I received my card from A kwa . He didn't lie to me!!! Haha.... Happiness filled me when I looked at the card indicated for me. I knew right away it's from Akwa, his small handwriting is still the same. Don't get me wrong, I'm not happy cause it's from Akwa, but i'm happy cause it's the first b'day card I received this year!!! I can't wait for REn's. She said she will send it by this week.

Stupid Akwa, he said that i'm very old, he even say nin, instead of ni!!! What do u mean by that???

Also, thanks for the stamps! I really appreciate it!!!

The departed was a big winner at last night Oscar. Ellen Degeneres was so comical!!! She should host the Oscar again next year! The departed was adapted from The Internal Affair. I guess this shows that Asian movies are good! No, it's excellent, even those from Hollywood adapted it!

It's so cute when Jaden Smith and Abigail from Little Miss Sunshine presented the awards together. And you could see how proud will and jada smith were!

I think there're a few surprises, including the leading actor. Many were predicting Eddie Murphy to win. Anyway, watching awards show always makes me wonder if I win an award, what would my acceptance speech be. Hmph...

Liverpool trashed Sheffield United 4 to nothing!!! Gerrard scored the fourth goal before he was substituted by Alonso. What a nice way to leave field. Also, I wonder if he will dedicate the goal to Lilly-Ella. Liverpool really played well. I guess their morale got a huge boost by the win at Nou Camp. I told Lo about it, he didn't really know about it. He said he watched the match a bit, but he's more interested in the score. Only Steward really watch soccer. He supported Real Madrid.

Out of nowhere, they came to my workplace, asked me if i wanted a lift home. With my heck care attitude, I said, "Ya udah!" (ok lor). Tommy said that the wind was very strong outside and they would be in the computer lab. I just nodded and continued vacumming the floor. Well, they wanted to gimme a lift, why not?

Anyway, Tommy asked me if I wanted to go home or go to their place. of course I wanted to go home! He also asked if I had eaten. Then, before I alight, he told me that they will be going to OKC tmr and asked if I wanted to go. I said, "no" and quickly alight. Honestly, I do want to go to OKC to buy some asian food, but I don't feel like going with them, and I don't know if they really want me to go or not. I kinna waiting for ani n ana to come so that I have companion. All the way home, only Tommy talked to me. I don't know if he really care, but I still feel sore. I'm quite sure that when I alight, they would talk about me, especially the twins. They will say, they asked me already, it's just that I didn't want to go. Besides, I bet they wouldn't want me to go with them. If they really want me to go, they would have asked earlier and asked why I didn't want to go.

Anyway, I plan to mug the whole day tomorrow. Exams are coming!!! If anything, I at least will have my academic records to be proud of.

Typhon is coming!!! The wind was so strong it blew away my potted plant :(

It's Lilly-Ella Gerrard's birthday. Yup, she's Gerrard's first daughter. She turns 3 this year. Happy Birthday!!! She could have shared the same birthday as me, but she chose to "come out" on the 23rd instead. Lol.

Yesterday was Boonsak's birthday!

Happy birthday to everyone whose birthday is in Februaray. February babies rulez! :P

I was so clumsy at work last night. I was mopping the floor. The mop was rather heavy. while lifting it from the pail, the mop entangled with the handle, and the pail tripped over. Water was everywhere!!! One-third of the kitchen was flooded. I was more embarrased rather than panic. Well, I manged to get it as "dry" as possible, but the floor was rather dirty. Yuki helped me a little. Luckily, only Yuki saw how flooded the floor was, the rest of the people only saw it after I get most of the water.

I was really really really happy that Liverpool beat Barcelona, it's as if Liverpool has won the CL again. But the battle is only half-won. Go Liverpool.

It sucks big time not being able to talk about the match. I called my dad after the match. But that as much discussion I had :( I missed watching the match in the wee hours, waking my mum and sis up with my shouts when Liverpool won :P Then, I would go to school happily, and teased all those people who doubted Liverpool. I missed those days. I asked Yuki if he watches soccer, he said he watched a little, but he doesn't really know Barcelona! Anyway, I told him how happy I was for half a minute, and then back to work. In the past, I would be happy all day long!!! Talking non-stop about the feat, especially to A kwa! Haha....

