mature enough to know whats right and wrong.. moreover, now only one sided and i don any how fall for ppl one !!! and its just attraction , not even affection. and since i write here, which means i am ok for u guys to know the i am also human and normal and straight... haha
ya, was reading some blog where the gal just password protect a certain post that she had written. and its so funny lo...if i am the cgl, i would already know what she is trying to hide lo. bengz... i rather she password protect her whole blog then partial . and if u don wan ppl to know.. don even have clue there lah... ai yo...weird also that alot of ppl(even me) communicate better through blog...well, at least i will share if u come to me...maybe i just don wan to keep "fan" ppl . so rather place it here, u read it, then find me...haha... but yes, i have come to the stage that i can seek help from God. Not that man are not important. but i can self reflect, pray to God . and seek help from man when needed already.And maybe a place for me to rant also.. haha. And its really true that we need to watch what is written on the blog... that it will not cause others to fall and etc...
the starting of this blog is for my Lord Jesus ...where i write my thoughts to Him...my songs , my struggle.. never intend for man to view.. but now...
have i done right or wrong....
back to sermon on sat...
pastor talk about woman...
the role of woman is HELPER and resposiblility is submit..
hmmmm
ya, i like the sunday sermon for man.. think its harder being a man. But some thing i learn ...
that i SHOULD change the way i treat my man at home. haiz... believe that things would be easiler and more at peace if i follow what pastor taught. esp to nag lesser....
really pray that my life would be the best reflection of Jesus although there are times that i really cannot bear....must REN....yueming, u can do it !!!
i wanna write song... Lord, place in me a new song...
any way
learn a new song in church.. nice :)
FIRST
I Love Because You First Love Me
I Live Because Of What You Gave
You Died To Showed Me How To Live
Your Mercy Taught Me To Forgive
You Came And Poured Yourself So Free
Your Blood Washed Away My Shame
And Now I Can Live Again
I'm More Of You And Less Of Me
My First Love Forever You Will Be
My First Breath You're The Life In Me
My First Joy The World Can Never Take From Me
My Convenant With You
Jesus
Your Love Falls Down
Your Love Falls Down
Your Love Falls Down
Over Me
as pastor taught about marraige and thus this song fitted so nicely. the married couple will turn to each other and sing and change Jesus to their partners name.. wah.. so sweet.hahaha then we the singles will just stare.. lol
oh, we celebrated bro tony bdae.then sis sher came over and bro tony did somethings that he never does in front of us.!!! he hold on to sis sher and thank her .. so sweet . and sis sher returns with a hug and kiss..so nice right. looking forward to baby tony.. haha...the baby is so blessed with this two loving couple... :)
forget to mention...mr b is sitted very near me both on sun and sat.. and i get teased like donno what lo... bengz... i do not seem to be so crazy over him as them . haha...and mr eugene seems to be very concern to married me off.. or is it the marraige BS that is affecting him. lol. well, mr b is just some one that ya, i like . but whether is he the one.. its up to God lo...not rushing or demanding to be him .God always know whats best for me :P and of course the timing too...so, i like him but not crazy over him...so ppl,relax lah... bro tony might just faint reading this article... haha...but i am mature enough to know whats right and wrong.. moreover, now only one sided and i don any how fall for ppl one !!! and its just attraction , not even affection. and since i write here, which means i am ok for u guys to know the i am also human and normal and straight... haha
ya, was reading some blog where the gal just password protect a certain post that she had written. and its so funny lo...if i am the cgl, i would already know what she is trying to hide lo. bengz... i rather she password protect her whole blog then partial . and if u don wan ppl to know.. don even have clue there lah... ai yo...weird also that alot of ppl(even me) communicate better through blog...well, at least i will share if u come to me...maybe i just don wan to keep "fan" ppl . so rather place it here, u read it, then find me...haha... but yes, i have come to the stage that i can seek help from God. Not that man are not important. but i can self reflect, pray to God . and seek help from man when needed already.And maybe a place for me to rant also.. haha. And its really true that we need to watch what is written on the blog... that it will not cause others to fall and etc...
the starting of this blog is for my Lord Jesus ...where i write my thoughts to Him...my songs , my struggle.. never intend for man to view.. but now...
have i done right or wrong....
back to sermon on sat...
pastor talk about woman...
the role of woman is HELPER and resposiblility is submit..
hmmmm
ya, i like the sunday sermon for man.. think its harder being a man. But some thing i learn ...
that i SHOULD change the way i treat my man at home. haiz... believe that things would be easiler and more at peace if i follow what pastor taught. esp to nag lesser....
really pray that my life would be the best reflection of Jesus although there are times that i really cannot bear....must REN....yueming, u can do it !!!
i wanna write song... Lord, place in me a new song...
