I really want to share about this. I went for my first Bible study group just now. I have just started to read the bible and what we went through in the Bible study just now really help me in knowing what I should be doing when I do my own reading or personal Bible study. I realize that i have not been doing it the "fruitful" way.
One of the questions from the study guide asks about how God's words have made me aware of an area in my life that needs to be brought into closer obedience to God. The most obvious area for me will be my "anxiety attacks". I'm a worried freak. I got-get- worked up over big and small issues. I know I have been dealing with this psychological issues for a long time. I think I take after my dad. I wished I could use past tense here, but I know i still haven't gotten over it yet. Well, I will freak out unnecessarily. I always think make a mountain out of a mole hill. I will make a small issue seems like a big disaster. My bf always asks me why I think too much over such a small thing, why i am filled with so much negative thoughts. My answers would be that i was thinking of the worst case scenario, I wanted to be prepared for the worst as I don't deal with "bad" surprises well. He would get angry with my over the top anxiety and I would get angry at him for getting angry at me and not understanding me.
I tried to change my mindset, but it always comes back. My bf suggested looking for "self-help" sections in the internet on how to think positively and/or learn about Lord's words. He gave me his extra Bible so that I can read it. I kept it in the drawer and didn't read it till a month ago.
I believe in Jesus. But I didn't made any effort to learn about His teachings and only seek Him in times of trouble. I made excuses into not getting "help". And then, some things happened and made me look at things from a different perspective.
There's a saying about how other people are the reflections of yourself? I think it's true. I saw what I was like to other people and I did not like what I saw. I did not like what has been happening. I have to take action and I started to take out the Bible from the drawer. I wanted to learn more and I started going to church with my friend.
" Your word is a lamp to guide my feet and a light for my path" ~ Psalm 119.105.
Why should I worry so much? I just need to have faith in Him and He will guide me. As I learn to put my faith in His words, I feel like the big burden on my shoulder is being lifted up little by little.
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As much as I want to buy them, i think i still have to hold that temptation. I'll definitely buy those later. hehe....but till i'm done paying off flight expenses, i should refrain from spending too much money!