Oh, I talk to A kwa on msn just now. He didn't watch the match, he said Liverpool matches are boring. Whatever, Man U fan! He said he send me a B'day card, I won't believe him until I receive it. He always tricks me with his lies!!!

Phew! Ronaldinho missed the freekick. I hate the cameraman. He's building the anticipation by zooming on Ronaldinho then Reina, Reina, Ronaldinho... I was shouting, "hurry up! Kick the ball!!!"

Another close shave! Saviola nearly scored (I screamed in fright). Reina palmed it away, but it's not over. Messi kicked the ball.... but didn't find the net.

Yeaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!! Riise scored! Liverpool's in the lead!!!!!!!!!!!! Gerrard passed perfectly to Kuyt. He missed it. Bellamy received the rebound, saw Riise, passed and Riise slam the ball into the net!

Barcelona tried to come back. No chance for it!

Liverpool won!!! Liverpool BEAT Barcelona at Camp Nou!!! It's not a dream!!! It's a reality!!!

Anfield awaits!

My excitement was replaced by disappointment when I saw the scoreline at the 25th minute. Deco has scored a goal in the 14th minute. I screamed, but glad not to have seen that goal.
The pain would be more excruciating! Bellamy nearly scored. I cringed as he headed the ball outside the post. What a perfect opportunity to get back into the game! Nonetheless, he made up for it. He headed another one after receiving a perfect pass from (who else) Steven Gerrard! Valdes caught the ball... not in time to prevent it from crossing the goal line. Liverpool scored!!!! I wanted to jump, I wanted to scream, I'm so happy. At least the Reds scored a goal against the supposedly best team in the world! Yeah!!! Half-time: Barca 1-1 Liverpool. Go liverpool!!! Keep the score! Don't let Barca came back!

It's tomorrow!!!

Liverpool vs Barcelona!!!

I wish for miracle to happen, but deep down, I know Barca will trash Liverpool. *sigh* the night in Istanbul will never happen again, not this soon, I think. But still, I hope Liverpool will at least manage a draw, but it's Camp Nou (or Nou Camp) they're playing in!!! All the best Reds! You'll Never Walk Alone!!!

Liverpool training at Camp Nou

I'm officially older by a year now!!! NO cake. I don't like the walmart cake, and I don't know if there's anywhere else to buy cake.

I want to thanks my family for the calls!

I want to thanks REN and Jac very much for their clips. Thanks Ren for making 3 versions of birthday songs. They're all equally good!!! But if i've to choose, i like the third one. U and ur "soprano" voice. Haha... Helped start my day! And jac, thanks for your video. It makes the rest of my day even better!!! Yeah, I'm a year younger than u thought!!! Nonetheless, I'm really touched and thankful for u to make those clips. You totally made my day!!! Love u both!!! And my family too, of course!!!

Come to think of it, I did have a very early b'day celebration last year, on the day before I left S'pore! A "farewell" cake becum a birthday cake! Thanks for e early celebration, guys!

I've told them. I felt somewhat better to finally able to get this off my chest. I just hope that i don't make them worry about me even more.

Why does it seem to be my fault? Why is it that despite being the one who's hurt, I seem to be the guilty party? Why do I have to be the one who give way? Why does it seem as if i'm asking for this? Whatever it is, I have me! I can survive on my own! I will make more friends, I will take care of myself, so I don't need you all to worry about me! I don't need them! I won't kiss their asses just so that they would do things for me. I'm hurt and unhappy, and I dont' want to pretend as if nothing happen. I'm not a good actor, otherwise, I would go to Hollywood!

oh, i just checked my msis result. Yeah, I screwed it up. I got a C!!! :( Should have studied the textbook! From now on, I will make sure I studied the textbook till i know every single word in it! well, may be not all. It's a torture for a person who's not computer savy, who's not interested in computer parts, to study computer!!! But i will do well. I will get an A for this subject or I would be letting myself down!!! I did well in my sciences at O lvl, so I can do this too!!!

Today, New Year's Eve. It's supposed to be a day for reunion dinner. Reunion dinner I did not have, but I didn't have dinner alone. I had dinner with my fellow part-time workers at the pizza restaurant. Oh, and I got a Hello Kitty "red packet" from Asagi! (insert below) Haha...