Thursday, August 10, 2006
BBQ
ai yah.. accidentally delete off. any way, took a test that shows i am someone who need alot of spending time with, followed by physical touch. Thats why i love spending time with my friends too :)
well, finally BBQ is over.not that i want it to past but rather becos that day is an super busy and important day.we had a total of 29 . well done man.:) now really must try to integrate and win the friend over.. to the kingdom of God !!!
so fri woke up at 830 waiting for miss mah to come but she overslept. haha. i know that . fetch them after my breakfast with papa and go marinate. due to my poor finger, i am not allowed to touch the chickens . haha. which i still manage to marinate a few with my left hand...after that bia cab down.. then decor.. then practise song and the list go on....super busy...
the games are not bad. we actually plan the game till almost 2 am k... testimony is good then go to my fellowship song.. ahem....i need to have a louder voice i believe ... ya, teacher grace came with a few of her student. she is such a nice woman of God :) . then BBQ, etc etc.. chat with the friends.. nice to know them man...by the way, the chicken turn out nice :) here is my speech to some
mmy : thanks for being with the friends when i am busy. thanks for coming early, accompany me till night . love ya. Not to forget ur massage. haha
nick: thanks for coming early to carry the things. tolerating my funny ideas, guidng and being so patience to teach me.my personal english teacher .. oopss...
lionel: know u r tired but yet u came all the way down and pop into my house !!!and going way out to bring a friend :)
mel:Thanks for coming early to add sause. haha. thanks for running around to fetch the ppl and being my PA of the day :P
MML: thanks for waking up late. haha. kidding. coming all the way to make sure my finer don touch the stuff. suaning me the whole day. being disturb by me the whole day. lol...
And the many who were being used by me... Thanks . haha. you make the day possible.:)
oh ya !!! we miss the fireworks..hmmm
well, finally BBQ is over.not that i want it to past but rather becos that day is an super busy and important day.we had a total of 29 . well done man.:) now really must try to integrate and win the friend over.. to the kingdom of God !!!
so fri woke up at 830 waiting for miss mah to come but she overslept. haha. i know that . fetch them after my breakfast with papa and go marinate. due to my poor finger, i am not allowed to touch the chickens . haha. which i still manage to marinate a few with my left hand...after that bia cab down.. then decor.. then practise song and the list go on....super busy...
the games are not bad. we actually plan the game till almost 2 am k... testimony is good then go to my fellowship song.. ahem....i need to have a louder voice i believe ... ya, teacher grace came with a few of her student. she is such a nice woman of God :) . then BBQ, etc etc.. chat with the friends.. nice to know them man...by the way, the chicken turn out nice :) here is my speech to some
mmy : thanks for being with the friends when i am busy. thanks for coming early, accompany me till night . love ya. Not to forget ur massage. haha
nick: thanks for coming early to carry the things. tolerating my funny ideas, guidng and being so patience to teach me.my personal english teacher .. oopss...
lionel: know u r tired but yet u came all the way down and pop into my house !!!and going way out to bring a friend :)
mel:Thanks for coming early to add sause. haha. thanks for running around to fetch the ppl and being my PA of the day :P
MML: thanks for waking up late. haha. kidding. coming all the way to make sure my finer don touch the stuff. suaning me the whole day. being disturb by me the whole day. lol...
And the many who were being used by me... Thanks . haha. you make the day possible.:)
oh ya !!! we miss the fireworks..hmmm
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
in office
ok, u can say i bor liao.
helping u guys to know me more lah...
haha
btw, my finger is swollen :(
4 names you go by:
-Moon ( only ta and my elderly call me that :P)
-mingming ( my dearest call me that)
-gal( haha)
-yue ping, yue liang ,ming yue, yue ming zhu, zhu zhu.... lots lah...
4 things that scare you:
-lotsof ants .. yucks
-crokroaches
-nothing else really ..
-i am a dare devil(angel sound nicer ..lol)
4 of your everyday essentials:
-my HP !!!
-specs ???
-water and lots of
-tissue.. haha.( of course my dear papa who never leave /forsake me.. the peace of God)
4 things you are wearing right now:
-specs
-clothes lah.. ahem
-earring ans 2 ear studs
-the armor of God.. haha
4 of your favorite bands or musical artists (at the moment):
- SUn of course
- CCC.. i love joe..oopss.. but he....
- Mi Lo Bin . they roxz. shine for Jesus man
- Corraine may . should i get hr cd ?? :(
4 favorite songs (at the moment):
- wats the title. "when i'm weak, u r strong.. Ur my feet when i can't move on ??...)(CCC)
-Always on My Mind (Sun)
-Destiny (CHC)
- some song that i forget the title. (corraine may)
4 things you want in a relationship (other than real love):
-committment
-freedom and space.
-trust
-surprises.. haha
4 truths:
-tml is PH :)
-i am sleepy....
-so many things on my mind...
-i wan to stone there ...
4 physical things that appeal to you (in the opposite sex):
-preach well. (haha..ahem..)
-their eyes of compassion and love and gentleness and of love for God...
-gentlement
-the cool and wisdom.
4 of your favorite hobbies:
-hang out /chill out with friends
-shopping .lol
-badminton, basketball.. (i need them.. haiz)
-i wanna paint again ??
4 things you want really badly:
-MP3 player...not a need but i wan ...
-go mission again
-more money...to go SOT, to go Study....
-God (my list go on and on)
4 places you want to go on vacation:
-medan..to mission again
-HK(i wan shop.. dim sum)
-m'sia ( visit my cdousin. haven seen them for real long)
-NYC( i WAN ED HARDY !!!)
