Fever Pitch!

People find it hard to understand why I even bother to spend time watching the S-League instead of doing something else. Honestly, I watch it because of the entertainment value. What entertainment you say? Well, the majority of entertainment comes from the stands instead of the pitch.

 

I've got a mad-cap bunch of soccer mates that have been standing by our team since the first season till now. We've weathered more bad times together than the good times but it's still it's always nice to be bantering together with a bunch of people while supporting the same team! We're really a bunch of local hooligans wannabies!

 

There was a live telecast of the match that we were watching today... and I think we were caught on TV whilst celebrating one of our team's goals. We whooped the opponents real bad today. And guess what? We were cheering our team from the start all the way till the very end. Egging them on to pulverise the opposing team. Show em no mercy boys! With that win, we mantained our chase for the championship and I hope the team doesn't slip up till the end of the season. All we've got to do is to win all our remaining games and we'll be the champs of local football for the first time!

 

Impossible is nothing. We can do it!

 

Go Rovers Go!!!

 

*PS: Hey Iggy, My team is good eh? 6-2 win over the next best team is no mean feat! hehe~

Left-Handed Wonders

Recently Shou Yi and I have decided to take our level of our table tennis skills to another level. Alright, he's definitely better than I. But we're trying something new this time. We're gonna play with our left hands! In actual fact, we've been training to be southpaws for the past month or so already. And I think we're quite good at it. Hehe~ With a little more training, we might be able to whoop some serious arse in the office's unofficial lunchtime table tennis tourney! Haha~

 

Today, we took on the newbies, J&A. It was quite fun to be able to kick some ass within the office. Guess will do that more often. It's good for the ego. Hehe~ I'm evil, I like beating people down... But who cares as long and Shou Yi and I are having fun kickin ass together instead of kicking each other's arses!

 

Watch out world! The left-handed wonders are here to stay!

Morning Encik! Pui~

Yes, I'm angry. There's a incident today that totally grossed me out. I guess I really shouldn't be too affected by it, but still the entire incident still troubles me till now. Life in the military is so sad. Over at our new office, we are expected to greet the dumb uncles that work next door. Today one of them came up to us and snidely remarked to us that we should know our place in the hole that we're in and that other people would not be so kind and let us off... for not greeting them.

Such dumb petty shite from such unimportant people. If they had any class about them, they wouldn't have even bothered with such an unimportant issue like this. Please... I've dealings with more important people and they are much more humble and appreciative of the people around them. And they deserve their respect. And naturally people will greet them. Why must I have to greet a total stranger when I don't even know him? Complete nonsense. Bleh!

 

Silly uncle. Pui~

Stagnant Water In A Well
This is how I feel about myself. I feel like stagnant water in a well. Just sitting pretty in a deep dark well where the only visitors are mosquitoes that lay their eggs on me and dead leaves that have already fallen from the trees above and found their final resting place in this well... in me. I want out. I want to be taken out of the well. This place is damp, oh wait, I'm the one causing the dampness... oh nevermind, this place is still damp. Dark. Mouldy. Infested with strange living creatures. Can somebody, please rescue me?

Where Has The Joy Gone?
The days where unbridled joy and laughter filled the air around me are long gone. That innocence of youth has been taken away from me. I am now an angsty young adult that's struggling to come to terms with the adult world. In this world, you are being burdened with the responsibility of bring in the money, having to deal with difficult people, fighting the daily battles that come along as you strive to progress in life.
 
No one is happy these days. Is it because the world is fucked up? Probably so.
 
But why can't people derive happiness from the simple things in life? Instead they ask for so much, only to feel dissapointed, angry or more so... depressed when they don't get the results they expect.
 
I know I'm not happy. But I'm not mad at the state that I'm in. I know it's not my fault and I shouldn't be mad for all that. It'll only make my life worse. I'll just smile and appreciate the little sweet and lovely moments that come along and remember them. As for all the negative vibes... they can just go fuck off. Haha~
 
Joy and Happiness can be found inside. In our hearts, if we dig deep enough to find it.
 
Life is only as bad as the way you percieve it to be.

Almost Heartbroken.
My heart bleed profusely as I stared long and hard at her. It's so sad that I'm able to touch and feel her... But yet, I'm powerless to free her from her evil master. Not at this very moment at least.
 
I know that I've found her. Time may not be on my side and I certainly hope that Lady Luck is not playing with me as I am a desperately luckless person. I have no clue how I'll do it. But I'll have her in my arms one day. That day will come.
 
Rio Grande... You belong to me.