It began with me asking Asagi if Japanese celebrate Lunar New Year. As it turned out, Japanese don't celebrate it. We talked and then at some point, I told him that during Chinese New Year, the children would get a red packet with money inside. He excitedly told me that he also gets "red packet" (the packet is not red in color, u see) with money inside during NEw Year (Jan 1) which the japanese celebrates. He reached for his wallet, and took out some stuffs and then he found the "red packet" that his grandmother gave him for the new year. Of course, there's no more money inside. HE gave it to me. I opened it and "demanded" for money. He gave me a penny which of course I rejected. He let me keep the HEllo Kitty "red packet", and told me to put money in it myself :( Then, Lo (the student supervisor, who's from Hong KOng) saw me holding the "red packet". I told him that it's my first "Red packet" for the year! I made a sad face saying that there's no money in the "red packet". I asked him for some money. Again, I was given a penny (which i turned down, again!). Anyway, I wished Lo "Gong Hei Fat Choi"! And asked for a red packet from him. He gave a typical answer, " I'm not married yet!"

Oh, Yoshi (the jap guys who used to be housekeeper too) started working at Pistol Pizza today. Talk about reunion! We caught up a little, but most of the time, he taked to his fellow countrymen.

That's how my first Chinese New Year's Eve in US went. Well, at least I have a "red packet"! Thanks, Asagi!


P.S. I talked to Lo about Gerrard!!! He doesn't know who Steven Gerrard is!!!! He played soccer, but didn't really watch it. I told him, that he knows who steven gerrard is now and he better remember it! Haha... I was bored, and I haven't been psychoing people about liverpool and gerrard the way i psycho jac, ren, and monica. Haha... I miss those days!

After weeks of being left out, I was suddenly remembered. Oh, how thoughtful! All of the sudden, I exist! Told me not to go to work, to go to okc for a dinner (or smt). Yeah, if I was informed a week ahead, I would go (well, may be. I'm still sore, my wound have yet to heal, by the way), but a few hours before? I could not just call tmr and said, "sorry, I can't work today, i've emergency!" What emergency? Erm... Besides, I still have to attend a compulsory meeting tmr morning!
If I was remembered earlier, a week or a few days earlier, I would discuss this with my supervisor, and work things out. But a few hours ahead? I can just be irresponsible and didn't go to work or the meeting, but I don't want. It's just not right! It's just not me! Moreover, who will I be having a "reunion dinner" with? A group of people who I don't know and who have not been acknowledging my existance... Not forgetting, I'm still in the middle of a cold war.

Should I tell them? I wanted to tell them, but I'm not sure if it's the right thing to do. I don't want to blow up the whole matter. I don't want to complicate matter. But I wanted to tell them so much. I really do, but each time, I hold back. I'm worried. I'm confused...

... I told myself, it's better not to tell them... yet. I may tell them one day...perhaps. But not now.

A lonely Chinese New Year.... a lonely Birthday!

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone (except me)!!!!

I think I screwed my msis exam yesterday. Most questions came out from the textbook and I only read throught it once. I read the slides, but apparently, they're rather useless.

Working on Thrusday night was the worst decision I've made this semester! I was so tired today. I was so tired that I handed the wrong thing for my english class and I couldn't remember what I gave to the teacher. *sigh*

Talking of exam, here's what Gerrard did on his GCSEs.

"I sat in the exam hall thinking hard over one important question: exactly how I would burn my uniform. The clock showed barely an hour before I sprinted out the room. I have never run so quick to a bus-stop. I wanted to get back to Ironside, get into my normal clothes, ditch my uniform... " How did your exam go?" Mum asked. "Yeah, fine," I replied, knowing I had done shite. I handed her my uniform. "Just pop that in the bin, please, Mum." A new uniform awaited me: Liverpool FC."

I was LMAO when I read the bolded parts! Well in the end, he really did shite, I must say, a C in English, six Ds and two Es! At least he's good a something-- football!

I'm beginning to dislike going to classes. Sooo boring. As soon as I sat down for my first class of the day, I can't wait to go home. Yeah, I could choose not to attend class, but I've paid for the tuition, and if I didn't go to class, I wouldn't know what's going on and it didnt' help that I didnt' really know anyone in my classes. I miss the old days at Zhss.