4 things you want to do before you die:
-tell all my friends, family how much i love them and hug them close...spend some time with them
-be with "him"
-bring my love ones to God and worship in His house together
-stay in His presense..
4 ways that you are stereotypically a dude/chick:
-i make up ?draw eye liners...
-i look at guys.. haha. yes, i do !!!
-i am in need of shoe and bag and clothes. its never enough
-i love ice cream and chocolates.. yum yum
4 things you are thinking about now:
-what time to go set up meeting.
-wat time to wake up tml
-how how how ????
-trying hard to visual what miss mah ask me to...
4 stores you shop at:
-Skin(but only window shop:(... )
-dorothy perkins/top shop/ mango
-DMK, Charles and keith
-double index.. and lots
helping u guys to know me more lah...
haha
btw, my finger is swollen :(
4 names you go by:
-Moon ( only ta and my elderly call me that :P)
-mingming ( my dearest call me that)
-gal( haha)
-yue ping, yue liang ,ming yue, yue ming zhu, zhu zhu.... lots lah...
4 things that scare you:
-lotsof ants .. yucks
-crokroaches
-nothing else really ..
-i am a dare devil(angel sound nicer ..lol)
4 of your everyday essentials:
-my HP !!!
-specs ???
-water and lots of
-tissue.. haha.( of course my dear papa who never leave /forsake me.. the peace of God)
4 things you are wearing right now:
-specs
-clothes lah.. ahem
-earring ans 2 ear studs
-the armor of God.. haha
4 of your favorite bands or musical artists (at the moment):
- SUn of course
- CCC.. i love joe..oopss.. but he....
- Mi Lo Bin . they roxz. shine for Jesus man
- Corraine may . should i get hr cd ?? :(
4 favorite songs (at the moment):
- wats the title. "when i'm weak, u r strong.. Ur my feet when i can't move on ??...)(CCC)
-Always on My Mind (Sun)
-Destiny (CHC)
- some song that i forget the title. (corraine may)
4 things you want in a relationship (other than real love):
-committment
-freedom and space.
-trust
-surprises.. haha
4 truths:
-tml is PH :)
-i am sleepy....
-so many things on my mind...
-i wan to stone there ...
4 physical things that appeal to you (in the opposite sex):
-preach well. (haha..ahem..)
-their eyes of compassion and love and gentleness and of love for God...
-gentlement
-the cool and wisdom.
4 of your favorite hobbies:
-hang out /chill out with friends
-shopping .lol
-badminton, basketball.. (i need them.. haiz)
-i wanna paint again ??
4 things you want really badly:
-MP3 player...not a need but i wan ...
-go mission again
-more money...to go SOT, to go Study....
-God (my list go on and on)
4 places you want to go on vacation:
-medan..to mission again
-HK(i wan shop.. dim sum)
-m'sia ( visit my cdousin. haven seen them for real long)
-NYC( i WAN ED HARDY !!!)
4 things you want to do before you die:
-tell all my friends, family how much i love them and hug them close...spend some time with them
-be with "him"
-bring my love ones to God and worship in His house together
-stay in His presense..
4 ways that you are stereotypically a dude/chick:
-i make up ?draw eye liners...
-i look at guys.. haha. yes, i do !!!
-i am in need of shoe and bag and clothes. its never enough
-i love ice cream and chocolates.. yum yum
4 things you are thinking about now:
-what time to go set up meeting.
-wat time to wake up tml
-how how how ????
-trying hard to visual what miss mah ask me to...
4 stores you shop at:
-Skin(but only window shop:(... )
-dorothy perkins/top shop/ mango
-DMK, Charles and keith
-double index.. and lots
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Praise God
haha.drop by to give thanks to God . well, u see, i been helping my boss to book meeting room mah. Then the room is going to be teared down and so i need to find a weekly room lo. And over at my here, its really terrible... its always fully pack. Thank God i found a room but the timing does not fit . And most ppl attending are sitted at my level. cannot ask them to go some where meeting then come back for more mah... but some one book ahead of me. my colleague say that the person who book the room is very demanding. She had tried to talk to her and change the room but was rejected. so now i gotta talk to her (whose position is much much higher then me)... so i murmued a short prayer and i am really so anxious when i call (but no one pick) and thus i emailed her . But to my surprise, she agreed and it happens that her timing fit into the slot exactly . wow... i really gave a sigh of relief. Thank God for that. its a small thing but it once again shows that God is in control and His ways is always higher and He will give us the favour of man... haha
oh...my colleague beside me shifted away.. so i am lonely now. haiz.. haha... yesterday chat with sandy and she so cute lo. ask me join her at her work there. lol....ya sandy, i know u MISS ME ... hee hee and thanks so much for ur concern...
oh p/s : my boss is cute :)
oh...my colleague beside me shifted away.. so i am lonely now. haiz.. haha... yesterday chat with sandy and she so cute lo. ask me join her at her work there. lol....ya sandy, i know u MISS ME ... hee hee and thanks so much for ur concern...
oh p/s : my boss is cute :)
Monday, July 31, 2006
mike connel
hey peeps...right now in the office once again.. so mnay thoughts in my mind.. hmm. cannot really sleep well last night. erm.. thought of too many things i assume..