Broke, Not Broken
Not being able to control my finances, all the cash I've got has evaporated into thin air. I'm so broke now that I have No Idea how to survive till payday! Guess I'll just have to eat air and drink rain water from today onwards till the 10th of next month! That is 2 weeks to go! Guess going for the strolls lessons are out of the question now. Oh well... lessons are rather revolting now anyway... The steps are gross and we ain't learning much. I feel very cheated. More so than last week.
 
The mood around has been rather gloomy with the people around me. Guess it must be due to work. Work stinks. Bosses stink even more. Erm... that's all I have to say I guess.
 
Oh btw, people. I'm not depressed anymore. Thank you all for your well wishes and such. You're all such sweet darlings! :P

No Peace! But This Won't Last Long

Looks like my plans of taking a break away from work has come to an abrupt end. My boss wants me to work on some department logo and source for some photos for the upcoming Army Biggie Event for some crap formation. Oh bugger!

 

I really wanted to walk in and tell my boss that I'm actually depressed and hope that she'll grant my wishes and allow me to walk away from the dings and dongs of the office temporarily. But at the look of things, I doubt I'll be able to do so.

 

Looks like I'll just have to get my life sorted out in another method then. Route One! Will myself through it! Comon' boy! You can do it! Life's tough but I gotta be tougher then life! Me ain't no good for nothing wussy that can't get over some obstacle in life!

 

I'll be fine. I know, I will.

I Need Some Peace!
I need a break to get away from it all.
 
Wanting to run away from it all. Can't fault myself from wanting to run away. If I had a tub, I'll probably fill it to the brim, throw in little sailboats, rubber duckies and other inflatables and then finally submerge myself under the surface for as long as I can until my lungs start screaming for the air that I badly need right now. After getting out to get a big mouthful of air... I'll go straight back in to slowly release the air outta my mouth and see the cute little sacs of air race each other to the surface, just like the way I did when I needed to get out of the water for some air... Problem is, when I reach the surface... will it be clear skies for me? Or will I hit the hull of some sailboat or base of some bhoy with such force that I'll knock myself out and start sinking to the bottom again?
 
I've never been good when it comes to facing problems. In fact, I'm terrible at problem solving. I should take a break of some sorts again. Alone. No budget? No problem. I'll end up somewhere on a local beach where no one comes into my personal space. I just need to drift away to Lala-land and find some answers to questions that I can't answer. I need to go away. Guess here is where my annual leave comes to use! If all goes well... maybe I'll take a few days off to find some sort of inner peace that I've been looking for the longest time.
 
It's just way too noisy in the office now. I can't take that. It's hard these days when you can just close your eyes and allow yourself to appreciate a nice moment of serenity anywhere. Man makes things that in turn makes noises! Man makes noises! Urrgh! Shoo!!! Evil influences and pesks! Shoo!!!
 
I need to get away.
 
I need to accept some facts.
 
Otherwise I won't be able to sleep well or even do anything. I can't now. That's why I'm up and out here.

My Wonderful Friends!

My friends. I've hardly taken time to tell them how much I am indebted to them. It's about time that I've acknowledged all the splendid work they've been doing to keep my world from falling apart. Thank you all. :)
 
I love my friends. Without them, I'll probably be languishing in the echelons of oblivion or drifting away like space junk in the dark lonely vacuum of space.
 
It seems that my friends are always there to catch me whenever I manage to trip over the mess that I've created with my own two hands over and over again. Pulled me out of a train wrecks, saved me from drowning, carried me out of raging infernos, my dear friends, they've done it all. 

They're the modern day superheros of my realm. Thank You All~

Unwell -  Matchbox Twenty

All Day,

Staring at the ceiling making friends with shadows on my wall.

All Night,

I'm hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep,

Because tomorrow might be good for something

(Pre Chorus)

Hold On...

I'm feeling like I'm heading for a,

Breakdown.

I don't know why.

(Chorus)

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little uwell

I know, right now you can't tell.

But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see,

A different side of me.

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired,

I know, right now you don't care.

But soon enough, you're gonna think of me

And how I used to be.

See Me,

Talking to myself in public,

And dodging glances on the train.

I Know,

I Know they've all been talking bout me

I can hear them whisper

And it makes me think that there must be something wrong

With me.

 

Out of all the hours thinking,

Somehow,

I've lost my mind.

(CHORUS)

Talking in my sleep,

Pretty soon they'll come to get me

They'll be taking me away.

Cheated But...
It just doesn't feel right! I pay for lessons only to revise things that I've learnt last week? What's that all about! Lessons at this stage is supposed to be on a class by class syllabus instead of a 8 week syllabus! What's the point of paying just to revise everything you've learnt last week and only learning like 1 new step? Feel cheated!
 