U know having a guy in the house it's really not an advantage. Well, if that guy is a father and may be brother ( a brother of mine better be) , yeah, they would be useful.
I called home more and more often now. I'm really really homesick. With Chinese New Year and my birthday coming, I miss my family even more. I want to go home :(

Stomachache... I guess I won't be going for the meeting at 3pm. Well, I did give a thought of going there, although I would feel like a fish out of the water, not knowing anyone there. But my stomach is killing me!!! But I still find way to blog. Heh, I wanted to talk about Gerrard!

And about work yesterday. There weren't many customers. Although I didn't really like it, I think it's better than having too much orders! Anyway, I talked more to Asagi. We talked about chinese characters and Japanese. He told me that there's 3 types of characters used in Japanese words. One is Chinese, I don't really know how to say the other two, but one set is for the direct translation of English words based on their sound. So this set of words has no meaning, just sounds. He wrote a set of words for my name :D
The other set is the usual Japanese characters. He also told me that his name Asagi consist of only 1 chinese character- cai (cai hong de cai), and it's not a common Japanese name and many Japanese don't what that is and how it is pronounced. Interesting!

Steward worked for 10 hours again. HE said he's working for 10 hours every Saturday. Crazy! When he saw me writing some chinese characters, he snatched my pen and drew some kindergarten standard drawing--- tv, people, boat, house-- and said that they're chinese characters! Well, for the record, he knows how to write people or human (ren) in chinese. He's a vietnamese. He taught me a vietnamese word - xin chao- means hello or hi! There's another funny thing. Yuki brought a cd, he wanted to write Avril Lavigne on it. Instead, he wrote "Averil Rubbin?" Haha... Becky saw it and asked him if he meant "Avril Lavigne". Then both of us laughed.

10 more days to Liverpool vs Barcelona!!! I can't wait! I really hope that the connection is smooth and I would be able to watch it online!

Time for another excerpt from Gerrard's autobiography

Born to be Red

"Cut my veins open and I bleed Liverpool red." --- I love this sentence. It's such a power message, it filled me with awe and I could felt Gerrard's love and passion for Liverpool. It's a perfect sentence to be used by any die-hard Liverpool fan. I don't think I am qualified to say that yet. I'm crazy about Liverpool, but not that crazy. My friends may beg to differ, but seriously, I am considered sane compared to the real die-hard fan!

continuing...

A close shave

" My career was nearly destroyed before it started. All my dreams of starring for Liverpool and England, of lifting European Cupts and shining in World Cups, rested on the skill of a surgeon when I was only nine... Agony. Total agony. My foot hit something. Jesus, the pain was merciless. I nearly had a heart attack. I fell down, screaming for help. In my career I've had smashed metatarsals and torn groins, but honest to God, I have never felt pain like this. Like poison from a needle, it shot up my shins...I looked down and couldn't believe my eyes. A garden fork was embedded in my big toe... I heard the doctor say, 'The fork is rusty, there's a chance of gangrene. We might have to take the toe off to stop any gangrene spreading.' 'Wait,' Dad intervened. 'Steven plays football, you must speak to Liverpool before you do any operation. They must know what is going on.'My dad quickly called Steve Heighway, Liverpool's Academy director...'No, you are not bloody well taking his toe off,' Steve told them... The surgeon numbed he whole foot and tugged the fork out. The hole was huge, as big as 20p coin and an inch and a half deep. It was a mess, but at least the surgeon saved my toe and my career... The one half-decent thing about the accident was that I missed three weeks of school. The doctors insisted, so who was I to argue! School sent homework round but it never get done. No chance..."

Every child hates school, no?

If Gerrard lost his toe, he might not make it to be a footballer, and I might not support him. I may be crazy about some other footballer. May be Michael Owen. I don't know. But what a tragic accident for a nine-year-old to go through. It makes me admire Gerrard even more!

Liverpool lost 2-1 to newcastle. I think Steven Taylor dived. I saw the contact that he and Riise made, but the way he fell was so exaggerated! But penalty was awarded anyway and as Solano sent Reina the wrong way, Newcastle took the lead. Liverpool made more attempt on the attacks, but to no avail :(

I've been reading Gerrard's autobiography. It's funny yet inspiring. I will give u an except in my entry every now and then.