fri
Well, work and go off for cg.. saw a sms while i step out of my office. From bro tony one. and it lagged a day !!! and i am suppose to lead the testimony. oh gosh.its just an hour away. Of course i am "stun" lah. Thoughts went pass me. what am i gonna say, how to go about it. etc etc . then finally i just shut my mind and stop thinking too much but rather cool down and by faith. haha. i am a faith worker :P . of course i have an rough idea la... meet ta and spend some time at the coffee bean eating cakes and drinking coffee..sorry , i just need my dose of coffee. haha. cg is good . really miss bro eugene leading the songs.. been in the same cell for 4 yr plus(apart from the time he is leading n194). Way to go man. always very inspired by his praise and worship. he really play with all his heart :) Bro tony talk about the dark valley in our life. Nice one .. although i have heard of this for many many times but we always need to be reminded ...went home and yes, i reach early.. haha.. rest and took some sleep.. tired day man
sat
well,daddy brought me to eat my beloved chicken rice. haven been there for real long then he drives me to expo . so, i am SUPER early lo. haha.thank God i am prepared. took some time to pray and read the Word, read my book and daily devotion. Nice :) went to q right after MMY give finish her bs. really glad to see her rising up to another level. I remembered that yrs ago she had wanted to give bs. I always told her the time will come and indeed as she faithfully serve God, God give her the desires of her heart.
well,Reuben Morgon is nice. I just like the way their music goes .. their guitar , their entry music etc etc.. nice and different. Some times it really helps to have some thing diff once a while .Pastor Mike connel is still the same. Full of glory and woooo. Really like his preaching. About spirits in our life and how to identify and to prevent. This yr, its a bit diff, he does not went into ministering but rather just the preaching . The ministering were all left for the later "special service" The special service is awesome. although i have seen many times, its still a bit scary . but its good as u see how God delivers the ppl and restore them. How the people feels better and restored after that... well, i don have much response...hee..went to the alter call and next moment i know, some one lay hand on me. Found the voice familiar and she even know my name. Indeed its .. sis Jac. :) was not too worried when i do not scream or wept or etc .. cos diff ppl have diff response. sat up and chat a bit before praying again.then i can just feel a "lump" within me. its blocking and making me feel "stuck" . Thus with more praying, i started to "vomit" and cough.... nothing come out physically but i can feel that the "lump" just vomit out. Feel much better .went back to my place and helped out ya. remember my first deliverance. That was like gosh man. still not very drama like some that i've seen. but ya, there is the shouting and weeping. yes, u will know what you are doing and what you have done. hmm...but after that i really feel so weak, but so clean.. haha.
thanks w 117 .. for waiting for me. you guys are really awesome . what more could i ask for ?? haha. you guys might not be perfect or soooo adorable. but you guys are faithful and always there :) thanks thanks . and also the two friend derek and feng rong. thanks too. i know both of you are hungry. lol.
went to bedok (cos we ended too late) and had nice porridge. yum yum... ended up at 11 and gotta rush home lo...
ok, i am going out of point here ... was reminded of a dream that i had this yr. wonder when will it happen.. its so clear and so real.. or, had it happen ? in my dream? well, told ta abt this dream before.I was in this place. i donno where but i do believe its some church event. anita was there serving. i am sitted at the front side row.the platform actually have extensions out so that the preacher can walk over ? the chairs were lao pok, so i doubt its our church event alone. could be SIS or some huge event. as usual, i am sitted at the corner.. tin my members are there too . forget what the pastor taught.. oopss. and don remember seeing that pastor before .any way, he walk down the stage and walk past me. i feel relief after he walk pass. but it seems that he knows how i am feeling and he turn back... and lay hand on me. i fall onto the chair...nothing happen . then i feel a hand on my stomach and i feel warmth and burning heat and i Scream !!!! a terrifying scream... from within..
weird dream right. i woke up wondering if i actually screamed out. its so so so real...the day will come and i will go like .. deja vu...
sun
been busy looking for make up cg till sun .. but haiz.. don mention it. can understand what she went through la... so, u r forgiven .:/ so meet up with terry to get my phone back. well, my phone cannot be repaired. haiz. so sad lo...then ROT at tiong waiting for miss mah and mel.gave them a total of 20 over miss call lo. no reply. really boil me till i cry lo. haven been so angry for so long.but of course i forgave them after knowing why lah... we went to concourse and get the bbq tins. wow.. really alot of party stuff !! u gotta go there . How i hope to have a party .. haha... brought lots of stuff and so take cab to put the things down at my house and went marina sakea with mel and miss mah. eat till real full lo. happen to bump onto bee leng too. her hair rox. haha. PINK !!! and yes, i have my chawamushi. its a must every time i go there and its ... heavem. haha. had lots of scallop too... yippee. intend to eat dessert but we are so full.
