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False Alarm

Yesterday received a phone call, saying popo is having difficulties in breathing, and might just "go" anytime. So, gonggong asked everyone to go down "jian ta zhui hou yi mian".

As it is already midnight, so no choice, cab is the only transportation available. When I reached there, it is about 1.45am and all other family members are present. Everyone look very normal and stable, so my emotion is still able kept under control... Nurse said that they have help popo to inject morphine which will help her to relief the pain. And the morphine will only last till 2.30am.

At that moment, everyone rotate to talk to popo and asking her not to think too much. By the time for my turn to speak, i am thinking of not to cry. Popo already quite old so no point living in such a painful state, prolong the life will only make her condition more worst i think. In the end, i speak till halfway, my tears rolled down again (Arghhh!!! Zhen shi ge ai ku gui....).

time passes, everyone was quite tired. Most need to work the next day, and me which is still schooling have tutorials to attend

3am....


3.30am....


4am....


the morphine in popo's body should have already been used up.


But somehow, not sure what chemical effects happened, popo in the end is fall asleep instead of "going". some aunt was like -_____-"'. popo is not passing away, but all was like telling popo "Bu yao dan xing, ni hao hao de shang lu..."



these is really a false alarm and like some sort of rehearsal... another incident that shows i'm really a Ai Ku Gui...

Egg mayo!!! wait for me...

A few days ago, I've manage to chat with Aloy through MSN... We exchange ideas on the further studies issues... and not forgetting our memorable poly days...

I really miss my poly days a lot... I miss my friends, my team mates, my "family", my food and a lot more... although during those days I do get stressed up by the project datelines, get fumed up by some weird people, get upset by some of the wrong moves I've made, but somehow those are the days that have let me open up more...

Aloy says there is a Grinning Gecko outlet in NUS, unfortunately he did not get the chance to eat it... Initially when he started talking about it, I get it messed up with Spash n Deco... I shall now introduce what these shops sells...

Grinning Gecko offer much like a western food and a variety of food, but most of the time I will order Veggie wrap since that is one of my few suitable selections...

On the other hand, Spash n Decco (next to mac) sells mostly bakery stuff. What i like best from them is the egg mayo sandwich toast that they offer. The bread is toasted and in it there will be a thick layer of egg n mayo with fresh lettuce. Unlike some other shops that i have patronize, they are so stingy with the ingredient. What the point of selling this product when you only give the customer a small amount of egg mayo (which is the attraction). at spash n deco, with only $2.30 u can have such such a SHIOK feeling... ahhhhhh~ i miss them...

Well besides the food, I miss the library too. Haha, unbelievable! Most of the time, our group will went here for discussion, doing tutorials and dis-stress. And that was also the time when we have silly thinkings...

How I wish doreamon can be with me. In this way I can enter the Ren Yi Men or maybe doreamon can help me think of solutions to solve my problems too...

Not happy at all

School have been started for around 3 weeks, but I did not really have any good experience at all. Sometimes I'm really lost when following what the lecturers are explaining... and since i'm those easily distracted person, i'm really affected by those sudden opening of doors by some trying to get to the restroom... the other problem in school is.... argGhhhHHh~ getting to know people... I just don't understand why is it so difficult for me to know people... Most of the time i actually wanna get to know some of them, but it just so difficult to let those words flow out from my mouth... Just like my mom says: "I'm born to be Diao Qi Lai Mai" haha...


well, think partly of the reason is because last time i have slow puberty.... well imagine a sec 2 guy with height of 170++cm still have a tone of a kid(sounds like girl) talking to you... some might find i'm funny and some will find i'm weird... and those were the days i started to be afraid of talking, as i'm afraid of what others might think of me... i think i'm still able to have the "ELMO" tone is because of slow puberty too...haha~


till now, i sometimes still have a phobia to talking to strangers... this time really hope those angels, god or buddha can give me a helping hand to cross this barrier, or else people might find me arrogant... hai~