" As my car inches passt the Memorial, I looked down the names of those who fell on the Leppings Lane End, never to rise again. My eyes stop at one mane. Jon-Paul Gilhooley, ten years old, the youngest of htose who never came home from Sheffield... I knew Jon-Paul. He was my cousin... Jon-Paul adored Liverpool with the same fervour that fills me whenever I pull on that red shirt. We were so alike.... Whenever I saw Jon-Paul's parents during my Youth Trainee Scheme days at Anfield, it gave me an extra determination to suceed. Just before I made my Liverpool debut, they said, 'Jon-Paul would be so proud of you.' During that match, I felt Jon-Paul was looking down on me, pleased I was fulfilling a dream we both shared... It breaks my heart every day just to think Jon-Paul is not here any more... I have never let anyone know this before, but it's true: I play for Jon-Paul."

How is it feel to be left out?

It sucks big time. It makes you feel as if you're alone in this world with no one to depend on except yourself. It makes you cry. It makes you wonder if your decision was right. It makes you want to go home to your family and friends because they're the ones (perhaps the only ones) who loves you, care about you and won't leave you out of their plan. I hate those feelings, but those are what I am experiencing right now. I am sorry to those people whom I have left out before. Sorry for my ignorance and insensitivity. I will remember the desolated feelings so that I won't leave anyone in my plan (not if it is for revenge)!

I'm so happy :D I finally received Gerrard autobiography that I've ordered!!! I'll treat it as an early Birthday present for myself :D I'm so over the moon. I know that by the time I read the book ,the content would be rather irrelevant with the time, but better late than never.

Here's the front and back covers of the book sitting on my bed

England lost 1-0 to Spain. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be happy or sad, but I found myself smiling when I saw the score :P Yeah, gerrard played, but it's just a friendly match, so not that much of an importance, no?

Nothing much happen in school. Oh, I met Steward. HE also worked in Pistol Pizza. It's the first time I met my collegues outside the restaurant. I didn't see him at first, but he waved and said "Hi!" to me. I asked him why he was sitting on the floor. He answered that he liked it. Haha... He's a little weird. Last Saturday, he worked for 10 hours! And he's always pulling the food from the oven early. Dunno y. Got back Econ exam. I did well!!! Yeah, so happy for myself!

Chinese New Year is coming. I want to get ang pao, eat all the chinese new year snacks!!!! To add salt to my wound, my birthday, first "non-teenage" b'day falls on the second day of Chinese New Year!!! I could use this to get double ang pao, right? But I'm here not there :(
I really don't know how I'm going to celebrate my b'day. Most prob, i won't be celebrating it. May be I will just buy a small cake for myself or treat myself to a nice meal! I have to be good to myself since others aren't

just came back from my first ever spanish lesson. It's a very small class, and I mean really small, only 5 people attended. Anyway, I learnt a few spanish vocab. La papa--- potato. I thought it means father. Haha... Well, father is Papa(cap. P). There's this catchy word-- quita cuticula (pronounce: kita kuticula). It means cuticle remover. I didn't know such thing exists!!! I guess there's more than spanish that I learnt tonight :D

Anyway, a new chapter of history took place in liverpool fc. Liverpool is now officially belongs to American businessmen George Gillett and Tom Hicks. Hicks: 'I had obviously heard of Liverpool but once I had a chance to read about the 118 years of history, the 18 league championships, the bleak years in the 1930s and 40s through to the 60s and then the tragedies of the 1980s, I was just awe-struck by what this community has done, it is very, very special.' ( Soccernet.com) A club with a rich history--- that's liverpool!!! But I hope they won't sell the naming rights of the new stadium. Then again, there will only be one Anfield. (And I want to go there before liverpool 'moved house'!!!)

I wonder if Liverpool will come to US one day. I mean their new owners are americans!!! If they do, I will go to the state where they visited , by then, I should be able to speak some spanish and can impress Rafa. Haha... Of course, I want to meet Gerrard too!!! May be I should bring a magazine or two from Singapore with gerrard in the cover so I could ask him to sign it.