got miss mah j a gift. donno she like mah. miss mah one i haven got leh. hmmm....went skin and check out my price. its $119... no discount leh.. haiz... i saw one for the price of $25 and it looks SO SO SO SO real... went to THEFACESHOP and got nail polish. haha.why we always ended up wither sunte, marina or bugis ?? .. haha
oh, almost forget, i was being woken up by some gosh tin my bro is playing lo. imagine i was sleeping then he is playing those chanting music over and over again. and in my room i feel so suffocated . almost die from that song . imagine u had it cast out on sat and sun this is happening. i pray my bro never ever see my blog. i really cannot stand it. I went out boom at him. Went back to my room and covered myself . felt cold so i hide myself under my beloved blanket.pray a bit and play my songs from my hp...really feel better after that . really worried that my bro will become like my dad. My dad ( in this recent two yrs) had Buddhist tattoos that is suppose to protect him. goodness i faint from seeing those tattoos every day. it is just so disgusting.. front, back, left side ,right side. i do not know what come about him. he is the one who use to tell me "suai yuan" . Now who is being religious or supersitious ?? Does he really think those tattoos can prevent things from happening to him. come on lah. its just a way that ppl earn more money. The other day (my grandpa donno how many day lah) , my dad actually walk down the 6 storeys flights of steps lo. Cos one of my aunt say cannot take lift. ??? when did anybody say cannot take lift to go down to burn those stupid paper ?? in the end my dad leg hurt again lo. those ppl who always behave religiously . goodness... when my grandpa is alive, what did they do. whats the point of doing all those things when he is not around.. come on...it happens to ah ma.. now ah gong. thank God i had no more grandparents. sick and tired of those ppl.do u really think its more important for my ah gong to have food after he die then before he lives mah.only those ppl who sells the food and those paper will earn money lah. the house to be burn is like 4 k lo.. give me the money and i can buy so many food for ah gong when he is alive lo.....i can stop working for 2 mth and take care of him lo....
my bro now is acting "holy" again. do they know why they are praying. what they are praying. they don know lo. just follow blindly. at least i know .. why i convert from buddhist to christian is becos those so call God seem to disappear when i need them . imagine i chant , went temple etc etc etc lo. yes, i can chant thai chantings.. and i mediate !!! Those mediate are only on the outside. you feel heat outside but not within . But the presence of God is within...
really worried for my bro.. haiz.. i don wan him to become like my dad...
my bro dream of some stuff long time ago... he use to have me in his dream but after i become a christian, i am no longer inside. he was with dad walking and searching for way. then he walk past a church and he ask a pastor. which is the way. The pastor pointed to the church and say that is the way. but my bro turn back and saw my dad and follow my dad instead.. he shared with me and ask me not to interpret.I believe my bro is holding him back becos of my dad... its so sad to hear things like that right... esp when God show him but yet, he make his choice not to.. I can only pray for eyes to be open ,ears to hear... haiz...
fri
Well, work and go off for cg.. saw a sms while i step out of my office. From bro tony one. and it lagged a day !!! and i am suppose to lead the testimony. oh gosh.its just an hour away. Of course i am "stun" lah. Thoughts went pass me. what am i gonna say, how to go about it. etc etc . then finally i just shut my mind and stop thinking too much but rather cool down and by faith. haha. i am a faith worker :P . of course i have an rough idea la... meet ta and spend some time at the coffee bean eating cakes and drinking coffee..sorry , i just need my dose of coffee. haha. cg is good . really miss bro eugene leading the songs.. been in the same cell for 4 yr plus(apart from the time he is leading n194). Way to go man. always very inspired by his praise and worship. he really play with all his heart :) Bro tony talk about the dark valley in our life. Nice one .. although i have heard of this for many many times but we always need to be reminded ...went home and yes, i reach early.. haha.. rest and took some sleep.. tired day man
sat
well,daddy brought me to eat my beloved chicken rice. haven been there for real long then he drives me to expo . so, i am SUPER early lo. haha.thank God i am prepared. took some time to pray and read the Word, read my book and daily devotion. Nice :) went to q right after MMY give finish her bs. really glad to see her rising up to another level. I remembered that yrs ago she had wanted to give bs. I always told her the time will come and indeed as she faithfully serve God, God give her the desires of her heart.
well,Reuben Morgon is nice. I just like the way their music goes .. their guitar , their entry music etc etc.. nice and different. Some times it really helps to have some thing diff once a while .Pastor Mike connel is still the same. Full of glory and woooo. Really like his preaching. About spirits in our life and how to identify and to prevent. This yr, its a bit diff, he does not went into ministering but rather just the preaching . The ministering were all left for the later "special service" The special service is awesome. although i have seen many times, its still a bit scary . but its good as u see how God delivers the ppl and restore them. How the people feels better and restored after that... well, i don have much response...hee..went to the alter call and next moment i know, some one lay hand on me. Found the voice familiar and she even know my name. Indeed its .. sis Jac. :) was not too worried when i do not scream or wept or etc .. cos diff ppl have diff response. sat up and chat a bit before praying again.then i can just feel a "lump" within me. its blocking and making me feel "stuck" . Thus with more praying, i started to "vomit" and cough.... nothing come out physically but i can feel that the "lump" just vomit out. Feel much better .went back to my place and helped out ya. remember my first deliverance. That was like gosh man. still not very drama like some that i've seen. but ya, there is the shouting and weeping. yes, u will know what you are doing and what you have done. hmm...but after that i really feel so weak, but so clean.. haha.