I feel terribly short-changed. To the extent... For the second week in a row... I'm thinking of boycotting lessons. Don't waste my time and money please! If there ain't no competent instructor. Find someone competent! Not someone who can't teach for peanuts! You don't start teaching advanced classes right from the start! Start from the basics! Maybe you shouldn't teach at all if you can't. It's like doing a great disservice to the Lindy world. It stinks having a instructor that can't teach. I'm peeved. Really peeved. I'm sure I'm not the only one...
 
Having a crap lindy lesson obviously contributed to me having a really really bad giddy spell after lessons. Thank goodness, I brought my medicine for giddiness along for lessons. Felt the viens in my head were about to burst during that excruciatingly painful hour of crap lesson.
 
Shirlene bakes really well! Wanna marry her immediately after I ate her... Brownie Cake? I dunno what it is... But I absolutely love it! More please! Haha... And of course the Lao Po Bing that Jos and Gracie brought back all the way from the colourful land of Hong Kong was fantastic too! Never had such fantastic Lao Po Bing before! Brilliant! Good food always makes up for bad events that happened previously! After that we were happily snapping pictures of each other with all our cameras. Think we were going a little gaga already from all that flashin from our respective cameras!
 
Swing fling was really fun... It's really getting a lot fun these days. Dancing with more people, trying different weird moves that I've dreamed up of and picked up over time from watchin the floor. Hell, it's working up so much sweat these days that I have to change up! It's crazy dancin these days... aint gonna be perfect all the time but... who cares. Gotta have fun and yes of course... gotta do it right while I can. Screw up? Laugh it off and keep going! It's sad to know that some Lindy mates will be disappearing in a matter of time. I'm glad that they're chasing their dreams but at the same time, I realise I'm doing my detatching thing again. Shouldn't be doing that... Gotta make the best out of things while I can.
 
Life's short. Got to live it in the most exhilirating manner to make it count.
 
 

The Pregnant Monkey!
Triple steppin his way through the dance floor with his partner, the Monkey suddenly finds himself forced down to the floor and blindfolded. The last thing he felt was a hard "twack" to the back of his head.

When he awoke, it was all over. Lying in the dark alley behind the block where the studio is, he finds himself subject to a cruel freak experiment!!! His shirt was torn apart revealing a huge bulging tummy bearing fresh stitches across his abdomen. He knew he was cut up and something was inserted into him through his tummy... But what was it? Who did it? No one knows...

It was then that he had the sudden craving for Nasi Lemak from Changi Village, Turtle Soup from Geylang, Minced Pork Noodles from Bedok, Chilli Stingrays from Chomp Chomp, Pratas from Tampines and Sour Plums from his favourite Mama Store! This isn't natural at all! Something's seriously wrong...

But before he could even stand up... the juices from within started working up and shot a half-digested mixture of banana, cornflakes, nuts and milk up his gullet and throught his mouth and nostrils!!!

As he struggled to get over the shock of barfing all over himself, the Monkey thought to himself, "This is a real shitty day."

Never did he know that this was only the beginning of an experience that he would never forget.

Puberty Once More?
It just ain't fair! The outbreaks are getting a lot worse! It's spreading!!! Arrrrgh~ Can't stop it. And it's not helping that I'm having a fucking bloody dizzy spell. And I feel like puking. No! I'm definitely not pregnant. Gen and Mich... You Girls... Tsk tsk... Making fun of my plight. Oh well...

Pimple Outbreaks + Erratic Eating Sprees = Puberty Once More?

Not the hormonal rubbish again eh? I don't see myself getting any taller or bigger in build. What's going on?! Anyone knows what's going on? *Ack!*

Oh fuck, feeling dizzy again... Gotta stop...

*Faints*

*Snowflakes fall from the skies once more...*

Another Lindy-Related PostingI'm burnt out. Just tired I think. Was dancing the night away during swing fling that I think I hardly took a decent break. Want to loaf the day away in the office now, staring at my lovely Mac monitor and playing the nice MP3s that I've got stored in my hard disk.

Thursdays are always the best days of my week. And I'm sure everybody knows why by now. Glad to have a close group of friends that's always there to swing the night away with. A bunch of equally wacky personalities that's able to crack ridiculously silly jokes time after time. Oh I love my Lindy mates. Hehe~

Seriously considering attending L3 after yesterday's lessons. Guess I'll still probably carry on and learn more. *Grumbles...* Why ain't Sing teaching? *Grumbles even more...* Now I'm stuck with ...... for 6 more weeks before a new change.

Oh well... I dunno.

Crazy Days
Here are some of the things that happened over the past 72 hours.