"Talking is so overrated"--- Grey's Anatomy. I agree!!! Silence is golden. Anyway, we've been giving each other cold shoulders. If he's (they're) not going to talk to me, then I won't. Even if they do, I will ignore them. Otherwise, would they think about me, the emotional hurt they've put me thru???? Whatever! I'm enjoying the time when i won't be bugged about school work :D

I've been thinking of taking Spanish lesson. I've asked and there's a lesson this evening. I will go n see. It's good to learn new things, no? Besided, if I want to work in US, it would be better to know some Spanish with many Mexicans here. I have nothing to do in the evening too. I also wanted to take Craft class, but clash with my lesson time :( I'm thinking of taking Korean class. Then, I could understand korean drama and what jj n glorick talk about ;P

There's also cultural night coming and the indonesian association were asking for people to participate. Finally, I received their email. I didn't get any of it last semester. Anyway, they're thinking of putting up a fashion show, singing session and an angklung performance (and dancing too i think). I'm interested in the angklung, but I'm a little reserved, caused i'm not very good with musical instrument, that's y I always hated music lessons!!! I definitely won't dance. I can't seem to be able to remember dance routines well. Enuf of dancing from TJ's orientation. No more please!!! I don't know. I want to join, but....

I've been complaining about my cousins in my previous blog. Sorry if it bores u readers ( I wonder who read my blog). Anyway, I just want to vent out my anger.

My hometown was flooded. IN some part, the water is as high as 2 m. My dad nearly couldn't go to s'pore. I'm glad he made it there safely. Floods were a common occurance in jakarta. Part of my childhood memories were about playing in the flood- folding paper boats and let it sailed on the murky water, catching tadpoles or small fishes, splashing water. Another common occurance was blackout! I wouldn't say that i missed them, but floods and blackouts brought the whole family together!

I'm trying to study for my econ exam. I'm struggling with the concept of opp. cost. Sometimes I get it, but sometimes I don't. I just hope that i would have sufficient time to finish the paper and not make a careless mistake. This makes me rethink if I really want to study economics. I'm taking stats, too and I really enjoy stats. It's like maths! I wonder what stats major do.

Liverpool drew in a derby!!!! And it's played at Anfield!!! Wanted to watch but woke up late :P

Oh, here, they called a derby "Bedlam". Don't know why.

I went to play racquetball with JJ and Glorick last night. Wanted to play badminton, but the court was booked. So JJ suggested racquetball. They taught me how to play it, it's hard. I was afraid the ball might hit me!!! Haha...And i had to run all over the court to chase the ball. So tiring. When I reached home, Sung was already home. He asked me where i went to. I told him that I was having fun with JJ and Glorick( without him!!!) I couldn't really tell if he's disappointed, but I hope he was. Next time, when he and the twins had "fun" at okc, he would know what it's like to be left out!!!

He told me that the twins told him that it's dangerous to drive in the highway for the first time alone. I agree. But what angered me is that they did not say that because they're really worried, more like not wanting to be left out when we go to okc or want to go to okc when THEY like it. And sung asked me to call in sick on sat. This time, I raised my voice and told him, why don't u call in sick on fri and then we go on fri and then we could stay there overnight???

They called last night. I think they're planning to go out today. I don't care!!!! I had my way to get back at them. You know, they (the whole family) cared more about S and really helped him, but not me. TAke helping to ask for a job for example. I don't know why(may be got to do with them being closer with his family) Anyway, I got my job now by my own. At least I could be proud of that!!!

I tried not to cry. I chose to come here. Even my dad suggested for me to choose other better university to go to. But I was afraid to be alone. Now, I would rather be alone than being surrounded by them.

I'm watching Let It Shine on youtube. I miss S'pore drama. Seeing the HDB flats, schools and shopping centers, gave me a nostalgic feeling. I think the show is quite nice. But would a teacher be such a busy body like the character Felicia Chin's playing in real life? I don't think so. I think a teacher should be able to draw a line and not meddle too much with his or her students personal life. May be I should ask Deng lao shi about this.

So my cousin's got a car, but then the twins and him (but mostly is the twins) ganged up and bully me!!! I've got to work on Sat, and they prefer to go to okc on Sat. I was really mad!!! They asked me to call in sick and not to go to work! To think they're my cousins and share some DNA with me!!! I won't do that (if I still work in the hotel, may be). I would rather spent my Sat at the restaurant kitchen, earning money. Why must I accomodate them? Why can't they be more accomodating towards me?
If they're going to be a bunch of jerks, I can be a total bitch too!!! And bitch bites! (don't know what jerks are capable of). I bear grudge! You offend me, I will remember it and when the time comes, u will get ur retribution (from me)!!! Irritating!!!