thanks w 117 .. for waiting for me. you guys are really awesome . what more could i ask for ?? haha. you guys might not be perfect or soooo adorable. but you guys are faithful and always there :) thanks thanks . and also the two friend derek and feng rong. thanks too. i know both of you are hungry. lol.
went to bedok (cos we ended too late) and had nice porridge. yum yum... ended up at 11 and gotta rush home lo...
ok, i am going out of point here ... was reminded of a dream that i had this yr. wonder when will it happen.. its so clear and so real.. or, had it happen ? in my dream? well, told ta abt this dream before.I was in this place. i donno where but i do believe its some church event. anita was there serving. i am sitted at the front side row.the platform actually have extensions out so that the preacher can walk over ? the chairs were lao pok, so i doubt its our church event alone. could be SIS or some huge event. as usual, i am sitted at the corner.. tin my members are there too . forget what the pastor taught.. oopss. and don remember seeing that pastor before .any way, he walk down the stage and walk past me. i feel relief after he walk pass. but it seems that he knows how i am feeling and he turn back... and lay hand on me. i fall onto the chair...nothing happen . then i feel a hand on my stomach and i feel warmth and burning heat and i Scream !!!! a terrifying scream... from within..
weird dream right. i woke up wondering if i actually screamed out. its so so so real...the day will come and i will go like .. deja vu...
sun
been busy looking for make up cg till sun .. but haiz.. don mention it. can understand what she went through la... so, u r forgiven .:/ so meet up with terry to get my phone back. well, my phone cannot be repaired. haiz. so sad lo...then ROT at tiong waiting for miss mah and mel.gave them a total of 20 over miss call lo. no reply. really boil me till i cry lo. haven been so angry for so long.but of course i forgave them after knowing why lah... we went to concourse and get the bbq tins. wow.. really alot of party stuff !! u gotta go there . How i hope to have a party .. haha... brought lots of stuff and so take cab to put the things down at my house and went marina sakea with mel and miss mah. eat till real full lo. happen to bump onto bee leng too. her hair rox. haha. PINK !!! and yes, i have my chawamushi. its a must every time i go there and its ... heavem. haha. had lots of scallop too... yippee. intend to eat dessert but we are so full.
got miss mah j a gift. donno she like mah. miss mah one i haven got leh. hmmm....went skin and check out my price. its $119... no discount leh.. haiz... i saw one for the price of $25 and it looks SO SO SO SO real... went to THEFACESHOP and got nail polish. haha.why we always ended up wither sunte, marina or bugis ?? .. haha
oh, almost forget, i was being woken up by some gosh tin my bro is playing lo. imagine i was sleeping then he is playing those chanting music over and over again. and in my room i feel so suffocated . almost die from that song . imagine u had it cast out on sat and sun this is happening. i pray my bro never ever see my blog. i really cannot stand it. I went out boom at him. Went back to my room and covered myself . felt cold so i hide myself under my beloved blanket.pray a bit and play my songs from my hp...really feel better after that . really worried that my bro will become like my dad. My dad ( in this recent two yrs) had Buddhist tattoos that is suppose to protect him. goodness i faint from seeing those tattoos every day. it is just so disgusting.. front, back, left side ,right side. i do not know what come about him. he is the one who use to tell me "suai yuan" . Now who is being religious or supersitious ?? Does he really think those tattoos can prevent things from happening to him. come on lah. its just a way that ppl earn more money. The other day (my grandpa donno how many day lah) , my dad actually walk down the 6 storeys flights of steps lo. Cos one of my aunt say cannot take lift. ??? when did anybody say cannot take lift to go down to burn those stupid paper ?? in the end my dad leg hurt again lo. those ppl who always behave religiously . goodness... when my grandpa is alive, what did they do. whats the point of doing all those things when he is not around.. come on...it happens to ah ma.. now ah gong. thank God i had no more grandparents. sick and tired of those ppl.do u really think its more important for my ah gong to have food after he die then before he lives mah.only those ppl who sells the food and those paper will earn money lah. the house to be burn is like 4 k lo.. give me the money and i can buy so many food for ah gong when he is alive lo.....i can stop working for 2 mth and take care of him lo....
my bro now is acting "holy" again. do they know why they are praying. what they are praying. they don know lo. just follow blindly. at least i know .. why i convert from buddhist to christian is becos those so call God seem to disappear when i need them . imagine i chant , went temple etc etc etc lo. yes, i can chant thai chantings.. and i mediate !!! Those mediate are only on the outside. you feel heat outside but not within . But the presence of God is within...
really worried for my bro.. haiz.. i don wan him to become like my dad...
my bro dream of some stuff long time ago... he use to have me in his dream but after i become a christian, i am no longer inside. he was with dad walking and searching for way. then he walk past a church and he ask a pastor. which is the way. The pastor pointed to the church and say that is the way. but my bro turn back and saw my dad and follow my dad instead.. he shared with me and ask me not to interpret.I believe my bro is holding him back becos of my dad... its so sad to hear things like that right... esp when God show him but yet, he make his choice not to.. I can only pray for eyes to be open ,ears to hear... haiz...