Shifting Of Office (Carried Loads, Aching All Over)
Throwing Of Tantrums (......)
Skipped Dinner (No Appetite, No Idea Why)
Felt A Sense Of Loss (Change, Change, Change?)
Sharing Crazy Skate Scooting Intentions With Iggy (Wanna Skate Scoot Down The Hill?)
Beautified Working Area (Love My Work Space!)
Shopped For Clothes (Astro Boy Tee! Here I Come! After I Get Paid, That Is...)
Read In The Library (Will Go There More Often)
Celebrated Friend's Birthday (Could Have Been Better...)
Ate A Sushi Buffet (Never again... Bad Food @ Colours By The Bay)
Swung @ Harry's Till 2am (Great Music + Atmosphere, Rather Cramped Though, Danced Till We Were All Hot...)
Swung @ Jeannine's Till 7am (Great Place, Great Music, Great Host, Great Company, Great Times... Nuff Said)
Yoga + Pilates Introduction (Streeetcccch! Inhale, Exhale, Suck In Tummy! Haha!)
Prata At River Valley (Good Variety Of Prata, Teh-Tarik + Ice Milo, Dis-oriented Friends, Exhausted Minds)
Bus Ride Home (Slept, Awoke, Changed Bus, Slept Awoke, Home... Have No Idea How I Managed To Wake Up At All The Right Stops. Gotta Thank My Guardian Angel For Watching Over Me! :))
Beauty Sleep (ZzzZzzz...)
Awoke (6 Hours Of Sleep Ain't Enuff)

I'm Living The Vida Loca!

I'm BBC - Bruised, Battered & Confused
The last 7 days have whizzed right by in the blink of an eye. This week has been totally dominated by Lindy events! 4 out of 7 days, I've been involved in some kinda event that's related to Lindy. Ever since the day I've picked up this mind blowing performance art-form, my world has been kind of been revolving triple-steps, inside turns, jockeys and charlestons. But never before have I crammed so much Lindy activities within 7 days though. So far, it's been pretty much like hitching a ride in a twister that's been set loose by Mother Nature. 4 months and 8 days of Lindy so far... And I'm still loving it! Interest has evolved into Passion. It seems that I'm almost living just for the sake of Lindying now. Of course, I'm exaggerating. But right now, I can't seem to reject anything that's Lindy related. I wonder why. Will I be burnt out soon? Let's hope that never happens alright? *chuckles*

Let's try to summarise what I've felt this entire week starting from the Lindy event on Sunday. Was actually praised by a senior hopper who thinks that I'm doing a fine job on the floor. *Surprise, Surprise* I'm surprised that I'm being watched. Being a naturally paranoid and insecure person, I'm shocked that someone actually notices! Guess I seem to be doing okay and not looking as gross as I think I am then. *chuckles* Still got a long, long way to go still towards achieving greatness though. Haha... As if! So knuckle down and get those basics right! Eyes are watching... But it ain't gonna get to me. Although enjoyment is still the main priority, you still can't compromise on the technical side of things. *Hmm... but of course, there's got to be a healthy balance of both*

Lindied on Mandy's last night on Monday too. Learnt quite a bit bout keeping control during fast turns. Low CG + balance required. *tough*

Thursday's the first Lindy 3 lesson. Learnt a mini routine. 6 counts of eights. Lindy turn, Texas Tommy, kickouts, Swing out/Catapult and Lindy turn. Tough! But managed to scrape through... but almost got a broken nose from a spinning elbow from Nicole. Got my titanium reinforced nose to thank once more. Otherwise I would have been knocked out cold in the dance floor. That'll give a whole new meaning to "Blood on The Dancefloor"! Anyway, I had fun flinging on the floor later on that night. Seems that I'm easily drenched in sweat these days. Think I'm committing a lot more energy into swinging now that it's clearly putting a strain on me.

My thighs and hamstrings are feeling very tight... must be due to excessive charlestons! Dun care, still gonna dance tomorrow at Harry's. My back's aching, my arms are bruised, my legs are heavy... all due the moving of furniture from the old office to the new office. Should be seriously sleeping now. But I ain't ZzzZzzz yet. Maybe later.

Tomorrow's a new day. We'll see what it brings! But at the moment, I'm still Bruised, Battered and Confused.

Lost
All week long, I've been plagued with this lingering feeling of loss from within. It seems like things are all coming to a very certain close. Or could this be the new dawn I've been long awaiting for? A new change of direction in life perhaps?

The vibes are strong and the mind is weak. People that used to be close are drifting farther away. People that I've hardly known have all of a sudden has started to leave a certain imprint on my life. I've started to loathe the things I've used to like and have since picked up new ways to amuse myself. This is change. Change could be good... or bad. Change means letting go and opening up. Change is necessary.

I wonder where am I heading towards this time. But one thing's for sure, I'm feeling lost at this moment now.