A LITTLE LOVE DEDICATION

Back to this little space after months of abandonment, I have to admit that I'm a bad blogger. Time flies and here we are 2013 and it's March already! This year is the year that I really need to push myself harder to prove myself right and start building a good foundation for my future. Decided to do a quickie post before I fly off to source for work again.

2012 hasn't been fruitful but glad that it was another amazing year with my dearest boyfriend. I can't say anything but I love you to this man for loving, caring, tolerating and accepting me for who I am. First year was a tumultuous period for us as we start to feel our differences and finding difficulties to change for each other's needs. Slowly, things start to change for the better after his enlistment and I started to drop those typical-girlfriend-expectations. Communication was the way out and of course, I have to credit him for being a good boyfriend who listens, spares thoughts for me and tries to compromise on certain issues. 

Second year was pretty peaceful, just with little hiccups during my PMS days (hehe). It was a fun year learning more about each other and banishing insecurities. It is safe to say that I have no secrets with him anymore. I can totally be myself when I'm with him and vice versa too. (And baby, I'm pretty sure you'll laugh and say that I am being myself by being a pig!)

Counting into our third year together, all I wish is to have a stable and consistent income so that we can gradually make plans for  our future together. I'm really grateful to have a supportive boyfriend who has full trust and faith in me even when I doubt myself. Many people around me are judging about my career choice and are persuading me to move out of it, but he stands by me and cheers me on. That's what I really need for now and it makes me feel less pressurized and carefree when I'm with him. :)

Although now I am happily in love but there's still a lot to love about love and being his significant other. We need to step out of our comfy nest together to find bigger fulfillment together. I won't say we are a perfect couple, because we still do get grumpy with each other about certain habits e.g. my reluctance to shower sometimes, my tardiness and procrastinations. But I would say he is pretty much of my perfect piece. Imperfections make perfections and sometimes imperfections are simply reminders for us to understand that that's who we are. 

Love has definitely changed me A LOT but it made me a fuller person. Sometimes, it makes me realize that my past lifestyle of being busy working and earning bucks for myself was so... meaningless. I could buy myself material happiness but it doesn't change anything at the end of the day. Nothing beats coming home to somebody you love and sharing the things you have in life with him. 

All in all, I want to do so much more with this man. Having a little home of our own, seeing him out to work every morning, cooking weird aglio olio for him and yet saying he loves it, traveling around the globe, pillow fights and bed wrestling, taking care of each other when we're sick, eating fishball mee together almost everyday, whining to him like a big baby and so so so much more.  When he asked me if we will have a 3rd anniversary together, my answer was "No, but 100th anniversary." And I meant my words.  

To sum up everything, I only have 4 words to him which is simply just "I love you, baby".


ps. I won't be by your side all the time but just remember how I would hold you to sleep. :)

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY BABY!

Celebrated the bf's birthday over the weekend at Changi Treehouse and the place is awesome for a "chalet". After 3 days of sleeping and waking up next to him, I'm having a bad case of weekday blues and boyfriend-missing-syndromes. Check out my instag for past photos! :) My username is kissesinmagenta!

And to my baby, hope I'll always be there for the rest of the birthdays and "scaring" you every year with my much planned surprise! <3 p="p">

19 MONTHS AND COUNTING, AND STILL IN LOVE

A random surprise from the boyfriend! I got ambushed at my lift when he suddenly popped out with this bouquet of daisies! Totally got caught off guard cause he is not a quite a hopeless romantic. :)

Never thought we would go this far when we first started out and it gets better as time flies by. Of course, we had our down times but I'm glad that we've been sorting it out reasonably and maturely. 2 years ago, I was somebody who works hard and spends hard without any commitment. I had no time for people or even myself sometimes. I never thought that I would go into a serious relationship cause I always felt the world is too big for me to stop. Today, I look into myself and found a new character and personality in me. I'm glad that this relationship has made me become more realistic, down-to-earth, caring and less self-centered. I learnt how to give and take in a gracious way, understanding differences and living with them. Most importantly, I'm learning how to love truly.

It isn't easy to maintain a happy and strong relationship. After witnessing others' heartbreaks and all, it made us reflect on our relationships from time to time. There was a grey period for us when we were unhappy and fought with each every week. It was an emotionally tough period but somehow we manage to tide over it which is something I'm very glad about. I think how we did it was telling each other not to give up on us. :) That is something I always find it heartwarming to hear.

As a girl, I think we all need to be really understanding, accepting, less expectant and have that ability to push over our inner devil! (lol~) Cause I realized that even though the rational side of me tells me to go easy and understanding, the irrational, devilish side will always stir up shit assumptions and thoughts. It always makes me feel helplessly unreasonable at the end of the day and I've to deal with it all by myself :( I bet a lot of girls always feel this - like you wanna be angry/upset but you know its not something you should be angry/upset about... And up till date, I am still learning how to fight with my inner devil :(

But all in all, I feel lucky that I've found someone like him. :) Someone who can tolerate me (I'm somebody who is very self-righteous and expectant ahem~), someone who tries to improve, grow and compromise in the relationship, someone who has so much patience for me and someone who loves me as much as I do (but I always think I love him more!).

Not many guys I know are willing to change and compromise in their relationship. Also, many took granted of the comfort and stability. Some even can't stay still and committed to one. I'm always happy when I see the appreciative side of him because it makes me feel like all the effort I've made is paid off and it makes me wanna do more for him and us.

True love is a very subjective thing. It is something that you'll feel in your heart and mind without any influence from others. And when you're truly in love, you'll realize that it is all about giving and taking happily and willingly. You'll learn what is unconditional love and find happiness in giving even with less taking. You'll slowly and naturally forget but accept the other half's flaws and only see their beauty and strengths. And most importantly, you'll see the side of him that nobody can see ;)

xoxo