Thursday, July 27, 2006
my past
its thurs.. yipee. countdown two day more to MIKE CONNEL.been feeling great these few days..had lots of time alone. haha,chill out with my friends and .. i took neo print with.. ahem, miss ang.
After knowing her for more then 4 yrs ,this is the FIRST time we took. Its was always either one of us who refuse . haha. Next target will be mel, wai and MING LI !!! haha. was looking through my neo print yesterday. Indeed it brings back all the nice memory... i will try to load here lo.. haha. i use to take ALOT in my sec days... so all the funny pic of me in my short hair . I really look so *&&%#$%@%$% .. haha.Definitely i look better now. But last time more skinny lah.. haha. try to cut down to my weight in my sec time. haha. But so funny lo...then i realise i don really take a lot of neo print with my church ppl...hmmm..busy saving up for building fund bah.. haha. my beloved mic, sotong and shan too !! we only took ONE together before..!!!
But with miss ang hor... cannot sweet sweet one leh. haha. she is not like mingying. i can hug, etc etc one... She is not. somehow lah. Both of us will not . Most ppl know that i like to hook other ppl hands, hold hands with them etc. but i SELDOM do that to miss ang. or rather, she don like it when ppl do that. so i won hold her or wat. Only she can hold me ... haha.Thats her lah..and i get to know abt it through the 4 yrs friendship. So both of us rather weird in the neo print room.. but after that, the decor part is fun. we took more then half hr to decor 4 pic. Yes, Half hr and MORE. siao ah. haha. but ended up these are one of the few that i like alot. its really cute and nice. The ones that i decor are more " sweet and conservative". Hers are all crazy tins.. haha. (anyway, her blog almost dead lah... ta, update new songs !!)
Amaze at the huge different character between both of us and yet we are so close to each other . We do have our similiar character...but in alot of ways, we are VERY VERY different.donno she will scold me for writing all these crap here mah.. haha. she might. donno if she comes to my blog too...any way, i am still very thankful to God for this friendship... maybe thats what the bible says that there will be friends closer then your own brother..yap, she is..but!!! i cannot spolit her lah.
oh ya.. still thinking of getting my stunk(is that whats its call ?) from Ed hardy.. i like it. donno how much it cost. shall check with eugene on fri.. TEMPTED TO BUY !!! GSS !!!
After knowing her for more then 4 yrs ,this is the FIRST time we took. Its was always either one of us who refuse . haha. Next target will be mel, wai and MING LI !!! haha. was looking through my neo print yesterday. Indeed it brings back all the nice memory... i will try to load here lo.. haha. i use to take ALOT in my sec days... so all the funny pic of me in my short hair . I really look so *&&%#$%@%$% .. haha.Definitely i look better now. But last time more skinny lah.. haha. try to cut down to my weight in my sec time. haha. But so funny lo...then i realise i don really take a lot of neo print with my church ppl...hmmm..busy saving up for building fund bah.. haha. my beloved mic, sotong and shan too !! we only took ONE together before..!!!
But with miss ang hor... cannot sweet sweet one leh. haha. she is not like mingying. i can hug, etc etc one... She is not. somehow lah. Both of us will not . Most ppl know that i like to hook other ppl hands, hold hands with them etc. but i SELDOM do that to miss ang. or rather, she don like it when ppl do that. so i won hold her or wat. Only she can hold me ... haha.Thats her lah..and i get to know abt it through the 4 yrs friendship. So both of us rather weird in the neo print room.. but after that, the decor part is fun. we took more then half hr to decor 4 pic. Yes, Half hr and MORE. siao ah. haha. but ended up these are one of the few that i like alot. its really cute and nice. The ones that i decor are more " sweet and conservative". Hers are all crazy tins.. haha. (anyway, her blog almost dead lah... ta, update new songs !!)
Amaze at the huge different character between both of us and yet we are so close to each other . We do have our similiar character...but in alot of ways, we are VERY VERY different.donno she will scold me for writing all these crap here mah.. haha. she might. donno if she comes to my blog too...any way, i am still very thankful to God for this friendship... maybe thats what the bible says that there will be friends closer then your own brother..yap, she is..but!!! i cannot spolit her lah.
oh ya.. still thinking of getting my stunk(is that whats its call ?) from Ed hardy.. i like it. donno how much it cost. shall check with eugene on fri.. TEMPTED TO BUY !!! GSS !!!
Monday, July 24, 2006
random thoughts
i am now super super super super super bored... haiz..
was really encourage by wendy's testimony on cg . She is studying full time yet earn up to almost 2 k lo. !! more then what full time are earning. goodness. Yes, i believe she work hard too :) then sat testimony of Gloria as well...
indeed all things are possible with Him ...
found infor regard the 2007 SOT too... really so prompt to join next yr. from april to Aug only mah...half day one some more. hmmm
Will have to step out in faith. need to find part time job.etc etc etc... but at least i feel more alive. i know where i am heading. i hate not knowing where you going and then just keep doing things that way . it feels so dead. some might say i am crazy but at least i dare to follow my dreams. of course, i will stable down lah. i will study SOT then go back to working plus study part time. else, get loan for study then i go study full time and work part time lo.. either way. i just have to move on.
I will not be satisfied with a diploma. Not that i seek fame or etc but you can only move up and not down. Unless i am satisfied being an admin assistant all the days of my life ?? .. haha.. NO WAY MAN... that is not what my pastor taught. Nor i believe God's plan for me. We are to increase in our value ... so, i gotta start saving lo.. haha.
so tempted to buy sometin from skin lo.. the clothes were all so cool and nice. faint.. haiz... money out on wed.. yippeee... y i always broke?? hmmm must reflect ...
mian bi si guo....
ok.. what we do on sat.. go service. pastor talk abt marraige. haha. so funny . nice one. :) then went see movie with the cg... watch some lame show lah. haven been to the movie for so so so long.... wai, when shall we go watch ??.... our da vinci code.. haha...
sun went to service too. although i struggled with it man. so tired ... maybe its the medicine lo.. about marraige part two. nice ^-^ theni keep disturb mel with the mr b tin.. haha. she cannot tahan me. but its so funny to see her expression whenever i mention.. mr b.. tin with the broadcast of miss mah junior. most ppl know abt the mr b tin.. ah hem...
went to have some HK food with sis pei en, Ming li, lionel, grace and mel. haiz.. broke man. then went to look for miss mah junior at esplanade. yes, they are studying there . or should i say, wz teach her eng while mr nick just stare into space.. miss mah j kep suaning and teasing me abt mr b until i get so sian with it.. oh no. i am not crazy over him lah... its impossible among us...(i know mel will tell me that all things are possible with God). but. haha. just impossible. i do know my right guy will come at His timing. Mr b is just some nice guy .... so w(me and nick) end up really rotting and i hate rotting. tried to draw but.. i cannot "ding xia lai" . haiz.. so just draw crap, take photo.. bully nick(oops..) .
after that , we went to suntec to see dance competition. well, theresa is in it mah. haha. they did not won but still well done gals.. later end up at mac again at marina !!! cos all 3 of us broke le. gota use ex link ccard. haha. i haven been broke till this stage man.. (-_-)"'. suppose to last me till end of this week but.....
haiz haiz....money money money. must rack my head to earn extra money and manage my finances. to think that i am a project administrator. managing other finances but not mine !!!
was really encourage by wendy's testimony on cg . She is studying full time yet earn up to almost 2 k lo. !! more then what full time are earning. goodness. Yes, i believe she work hard too :) then sat testimony of Gloria as well...
indeed all things are possible with Him ...
found infor regard the 2007 SOT too... really so prompt to join next yr. from april to Aug only mah...half day one some more. hmmm
Will have to step out in faith. need to find part time job.etc etc etc... but at least i feel more alive. i know where i am heading. i hate not knowing where you going and then just keep doing things that way . it feels so dead. some might say i am crazy but at least i dare to follow my dreams. of course, i will stable down lah. i will study SOT then go back to working plus study part time. else, get loan for study then i go study full time and work part time lo.. either way. i just have to move on.
I will not be satisfied with a diploma. Not that i seek fame or etc but you can only move up and not down. Unless i am satisfied being an admin assistant all the days of my life ?? .. haha.. NO WAY MAN... that is not what my pastor taught. Nor i believe God's plan for me. We are to increase in our value ... so, i gotta start saving lo.. haha.
so tempted to buy sometin from skin lo.. the clothes were all so cool and nice. faint.. haiz... money out on wed.. yippeee... y i always broke?? hmmm must reflect ...
mian bi si guo....
ok.. what we do on sat.. go service. pastor talk abt marraige. haha. so funny . nice one. :) then went see movie with the cg... watch some lame show lah. haven been to the movie for so so so long.... wai, when shall we go watch ??.... our da vinci code.. haha...
sun went to service too. although i struggled with it man. so tired ... maybe its the medicine lo.. about marraige part two. nice ^-^ theni keep disturb mel with the mr b tin.. haha. she cannot tahan me. but its so funny to see her expression whenever i mention.. mr b.. tin with the broadcast of miss mah junior. most ppl know abt the mr b tin.. ah hem...
went to have some HK food with sis pei en, Ming li, lionel, grace and mel. haiz.. broke man. then went to look for miss mah junior at esplanade. yes, they are studying there . or should i say, wz teach her eng while mr nick just stare into space.. miss mah j kep suaning and teasing me abt mr b until i get so sian with it.. oh no. i am not crazy over him lah... its impossible among us...(i know mel will tell me that all things are possible with God). but. haha. just impossible. i do know my right guy will come at His timing. Mr b is just some nice guy .... so w(me and nick) end up really rotting and i hate rotting. tried to draw but.. i cannot "ding xia lai" . haiz.. so just draw crap, take photo.. bully nick(oops..) .
after that , we went to suntec to see dance competition. well, theresa is in it mah. haha. they did not won but still well done gals.. later end up at mac again at marina !!! cos all 3 of us broke le. gota use ex link ccard. haha. i haven been broke till this stage man.. (-_-)"'. suppose to last me till end of this week but.....
haiz haiz....money money money. must rack my head to earn extra money and manage my finances. to think that i am a project administrator. managing other finances but not mine !!!
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